Nine thoughts of a gentleman in comprehensive martial arts

In fact, Jiu Si couldn't remember when he killed someone for the first time.

It was actually a night so dark that she didn't want to think about it. At that time, she was still very young, but she was twelve or thirteen years old. Although she was repeatedly taught by her brothers and sisters that the world is dangerous, Jiu Si was still almost innocent. Innocent.She had a small success in swordsmanship, and with Ye Ying's approval, she jumped into the rivers and lakes she had been looking forward to like a flying pigeon.After all, she was a child by nature when she was young, she found it interesting to watch everything, and her boiling blood made her want to make a name for herself, so that the whole world would remember her name and the name of Ye Ying's disciple Ye Jiusi.

Young and frivolous and ignorant, she met a poor woman and was almost abused by the villain. She protected the other party with a gentleman's demeanor, but she didn't want to be almost killed forever.

After being drugged, she bit off the antidote pill hidden in her mouth, and while pretending to be unconscious, she heard words that almost made her feel cold.The poor woman is indeed pitiful. She has been persecuted by dudes many times because of her good looks, and she has already been cornered.I wanted to accept my fate at this point, Zuo was just being someone else's concubine, but when I overheard the jokes of the dandies, I just thought that the dandies just wanted to tease her, and they planned to play with her after they got her. To the brothel.In desperation, the girl pushed Ye Jiusi out in order to save herself.

Ye Jiusi rescued her, but in order to protect herself, she had to send Ye Jiusi to those beasts with her own hands.

At that time, although Jiusi was saddened by the other party's selfishness, he also knew her difficulties.Thinking of helping her solve the trouble and then breaking it off, who would have thought that when he was fighting with the dude, the man would actually pull her in front of him as a shield.Ye Jiusi's sword energy had already been sent out, but she couldn't catch it, and she was a poor girl who didn't know martial arts, so Ye Jiusi's sword directly killed her.

That was Ye Jiusi's first murder.

Later, Ye Jiusi settled her parents and brother, sent them away from this place of right and wrong, and gave them a large sum of money.The woman's parents value sons over daughters, and don't care about a daughter's life or death. On the contrary, they keep cursing her as a money-losing product, attracting dudes and ruining her brother's future.Ye Jiusi listened quietly for a long time, but when she left, her face was full of tears.

What is wrong with a woman?Her selfishness, is it not because no one loves her?She can only love herself more.

Ye Jiusi had forgotten her name.What once felt too heavy to let go has now turned into a grain of sand in the wind.Just because there are so many sufferings in life?Thinking about it, the guilt and uneasiness that tormented her day and night were just a small part of it.When the years turn into a long river, constantly scouring the gravel, it still hurts when you step on it, but you have already gotten used to it and become numb.

The air that was almost frozen was filled with a strong murderous intent, and the wind blowing from a distance smelled disgustingly rusty.

Ye Jiusi held a sword and stood on the hill formed by piles of corpses, her hair like splashed ink was loosely pulled up with a piece of white satin, revealing a small piece of ice-white skin on her neck.She had the Flame Return Sword hanging around her waist, but she only held an ordinary iron sword in her hand. There were scarlet blood beads rolling on the blade, and her shoes and clothes were all stained red by the blood.

She carried the sword and strolled through the valley full of bones, her casual posture seemed to be strolling in a small courtyard full of flowers and brocades.Her eyelids drooped slightly, her face was cold and indifferent, it was obvious that she was Shura who had walked out of the sea of ​​blood on the mountain of corpses, but she still had a high appearance, as clean as the coldest and cleanest handful of deep snow on the top of Kunlun Mountain, her whole body was cold, Cold and lonely.

Ye Jiusi walked alone towards the exit that just appeared not far from the valley, but she couldn't prevent an afterimage flashing in front of her, which made her stop and raised her eyes slightly.

"Weak, too weak." The unruly and handsome Demon Venerable stood in the sky, looked down at Ye Jiusi who was standing below, and said disdainfully, "It took so long to just write miscellaneous things like this."

Ye Jiusi was silent and didn't give any response. To Chonglou, it was just a monster that could be dealt with with one move, but it took her two days. It was indeed too weak.

She thought she was dead, and although she was unwilling, she was not without a sense of relief.No need to be immersed in despair and loneliness day and night, no need to force yourself to face the death of the master, no need to endure the heart-piercing pain of a broken soul.She was just unwilling to save Master, but at that moment she wanted to escape, wanted to be a coward, and was unwilling to face the too cruel reality.

When she woke up, she lay with her eyes closed for a long time, until she was really sure that she was still alive, then she pressed her heart that was so painful that it was numb, and hugged Yan Guijian tightly and fell into silence.

Later she was taken to the Demon Palace, and the red-haired man sitting on the high seat was clearly the one who had seriously injured her before.She listened to the other party's words in silence, and only then did she realize that she was facing the supreme existence in the demon world, and it was normal to lose.The other party said that she was now a prisoner and had to obey orders. Ye Jiusi had nothing to do, but a jade slip thrown by the other party attracted all eyes.

Space magic, tearing space, creating a unique dimension, blue sky and yellow spring, the six worlds can come and go freely.

Just by saying "All the six worlds can come and go", Ye Jiusi's heart was filled with waves that cannot be ignored.At the beginning, she didn't know where her master's remnant soul had gone. She stepped on the Kunlun Skylight and went straight to the sky, and traveled every piece of land in the world of immortals and gods, but she found nothing in the end.She wants to go to other worlds to find it, but there is no way to travel between different worlds.Afterwards, she searched countless documents and found out that the Yiying Branch in the Hall of Impermanence can enter the ghost world.

Looking at the Six Realms, the only person who can come and go freely in the Six Realms is the Demon Zunlou, the immortal demon who guards the well of gods and demons, is almost her greatest hope.

Therefore, Ye Jiusi bowed his head and declared himself a minister without the slightest hesitation.

Mo Zunlou's character is self-centered and self-willed, which Ye Jiusi has already deeply realized.Although the other party said that she was a prisoner, he never made things difficult or insulted her. He just gave her orders every day, asking her to go out to destroy monsters, or fight against some unruly generals in the demon world.And when she returned after completing the task, her partner would throw a piece of jade slip or a piece of brocade silk, most of which contained only a few sentences about space magic, short and concise, and it took her to read it for a long time before she could barely understand the meaning.

Ye Jiusi just accepted the task numbly and completed it. Every day, he walked out of the mountain of corpses and the sea of ​​blood. The disgusting smell of blood lingered for a long time.

By chance, Ye Jiusi knew that the golden light on her soul was a merit, and she thought with some self-deprecation that if she really accumulated blessings, why did she end up in such a situation?She had resentment in her heart, but she also knew that Master needed these, so she poured all these merits into the Flame Returning Sword, leaving nothing for herself.She doesn't know what the consequences will be if she continues to kill like this, but since her merits can help Master even a little bit, she shouldn't waste these merits.Even if she ends up being entangled in killing and evil, without the protection of merit, she doesn't care anymore.

Left is just a dead word.

But after that, Ye Jiusi found out strangely that his merits increased instead of diminished, and even became stronger.The murder is not without it, but it will dissipate soon.Puzzled, she asked Chonglou's general, Xifeng, and only then did she know the reason - this is the cause and effect that cultivators pay the most attention to.Most of the demons she killed did evil and harmed countless people. They were demons who hated the living, so naturally they killed many humans.Ye Jiusi didn't commit any crimes by killing them, but he saved people, so the merits in his body became stronger and stronger.

This is also the reason why most of the cultivators live away from this world, cut off love and love, and leave no children.If the children and grandchildren do good deeds, the cultivator will naturally benefit a lot, but if one of the descendants does evil, the cultivator will have to bear the consequences.

"I have been on the battlefield, and I have killed countless innocent people on the battlefield?" Ye Jiusi asked.

"In this way, it is related to the country, and has nothing to do with the individual." Xifeng thought for a moment, and then replied, "The difference between the position, the killing and the merit are different, the way of heaven will calculate the right and wrong, and the invading country will bear most of the burden It doesn’t matter whether you win or not. But just defending the country, you will suffer less evil, and with the faith and will of the people, you can completely offset the evil.”

Hearing this, Ye Jiusi stood on the edge of the cliff holding the Yangui sword for a long time. Since then, she has never resisted any killing tasks, and most of the merits she has obtained have also been transferred to the Yangui sword.

Ye Jiusi lowered her head slightly, listening to Chong Lou's seemingly taunting lecture, but her eyes fell on Yan Guijian, as if the sky fell and could not shake her in the slightest.

Chong Lou couldn't see her look of despair, after a moment of silence, he said two words coldly: "Coward."

Ye Jiusi was slightly taken aback, she raised her head to look at the Chonglou, the exquisite and elegant forehead ornament on her forehead swayed scattered starlight, but her picturesque and beautiful face seemed to be made of ice jade, as cold as snow, with jade bones Contains cream.

Chonglou frowned at Junmei, and said sharply with disgust and sarcasm: "Stand still, don't know how to change! Do you really regard your master as the sky and the earth? After learning his swordsmanship, knowing that there are still things that can be improved, but until today He refuses to modify his swordsmanship half a point! You become a fairy, but use a mortal sword, you treat him as an impassable mountain, trap yourself in it, and refuse to surpass him by half a point, because you feel that you will always be weaker than him !"

"Aren't you just a coward?! You are a fool who is a prisoner, even the lowest level of monsters can despise you!"

Ye Jiusi's heart was shocked, she held Yangui firmly, opened her mouth, but couldn't say anything.

Thoughts seemed to turn into lingering threads, wrapping her layer by layer, and her mind was in chaos. Ye Jiusi stood in the mud, gradually sinking, but could not get out.

She took Ye Ying too seriously, so much that she restrained herself and ruined herself.

In Ye Jiusi's mind, there has never been such a thought as "the blue is better than the blue".For her, Ye Ying is the backer in her heart, the backer of the entire hidden sword, indestructible and unstoppable.Over the years, she was making progress, and Ye Ying was also making progress, so she never realized that she had already drawn a circle for herself and locked herself inside.

Climbing the ladder, she has been walking behind Ye Ying, stepping on the traces left by Ye Ying with every step. What she has been walking is the road that Ye Ying has walked.

Until Ye Ying left her, she stepped on the trace left by Ye Ying's last step, looking around in a daze, but like a lost child, she only knew that the road ahead was boundless, but she didn't know how to continue walking.

She has long been able to create her own martial arts, but she is still stubborn to learn Ye Ying's mind, and she doesn't know how to master it; she has already understood that Xinjian can be one step closer, but she still stubbornly believes that it is the master's sword, and she should not go to it. Change it; she should have walked out of her own way of swordsmanship, but she firmly believes that Ye Ying's way of swordsmanship is her way of swordsmanship, so that she has not yet realized her own way of swordsmanship.

It's not that she can't change, it's not that she won't change.She doesn't want to change, and she doesn't want to change.

It was as if he could deceive himself that Ye Ying would come back, and would continue to hold her hand, walking all the rest of the way.

Coward, isn't she a coward?

Ye Jiusi held Yangui in his arms, and stood there in a daze, his breath was depressed, his eyes were dim, as if he was in a trance, but the watery light that occasionally flashed across his eyes was so cold and painful that it made people feel distressed.

Chonglou cursed in a low voice, and said to Xifeng: "Take care of her, from today onwards, if she takes any mission, you will follow her."

Xifeng was puzzled, but bowed his head in response. He thought that Chonglou wanted him to monitor Ye Jiusi and not let her escape, but unexpectedly Chonglou jumped away, leaving only one sentence, "Don't let her commit suicide."

Xifeng didn't understand what it meant, and thought to himself, it's not that he was tired of work, otherwise why would he commit suicide?But he didn't dare to disobey Chonglou's order, so he could only follow Ye Jiusi every step of the way, watching her stand in the valley dazedly, letting the smelly cold wind dry the blood on her clothes. by her side, but inexplicably felt as if she was the only one left in the whole world.

Xifeng's puzzlement was answered not long after.

It rained in the valley not long ago, and the stream wind hated the rain in the demon world, because the rain in the demon world was neither clear nor crystal clear, and had a turbid smell.Xifeng wanted to avoid the heavy rain, so he walked over and wanted to say something to Ye Jiusi, but he was caught off guard, and suddenly met Ye Jiusi's eyes.

What kind of eyes are those?Lonely and cold, deep and hopeless, dark and empty.Xifeng can even see the changing clouds of a world in it, the silence of mountains and rivers, with the hatred and remorse that the wind wants to break, such heavy love and hate are intertwined, as if it has completely crushed this world. A woman's spine, just looking at it, almost makes people cry like rain.

Xifeng was so shocked that he took a few steps back, the dark clouds in the sky seemed to be startled for a moment, the raindrops fell, and then it rained cats and dogs.

Xifeng stood opposite Ye Jiusi and looked at her quietly. He didn't dare to speak even though both of them were embarrassed by the rain.He could only watch silently as the blood-stained white-clothed woman was soaked by the heavy rain, which washed away the blood and dust from her body, but it couldn't wash away her loneliness.Standing in the rain, she closed her eyes as if she was tired and gave up, as if she had been forgotten by the whole world.

Standing in the rain, she was alone but like a wandering soul. The stream wind even suspected that in the next second, she would turn into smoke and dissipate in the sky.

Then Xifeng saw her slowly raise her hand to catch Yangui, and then a bright sword light passed his eyes.The woman in white has already turned around, facing the bones in the valley, and slashed down with her sword!

Xifeng didn't understand swords, and he didn't know what the extreme of a sword was, but the moment Ye Jiusi slashed out with his sword, he felt his heart beating heavily, and then the whole world was suffocated by it.

In just an instant, Xifeng's breath, heartbeat, and even the time of the whole world seemed to stop for an instant with the swing of the sword.

The ultimate silence.

It seemed like a long time had passed, and it seemed that it was only a short snap of the fingers, when Xi Feng heard the sound of rain again, and then suddenly came back to his senses.He took a deep breath, tried his best to suppress his trembling body, and his heart was beating violently. Because of the shock and horror that was almost thrown out of the sky at that moment, he thought with some panic, maybe using the sword as a weapon The heavenly general Fei Peng can't use such a sword, can he?

How frivolous is that sword that silenced the entire world?

Yes, it is frivolous.

That kind of decisiveness that would go on despite tens of thousands of people, that kind of aloofness that will be destroyed once everything is done, the common people in the world, the way of morality, and even their own life and death are completely ignored, leaving only one person and one sword.She seemed to be stepping on the dusty calamity of life, and her sorrows and joys were gone.Life and death, love and hate, passionate and unfeeling, extreme contradictions and extreme emotions, burst out the most tragic loneliness and longing in an instant.

She used to live happily, but also experienced a bleak death; she once dedicated her love to one person, and hated the injustice of fate;

Her way of swordsmanship is also quiet, but it is not Ye Ying's way of tranquility and peace—it is the way of stepping over white bones, through thousands of years, when the world is boundless, there is an eternal silence.

Xifeng watched from afar the afterimage that was blurred by the rain. He raised his hand to wipe the rain off his face, and couldn't help but smile wryly.

It turns out that there really is such love in the world. After you die, the whole world loses its voice. Standing at the edge of the sky and the corner of the sea, the paleness of life can no longer be wiped off with half of its color.

Ye Jiusi looked down at the Flame Returning Sword in his hand, and after a long silence, there was a bleak heartbreak where his reason was shattered.

Master, it turns out that when we have all come to this point, I realized that even in despair, I do not regret loving you.

The author has something to say: ………………… Ahem, I’m not a pervert, I didn’t deliberately write a chapter about HI, this chapter abuses you…………………

It's just that Xiao Jiu'er's kendo has been dragged on for too long, and I'll almost forget it if I don't write it out..._(:зゝ∠)_

Could there be someone who doesn't quite understand what Xiao Jiu'er's kendo is?This so-called tranquility is more extreme, love to the extreme, hate to the extreme.Jiusi's sword is actually a kind of analysis of her own heart, just like the last sentence of this article.She said before that she would rather not have loved, because she felt that she had harmed Ye Ying, but Xiao Jiu'er said that she had no regrets, that even if she had to endure such despair, she was still willing to love him.

So after picking and choosing, I still chose this sentence in "Shangxie", "I want to know each other with you, and I will live forever", which means no regrets.

This chapter can be regarded as completely unraveling Xiao Jiuer's knot in her heart. She will no longer imprison herself because of Ye Ying, and she can look at her feelings for Ye Ying in another way. It's not that Ye Ying is regarded as a god, as an insurmountable existence.

So, what kind of "quietness" is Xiao Jiuer's "quietness"?

This feeling is very abstract. The author read a passage of text by accident before, so let me use it as an explanation for this chapter.

[After you left, there is no loneliness

After you're gone, there's no pain

When you're gone, there's no fear

After you left, there was no singing

only my heartbeat

Broken Star and Doom

After you leave, I have nothing]

Just want to express this kind of love, right?When Ye Ying was around, Xiao Jiu'er would pay attention to the beautiful things in the whole world, and turn them into words to tell Ye Ying, at this time, Xiao Jiu'er also got the whole world?But after Ye Ying's death, she lost the meaning of doing so, and also lost the reason to do so. She could only see Ye Ying alone, but at this time Ye Ying was no longer by her side.

So, she has nothing.

This chapter is so difficult to write/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~ The author has really worked hard, but I don’t know if I can express what I want to express!

If you don't understand, you must ask!I will explain it~~!In addition, don't say that I will sprinkle glass scum for you, let's distribute candy as soon as possible after the abuse, shall we?Hurry up, hurry up and finish the fairy sword world, then open the sugar jar and soak in honey! ! !

I can't take it anymore, I feel like I'm going to go crazy if I write any more.

In addition, I would like to thank [Wish to save the day and night with a hundred years], [Delusion], and [One Leaf Heart Shadow] for their rewards! ! !Because the author ranks people based on the replies, I am very sorry if there are any omissions!

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