Forced to open

"Anger" is so real, "Love" is so deep-rooted.

Lu Yuan kissed Yu Qing's ears along his shoulders and neck, pulled off his pajamas and hugged his waist tightly, wishing he could break him in his arms.

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In front of Lu Yuan was the wheat field that Yu Qing took him into again, a gust of wind blew by, and the bright afternoon sun made him unable to open his eyes.

He sucked the breath from Yu Qing's body hard, the fragrance was very clean, which just calmed down the restlessness in Lu Yuan's body.But the flames on his chest continued to burn, making Lu Yuan feel at a loss as to what to do.

Lu Yuan finally got rid of the nightmares of the past few years, and his roar at Ye Xu finally settled all the resentment in his heart.

Lu Yuan never thought that there would be such a hoarse release, but the peace he found in the end was also in the ruins after the eruption.

Under the dust of the ruins, there is a fresh life, a future that belongs to him and Yu Qing, and a seed called 'love' that grows desperately.

Once the abyss brought all emotions into the land of 'sex', and now...

What now?

The emotion in Lu Yuan's chest seemed to tear him apart, but the flame never went towards his lower abdomen...

The usually restless 'two//dang//home' is also lying quietly in the crotch at this time, without any trace of raising his head...

"What's wrong with you?" Yu Qing sensed Lu Yuan's abnormality, brushed his fingers across his cheeks, and asked pantingly, "Do you feel uncomfortable after drinking?"

Lu Yuan quickly stood up from the stool, swallowed and said, "I'm a little dizzy...I'm going to take a shower first. You...you continue to read the materials, I won't disturb you."

After speaking, he turned around and fled, even his back looked embarrassed.

Yu Qing stared blankly at him, but the porridge on the table hadn't cooled down yet.

12-1 (below)

Facing 'sex//love', unprecedented embarrassment and inferiority arose in Lu Yuan's heart, "Doctor Qi, I can't accept...how is it possible?"

The eruption of emotions when meeting Ye Xu brought about earth-shaking changes, Lu Yuan could feel the abundant and abundant love for Yuqing in his heart, as if all of them were gathered here after the fog of 'anger' was cleared away , Blooming for love.

But the love is strong, and Lu Yuan feels more and more 'stretched' when facing the remaining affection.He hugged Yu Qing and wished to embed the other person into his body, but it was difficult to put this idea into action as in the past, unable to 'unity of love//desire'.

"Doctor Qi, I know that my previous state was not right and I have mental problems...but now I..."

Lu Yuan originally thought that he drank alcohol that day, which affected his physical condition.

But for several days in a row, there is still love but 'nothing can be done', and love sets off the atmosphere, but every time it is time to attack the city and plunder the land, it is 'out of reach'.

Recently, the "Wukong" project is about to enter a critical stage, so Yu Qing often works overtime, and doesn't pay attention to Lu Yuan's non-"wooing" behavior, and concentrates on work.

Lu Yuan held back for a few days and finally called Dr. Qi, hesitating and unable to speak.

Doctor Qi first asked Lu Yuan to briefly talk about what happened recently, and then asked him about his feelings, including the former butterfly and the current wild rose.When Lu Yuan talked about his outburst when facing Ye Xu, that kind of anger seemed to accumulate all the anger of several years.He talked about his heartbeat when facing Yuqing, and the moment when the emotion flowed seemed to melt his body.

One after the other, like going through heaven and hell, like going through four seasons, spring and autumn, the extreme tearing made Lu Yuan's soul seem to be soaked in the ocean of emotions.

In the end, under Dr. Qi's repeated counseling, Lu Yuan hesitated and explained his current physical condition, "I've never been in such a situation before, how could I? I..."

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"Calm down, let me judge your current situation of 'not lifting'..."

"I can't calm down, so don't you say those two words!" Lu Yuan took a deep breath, his head buzzing as if offended, "I can't stand it."

Dr. Qi was silent for a moment on the other end of the phone, first comforting Lu Yuan's emotions, and then said, "I think the current situation is caused by psychological problems, and has little to do with physiology... If you are worried, you can go to the hospital Check it out and make a decision."

"Don't go!" If Lu Yuan hadn't known the cause and effect of Dr. Nian Zai Qi, he would definitely not have asked him for help, "I have no problem."

Doctor Qi chatted with him for a few more words, and as Lu Yuan relaxed, he cut to the point: "In the past few years, you have closed yourself off to your feelings, so your body is used to using 'sex' to convey and channel emotions and feelings. You've had some changes in the way you express your emotions recently, and your body can't keep up, can't adapt ... that's normal."

"Normal?" Lu Yuan shouted into the phone, "Aren't you kidding me?! You said there was something wrong with my previous state, I accept it, but you said I am normal now? I can't tell anyone this Accept it!"

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Since Lu Yuan opened the meat, he has tasted wind, moon, cloud and rain, but he has never experienced the feeling of not knowing how to face the person next to him.Lu Yuan became restless when he thought of this, and felt even more uncomfortable when facing Yu Qing when he returned home, wishing to find a crack in the ground to sneak in, with shame and inferiority lingering inexplicably in his heart.

"If it's purely a psychological problem, you need to find a balance, balance your emotions and body, balance the past and the future, and most importantly, balance your relationship with your surroundings..."

"I don't understand what you mean. I thought it was a good thing that I could feel love, which means that my condition is better than before!" Lu Yuan broke down emotionally, and fell into deep anxiety about himself within a few days. 23 A four-year-old young man is at the time when he has no restraint on 'sex', not to mention Lu Yuan's barren//prostitution//no// days in the past few years, just replace him with a mentally healthy young man, I definitely can't bear the symptoms of 'not lifting' when facing a beautiful and delicious lover at this age*!

In the past few years, Lu Yuan cooperated with the treatment, and he listened to everything Dr. Qi said, but who wants to find love but lose...sex? ? ?

With sex and no love, Lu Yuan feels emptiness and disgust.

There is love without sex, who the hell is willing to accept such love?

Lu Yuan felt that he had not only lost his 'sex', but lost again, lost the ability to love someone again.

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"Emotional expression is self-expression, and when it comes to emotions and relationships, it's not just about you alone, it involves people around you... Lovers, family members, they will all become important in the process of expressing your emotions link, you should work it out with them.”

"... "

"You used to close yourself because of the previous relationship, and you came out of the self-isolation because you met new people, which in itself is beneficial to you. But your current situation is more special. You are ending the negativity brought about by the previous relationship. Emotions, again after the start... the stress you feel is reflected in your body."

"...I know that what I love is Yuqing, and I'm not confused at all."

"I know, but your emotions will be difficult to control because of a lot of anger. This comes from a previous relationship. Letting go requires a process and time. And 'letting go' is not just that you no longer love him, but also that you have released your anger. Find peace." Dr. Qi paused for a while, and then said, "Your emotions will also be unstoppable because you feel love again, this is the most direct manifestation of being attracted to others, and it also shows that you are constantly getting better."

"... "

"When the two collide, you will be confused and feel pain. These are all due to the backlog for too long. People who have not experienced long-term emotional depression may feel at a loss in this collision, let alone you..."

"Doctor Qi, I don't want to do this, I just want to love him well." Lu Yuan could feel that his heart was filled with love for Yu Qing, but he felt something was wrong.He thought it was because of Ye Xu's appearance that he was upset, but now it seems that there is something wrong with himself, something wrong with his heart, "Why is it so difficult? I just want to love him, is it so difficult?" ?”

"A person's ability to bear is limited. The squeeze of several years will break out during this period, so you will find it difficult. 'Loving someone well' is also a kind of ability, you have to adjust slowly to feel this ability. .At times like this you need his support and you have to tell him the truth."

Lu Yuan almost threw the phone in his hand, "How could I tell..." Is Lu Yuan going to tell Yu Qing everything?What was Lu Yuan's mind when they knew each other?Lu Yuan's physical and psychological condition these years?And now Lu Yuan is hard//Can't get up?

"Lu Yuan, I understand your worries and fears. But when encountering similar situations, I would suggest patients to face together with their partners. You have to have confidence in your partner. 'Facing together' can not only give patients confidence, but also It can reduce the damage caused by misunderstanding."

"impossible!"

Lu Yuan rubbed his temples, and while hanging up the phone, he muttered mentally: These things have made him a mess in the past few years, how could he let Yu Qing know?How could it be possible for Yu Qing to bear such unbearable past and present with him when she first fell in love with him?

It's impossible!

12-2

"Why do I feel that you are not in a good state these days?" Xu Wei works with Lu Yuan every day, seeing his emotional ups and downs and taking good care of him, "Are you under too much pressure? Don't worry too much about the project."

Lu Yuan nodded, absent-minded, "I'm fine."

"I think your complexion is not very good," Xu Wei thought for a while, and then said to Lu Yuan, "Although I think we can continue to follow up with the people from Teng Yue, but you don't need to care about it, and if you refuse, just refuse. Let's be good players It’s fine as long as it’s in, and there won’t be any major problems.”