The school grass said I was scum to him

"Be careful of the wound, don't touch the water, avoid spicy food, and the most taboo point, don't fight in the ward anymore, there is a patient who just finished the operation next door and needs to rest." Before leaving, the doctor looked at the mess on the ground— —Spilled porridge and chicken soup, a stern warning.

These teenagers were fighting and squabbling out of order, their heads were concussed, their wounds had not yet healed, and they were still fighting and fighting, and they had to beat their heads to bleed before they stopped.

Xu Changpu was reprimanded by the doctor, and his lips were silent. He took the broom in the corner and swept up the porridge and chicken spilled on the ground, dumped them into the trash can, cleaned up the trash bag, and replaced it with a new trash bag.

Yan Su lay on his side on the hospital bed, so as not to press on the wound on the back of his head.

After Xu Changpu cleaned up the garbage, he went to the public toilet of the hospital and brought back a mop. He mopped the area in the ward.

Yan Su lay sideways on the hospital bed, looked at Xu Changpu mopping the floor, and scolded: "If I knew today, why did I do it in the first place. With your unvirtuous and virtuous personality, in ancient times, it was a typical example of not being able to get married."

Xu Changpu ignored Yan Su's sarcastic remarks.

After mopping the floor, he returned to the ward. Yan Su was still lying down with a pale face.

The wound on Yan Su's head was almost healed, but this time it opened again because of the fight with him.

He asked with concern: "Does your head still hurt?"

Yan Su lay on the hospital bed weakly: "Nonsense, the wounds are open, let me tell you, your domestic violence is really not good, it is not conducive to the long-term friendly and harmonious family relationship."

Xu Changpu: "You asked for it."

Yan Su: "You said that you already have adulterers, I should investigate what you have done, right? There is dignity in taking over the pan... And men are not women, women have virgins, and men don't have virgins." , Nu Wa created humans too eccentrically."

Looking at Xu Changpu's cold face, he said, "Okay, I won't talk about it, and no one will mention it in the future, okay?"

Xu Changpu didn't say a word, and lowered his head silently. Yan Su was so kind to him in the past, and he obviously cared whether he had slept with other men, but he was still in his history of having an adulterer, and he was still in a hurry. Choose to be with him.

Yan Su, who had lost his memory, liked him so much that he gave up his principles, and now that Yan Su had recovered, he didn't know if he would still like him.

Yan Su lay on his side on the bed, stretched out his hand to touch Changpu's fingers, and said pitifully, "Honey, I'm hungry."

Xu Changpu's little finger was hooked by Yan Su, it was very light but very strong, he was very concerned about Yan Su in his heart, seeing him lying half dead on the hospital bed, he didn't bother to care so much, and thoughtfully said: "I'll go downstairs Buy you a meal, just like the meal just now, and another one, okay?"

Yan Su smiled: "Okay, bring me a cup of milk tea, I want something sweet."

Xu Changpu didn't respond to him, and walked downstairs. He didn't bring milk tea for Yan Su. The doctor said a lot of things that he couldn't eat and that should be taboo. Packed a white fungus sweet soup in the restaurant.

When he went downstairs, he was still thinking about that question, does Yan Su like him?If he didn't like him, why did he treat him the same as before? If he liked him, then what was the embarrassing thing for Yan Su?Why did he wait until the time was right to tell himself?

Could it be that he has regained his memory now, knowing the mistakes he made in the past when his memory went wrong, and he will make do with himself with the mentality of giving it a try?

He finished buying the meal in a trance, and took it upstairs.

Yan Su ate happily. He thought it would be good not to let Xu Changpu know that he had recovered his memory. When he slowly reversed his impression of himself, he would explain it to him, otherwise even he himself would be embarrassed now. He didn't digest the mentally retarded things before, he was afraid that he would be too embarrassed in front of Calamus.

Xu Changpu looked at Yan Su's devouring appearance, and said, "Can I discuss something with you?"

Yan Su took a tissue and wiped his mouth: "What's the matter?"

Xu Changpu looked at Yan Su, with hesitant eyes, and said with a little sentimentality: "If one day, you find that you don't like me, please be sure to say it out, I won't blame you, and I won't hate you, please do Don’t settle for it, and don’t give me any hope.”

He doesn't like dying people.

His mother took him to remarry just because she felt guilty towards him, and lived in her stepfather's house for seven or eight years.

He thought she loved him very much, so she took him to remarry and gave him a glimmer of hope. Later, he left him in a boarding school. He called and came to school to see him with snacks. He was very happy. At that time, he didn't know that his mother felt guilty for him, so he came to see him twice, but in the heart of a child, these two eyes are hope.

Later, she threw him in various cram schools, and so on and on, she thought she loved him, but she didn't know that this kind of love was just letting go, and just letting go when she needed to seek psychological comfort.

This made him gradually numb in this hopeless maternal love, regain hope in the numbness, and gradually feel hopeless in hope...

It wasn't until he saw his younger brother that he knew that he was the one who was being abused.

Sufficiency means drag, and it also means that it is unnecessary, unimportant, and can be discarded at any time.

He didn't want Yan Su to recover his memory, he was afraid that he would feel sorry for him, and it would be embarrassing to break up with him, so he made do with him.

He didn't want to be that unwanted, indifferent, and ready-to-be-abandoned person again.

Nor did he want to experience the feeling of hope, numbness, and hopelessness all over again.

Listening to Xu Changpu's words, Yan Su always felt very strange. He didn't know what happened to Changpu and why he brought up the issue of breaking up. He smiled and said, "Changpu, what are you thinking? Kill me, I I won't break up with you, and don't mention anything, you will never be the person I will be, you are my favorite person."

Finally, he asked: "What happened?"

Xu Changpu shook his head and said, "It's fine."

Yan Su didn't believe it was all right, he asked: "What happened? Calamus, tell me clearly, I'm a little scared?"

Xu Changpu smiled: "It's really nothing, I'll just talk casually."

Yan Su's heart was full of ups and downs, he always felt that Xu Changpu was hiding something from him.

The weather is getting hotter and hotter. At the end of spring, W City has already entered summer. The leaves of the sycamore trees on both sides of the school path are lush and green, covering the starlight and casting shadows on the ground.

Lin Youdu stood in front of the bookstall, holding a book of review materials, casually flipped through a page, and stared at the school gate.

When the students gradually dispersed at the school gate, a lonely figure stepped out of the school gate with his schoolbag on his back.

Because it was already summer, he was wearing an off-white plaid T-shirt and a pair of light-colored ripped jeans, looking fresh and clean.

The figure walked silently under the street lamp, stepped on the shadow of the whirling trees, walked past small stalls and vendors, and gradually walked to the end of the sight.

Lin Youdu put down the study materials and followed, neither far nor near.

He followed Xu Changpu silently for two or three weeks, and each time he only followed to the end of the school alley, one to the left and the other to the right.

These days, I didn't see Yan Su, only saw Xu Changpu go home alone at night, since that chemical experiment, he rarely had the chance to meet him.

When he followed to the milk tea shop in the alley, Xu Changpu had disappeared. He looked towards the end of the alley and thought that Xu Changpu should have left.

When Lin Youdu turned his head, he saw Xu Changpu standing at the door of the milk tea shop holding two cups of milk tea. It was his favorite mung bean milk tea, and Xu Changpu also liked it.

When this mung bean milk tea was first launched in the milk tea shop, Xu Changpu felt very curious, and Yan Su bought two cups, which tasted pretty good.

He walked over with milk tea and said, "You have been with me for many days."

Lin Youdu was puzzled: "You know?"

Xu Changpu nodded: "Well, at first I thought you were just going home along this road, but later I found out that was not the case, you have been following me."

Lin Youdu: "I really want to go home along this road. I will go left at the end of the alley, and you will go right."

Xu Changpu: "But you have been following me these days."

Lin Youdu smiled and took the cup of mung bean milk tea in Xu Changpu's hand: "Thanks, I just see that you are in a bad mood. What's wrong with you? What happened?"

Xu Changpu: "It's okay."

Lin Youdu smiled, "Hasn't Yan Su come to class these days? What's wrong with him?"

In fact, he wanted to ask, what happened between you two?

Xu Changpu took a sip of milk tea and said, "He feels that the back of his head is bald, and he doesn't go to class until his hair grows back. He is a person with a lot of idol baggage."

Lin Youdu let out an "Ah" and said, "I have passed the IELTS."

Xu Changpu: "Congratulations."

Lin Youdu looked at Xu Changpu, wondering if he should say thank you.Then he smiled: "I actually don't like hearing the word 'congratulations' from you."

Because congratulations are equivalent to saying goodbye, he doesn't like Xu Changpu saying goodbye to him very much.

Xu Changpu said in a muffled voice, "I'm sorry."

He was quite dull before, but since Lin Youdu followed him for two or three weeks, he suddenly noticed something strange, how could one person silently follow another for so long?

No matter whether he guessed right or not, he should say sorry to Lin Youdu.

Lin Youdu smiled, looking at Xu Changpu under the shadow of the street lamps and trees, clear and indifferent, the breeze swayed, causing the leaf shadows to shake, casting a shadow on his body, the halo was bright and dark, making him unreal .

He silently walked forward, and Lin Youdu followed.

He said, "There's nothing I'm sorry about. So what... I've prepared my lines for a long time, I've prepared them for a long time, and I don't know how to tell you..."

Xu Changpu hesitated to speak, he is a slow and numb person, he is extremely sensitive to feelings and can't handle them well, he doesn't want Lin Youdu to say the lines he prepared, all his replies are buried in the "I'm sorry" up.

Before he could say anything, Lin Youdu interrupted him and said, "Don't interrupt me, and don't talk. My sister helped me find the contact information of Cambridge professors. I will be preparing for Cambridge related exams in September. No accidents." , when Christmas is approaching, I will go abroad. Before going abroad, I want to read to you the lines I have prepared for a long time, whether you listen to nonsense or recite..."

"The content of the line is—" Lin Youdu picked up a piece of paper and put it between him and Xu Changpu.

The street lamp shone over and shone on the paper, turning the paper yellow, and the paper was empty without a word.

He is like a reciter, reciting great poems. He doesn't care who his audience is, he only cares whether he recites them.

"When I met you, I was standing in front of the bulletin board. The name of the person 'Xu Changpu' ahead of me dumped me by more than 30 points. You must know that I played normally at that time. I have never had such a big Later, I saw you in the chemistry teacher's office. You were holding a broom and dustpan, and your behavior was extremely weird and natural. I was very curious at the time, what kind of person are you? The happiest time I am looking forward to the most during this period is because I have the opportunity to get along with you for two evening self-study sessions. Later, I look forward to the exam. At that time, we will be in the same exam room, although you are always the last to enter the exam room and the first to leave the exam room. And the 'F' last time, it's not that I don't know how to solve the problem, but that I can't find a way to talk to you, and I can't find any reason to spend more time with you. The only thing I can do is Stay with you for a while after the exam."

"And... I've been following you all this time, I can't help but want to accompany you through this alley, it doesn't matter if I'm walking side by side."

He took the blank paper and put it away after finishing reading: "Also, I want to know if I have a chance to walk with you..."

"I'm sorry." Xu Changpu didn't know how to reply Lin Youdu's liking for him.

At this moment, all he could say were these three words.

These three words mean - no chance.

Lin Youdu choked up, and he swallowed the word "Yusheng".

He asked, "You and Yan Su... are you dating?"

Xu Changpu did not deny it.

Lin Youdu smiled, and now he has reached the end of the alley, he said: "Here we are, I'll go left, you go right."

Xu Changpu: "I wish you success in the exam."

Lin Youdu smiled calmly: "Thank you, Calamus!"

Xu Changpu turned around: "What?"

Lin Youdu: "If you are no longer with Yan Su before I go abroad, or if you have no future, or for whatever reason...you can't be with him, at that time, you must tell me, I can Stay for you. I don't care if you settle for second best, even if you didn't like me at the time, I don't care, as long as you give me a chance. "

Xu Changpu apologized and said, "I'm sorry, the exam went well."

Being sorry means that there is no chance. He treats feelings very purely. If he doesn't like it, he doesn't like it. If he wants to break it, he must break it cleanly. Just, so I won't make do with others.

In a relationship, the person who is accepted must be very uncomfortable.

Xu Changpu turned around and walked to the right.

When Xu Changpu just returned home, Yan Su called.

For more than a month, Yan Su rarely called him, and rarely came to him.

He thought maybe Yan Su was thinking about how to break up with him.

After all, without the premise of this cheating lover, whether Yan Su loves him or not is another matter.

Yan Su shouted over there: "Calamus, have you returned home? I'll come to you later, and I have something to tell you by the way."

This month, he finally digested his previous brain-damaged self. He has recovered his memory, so he wants to confess to Xu Changpu and tell him that he has recovered his memory. love him.

In fact, he is very grateful for the memory disorder this time, otherwise he probably wouldn't be able to catch up with Xu Changpu.

Xu Changpu stopped holding the key in the door lock, and said, "Actually, what are you going to say? I know. That day, I was standing at the door of your ward, and I heard the conversation between you and your brother."

At this moment, Yan Su's heart skipped a beat. Xu Changpu knew that his memory had recovered a month ago, so after so many days, he had digested it in vain.

He still wants to wait until he organizes the language to speak to him.

Xu Changpu said: "Actually, I know what you are talking about."

Yan Su smiled: "Baby, you know me best. In fact, these days, I'm quite embarrassed. I don't know how to tell you. I feel ashamed to see you. The main reason is that it's too fucking human. .”

Xu Changpu let out a breath, he walked into the dark room, closed the door with his hand, leaned against the door, and forgot to even turn on the light.

Why don't you just say goodbye?Why do you feel ashamed to see yourself?

It turns out that school bullies also have a sense of shame, don't they think that breaking up is not a human thing?

He opened his mouth, his words were choked in his throat because of the discomfort, he wanted to open his mouth to say something, but finally he choked up: "It's okay."

Sometimes fate is really funny.

He told Lin Youdu he was sorry half an hour ago, and half an hour later he told Yan Su that it was okay.

He is also a person who often gets full marks in his composition, why at this time, the poor language even feels ridiculous to himself.

"Baby, what's wrong with you, why does your voice sound weird, like you're about to cry." Yan Su was puzzled, he had already changed his shoes and walked outside, now that Calamus knows, it will save him embarrassment.

This month, thinking of the stupid things he did before, he has committed embarrassing cancer, and he doesn't know how to confess to Changpu every day.

Xu Changpu calmed down, and the darkness in the room hit him like a sea wave and surrounded him. He suddenly felt that people are really greedy. After having light, it is difficult to adapt to the darkness. After tasting a little bit of sweetness, he can no longer eat it. Bitter.

He hugged his knees, squatted down, and said, "It's okay, I just have a little cold."

"Actually, I feel quite embarrassed after such a long time. I haven't digested it myself, and I don't think I can face you." Yan Su got into his family's car.

Xu Changpu said "En" and said: "Don't feel sorry, and don't feel sorry, it was just a misunderstanding, I won't take it seriously."

Yan Su thought to himself, Baby is really sensible, this will save him from embarrassment.

But he always felt that Xu Changpu's voice was very uncomfortable, every word was full of tears.

Xu Changpu took a deep breath and said, "It's good for you to say it earlier. You don't have to make do with it. I don't like others to make do with me. My mother made me do it for eight years. You're pretty good. You just make do with it." for a month."

Yan Su was stunned: "What? What did you say? What will you do? Wait a minute? Hey..."

Hang up over there.

Yan Su was stunned for a while.

He just wanted to find Xu Changpu to confess to him about recovering his memory, why such a big incident happened.

He urged the driver, "Hurry up, please?"

Any later, the little lover will be gone!

Knock, knock - Yan Su knocked on the door desperately.

He yelled outside the door: "Acorus, open the door, I have something to tell you, Calamus, hurry up... What do you mean by that just now? Calamus, please tell me clearly, what will not be settled , never will, never will... open the door."

Xu Changpu came back to his senses, squatting for too long without moving, his legs and feet were numb, suddenly there was a knock on the door, Yan Su kicked the door heavily, and called him from outside, as violent as a mad beast.

He stood up holding the door, broke the door handle, and the door opened from the inside.

Yan Su outside the door was taken aback the moment he saw Xu Changpu.

He strode into the unlit room, slammed the door shut, pressed Xu Changpu against the door, and kissed her.

Xu Changpu turned his head to avoid it, but Yan Su tightly enclosed him between the door and himself, leaving him nowhere to hide.When Yan Su circled Xu Changpu, his hands went down his waistline!

Xu Changpu suddenly froze and said, "Wait a minute."

Yan Su had no choice but to withdraw his hand and hugged Xu Changpu. The darkness enveloped the two of them together, and each other's heartbeats could be heard.

"Stop making trouble, okay?" Yan Su pressed his head against Xu Changpu's forehead, and wrapped him tightly in his arms.

Xu Changpu was silent for a while, and said, "Let me go first."

Yan Su didn't care, insisted on entrapping him and said, "I don't want to let you go, Calamus, whoever said I'll give in to you, I've never given in, I'm a person who never hurts myself, so if I really feel you No, there is no compromise at all, I will just get rid of you, so for me, you are not compromise, you are the only one, the only one that belongs to me... Calamus!"

Xu Changpu was taken aback when he heard the words, but didn't speak.

"Now can you tell me why you think you're just going to die?" Yan Su asked, leaning his head against his head, breathing close at hand.

Xu Changpu was silent for a while, then murmured: "Didn't you say that some things were embarrassing before? You also said that you would take it easy and tell me that you don't know how to face me, and that you need time to digest before you tell me. "

"I'm talking about my restoration of memory, what do you think?"

"I thought..." Xu Changpu didn't say the rest, this time it was his turn to be embarrassed.

He thought that Yan Su didn't like him anymore after recovering his memory, and it would take a while to get along with him, and also to think about how to break up with him.

He is very grateful for the darkness in this room now, he can hide all his subtle expressions in the darkness, and Yan Su can't see it.

"You are really stupid." Yan Su laughed: "I'm embarrassed because I have accused you of cheating on Hong Xing for so long and suspected that you had slept with other people, plus looking for adulterers every day and peeping at you Texting on the phone, installing a monitor, and even following you for several days, I myself feel that I am quite stupid, so I don’t know how to tell you that I have recovered my memory, I’m afraid it’s too embarrassing to say it, even I can’t accept it Such myself, so I need time to digest."

"My memory has recovered, and I haven't lost my memory. Why don't I like you? I managed to catch up with you, and I don't want to die, I don't want to be buried in the belly of a fish." Yan Su said.

After Yan Su woke up, he felt that what he had done before was too stupid to face Xu Changpu, which was very embarrassing.As for Xu Changpu, what he cared about was not whether Yan Su was embarrassed or not, but whether Yan Su would still like him if he didn't have the premise of being a previous lover.

In addition, Yan Su didn't look for him during the period of digestion, which made him take it for granted that Yan Su just wanted to avoid him.

"I like you, really." Yan Su said.

Xu Changpu didn't respond to him.

"I really like you very much. It's the kind of love that I want to be with you for the rest of my life. Now I'm out of my mind and I've returned to normal. I solemnly tell you that I like you."

"If one day I don't like you anymore, punish me by jumping off the Yangtze River Bridge and let me die."

"You are not just doing it, you are the only one."

"I love you, really, when you give birth to a baby, I will use the most expensive anesthetic for you. I will protect the big but not the small. I will buy you a 24-carat diamond ring every day, and the Hermes scarf will be used as toilet paper for you. I will not wear it in the future." Dai | You have the final say...Even if you have a bad temper at home, I won't put you in a pigpen...Look at me, a [-]k good man, you can accept it...Huh?"

Xu Changpu grabbed Yan Su's restless hand: "You promised me before that you wouldn't do anything casually... um——"

Yan Su kissed Xu Changpu, and smiled: "Didn't you say you can't move your mouth!"

The author has something to say:

Calamus: It takes only three seconds to be serious!

Brother Su: Why don't you let me eat it, you unscrupulous author, are you trying to shi?

Calamus: Be quiet, don't forget the little black room last time.

Brother Su: Hey... don't open the forest!

Two in one, this is the content of two chapters, I originally wanted to save one chapter and post it tomorrow, but I don’t think you guys want to see the misunderstanding go so far, so I post the two chapters together, hey!Don't worry if you don't update tomorrow, you won't be interrupted if you kill yourself!

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