Chrollo's You Exist

I feel surrounded by a sense of solid warmth, without that floating sense of nothingness, after all, I have returned to my body.There is a smell of blood in the nose, and the smell of disinfectant around, it should be in the hospital.A strange long and delicate warmth lingers in my heart, which turns into a slender and strong warm vitality that invigorates my spiritual will. Perhaps this is the effect of the legendary Lingshi Xueji.The warm force that forcibly pulled me back turned out to be Xueji's energy.

I opened my eyes helplessly, and what caught my eyes was a familiar expressionless face and those dark pupils that were more oppressive than the gloomy night. It turned out that I was held in his arms.

Seeing me wake up, his eyes like an ancient well and deep pool became more and more gloomy, and his arm holding me was tightened so tightly that I could almost hear my own bones creaking for a moment.I frowned uncomfortably, and lowered my eyes to avoid his sight, but he pulled my whole upper body into his chest tightly, entangled his neck and chest, and felt the beating of each other's hearts closely and clearly.I was a little stunned, his body was a little stiff and even his body was not so smooth.Resting my head on his shoulder allowed me to see Feitan standing in front of the ward door, and he was staring at me with a stern and cold look.Recalling the previous conversation with Feitan, what Kuroro did for me quietly...

"My chest is full of blood, it will stain you, don't do this." I froze, and couldn't say any other comforting words.

He paused, let me go, and silently picked me up and walked out of the ward and left the hospital directly.It was dusk and the lights were just coming on. I nestled quietly in his arms, and he never looked down at me or said a word along the way.I couldn't feel his emotions, had no idea what he was thinking, or if he really wasn't thinking anything.

After opening a room in a hotel near the hospital, he carried me into the bathroom, put me in the bathtub, took off my blood-stained bathrobe and T-shirt, put hot water on me, and scrubbed the big puddle of blood on my chest .I didn't stop his actions, and stared blankly at the blood stains on the black coat on his chest.

He washed my body clean, carried me out of the bathtub, casually pulled the bathrobe on the side, wrapped me up and left the bathroom.He carried me to the bed, took off the blood-stained coat, went straight to the bed and lay down beside me, hugged me in his arms, and closed his eyes to sleep.

I know, he's not really sleeping, he's just suppressing his anger.The angrier he is, the calmer his appearance tends to be.If he was so calm that he couldn't feel any emotion, then he was already extremely angry.

"It's not like you that you're angry but doing nothing." I leaned into his arms and listened to the beating of his heart in his chest. Even though I was so angry, his heartbeat was still steady.

He didn't respond and ignored me.

"If you want to use my body to vent your anger, like last time, I will not refuse or even cooperate with you."

The strength on the shoulders suddenly increased, it was the strength of his fingers tightening.

"If my words make you unhappy, you can kill me directly without patience, I know you can do it. In this way, I will be very happy, and you don't have to bear that I become nothing like you."

Silent, so silent that only his own breathing can be heard.

He seemed to have really fallen asleep, and even the strength around my shoulders and back was lightened.

"Because I want you, you are so disgusted that you don't even want your own body? I made you disgusted to this extent?"

The hoarse voice suddenly sounded, revealing a strange tiredness, which made people startled.

My eyes suddenly became wet.Disgusted?Disgusting?Yes, I've never been so disgusted and disgusted, but not for you, but for myself.

"Because I'm weak and useless, because I can't resist you, that's why you treat me like that? I tried my best to improve my strength, and it's so insignificant that I'm so vulnerable in front of you. Doesn’t deserve dignity and deserves to be humiliated?”

"Why do you want me to understand this? Why do you want me to know that I am just a piece of shit? Why do you destroy my reason for trying to survive and crush my little but cherished dignity to make me realize how ridiculous and stupid I am? Why? You are the one who pushed me into this situation? I said that if you did this, I would never forgive you. Even if you valued me even a little bit, you would humiliate me in that way ?"

He didn't speak, but his breath became heavier and his breathing was a little faster.

"I have no reason to stay in this world. If I really can't die, then I want to go home and return to the original world, the world without you."

He took a deep breath, and the calm and low voice from his mouth was low and unhesitating and hit my eardrums.

"I suggest you get rid of this idea and don't force me to destroy your ability to travel through time and space. I don't guarantee that your system companion will not be affected during the process."

He's using his abilities to scare me and even threaten me with cat ear babies, he's serious.

I don't intend to make unnecessary entanglements and struggles. I am no match for him, neither in reality nor in words. In the final analysis, the confidence and weight of speaking are based on real strength.

[Ai Ya, little kiss. 】

In the middle of the night, I was awakened by a familiar voice in my head.

What's wrong?Sleepily, I asked Cat Ear Baby.

【You are always unhappy now, don't you want to stay with Kuroro so much? 】

Ask knowingly.

【He actually cares about you very much.I was anxious when you lost consciousness, and the doctors and nurses were helpless when Feitan sent you to the hospital.When he arrived, you happened to have a large pool of blood dripping out of your heart for no reason, and your entire chest was soaked in blood. He rushed to the bedside and hugged you, his face darkened terribly.Although he has always been calm and calm and used to not be able to see it, but at that time his eyes were really trembling faintly.Moreover, if he hadn't used his thought power to catalyze Lingshi Xueji in time, making it really turn into a liquid like flying snow for you to drink, maybe you really wouldn't be able to come back. 】

. . . and now you have your heart set on him.

[I'm just telling the truth. 】

Whoever asks you to tell the truth, believe it or not, I will beat you.

[I didn't show up because I was afraid you would scold me, hee hee. 】

It's okay, I'm asleep, you're not sleepy, I'm sleepy.

[No, I'm here to tell you that after you took Xueji, my system and your body's magnetic field seem to have been coordinated and synchronized. 】

I got refreshed, that is to say, the golden finger can be used?

[Yes, are you happy? 】

Then can you send me back to the original world directly?

[Don't you hurt Kuroro's heart like this?Moreover, you took his hard-earned Xue Ji to use my golden finger system again. Isn't it a little ungrateful for you to pat your ass and leave? 】

…Don’t talk too much, didn’t you hear him threatening me to destroy your ability to travel through time and space?

[Actually, apart from teleporting at fixed points in time and space within the hunter world, I have no ability to send you back to the original world. 】

I am surprised, why?

[Last time you committed suicide without any remorse, the boss's order was to give up on you and let me take over another time-traveling experimenter.I disobeyed the boss's instructions and insisted on saving you at a huge price. The boss removed me from the system in a rage, and I was no longer able to synchronize the connection with the system terminal.Fortunately, I am an independent system, so most of the functions are still there, but I have to get in touch with the system terminal to return to the original world, which is impossible now. 】

Mao Erying, it turns out that you have made such a big sacrifice for me, I don't know why you didn't tell me earlier, obviously you are so snarky at ordinary times.

[Because I am a real man, I must be handsome at critical moments! 】

Yes yes yes, handsome.

【hey-hey.To be serious, you are now having knots in your heart and desperately trying to get to the bottom of the horn. If you stay by Kuroro's side, you will only get more and more troublesome. It is wiser to keep a distance for a while.Kuroro is not much better than you, you two seem to be on the same page.A person who is obviously full of girl-picking skills and IQ is against the sky, how can he be so single-minded and not have to play abnormally when facing you?It's impossible for him to be fooled by you. 】

Who are you calling stupid?

[Uh, don't worry, slip of the tongue.Let's be serious, you're in an extremely bad mood right now, I thought about it, and I think it's best to send you to Qiya's side.You said that you have lost the meaning of living in this world, so I will send you to your little male god, who is the meaning of your first coming to this world.He is still living in this world well, so has the meaning of your life not completely disappeared? 】

Baby with cat ears, you are really...

[Get ready, let's go! 】

As expected, the space began to distort, and I laughed helplessly, Qi Ya?Perhaps, it might be possible to regain the original intention.I closed my eyes tightly, not looking at the person lying beside me.

The author has something to say: the hard work is over, and the next chapter will start to distribute sugar~~~~~