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Wandering in the streets on rainy nights often gives people the illusion of being aimless. They walked in the direction of Shijingshan, and Li Bai had a premonition that he would meet the first train of a certain line at dawn before returning home.But the fact is not the case. When he got near Bagou, Yang Jian managed to stop a taxi and sat in the back row with him.

I reported the address, but the driver refused to play the meter, saying that the chairs would be soaked by them, and that it was not easy to go to the suburbs for work in heavy rain, and asked for 100 yuan for this trip without bargaining.Yang Jian agreed readily, but asked him to drive faster and told him "hard work".

Afterwards, Yang Jian leaned quietly on the car glass. Most of the time, the car was completely dark, and sometimes Li Bai could only see him drooping his eyelashes when he passed the street lights, as if he was asleep.

But Li Bai didn't doubt it, Yang Jian knew where he was looking.

So he broke the silence: "Do you want to leave?"

"Leave?" Yang Jian asked back.

"Tell my sister, don't be afraid, don't even dare to walk." Li Bai twisted the corner of his clothes, and all the water flowed onto his pants. "The three of us will go together and change to another place."

"I don't want to." Yang Jian didn't hesitate.

"Okay." Li Bai nodded. In fact, he doesn't care where he stays, but if he can escape to the moon, or some place where human beings are extinct, then he will definitely insist.

"Escape is endless," Yang Jian said without raising his head, but he seemed to understand his confusion, "It's like we are all here now, and we have traveled hundreds of thousands of miles, but the impact of the past Not at all. Unless you kill the root, it will always find you."

"Then let's kill Gao Jie." Li Bai blurted out.

He saw the driver's wary eyes in the rearview mirror, and heard Yang Jian laugh twice.

"Or we can call the police, investigate what he did, and make it public." Li Bai paused, "I'm just thinking, there's nothing we can do about it."

"I've thought about everything you think about. It's true that there's no other way," Yang Jian closed his eyes. His relaxation came too quickly, as if his sadness had disappeared, but he didn't give Li Bai a chance to ask questions. At the end of the day, Gao Jie took my sister and me to drink, and said that a guy like me should go to college and work for him directly. He also said that we had spent at least 100 million on the two of us over the years, and we owed him Yes. At that time, I thought he was a lion, and when I toasted him, I felt that life was worse than death. But then I suddenly understood after I woke up. I."

"Will he not be harassed if he pays back the money?" Li Bai couldn't believe it, 100 million... What an astronomical figure!It is also useless in all likelihood.He felt that Yang Jian was not sober now.

"Of course it doesn't mean that, but it's a fact that we spent his money to live to this day, and we should pay it back," Yang Jian said. "It's also a fact that he owed my sister. But if I have, I can give it to Gao Jie and say thank you for letting us go in the future, or I can spend the money to sue him, or hire someone to do everything he did to my sister on him, and then After killing him, whatever I choose becomes my freedom."

Li Bai half understood: "So, making money is the most important thing?"

"Money is also an abstract concept. It is more like a fortress than a weapon, or a way. It will help people automatically filter out a lot of troubles, just like those families with tens of thousands of troops don't have to send troops to fight against local hooligans every day," Yang Jian said with rare patience. He explained, "Soldiers in ancient times, knowledge and money today are just symbols that directly reflect social status. With the ability to fight back, others will of course regard you as an individual."

"But if people don't see me as a human being, I'm still human."

"There's no point in admitting to yourself."

Li Bai is still confused. He often feels that he is dust, and he seldom thinks there is anything wrong with being a dust. When he is bullied, he just runs away. There is always room for him. He remains ordinary safely. be noticed by anyone.But Yang Jian obviously doesn't think so, the "freedom" Yang Jian mentioned seems to deviate from what he thinks he already has.Is it because he hasn't tasted the despair that Yang Jian has tasted?Then, will a phoenix fly out of the dust?

These are not so important.

Li Bai moved his palms on the damp chair cushion, he knew that it would take only a few inches for him to touch the temperature of Yang Jian, that old right hand.This is enough.It has probably been vigorous and never discouraged.Will it become a burning wing feather one day?Countless dust also turned into orange sparks, which were vacated by it and danced around it.

"So, bro, we need to save money even more in the future," Li Bai said softly when his fingertips touched, "I'm already very poor, and I'm still far away from becoming rich."

"It's useless to save money blindly. If you don't live until the age of 60 to save enough money, your whole life will pass like that," Yang Jian stated. thing."

Li Bai looked sideways at the end of his eyes that were still raised when they were closed.

Almost at the same time, Yang Jian raised his eyelashes and looked at him intently.The overwhelming hatred just now, the pain that had to be shouted out, seemed to have all disappeared at a certain moment. There was only a kind of calmness in the eyes, and the sharpness of the lightning was no longer visible. Li Bai's mind emerged. In the desert, a gem polished by quicksand.

He held his breath, and for a moment he couldn't doubt whether the goal he just said was out of reach, but he just thought that Yang Jian who spoke like this was very handsome and good-looking.Is it frivolous?Is it idealism?In short, that kind of calm determination is so attractive, Li Bai even thinks that this is an extremely rare confession, Yang Jian kept his mouth shut for too long, he was the first one to be believed.In the past, Yang Jian's hard work of working day and night in a muffled voice was seen by him, and now it has come to fruition.Then even if it is an obsessed dream, Li Bai has to follow along to believe it.

After a few seconds, he felt that this matter could indeed be done, if it was Yang Jian.

Then he said: "I can also make money. With me, you can do it earlier."

But Yang Jian laughed again, lifted his chin, and stroked his half-dry temples with his thumb: "Just take care of yourself."

It was exactly the same as when I laughed at him "you are so stupid".

Maybe some of the conversations were too suspicious, the driver had lingering fears, refused to send them to the rental house, and wanted to get the two of them off at the nearby intersection.Yang Jian handed him a red note as promised, and followed Li Bai into the pile of half-demolished one-story houses on the open space.The torrential rain has subsided, and the sky is a bit dim. Li Bai knows the exact location of the bricks in the mud pit. Red mud.

Of course, you need to take a shower. There is a shower in the water room at the end of this row of bungalows, and the coin-operated billing system can be used for half an hour with a penny, but it takes a while to turn on the faucet for hot water.In the past, when Yang Jian stayed overnight, he and Li Bai would solve the problem of bathing together. On the one hand, the bathhouse was very busy and there were often queues. The two of them used alternately to save the trouble of turning the switch back and forth to wait for the water to heat up. On the other hand, of course, it was to use less water. .

But this time, Li Bai handed the water basin to Yang Jian and asked him to go first, and stayed in the house by himself, insisting on feeding Xiao Hui.

Yang Jian looked at his red face, then at the owl placed under the glass ceiling, and took the water basin.Until he left the room, Li Bai still couldn't recall anything strange from his expression, what he was sure of was that he must not look normal.He picked up a young mouse from the pile of sawdust and threw it into a birdcage that was half the height of a person. After a few short "squeaks", the writhing tender red ball was completely wiped out.

"You're starving." Li Bai put in two more, "I'm sorry, I haven't had a good time these two days."

This round-headed bird of prey devoured the first one, and the second one ate a little more gracefully. After that, it closed its small hooked mouth, hopped around in the cage, tilted its head, and ate the second one with bright yellow eyes. Looking at Li Bai with big eyes.

In the past two years, it lived in the dormitory of Peking University for a while, and was taken in by the old family home. The injury on its wings healed, and it grew up to be vigorous and strong. Yang Jian took it to the Summer Palace and released it to the Old Summer Palace. If you can find the last place you stayed, if you bring a small snake or mouse, you will not leave, even if you open the window, you will not fly up.

Later, Yang Jian brought it here all the way, not far from the West Mountain. Li Bai was there when he released the animals. They stepped on the pine needles and fallen leaves and dared not look back. They hoped that the woodland of Shijingshan could keep the great fairy. In the end, they didn’t. A few days later, the little bird flew over the chimneys and factories of Shougang, and stood on the roof of Li Bai.

Seeing the two yellow eyes reflecting in the night through the glass shed, the spatula in Li Bai's hand almost frightened him. He opened the door to greet him, and accepted the gift he had just passed away.

I don't know how it was found here, and I don't know why it is addicted to being with people as a wild animal. I can only say that the animal owl has some spirituality.

Since then, Li Bai has also become a frequent visitor to the flower, bird, fish and insect market. He only buys earthworms, freeze-dried geckos and newborn mice, and this owl has become the living creature that keeps him company for the longest time after work.

"It won't rain tomorrow, let's put you outside to bask in the sun." He smiled at Xiao Hui again, took out a bag of seaweed, two eggs, and two packets of instant wonton seasoning packets, opened the door, and opened the door. After lighting the small coal stove, he took Yang Jian's Liqun cigarettes out of his trouser pocket and baked them with his wet clothes.When Yang Jian returned to the house, he had already cooked two bowls of dried noodles.

The eggs were basically in one of the bowls.

Yang Jian didn't wear a shirt because the shirt Li Bai brought him was too small. He shook the bath towel and asked Li Bai if he had a bigger one, but Li Bai said "It's all in the closet, you can look it up yourself", and then served Put on the big basin and pull on the slippers and run.

Inexplicable, inexplicable!Running through the long corridor, Li Bai scolded himself.

But what happened next in the water room was even more unbelievable. Thinking of who was standing here flushing the water just now, and the scent of the soap that was still warm... It was obviously nothing special, it smelled the same as the one I was smearing, But it is precisely because of the same that it is more deadly.Young cut.He is thin, but his muscles are angular.His untanned skin was very fair, with a distinct line on his upper arms.There is still a scar on his left blade, half a palm long, I don't know the reason, but I have noticed it for a long time... Those images just linger, Li Bai lowered his head, stared straight at his own reaction, feeling a little bit of pain. Extremely at a loss, chest tightness from the steam, still didn't want to leave for a while.

But he did it in the end, with a certain guilt that he had to pack himself up before getting dressed and going out.When he returned to the house, he found that things seemed to be much easier to face than he had imagined. He was still able to look at Yang Jian without any resistance when looking at others, and Yang Jian was wearing his T-shirt, which was just ordinary. Sitting cross-legged on the edge of the bed, on the small folding table, flipping through a Reader's Digest.The box of half-dried cigarettes was at hand, and the tails of each cigarette were burned, and they were placed on the cigarette box.It seems that the wet cigarettes can't be smoked after drying.

"You still like to draw lines when you read magazines." Yang Jian said.

"Because I think it's well written," Li Bai closed the door, locked it, and walked up to him, "I can't understand the more advanced ones."

"I'll bring you some books next time."

"Don't bring too difficult ones." Li Bai paused, "Why don't you eat eggs?"

"I don't want to eat it. You didn't put salt in it." Yang Jian put down the magazine, consciously lay down on the inside of the single bed, pulled a small piece of quilt to cover it, and was about to sleep against the wall.Every time he lies in this position, in this posture.Li Bai sat on the edge of the bed where he had been sitting just now, silently ate half of the bowl of noodles covered with eggs, then silently turned off the light, and then ate the other half.

Obviously salty.

He vaguely felt that Yang Jian was not asleep.

He was all too familiar with the feeling of being exhausted but unable to sleep.

The sky outside the window is gray-blue, and so is the ball on the ceiling. The thin morning light shines on the few pieces of second-hand furniture, filling the room like a pool of water.

"Brother, do you remember?" Li Bai took a sip of the half-cold soup, and suddenly said, "I was depressed for a while when I was working, because those colleagues, whether they were leaders or apprentices who washed their hair, said I was an old hat Some customers said so, thinking that I would cut them very dirty. Then I told you, you took me to buy clothes, we bought a white T-shirt, light blue jeans, you said I was so refreshing Cool is beautiful."

"Then the salary was paid in the second month, and I went to buy clothes again. The remaining money was only enough to buy one type, so I bought another white T-shirt, and next month, I bought another pair of jeans."

Yang edited: "So I just went through your wardrobe, and it's full of white T-shirts and blue jeans."

Li Bai lowered his eyes and smiled: "I also think I am refreshing and pretty."

After a while of silence, Li Bai finished eating the noodles, put two empty bowls on the window sill, and sat back on the edge of the bed. He looked at Yang Jian's back more and more clearly, and said, "I really want to eat skewers."

"Wake up and go."

"Okay, how about I treat you to noodles with fried sauce? Just go to the vegetable market. I just remembered that once I was eating skewers with Luo Pingan and the others at Yuyuantan, and a group of them came over while eating. People are arguing with Luo Ping'an, you see it's about to fight, so let me hold all the wallets, keys and mobile phones of everyone on the table, stand in the tree pit, a group of them stand in front of me and fight, and you are inside, You are the one who beats the most, obviously it has nothing to do with you, just like this, Luo Pingan still said every day that you forgot your brother after passing the Peking University exam. The most annoying thing is that you are surrounded in the middle, and I am still old with a neck It’s because I can’t see you. Can you let me go in and fight with you next time?”

"Then you have to make sure you don't make yourself missing arms and legs."

Li Bai was happy, fell into the small bed, rolled behind Yang Jian and lay on his side, "Luo Ping'an also said, you have been a big brother since you were a child, and you have a bayonet left by the Japanese attacking the city. The gangsters in the village chased you from Dongsishitiao to the Lama Temple, and later you skipped classes and left early, and your school security did not dare to stop you, is this true?"

Yang Jian patted the wall and laughed.

Li Bai's goal has also been achieved. He sniffed and said to himself: "When I feel bad, I will think about these things, one by one... I still have a lot, I can talk about it all night, you Feeling better?"

"Well, go to sleep."

But Li Bai suddenly felt unwilling, which made him wrinkled and bitter from the bottom of his heart, Yang Jian didn't want to hear it anymore, he didn't know what else to say, but his nose arched behind Yang Jian's blade.Through a layer of fabric, he also knew where the wound was and how long it was. It wasn't an act of the brain, so it couldn't be said to be controlled at all. He just put his forehead against Yang Jian's stiff back and smelled the wound that belonged to him. The smell of soap, on the scar, with the tip of his warm nose, from the beginning to the end, simply rubbing it.

He could also hear the flapping of an owl behind him, which made Li Bai feel that he had grown wings.

"It doesn't hurt anymore," he said.

"How did you stay?" he asked again.

"I don't remember." Yang Jian still didn't avoid it.

This became the most crystal clear few seconds in Li Bai's life, giving him the strength to say, brother, I want to hug you to sleep.But before Yang Jian could answer, what interrupted everything was the ringtone of the mobile phone.Yang Jian took out the flickering small cube from the gap between the wall and the pillow, pressed the switch and placed it next to his ear, then fell silent.

"Where are you?" It was too quiet and too close, Li Bai could hear You Lili's voice.

"Have you gone home?" Yang Jian asked.

"Oh, you still know how to care about me," You Lili was still aggressive, she had never been like this before, but once tonight started, it seemed like she couldn't stop, "Going to your brother again? What's the matter, stay for two hours You're still shocked, aren't you afraid to sleep alone?"

Li Bai pinched the skin on his wrist.

Yang Jian also hung up the phone at this time, turned it off, and threw it beside the pillow.

Then he turned around, skillfully pushed away Li Bai's hand that was doing the suspected self-harm, looked at him and said, "Hug face to face, do you still dare?"

Li Bai was stunned, why would Yang Jian ask such a question, this was a question he had never thought about, and now that it was in front of him, he really felt timid.Too much.He only wanted a little bit.But he was soaked in Yang Jian's deep and shallow gaze, as if surrounded by morning fog, he was sleepwalking, and he didn't have to wake up, like a rabbit that had escaped the aim of the gun forever, he nodded and said dare.

After speaking, he hugged her, his forehead resting on his collarbone, and his breath buried in his chest.He had this pair of arms before, but now it was on the bed.What made his soul go out of his body even more was that Yang Jian immediately hugged him back, and soon fell asleep like a child, only one heart was not tired, and it seemed to be stuffed to him alive, boom, boom, the one who accompanied him beating in the dawn.