Self-help of the White Lotus Lady [Crossing Books]

Ji Ruowei hasn't noticed that something is wrong, even if occasionally, she feels that her mother's eyes are really strange, she doesn't think about it.The main reason is that she felt that if her mother really knew about this matter, she would definitely question her, and it was impossible to be so plain.

And Ji Mingzhu can prove that Ji's mother didn't do anything special.

"If I have to say yes, it's probably because she always makes some weird juices." Ji Mingzhu still feels sick to his stomach when he thinks of that taste, "That taste is really amazing. I drank it once. Guarantee you will never forget it."

"Look how much our mother loves you, I'll give you such a good juice to drink alone." Ji Ruo smiled wantonly, and didn't take this matter to heart.

It's just that at night, when she was lying on the bed and sending messages to her girlfriend, Xu Zhaogu didn't reply to her messages very much. Even if she did reply occasionally, it was just a simple word or two. She had never been so indifferent before.

Ji Ruowei felt that something was wrong, and thought about asking her in person another day.

However, when it was time to meet, she realized that Xu Zhaogu was really cold.

"What's wrong with you? Why does it feel like you're unhappy?" Ji Ruowei wanted to hold her hand, but Xu Zhaogu avoided it.

She narrowed her eyes, and the expression on her face became gloomy, and then she soon smiled again with a flattering look.

"If you have anything, you can tell me. Maybe I can help you solve it. Don't ignore me."

Xu Zhaogu looked up at her, his lips parted, as if he wanted to say something, then he shook his head again.

She couldn't say the word break up, and she couldn't even find a reason.And looking at the other party's smile, she felt more and more guilty.

"You look like this, I'm so flustered, did you get sick again in the afternoon? Or did you say I did something wrong, just tell me, I will definitely change it." Ji Ruowei took her hand forcefully , and did not give her a chance to refuse.

Xu Zhaogu had complicated eyes, "Do you really like me?"

Ji Ruo was taken aback for a moment, and then smiled, "Why do you still doubt this matter now. I must like you. If I don't like you, why should I be with you?"

"Then how much do you like me? If I say, I want you to give up everything and just be with me, would you be willing?"

Ji Ruowei thought she was just asking casually, but she didn't expect her expression to be serious, and she also became serious, "I will try my best to be with you, even if everyone stops me, I will do it for you." everything."

Xu Zhaogu smiled, not like her usual sweet look, with a kind of bitterness, "But you are so young now, how do you know, you will think so in the future, maybe in two years, You will regret it."

"I don't know if I will regret it in the future, but at least now, I'm not afraid at all." Ji Ruowei tightened her hand, "Didn't I tell you before? Let time tell everything. In your heart Uneasy, I can understand, I will use actions to appease you."

Xu Zhaogu shook his head, "But I don't want to go with you, how many years is my life? What if I leave you the best youth, but you regret it when the time comes, what should I do?"

Ji Ruo withdrew her smile slightly, but tightened her hand, "Trust me, don't reject me so quickly, okay?"

"If you have money in your family, even if you don't do anything in the future, you can live a good life. But I can't, if I put all the bets on you, if I lose, there will be no comeback Here's my chance." Xu Zhaogu's eyes showed sadness, "Ruowei, can you also think about it for me?"

Ji Ruo was breathing hard, "I won't lose, I will always love you, always love you, even if I suffer, I won't let you suffer any grievances."

She seemed to have noticed something, and she even pleaded in her tone, "Just trust me once, I really love you."

Xu Zhaogu bit his lip and shook his head gently, "Love doesn't mean everything, there are more things worth pursuing in this world, if you can't bring me happiness, then I have the right to pursue what I think , something happier."

Ji Ruo smiled, but there was no emotion in his eyes, "Then what do you think is the happiest thing? Or, is there someone else who can give you something better?"

"I think this road is really too difficult, whether it's for you or me. The world really doesn't tolerate us enough, and I can't stand other people's strange eyes." Xu Zhaogu didn't dare to look she.

"I'm not strong enough now, and I can't get everyone to bless us, but I will work hard, and one day I can tell everyone that you are my girlfriend, and no one can hurt us anymore " Ji Ruowei refused to let go, "After all, life belongs to the two of us, why do we have to care so much about other people's opinions?"

"But we live in this society, so we have to face all of this." Xu Zhaogu sighed softly, "Have you ever thought about how your family would feel if they knew about this matter?" Woolen cloth?"

"I'll convince them." Ji Ruo pursed her lips slightly, "It's enough for you to trust me and support me unswervingly."

"What if I say I can't do it?"

Ji Ruo smiled slightly, and then gradually disappeared, "Can you tell me why you suddenly had such an idea?"

"Maybe I suddenly figured it out? I think it's probably wrong to be with you."

"Didn't we be fine before? Where did you figure it out?" Ji Ruowei suddenly reached out and pinched her chin, "Why don't you dare to look at me?"

"It's not that I dare not look at you, but I think both of us need to calm down and think about what I said carefully."

"You fart!" Ji Ruowei finally couldn't help it anymore, she stared at Xu Zhaogu, "I know you will get tired of me one day, so I have been holding you carefully, thinking that even if one day you regret it Well, at least I think about my well-being, and I can persevere a little longer."

"I didn't expect you to be unable to hold on so soon. Have you forgotten? You said two days ago that you would stay with me all the time, and you still said that you like me. Are these all lies?"

Xu Zhaogu saw tears and red blood from her eye sockets, she really wanted to reach out and touch her face, to wipe away the tears for her, and then hug her in his arms, comforting her in a low voice.

But she can't.

"It was all a lie to you."

A few sneers escaped Ji Ruowei's throat, with sobs, "You lied to me..."

She pinched Xu Zhaogu's chin with force, leaving red marks, "Then why don't you want to continue lying?"

"Because I think this is really tiring and hard work." Xu Zhaogu was forced to look up at her.

Ji Ruowei tried hard to see the shadow of lying in her eyes, but she didn't dare to see too clearly, she thought she would really see it, Xu Zhaogu's eyes were indifferent.

"Does it make you feel very hard to be with me?" Ji Ruowei murmured, "Then why do you still do this? What good is it for you to be with me?"

"At least you're rich, aren't you?"

"That's why you are here?" Ji Ruo was silent for a while, "Actually, I am also very rich now." So can you continue to be with me?It doesn't matter if you just use me as a cash machine.

Xu Zhaogu's eyes were so sore, how could Ji Ruowei be so stupid, he was obviously deceived so much, and he was willing to continue being deceived.

"Unfortunately, I am no longer interested in your money. I have found out that as long as I want money, there are many people who can give it to me. There is no need for me to hang on a tree like you."

"Who is it?" Ji Ruowei had a grim expression on his face, and his rationality disappeared following Xu Zhaogu's words, "Who is that person?"

"It doesn't matter who she is, the important thing is that I don't want to be with you anymore." Xu Zhaogu tried hard to speak, "Can't we get together and break up? Let what happened before become a part of each other's life." remember."

"Good get-together?" Ji Ruowei pressed Xu Zhaogu's lips with his finger, trying to prevent her from saying more hurtful words.

Her heart felt tight, never before had it been so unbearable, it was as if her heart had been torn apart.

"What do you think of me, a toy to play with when you're bored?" Ji Ruo smiled ironically, "You're dreaming."

"Since we don't have any feelings anymore, why don't we separate? Being together will only make each other more painful, why should we torture each other like this?"

"Who said that the two of us have no feelings anymore?" Ji Ruowei pressed down heavily, regardless of whether Xu Zhaogu would be in pain, "No one has ever dared to play with me like this, you are the first. How do you feel that you have done it?" With such a thing, can I get out of my body?"

"I hate you so much now..."

"I know I'm sorry for you, but people have to look forward after all." Xu Zhaogu closed his eyes, unwilling to see Ji Ruowei in pain again, it would make her doubt her own decision, it was really Is that right?

Ji Ruowei thought that she hated herself to such an extent that she didn't even want to look at herself.

Her heart ached so much that she could only put one hand on her chest to calm the pain.

"It's useless if you can't accept it. I won't let you go. Even if you hate me, you can only be with me. Don't let me find out that you are messing with other people, or I will really destroy you. Yours." Ji Ruowei let go of her chin, and took two steps back, "I originally wanted to treat you well, and I would pamper you lawlessly, but it's a pity that you don't cherish it."

"Since you are not willing, then I don't need to be nice to you anymore. From now on, you must do what I ask you to do."

"Why should I listen to you?" Xu Zhaogu panted, the position just now made her a little suffocated.

Ji Ruo slightly curled her lips into a smile that didn't reach her eyes, "Maybe you really want your private photos to appear on the school's forum."

"You...!" Xu Zhaogu looked away and said coldly, "You are really disgusting."

"I've always been such a person, so what can you do to me?" Ji Ruowei had difficulty breathing, and she resisted the urge to cry, "You forced me to do this, anyway, you just You can obediently listen to me, as long as the result is what I want, that's enough."

"I understand." Xu Zhaogu stood up, "Then I'll go first."

After turning around and walking a few steps, she couldn't hold back, and tears welled up in her eyes.It turned out that before she realized it, she already liked Ji Ruowei so much.I like it so much that I even feel that it's not bad to stay here for her.

Since she came here from the very beginning, she has determined her goal. Her only hope is to finish the task one day and return to her own place.But now she is not so sure, and sometimes she even thinks that her parents might have accepted the fact that she had an accident, and even if she doesn't go back, it doesn't seem to be a big deal.

Xu Zhaogu didn't want Ji Ruowei to see him bursting into tears, even if she knew that the current Ji Ruowei would never come after her.

She hailed a taxi and left here quickly, giving the impression that she didn't want to stay any longer and only wanted to escape.

Ji Ruowei didn't leave, and kept watching her silently from behind her. The look in her eyes couldn't be said to be terrifying, but it was also frightening. Looking closely, there was still some resentment and paranoia.

"You came to provoke me from the beginning, and I won't let you go. So what if you hate me, I've already died once, so I have nothing to be afraid of."

Xu Zhaogu probably looked too sad, and Haosheng was comforted by the driver when he was in the taxi. She wiped away her tears and had a smile on her face.

Don't think about things that you can't understand. She has been working hard for so long to go back, and she can't give up now.

In the afternoon, he probably sensed her bad mood, and was especially clingy to her, sticking out his tongue to lick the back of her hand from time to time.

"Good afternoon, I'm fine, you don't have to worry." Xu Zhaogu embraced the soft body of the afternoon, and buried his face in it, "It's just that I seem to have accidentally lost your other mother."

In the afternoon, she didn't resist at all, and let her hug herself.

"She probably hates me by now."

"Actually, I've been with her for so long, and I'm really happy. It's just that there will probably be no such days in the future."

Xu Zhaogu prepared cat food for the afternoon and even opened a can, but she didn't eat anything, and just lay on the bed in a daze after taking a bath.

Sometimes it's really good luck. She longed for a relationship of her own in her last life, but unfortunately she couldn't fulfill her wish until she died.In this life, she doesn't want any feelings anymore, she just wants to return to her home after completing the task, but unfortunately, she meets someone who makes her heart move.

Xu Zhaogu thought about it, and fell asleep without knowing when.

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Ji Ruowei didn't go home directly, and she is not suitable to go home in this state, anyone with a discerning eye can see what she has gone through at a glance.

It's a pity that she doesn't have many people to talk to, because of the things in her previous life, she is especially cautious in this life, and it is difficult for ordinary people to become her friends.

In the end she called Fu Xueyu, maybe that person should know what to do.

Fu Xueyu still respects Ji Ruowei, his elder sister, and the two of them have been friends since childhood, and he is very familiar with the affairs of Ji Ruowei and Xu Zhaogu, so Ji Ruowei trusts him more.

As soon as Fu Xueyu came, he saw that the table was full of wine bottles, of course, most of them were unopened, and Ji Ruowei was drinking one cup after another, just like drinking water.

"What's wrong with you?" Fu Xueyu frowned slightly, and took away her wine glass, "You don't want to die, right? You can drink wine, but not the way you drink it."

"She broke up with me." Ji Ruowei didn't intend to hide it from him. To be honest, until now, she still feels like she is dreaming.Xu Zhaogu Mingming liked her so much, his previous relationship didn't seem fake at all, so why did he want to break up with her all of a sudden.

"Xu Zhaogu?" Fu Xueyu also seemed a little surprised, after all, they all behaved normally before and did not quarrel.

"Who else could be." Ji Ruowei took back the wine glass from him, "What did I do wrong? Why did she want to break up with me all of a sudden?"

"Did anything happen before the two of you broke up?" Fu Xueyu reminded, "I don't think she is that impulsive person, there must be some reason."

Ji Ruowei tried hard to recall, then shook his head, "Before that, the relationship between the two of us has always been very good."

"Then what did she say when she broke up with you?" Fu Xueyu was actually not particularly surprised, but this incident was indeed a little unexpected.

He knew before, or he saw it very clearly, that despite Xu Zhaogu's sweet words, her feelings for Ji Ruowei are actually not deep, at least not as deep as Ji Ruowei for her.But as they interacted, he slowly saw affection in Xu Zhaogu's eyes.

At that time, he was happy for Ji Ruowei, and finally she was no longer the one who was so hot.But who would have thought that Xu Zhaogu would suddenly break up at this time.

"She said she was tired, and this road was too difficult." After Ji Ruowei finished speaking, she was silent for a while, "I know I can't give her enough sense of security now, but why doesn't she try to trust me? "

Fu Xueyu was also silent. The society is indeed not that tolerant of homosexuality. He also understands Xu Zhaogu's feelings, but he has no way to agree.After all, the eyes of others are secondary, and what is more important should be your own heart and feelings.

"I don't know what to do." Ji Ruowei had a severe headache, she couldn't think of a good way, and even felt resentment towards Xu Zhaogu in her heart.But this is really useless for her, and she can't make her girlfriend trust her wholeheartedly.

"Do you still like her?" Fu Xueyu also drank with her. In fact, there was no need to guess the answer. If she didn't like her, Ji Ruowei wouldn't be here anymore.

"I won't let go."

"That's right, you already have an idea." Fu Xueyu patted her on the shoulder, "Actually, you have always had ideas, and I can't help you. Ruowei, if you really want to, Just hold it firmly in your hands, even if you can't get it for the time being, you can't let others get there first, otherwise, would you be willing?"

Ji Ruo shook her head slightly, "But she seems really unwilling to accept me, otherwise she wouldn't have broken up with me so directly."

"Is it important?" Fu Xueyu's face was calm, and he couldn't see how terrible what he said, "If it were me, if I like it, I must hold it firmly in my hand. At that time, the wishes of the person I like are no longer important No. Anyway, he has no way to refuse, whether he likes it or hates it, he is destined to be with me only."

"If Ji Mingzhu didn't accept you, would you really have the heart to control him all the time, even if you knew that he was not happy." Ji Ruo slightly looked up at him with calm eyes, as if he understood something.

"I will." Fu Xueyu smiled slightly, "If I can't get it, no one else can get it. If it's mine, it can only be mine."

"It's terrible to be liked by you..." Ji Ruowei's eyes were blank, and his drinking movements gradually slowed down.

"Is it scary?" Fu Xueyu said indifferently, "But I believe that many people probably have the same idea as me, but they are unwilling or unable to implement it."

"I understand what you mean." Ji Ruo sighed slightly, "I also think that what you said is right. She came to provoke me on her own initiative, so don't think about leaving again. Maybe I was too harmless in the past Let her think I'm easy to talk to."

"Take it easy."

Fu Xueyu put down his wine glass, "I wish you success."