The school grass said I was scum to him

"Are you okay?" A crisp female voice rang out.

Li Yue approached Yan Qi slowly, she handed Yan Qi a wet tissue and said, "Where did you get hurt? Do you want me to call a doctor for you?"

Yan Qi lay on the steps, looking at the lonely moon in the dark night sky: "No need."

There was a hint of irritability in his voice.

Li Yue squatted down on the steps next to Yan Qi, "Don't blame Xu Changpu, if it were me, I would also find people like you very annoying, you are no different from a stalker."

Yan Qi tilted his head to look at Li Yue, and laughed jokingly: "Do you like him?"

Since that incident happened when he was a child, he couldn't face the society, couldn't face the crowd, hated others touching him, and gradually isolated himself from the society. In his subconscious, people's feelings are simply divided into two types, like and dislike. like.

Hearing this sentence, Li Yue coughed several times and said, "Don't talk nonsense, it's just that he helped me. Before that, no one has ever helped me. I am very grateful to him. I am also grateful for what happened tonight." You, if it weren't for you, I don't know what would happen to me, I would be grateful for my specialties."

Yan Qi laughed wantonly and said: "You are stupid, what is so proud of being stupid?"

Li Yue argued: "Gratefulness is the most basic moral quality. Why are you targeting Xu Changpu? He is really nice. He never tires of explaining math problems to me."

Yan Qi didn't want to talk so much with a stranger.

Li Yue said: "But I think you are more talkative than him. He basically doesn't like to talk. No matter how I try to talk to him, he just says 'hmm' or 'Oh', and usually jumps out a few words. , you both feel the same, but you are much easier to talk to than him."

Yan Qi smiled when he heard this sentence.

Li Yue thought Yan Qi didn't believe it: "Really. Why do you always target him?"

"Probably..." Yan Qi thought about it and said, "I probably hate myself."

He hated Yan Su subconsciously, and later he felt that Xu Changpu was the same kind of person as him, but why did everyone get happiness and liberation, but he didn't?

He was very dissatisfied in his heart.

"Why do you hate yourself for targeting him?" Li Yue asked curiously.

"Because when I was very young, because of my brother's playfulness, I had a psychological shadow. From then on, I couldn't face my brother. I wanted to destroy anything he liked. Later, I found out that his A certain thing is a little like me, I can't do it to myself, I can only do it to that thing. So, this world is unfair, why can everyone get rid of the past, but I don't?"

"Of course it's not fair between people. I study hard for such a little scholarship, but there are some girls in our class who give a random birthday party, which is many times my scholarship. It's the money I have to send a hundred times of Liangpi. You Look, I am at the same table as Xu Changpu, he has gifts every day, and me, I have never had a decent head flower in Dalian since I was a child... What can I do if it is unfair? I can only work hard to change it, in fact, I think you It is necessary to live in the shadows all the time, you look rich and handsome, the world is so beautiful, why do you only see the shadows?"

"You haven't experienced it, of course you say so."

"Then have you ever experienced mine? Serving dishes in that alley full of fish and dragons every day, my clothes smell of sesame soy sauce and vinegar. I got a very serious illness, but my father is a drunkard and gambler. He spent the money for my treatment. Take it for gambling, and when you lose money, you will go home and beat me and my mother. My mother calls me a loser every day. Look at you, you are wearing a famous brand, and the gifts you throw away are thousands of dollars... ..."

Yan Qi felt that he was crazy, why did he listen to this little girl so much...

Li Yue smiled and continued: "Everyone has everyone's misfortune. I agree with Xu Changpu's words. You are not alone in the whole world. So I don't think it's scary to have shadows. What's scary is..."

"I killed someone..." Yan Qi originally wanted to bury this secret in his heart for the rest of his life, but he didn't tell anyone, just hid it like this for the rest of his life, until he took it to the grave after his death.

"Ah?" Li Yue was taken aback suddenly.

"A little girl of seven or eight years old, I dream every night that she is lying next to me bloody, staring at me with bloody eyes." Yan Qi said.

Li Yue suddenly didn't know what to say.

Yan Qi stood up and said, "You said you want hair flowers? What color do you like, I'll give you one."

"Pink." Li Yue said.

"Yeah." Yan Qi patted the ashes on his pants, and walked out of the alley.

Li Yue looked at the back of Yan Qi going away and said: "The street in front, at this point, is not very easy to take a taxi. The back street of our school is close to the No. [-] Middle School, so it is easy to take a taxi."

Yan didn't look back at first: "My driver is waiting for me in front. You should go back earlier."

Li Yue turned her head and walked away with an "Ah".

The room was lit by bright incandescent lamps. From the shoulder blades to the lower back of the boy, there were several purple and blue bruises from the fall. His left kneecap hit the ground. I don’t know if he pulled the ligament at the moment he knelt down. I couldn't move, and when I moved my joints and ligaments, I felt bursts of pain.

He took the medicinal wine and poured it on a clean towel, and then took the towel to wipe the bruises on his shoulder blades and back.

The pain is a bit painful, but over the years, I have gotten used to scratching myself, and it doesn't hurt that much anymore.

When Yan Su came back at night, Xu Changpu had already fallen asleep in bed.

Yan Su opened the door by himself.

As soon as he entered the room, he smelled a strong smell of medicinal liquor. He turned on the light in the room, and Xu Changpu curled up under the quilt. Maybe the light was too harsh, so he covered his eyes with his hands.

Yan Su hurriedly turned off the incandescent lamp, turned on the wall lamp, and asked, "What's wrong with you? Are you injured? Who did you fight with? Why does it smell like medicinal wine?"

Xu Changpu lay on his side, "It's okay, it's just that I didn't see the way clearly when I came back today, and I accidentally bumped into an electric donkey and fell."

Yan Su didn't believe it, and after Xu Changpu got used to the light, he turned on the incandescent lamp.

Xu Changpu was covered with a thin blanket, which he carefully lifted off.

Summer pajamas are loose cotton shorts, Xu Changpu is wearing a set of light gray short-sleeved shorts, his knees are exposed, the skin on his knees is torn, slightly swollen, and the joints are unnaturally red and swollen and protruding. I also often get injured while playing, which means that the ligament is contused.

The jacket was pulled up slightly, revealing a bruise on the side of the waist. He carefully reached out to lift up the jacket, gasped, and there were several purple bruises on the shoulder blades on his back.

"How did you fall like this?" Yan Su lost his voice and asked Xu Changpu, "Did you fall on the crater?"

Xu Changpu smiled and said, "I didn't see the way clearly, I fell down the steps, the impact was too strong, that's why I got hurt like this, it's really okay."

Yan Su said angrily: "Is it okay to be injured like this? You must not have gone to the hospital, are you f---ing made of iron? You don't know if your ribs are broken, but you dare to lie on the bed, you are stupid Yet?"

Cursing anxiously, he went to the closet to rummage through his clothes, found a loose coat and threw it to Xu Changpu, saying, "Let's go to the hospital to see, you fell too badly, so you can't rush."

Xu Changpu had nothing to do with Yan Su, he was often injured in the past, after the injury he applied medicinal wine himself, and he was alive and kicking again in a few days.

He felt that there was nothing wrong with him, so Yan Su insisted on dragging him to the hospital.

Yan Su squatted down beside the bed, motioning to carry Xu Changpu on his back, Xu Changpu was not pretentious, and put his hand on Yan Su's shoulder directly.

Yan Su locked the door behind Xu Changpu's back, and walked downstairs.

When he just got out of the elevator, Shao Ting called and asked, "Yan Su, have you arrived at Xueba's house? I kept asking you on WeChat if you were home, but if you didn't speak, I thought you Abducted by aliens."

It was inconvenient for Yan Su to answer the phone, so he said, "Here we are, take my little lover to the hospital now."

Shao Ting was puzzled: "Run to the hospital in the middle of the night, what's wrong, you're about to give birth?"

Xu Changpu: "..." He wanted to beat Yan Su to death on the spot.

Yan Su: "Get the red envelope ready, it's less than five thousand..."

There was a beeping sound on the phone, and the plastic brotherhood was clear at a glance.

After a while, Shao Ting called and said: "I asked my mother to help you hang up the number. You can go to the hospital and talk to my mother directly. Their hospital has a reporter from the urban area to interview. Where can I put her?" Pretend to be on duty. Just call her directly."

Yan Su: "Thank you."

Shao Ting: "Thank you? Your wife is my wife, and your baby is my baby. I have given you the number of Associate Academician Shao. The obstetrics and gynecology experts will be in charge, and the surgery department will check it out for you..."

Yan Su: "Okay, get the red envelope ready, and receive the gift when you leave the hospital..."

There's another beep-beep-beep-beep-beep sound, and it's almost heartless plastic bromance, which is how talking about money hurts feelings.

Xu Changpu went to the hospital, took a X-ray for examination, and found that a rib under the shoulder blade was broken and the ligament was severely strained. Shao Ting's mother helped him arrange a two-day hospitalization in the ward for observation.

Because of this incident, Yan Su scolded him like a dog, from ten o'clock in the evening to twelve o'clock, when he woke up in the morning, the first thing he said was "Are you stupid, you should call me at this time ..."

At the end of the scolding, he said, "If I hadn't asked you to come to the hospital, are you planning to just grit your teeth and pass the test?"

Xu Changpu's heart was warm, and he said unconsciously: "I'm used to it, you think everyone is like you, young master who is delicate and fleshy."

He has been like this since he was a child. He is used to rubbing some medicinal wine when he is injured. He rarely goes to the hospital, and at most he goes to a small clinic.

After hearing this, Yan Su felt very upset, and said with a dark face, "I will get rid of this bad habit in the future, and I will go to the hospital if I get injured. You are a f*cking young mistress, don't act like a street gangster every day. Injured, covered under the quilt, do you know what a wealthy family is? It means going to the most expensive hospital when you are sick, going to the most expensive beauty salon when you are not sick, and going to the arms of your favorite man whether you are sick or not Lie down... come, the man will hug you!"

Xu Changpu: "You can lie down in the arms of your adulterer."

Yan Suhan: "...Baby, do you have someone outside?"

Xu Changpu: "Stay away from death."

At the end, Xu Changpu looked at Yan Su, smiled and said, "I want to visit my brother on Monday."

Yan Su was slightly taken aback: "Huh?"

Didn't Calamus always hate his younger brother?Why do you want to see him on the weekend?

Xu Changpu looked at Yan Su and said firmly, "Because he was right."

He said this to Yan Su, and told Yan Su that he was right.

After so many years, he finally let go of the grievances in his heart, just like he sued Yan Su on behalf of Yan Su - he is innocent and has been hated by you for so many years for no reason.

At least in Xu Changpu's heart, Yan Su is innocent.

And his younger brother had the same position as Yan Su, and he was willing to compromise and admit his mistakes for Yan Su.

After Xu Changpu said this, Yan Su's body shook slightly, his broad shoulders slowly relaxed, he sat on the edge of Xu Changpu's hospital bed, took Xu Changpu's hand, and smiled: "You are willing to forgive him ?”

Xu Changpu smiled, shaking his head as calmly as water: "He didn't do anything wrong in the first place, it doesn't matter whether he forgives or not. But for me, after so many years, I don't need to hold on to it anymore. Look ahead."

Yan Su nodded and said, "Okay, then what does your brother like, I can go buy some gifts first, so that it won't be too abrupt to see him."

Xu Changpu shook his head: "I don't know what he likes, so just buy something."

On Monday, Yan Su accompanied Xu Changpu to Yan Yi's school. When Yan Yi saw his brother came to see him with a gift, he was stunned for a moment.

He shouted: "Brother, why are you here?"

Xu Changpu handed him the figurines that children like and said, "Just take a look."

Yan Yi happily took the gift and said excitedly, "Did you buy this? Is it for me?"

Xu Changpu: "Yes."

Yan Yihuan happily carried those figures to the class to show off, "My brother bought me xx figures, and also bought xx weapons..."

The children in the class let out exclamations one after another: "Wow... that's great..."

A child's world is always so simple, a small gift can make him jump for joy.

After Yan Yi showed off, he ran out and said to Xu Changpu: "Thank you brother, brother, where did you buy it? Mom bought it several times but failed."

Xu Changpu's indifference remained unchanged for many years: "Just get it, why are there so many nonsense."

Yan Yi was not disappointed by his brother's cold words, but eagerly unwrapped the gift.

Yan Su helped him unwrap the gift and said with a smile, "Your brother bought it online, and he stayed up all night to grab this gift."

Xu Changpu looked at Yan Su with suspicion in his eyes: Why did you lie to the children?Obviously you bought it from the official website.

When Yan Yi heard this, he looked at Xu Changpu gratefully: "Thank you brother, I like it so much, several of my classmates didn't buy it."

Xu Changpu said "hmm" and said, "I forgive you, so please forgive me."

He didn't blame Yan Yi anymore, and he didn't even blame anyone else. The fight between him and Yan Qi seemed like he completely overthrew his past self and completely rescued him from the whirlpool in his heart.

Let go of those unhappiness in childhood, let go of those self-pity and self-pity, let go of all the riddles of relatives... greet the distance with a brand new face!

After he finished speaking, he pushed Yan Su's shoulder, "Let's go, he's going to class."

Yan Su stood up and said, "There are too many presents, and we put a lot of snacks in your head teacher's office. You can ask your mother to remember to pick them up at night, you know?"

Yan Yi nodded: "Got it, brother goodbye."

The moment Xu Changpu walked out of the primary school gate, Xu Changpu felt extremely relaxed. Looking at the leaden sky, he didn't feel very resentful for so many years, so when he chose to let go, choose to forgive and be forgiven, he didn't feel much relief. , plain and light, but the mood is very relaxed.

From time to time, a few birds flew past in the leaden sky.

He smiled, "Let's go have a barbecue."

"Yeah, skipping class to eat barbecue with men, you've grown up, I'll report you to my old class tomorrow."

Xu Changpu chuckled: "Go, I will tell him that you are an accessory."

Afterwards, the principal offender and the accomplice met Lao Ban at a barbecue restaurant. Lao Ban asked for leave today to celebrate his daughter's birthday.

Yan Su and Xu Changpu's barbecues were on the table. On the glowing charcoal fire, there were seven or eight skewers of pork belly, four or five skewers of chicken feet, a box of desserts, some beef, and bacon rolls.

The old class looked at the two boys and said, "Have you two asked for leave?"

When he was talking, he sat down beside Xu Changpu, picked up the roasted pork belly, wrapped it in lettuce, took a bite and said, "Baby, you roasted it too burnt, your skill is really bad."

Xu Changpu smiled, pointed to the piece of pork belly in front of the old class, and said, "This one is not burnt."

Lao Ban looked down and saw that this was meat that had just been put on, and it didn't even emit oil.

He looked at Xu Changpu, and said with a strange expression: "Baby, you have learned badly. Really, you never joked before."

Xu Changpu smiled and said nothing.

At this time, Lao Ban's wife brought her daughter. The little girl looked very similar to Lao Ban, and the little girl enthusiastically carried an eight-inch cake.

The old class looked at Yan Su and Xu Changpu, and said, "Otherwise, let's have a table with you, so as not to be equal."

Yan Su: "No, the three of you and the two of us, the AA system doesn't seem to be a good deal for us."

The old class said coldly, "Why do you think you are so picky?"

When he was talking about pickling, he called his wife and daughter to come over, and called the waiter to add more dishes.

While reporting the name of the dish, he said to Yan Su and Xu Changpu: "Give me the review tomorrow morning, and let you skip class and eat barbecue today."

The next day, Yan Su came out of the old class's office humming a song after handing in the review.

He happened to bump into Lin Youdu, who was holding some test papers and homework books in his hand.

Yan Su's expression was calm and slightly relaxed. The moment he saw Lin Youdu, his instinctive guard against his rival made his singing stop abruptly, and his relaxed expression turned into provocation.

The two passed by and walked a few steps away, when Lin Youdu suddenly turned around and said, "Can we have a chat?"

Yan Su stood still: "What do you want to talk about?"

Lin Youdu said: "Wait for me, I will send homework to the teacher, we will go to the rooftop to chat, it is not convenient to talk here."

Yan Su waved his hand indifferently, and said, "Then hurry up, Lord's time is limited."

Lin Youdu turned around and ran towards the office. After a while, he ran out and walked to Yan Su's side. Without stopping, he continued to run towards the rooftop: "Let's go."

Yan Su followed quickly.

He didn't know what kind of medicine was sold in the gourd of this love rival, did he make an appointment to fight on the rooftop?

There was no one on the roof, and after a while of jingling bells, the school was immersed in the sound of reading aloud, and the teachers shuttled through the corridors to their respective classrooms with books.

Lin Youdu cut to the chase and said, "Leave Calamus."

He is very direct, just like the questions he does, it has always been the simplest algorithm and the fastest cut-in, there are few messy steps, and there is very little redundant nonsense in writing questions and answers.

All his subtlety and euphemism, all his hesitation and worry, were applied to Xu Changpu. He was cautious about his feelings, so he kept silently buried in his heart. He didn't dare to say, dare not ask, for fear that Xu Changpu would know, and he was also afraid of Xu Changpu. laugh at.

Yan Su thought he heard it wrong, and asked, "What did you say?"

Lin Youdu firmly said: "Leave Xu Changpu, you are not suitable, you will only bring bad things to him, I don't want his life to be ruined by your hands. Even if I can't be with him, I will Also love that he found someone worthy of him."

In fact, what he was talking about was his own dissatisfaction. He always felt that Yan Su was not good enough for Xu Changpu, that Yan Su was not as good as him, so why could he walk with Xu Changpu.

Yan Su laughed, not mocking, nor sneering, he just thought it was funny, he didn't interrupt Lin Youdu.

Lin Youdu said: "You brought him into a fight and caused him to be demerited. Because of you, he could have gone abroad to study, but he didn't go, and he gave up his future. It was because of you that he was beaten. Didn't come to school."

"Wait a minute." Yan Su heard the key words: "What was beaten?"

Lin Youdu's eyes clearly said "Don't pretend to be garlic", and said: "Students in our class saw Xu Changpu fighting with a man in the alley on the way home from school, do you dare to say that you didn't provoke this man? He hasn't come to class these days, don't you know?"

"A man?" Yan Su was puzzled, but Xu Changpu told him clearly that he had fallen.

It suddenly occurred to him that his second brother hadn't been sick these days, so he came to school to make trouble for them.

His head was buzzing.

Lin Youdu said mockingly: "Look at what you brought him? Besides, in my eyes, you are not worthy of him. Apart from your family being rich, how can you be worthy of him? You and If he is together, you are dragging him down, if you really like him, you should break up."

"You think I love him because I broke up?" Yan Su sneered, "It's selfish."

"There is a big problem with your view of love. Our old class said that if you love someone, you should try to make yourself better and give him a high-quality lover. This is to love someone. If you simply feel that you are not good enough, you are worthy No, don’t work hard to make yourself better, break up with self-defeating, push him away blindly, have you thought about him in the slightest? You know, a lover is always just a lover, and he is not qualified to make decisions for him. The only thing for a lover The obligation is to respect, to respect his decision."

"He could have chosen a better you, but he didn't choose. He chose me. For me, it's not about breaking up, it's about trying to be worthy of him, it's about respecting his choice, it's about liking him well, instead of putting He pushes out."

Yan Su smiled: "So, the one surnamed Lin, that's why you didn't like or move his heart, because from the beginning, you felt that you were not good enough, and you hid all your emotions in your heart. I don't understand, like it A person, why can’t you speak out boldly, hide in your heart and expect others to walk into your heart to find out? If he can walk into your heart, you don’t need to talk nonsense with me here.”

Yan Su looked at Lin Youdu's dazed face, and said, "For the sake of being with your sweetheart, and being able to kiss him and hug him every day, and calling my husband to kiss him every day, I will tell you the last sentence." .”

Lin Youdu looked at Yan Su's unbeaten face, wondering: "What?"

Yan Su: "My dad taught me that if you like someone, you should be shameless. There is flesh and blood between the heart and the heart, which cannot be touched, but there is nothing between the mouth and the ears."

After he finished speaking, he pointed to the stairs leading down to the rooftop and said, "I'll go first. This is the great truth of life. If you learn not to be single, you won't need it anymore. You slowly realize it."

Lin Youdu didn't speak, Yan Su turned and left.

After a long time, a "tsk tsk tsk" came out of nowhere and sighed: "The husband in my dream is really very good, even he is so tolerant and magnanimous to his rivals in love, and he even teaches them the truth."

The little girl came out from behind a low wall on the rooftop, holding a bag of shrimp crackers and two packs of potato chips in her hand, looked at Yan Su's direction full of anticipation and said, "You are so handsome."

Lin Youdu looked at this little girl with the eyes of a mental patient. The little girl changed her summer school uniform into a runway show style, which is both public and does not violate school rules.

"What do you think I'm doing? I have something to eat, so I won't give it to you." The little girl seemed disgusted by him looking at her like that.

Lin Youdu made an "Eh" and said, "You heard that you like Yan Su. Since elementary school, he has been with other people. Why don't you feel sad?"

"I'm sad, I haven't eaten for four or five days." The little girl said after taking a bite of potato chips.

Then, she sighed sadly: "But is it useful to be sad? In love, distance is more important than time, and I am not wronged. In fact, I think you are even more innocent. I met Yan Su in elementary school, and I know Yan Su. I was earlier than my concubine, but my seat was separated by four or five rows from Yan Su, and my concubine and Yan Su were separated by an aisle. I won the time and lost the distance, but you, the time and distance did not take up , you have known my concubine for a shorter time than Yan Su, you and my concubine are separated by a floor, and you also lose in terms of distance. Look, you don't take anything, I at least take time."

Seeing Lin Youdu's sluggish face, the little girl handed him a box of potato chips with a few chips left after eating and said, "I'm also a fallen person, come on, be more open-minded, don't let people know you A big man is not as good as a beautiful little girl like me."

"Time and distance, your reason is very good." Lin Youdu didn't go to pick up the potato chips, but smiled instead: "Can feelings be calculated like this? This is the first time I know."

"Emotions can't be calculated like this." The little girl stuffed a handful of shrimp crackers into her mouth indignantly: "But if you don't calculate it like this, can you find other ways to deceive yourself? Share it!"

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