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It was very difficult to take a taxi at this hour. When Li Bai arrived in Zhongguancun, it was almost three o'clock in the morning.Qidi Science and Technology Building, the fifth floor, after getting out of the elevator and turning two right angles, Yang Jian's studio is still bright.

The company name of the previous tenant was still hung on the glass door, and there was a blank piece of paper on the door, with four big bold characters printed on it: 3T Microelectronics, and a line of phone numbers written by hand.This is the signboard that Yang Jian and the others made for themselves. It has been pasted here for more than a year since graduation.

Knowing that Li Bai was coming, the door was unlocked, so Li Bai walked lightly into the three-room studio.The house is packed with things, a small kitchen and reception room, the lights are bright, the pot on the induction cooker has not been washed, and the product brochure of the studio is covered with a bowl of cold instant noodles, it seems that someone forgot Eat, potatoes and radishes are piled up in one corner of the room, and half-person-height printing materials are piled up in the other corner; a smaller lounge can only accommodate a mattress, the lamp is fixed to the wall with an iron frame, and the bed The two laptops in the corner of the mat are still not closed and are charging, and there are two figures wrapped in the quilt, snoring one after another; and Yang Jian is sitting in front of the desk in the innermost and largest work room, covered A thick down jacket dozed off with his head down.

The screen of the desktop computer is still on, and it is the only light source in the room at present. The screen is covered with densely packed integrated circuit diagrams, which seem to be a precision chip, and the rising lion in the lower right corner is also asleep.Li Bai carefully stepped over a few drawings nailed to the foam floor, took the mug next to the mouse, and walked silently to the kitchen.The coffee was finished, and brown stains remained on the rim and bottom of the cup. He rinsed the cup several times and poured in the hot milk he had just bought at the convenience store downstairs.

When he returned to the workshop, Yang Jian was already awake, still holding his pockets, his eyes were brightly illuminated by the screen, and he was looking at him.

Li Bai closed the door and passed the milk.

"Stop crying?" Yang Jian raised his hand to pick it up, covered it in his pocket for a while, his fingertips were a little damp.

"Stop crying in the car," Li Bai leaned against the edge of the desk, "Brother, you've lost weight again."

"You can see that too."

"Yeah, I can tell by looking at the face."

Yang Jian smiled and drank half a glass of milk. He told Li Bai that you are the same.Then he tapped the keyboard and dragged the mouse, turned off the circuit interface and went to look at Li Bai again, "When will you be back?"

"Morning." Li Bai subconsciously said, and added, "Today."

"Yeah." Yang Jian nodded, and didn't ask Li Bai why he finished work two months early, just like on the phone.But Li Bai explained to himself with a guilty conscience: "The landlord told me that the house was going to be demolished, and asked me to come back and pack things."

Only then did Yang Jian show a little surprise. As soon as he pressed the switch of the display screen, the light on his face dimmed, and the room was completely darkened.

"There are so many demolition words written on the wall, this time it is really going to be demolished." Li Bai knew that he was still looking at him, and heard him ask, "When do you want to remove it?"

"In the past two weeks, return the key to him before NO.20, and he will refund the rent for me."

Yang Jian stood up, accurately picked out a bunch of keys from the table full of sundries, and accurately grabbed Li Bai from the edge of the table, leading him across the blueprints on the ground, "Let's talk at dawn." He yawned .

The studio couldn't sleep, or in other words, Yang Jian didn't want Li Bai to be squeezed in there.The two were strolling around, looking for an hourly room, because it was too late, and it was not cost-effective to open a single room at the regular price because it was too late to lie down for half the night.Li Bai took off his military overcoat in the rented house earlier, wearing his best-looking and thinnest almond-colored short coat, walking on the streets late at night, but felt that Beijing was like a greenhouse compared to Altay.

He also suddenly understood the root of his sadness. At this time, this sadness still has not dissipated. It is wrinkled and full of apologetic sourness, which makes people want to hide once they come into contact with their thoughts—it is difficult to get through such a mess. The few days of discomfort were not a problem, it was the perception that "I was dishonest to Yang Jian" that disturbed his peace, as if he had lost his qualification to rely on those around him.

But it was still difficult for him to drive himself away from Yang Jian's shoulder, and it was difficult for him to pull out the fingers that were held together with Yang Jian in the pocket of the down jacket.

The two found a vacant room in an express hotel in front of the Forestry University, and when they took their room cards and entered the elevator, it was already past 03:30.Yang Jian asked Li Bai to go to bed first, and he said that he hadn't showered for three or four days, but Li Bai said "me too", stuck in front of him, and took off his clothes with him.

It was Li Bai who entered the bathroom with Yang Jian in his arms, and then Yang Jian hugged him horizontally and came out from that door.If it was summer, it would be almost dawn that day. Li Bai's back was rubbed red by the tiles, his hands supporting the wall were numb, and his legs were even weaker. , feeling those hairs, skins and bones in the dark, and drawing circles on Yang Jian's palm with his fingers, he talked about the mountains and meadows, birch forests and lakes, low-swelling clouds and star rivers in northern Xinjiang, as well as herdsmen, red deer, and frozen crew members. Hard steamed buns, he also said that the strong snow blowing over there gave him chilblains, and Yang Jian seldom answered words, just kissed the cracks on his face, and passed his palms through his body, it seems that there are still many places that need to be checked repeatedly .

Li Bai kept talking about himself until he fell asleep, and then had dreams he couldn't remember.

The next day I was woken up by the alarm, and it was still half an hour to ten o'clock, and their hour was coming.Yang Jian was still holding Li Bai, and pressed the phone, Li Bai vaguely felt the coolness of the quilt being lifted, and heard him say: "I'll go down and continue, you can lie down."

"Don't go." Li Bai suddenly woke up, but his body hadn't recovered from the madness a few hours ago. He was hugged on Yang Jian's body before he could get up and get dressed. Yang Jian tied the button, and he said, "It costs 60 yuan for two hours, why don't we go and have a meal."

Yang Jian smiled, "I might as well buy you a cake." He helped him put on the silver studs on the earlobes and the copper rings on the ear bones, which had been kept cold on the bedside table before, and were held by Yang Jian's fingertips When it was hung back on Li Bai's body, there was already warmth.

Li Bai can be sure that he is alive.

Even if they meet again, they still don't have much time to spend on each other.Li Bai returned to work at Dongfang Hairdressing, and Yang Jian spent every day with two graduates of the same grade from the Department of Microelectronics, working hard on product design. When he caught a relevant exchange meeting, he took samples and instruction manuals to sell and attract investment. , In addition, he also goes to teach high school students three times a week to maintain the cost of the studio.

Yang Yuqiu kept his promise, called Li Bai and invited him to eat Donglaishun boiled meat, but Li Bai refused.He still can't let go.Sometimes he would feel that Yang Jian must have seen his cover-up, and he could also sense some strangeness. As for why he didn't get to the bottom of it--Yang Jian was too tired, even if he was with him and was gentle with him, he still couldn't get rid of it. The fatigue that weighs on the body at any time.As for the real reason for his early return, Yang Jian didn't have time or energy to care about such a small matter, and it might be left behind within two days, which is also understandable.If he insisted on asking why, Yang Jian would definitely say, you have your privacy and freedom.

But if—Li Bai was thinking again—if Yang Jian was told that this matter was related to Yang Yuqiu, what would happen?Is it still a small thing?

Will you still give him privacy and freedom to let him go?

Li Bai didn't think about it any further, and told Dengdeng before he left in May that it's the same with work and relationships, don't be too serious about what you do, or you'll just ask for trouble, seems to be very worried about him, but also seems very The truth, let Li Bai remember it from time to time, and remind himself again.

Before NO.20, Li Bai returned the keys to the rental house and moved his belongings to Yang Jian's studio for temporary storage.In the taxi, he was still regretting not renting a camera to take a few photos of the hut he had stayed in for nearly five years, the water room, and the scenery he could see from the window—in the past, Yang Jian Before graduation, I often stood in front of the window with him and looked out. Behind the half-destroyed ruins was the viaduct, behind the viaduct was the smoking factory, behind the factory was the setting sun, or the ever-grey sky.Regardless of spring, summer, autumn and winter, the world seen from this angle seems to be as desolate as withered grass in the cracks of bricks, but Li Bai thinks this is a beautiful scenery.

Will miss it in the future.

If you don't have a picture, you can only close your eyes and think about it.

Yang Jian was not there when he arrived that day, but the other two in the studio were enthusiastic and helped Li Bai make room for him to put his things next to the woven bag of potatoes in the kitchen.In fact, there is not much room at all. After so many years, all of Li Bai's belongings can still be packed in one box, and it is still that old box.He also learned to save the money he once hid under the bed in the bank.Li Bai also bought a sponge sleeping mat, rolled it up during the day and rolled it out at night, so he could spend the night in the corridor.

After packing up, he was about to leave. Before leaving, he said that he would find a house to rent as soon as possible. During the period of renting, he would come back to cook when he had time. The two future roommates insisted on keeping him for a cup of instant coffee.One of them wears black-rimmed glasses, the other wears frameless glasses, chatting with Li Bai about the past.They are all old friends who won awards across the country for innovative projects with Yang Jian. When they first graduated, the three of them saved such a studio. The era of making a fortune.

The name 3T was the idea of ​​the black-rimmed glasses. He thought it meant that each of the three of them had brains as big as a T, but the frameless glasses felt unlucky. He said that in the movie called "The Lord" There is a 3T company, run by Zhang Guoli, Ge You and Liang Tianyan. Three young men with no talent, no virtue and no job opened Jianbao Company, which means to solve problems, relieve boredom, and suffer for others. They don't do serious things all day long.He didn't want to live his life as black humor.

As for Yang Jian - Li Bai remembered that he had mentioned this to himself before, but he never cared about the name of the studio.

The black-rimmed glasses also said that he wanted to go to graduate school, and the rimless glasses said that he would have to go back to his hometown to find a job and get married in a year and a half, otherwise the time would be wasted. Shame on Peking University.

Li Bai couldn't figure out what the two high-achieving students were talking about with him about the meaning of life, so he asked, "Have you talked with Yang Jian?"

"Not yet," the two looked at each other, "It was agreed at the beginning that we would start a business together... But now, there are really products and ideas, but Zhongguancun has more opportunities and more people competing for opportunities. If you are unlucky and others can’t see you, then you just can’t invest in production without investment. This is an endless loop. Lao Yang is very tough, and he can’t give up no matter how hard he hammers. Sometimes we can’t keep up.”

Well, Li Bai understands, this is a cultural person thinking of affection, afraid of embarrassment, and wants to let himself be the mouthpiece.

He recounted what he saw and heard on the phone, paying attention to his wording not to make Yang Jian feel bad, but he was also afraid that some key information would be left out to him.Yang Jian was distributing leaflets to people at a science and technology exhibition, and he was not shocked at all after listening to him talk for a long time. He smiled and told him that thinking about how life ends is a question for middle-aged people. Not yet 25 years old.

Li Bai was relieved all of a sudden, thinking, even if you are over 35, you will not look like a middle-aged person.

The days went on like this, and the four of them squeezed into the small grid between square inches. Although it was crowded, it was also harmonious.However, there are no windows in the three rooms of the studio, and Xiao Hui is bored in the core of the building, unable to see the blue sky, feeling a little depressed every day.Li Bai secretly made up his mind that if he didn't find a suitable place to live again years ago, he would have to try to release him again.Once in the middle of the night, he went to

It chatted and wanted to ask what it thought, but the owl turned its head cooing, but couldn't ask why, but was bumped into by Yang Jian who got up to drink water.

Li Bai immediately fell silent, while Yang Jian stared at him and was also very quiet. The two of them looked at each other under the dim light. They froze for a while, and then they went back to their respective corners to sleep.

To Li Bai's surprise, on the eve of New Year's Day, Yang Jian changed his usual efficiency first and spent time and effort doing an incredible thing.

It was not time to get off work that day, and the red Yamaha suddenly braked outside the glass door with a "stab" and roared like an anger. Li Bai had no work to do, so he pushed the door and ran out, his hand was immediately stuffed with a helmet.The man didn't even give him time to go back to the house to put on his coat. He ran away after he was picked up, stopped at a red light after passing a few intersections, took off his jacket, and threw it in front of him with his backhand.Li Bai was only wearing a crew-neck sweater, and his teeth were chattering from the cold. He reached out to catch it in a panic, and before he could react, the green light came on, and the two of them entered the loop.Facing the gust of wind, Li Bai put on the jacket upside down and put on the front. In fact, he only put on two sleeves. Then he hugged Yang Jian, which could wrap a little around the man's waist. He thought it was a way to keep both of them warm. , but in fact, after walking for a long time, both of them were taught a lesson by the weather. Li Bailu's fingers outside his cuffs were stiff, and Yang Jian must have been too, but he didn't stop. Yang Jian didn't stop, and Li Bai didn't want to. stop.

He already understood where this was going.More than an hour later, the two arrived at Shijingshan, next to the factory of Shougang Group, passing the ruins and bungalows on the viaduct.

"I asked the landlord," Yang Jian said. In order to let Li Bai hear clearly, he used his voice very loudly, "The demolition will start today, and it will be finished in one afternoon!"

"I asked too!" Li Bai replied loudly.

On the empty and straight road, they are high above, glanced at it from the corner of their eyes, and couldn't help turning their faces to look at it.Heavy machinery such as excavators and bulldozers has already gathered, as well as trucks, many, many vehicles, and many people wearing hard hats. It’s just a small piece of dilapidated houses, and it’s quite a posture of killing a chicken with a bull’s knife. .The equipment and people who have not yet entered the construction site are crowded on the road beside the ruins, so the road has been temporarily closed, and they cannot go down to approach, but can only watch from a distance from the ring road.

This section of elevated road is still too short, and parking is prohibited. Soon, even if Li Bai turned his head to the limit, he couldn’t see anything. Looking around, there are no newly built high-end residential areas, or the rapid bus line under construction. There is indeed no place. It allows them to stay for a moment to witness the process of the piece of junk being disassembled.

So Yang Jian got off the elevated road at the next intersection, made a U-turn on the ground, turned back, picked the nearest intersection and went up again, making a circle like this, so that he could drive across the road with a wide view again.

As if tireless, he just took Li Bai around over and over again, accumulating thousands of miles, but only changing one time for more than a minute.In the end, they did not miss the fall of the row of bungalows. Li Bai's hut was at the end, the first one to be knocked down in the row of houses. The bed, the iron rack that can be used to dry clothes or hang bacon, was razed to the ground in just a moment, and they were all smashed under the loud noise of the digging hammer, which was quite vague when heard from a distance.The disintegration of the small gray squares is also blurry in a large area of ​​gray, not as dazzling as the small orange-red grains on the workers' heads, but they slowed down as much as possible, passed by, looked at, and remembered them all.

This is the No.14 lap.

Li Bai was in a daze.

At the beginning of [-], he was alone and only used this place as a temporary hotel.

At the end of [-], there was Yang Jian who persistently brought him, driven by the wind and the car behind him, in a state of embarrassment and non-stop, bid farewell to the common nest.

Is this fate?Is this artificial?Doomed?Does he deserve it?Can he never let go?How come, really, there is a person who appeared in his garbage life and still hasn't left.Romanticism, English is Romanticism, Li Bai remembered the words that he often saw in the books Yang Jian brought him, and memorized them by rote. He felt beautiful and didn't want to forget them, but he just realized how this abstract concept can be applied to reality.

It is to abandon practicality and choose to go crazy, it is to have a headache in the freezing cold but the whole body is on fire, even to die now, no one cares, and their ghosts will applaud each other.Because now they were together, attracted by something distant and dead, and attracted to each other, obsessed, obsessed, whatever.The collapse of the hut is a common scar, just like what Li Bai thought of for the umpteenth time, cut two incisions, then shake hands, and wait for the wounds to grow together forever.Afterwards, they returned to the intersection that was no longer fresh, and there was no need to turn back again. Yang Jian stopped in front of a roasted chestnut shop with a smell of burnt sugar on the side of the street, looked back at Li Bai fixedly, and exhaled a large amount of white air. .

He said: "I found a house, move out and live with me."