I am not worthy

The spectators around suddenly felt that what he said was too much, and they all spoke out to persuade him.

But Huo Yi, who was originally deaf, was stunned when he heard the last sentence, and he didn't take a sip of the wine brought to his mouth for a long time.

——People like him won't fall in love with him. If you fall in love with him, you are blind and you will leave in the end?

Could it be that Bai Yan fell in love with him before because he didn't recognize his true face, and later realized what kind of person he was, so he made up his mind to leave him.

Is that right?

Huo Yi closed his eyes, raised his head and gulped it down.

The wine was already bitter, but now it was so bitter that Huo Yi's eyes turned red.Although he wasn't crying, his expression was more sad than crying.

This is the first time in his life that he has tasted failure, helpless, and there is no way to save him.But at this time in the bar, drinking bitter wine alone, suffering so much that he couldn't control himself, he really felt how deep the despair he had brought to Bai Yan back then.

——That is a kind of despair that cannot be redeemed even if the world is turned upside down.

Huo Yi passed out drunk at the bar. The owner of the bar had no way of contacting anyone Huo Yi knew, so he let him sleep on the sofa all night.After waking up the next day, Huo Yi felt a splitting headache, and this pain made him very conscious.

She clearly remembered that he and Bai Yan had divorced, and Bai Yan had left him.

Huo Yi was not in the mood to go to work at all, he drove to the high school that he and Bai Yan had attended together.At school, Bai Yan had a crush on him, but he didn't know Bai Yan yet, and didn't know such a person existed.

Now it is the holiday time, there are no students in the school, Huo Yi took a little effort to enter the school.

Several years have passed, and the school has not changed much.Huo Yi knew which class he was in from Bai Yan's diary, so he easily found Bai Yan's classroom.

Huo Yi searched row after row of seats, and found the seat that Bai Yan had sat in back then. Huo Yi sat on the seat that Bai Yan had sat in back then, as if he saw the boy who was silently watching him behind him.

Bai Yan just sits here to attend lectures and study, this seat is by the window, away from the corridor, it is a quiet place suitable for studying, with Bai Yan's character, this seat is just right for him.

Looking around subconsciously, Huo Yi discovered that the teaching building opposite was where he had attended classes back then.Looking from this position, you can just see his seat.

Huo Yi's heart moved, did Bai Yan realize this back then?If found, does he often sit here and watch him?

Why didn't he know Bai Yan earlier?

Obviously I had helped him casually back then, so why didn't I get to know him further.If he had known Bai Yan earlier, would he have fallen in love with Bai Yan earlier, and the ending of the two of them would not be like today?

The more he thought about it, the more regretful he became, Huo Yi punched the wall hard.Suddenly he paused, and he seemed to see something out of the corner of his eye. He turned his eyes and searched carefully on the wall. Sure enough, he saw it, and then he was stunned.

It was a name carved on the wall.

—— Huo Yi.

his name.

Huo Yi lightly traced the notch on the wall with his finger, the handwriting was very familiar to him, it was the handwriting in Bai Yan's diary.

——This is what Bai Yan inscribed, his name.

Suddenly, Huo Yi felt sad, he couldn't restrain his sadness, and fell down on the desk where Bai Yan used to sit.He buried his head in his arms and didn't lift it up for a long, long time.

After leaving school, Huo Yi suddenly regained his strength as if he had changed himself.He called Zhao Ju and asked him about Bai Yan's recent situation - since Bai Yan left his place, he had no way of knowing what Bai Yan was doing.Fortunately, Bai Yan would report his mental state to Zhao Ju on a regular basis, so that if something went wrong, Zhao Ju could give him guidance at any time and consolidate his mental health.

Zhao Ju knew the relationship between Huo Yi and Bai Yan very well, and even the divorce of the two could be said to be caused by him alone. Of course, Huo Yi couldn't blame him at all.

Zhao Ju was reluctant to disclose Bai Yan's situation at first, but Huo Yi pleaded repeatedly, and said that he would be measured and would never force Bai Yan to do anything.

"I just suddenly understood that it is impossible for me to let go, and I want to chase him back."

After hearing Huo Yi's words, Zhao Ju fell silent, with his friend on one side and his patient on the other.But he knew Huo Yi well, and being able to say these words showed that he really hated Bai Yan deeply.

"Bai Yan wants to go to country M to see Maple Leaf. After experiencing these things, he said that he understands a lot, and now he wants to find a dream that is not attached to anyone, that belongs to him, and live his own life."

Huo Yi was happy for Bai Yan when he heard it, and was very proud of him.

And Bai Yan can have the courage to start his life again, he has no reason to give up like this.No matter what Bai Yan's dream is, he must have himself in his future life plan.

Huo Yi's eyes were determined to win, and after making up his mind, his heart, which had never been settled, also settled down.