Doctor Jiang is very gentle

Jiang Lai seldom showed his emotions, and when she shed tears, Cen Miao suddenly panicked.

"I speak too hard, don't cry, it's my fault."

Cen Miao hugged Jiang Lai, who was crying silently, in his arms. After all, Cen Miao was too afraid of Jiang Lai's accident, so he would speak unscrupulously. He really hoped that she would be sad.

Jiang Lai let her hold him, without any response or rejection.For a moment, Cen Miao felt that she couldn't catch Jiang Lai anymore. From any level, she didn't seem to really understand Jiang Lai.

Jiang Lai murmured: "She...she died because of me, I promised her that I would definitely save her..."

Cen Miao took a deep breath and almost cried along with Jiang Lai, but Cen Miao still held back, she didn't want to add other burdens to Jiang Lai.

"It's not your fault, it's not your fault, it's fate...don't blame yourself."

Jiang Lai shook her head, and stubbornly took the responsibility on herself, but she couldn't convince herself.

The person was pushed out and covered with a white cloth.

Jiang Lai stood up, escaped from Cen Miao's embrace, trotted towards the stretcher bed, stretched out his hand to grab the edge of the bed, the tentacles were cold, without a trace of life, he was clearly a person who was so alive a few hours ago.

The doctor in charge of the rescue said to Jiang Lai: "When he arrived, he was already dead... We tried our best to save him."

Jiang Lai clung to the cold aluminum and platinum on the edge of the bed, squatted down slowly, buried his head between his hands, and wept uncontrollably.The last time she cried like this was in high school.

"Doctor Jiang, please forgive me."

The doctor who rescued her didn't know the relationship between the dead girl and Jiang Lai, and thought it was her sister or some other relative.Under the circumstances, there is nothing more to say except a word of condolence.

Standing behind Jiang Lai, Cen Miao saw her sad look and wanted to approach her to comfort her, he stretched out his hand vainly and stopped in mid-air, then withdrew it.A voice was telling Cen Miu that Jiang Lai really didn't need her now, neither comfort nor encouragement.In the end, Cen Miao chose to leave Jiang Lai alone for a while, and he just quietly waited for her to recover.

Jiang Lai like this reminded Cen Miao of the past.There was one thing that was buried in Cen Miu's heart for a long time, so long that even she almost forgot about it.

At that time, Cen Miu was still in junior high school, he was in the rebellious period, and he was also undergoing the transformation from childhood to teenage girl, with a sensitive and delicate mind.But Cen Yugui was not a competent father, and he never stopped beating and scolding Cen Miu, let alone any psychological counseling.

One day, Cen Miao felt a dull pain in his stomach as if being grabbed by someone, and a warm current flowed down from his abdomen.She ran to the toilet, took off her trousers to check, and it turned out that her period had come.Although it was her first menstruation, Cen Miao was not so foolish as to think that he was bleeding because he was sick.

But Cen Miao was inexperienced in dealing with this matter, and he did not prepare sanitary napkins in his school bag.She was in trouble for a while and didn't know what to do. After thinking about it, she decided to borrow it from a classmate in the toilet with the cheek.

Through the gap under the toilet door, Cen Mi saw a person wearing white canvas shoes queuing up outside the door, so she opened the door a crack and asked, "Student, can you lend me a sanitary napkin?"

As soon as he finished speaking, when he saw the face of the person standing outside the door, Cen Miao was so ashamed that he wanted to crawl into the ground.As an inexperienced girl, at the time of menstruation, she bumped into her neighbor's elder sister, Jiang Lai, who had trouble getting along with her, it was... embarrassing.

Seeing that it was Cen Miu, Jiang Lai was stunned for a few seconds before saying, "Okay, wait for me." After finishing speaking, he turned and left the bathroom.

Not long after, Jiang Lai went back to the toilet, passed the sanitary napkin to Cen Miao through the crack of the door, Cen Miao took it with a blushing face, and said embarrassedly, "Thank you, Miss Jiang Lai."

Jiang Lai did not leave immediately, but asked in her usual cold and flat voice, "Is this your first time here? Do you know how to use sanitary napkins?"

Cen Miu's face turned redder immediately, how did Jiang Lai know that it was her first menstruation?Out of face, Cen Miao said bravely, "No...you don't have to worry about me."

Jiang Lai said: "I'll be waiting outside the door, if you need help, just call me."

"it is good……"

Cen Miao took apart the sanitary napkin, and sure enough, she was at a loss. Although she had seen it in the advertisement, she didn't know how to use it.

After doing ideological work for a long time, Cen Mi finally resigned to his fate and said to the people outside: "Sister Jiang Lai, teach me..."

The sound was so soft that Jiang Lai could even hear it. She knocked on the door and entered the toilet cubicle, and then taught Cen Miao how to use sanitary napkins with a calm face, no different from teaching her to do homework.

"That's good, have you learned?"

Cen Mi turned his face aside: "Yes."

She never expected that Jiang Lai would do the work that should be done by mother, such as teaching her daughter to change sanitary napkins.

That night, Cen Miao had a dream, the kind of dream girls would have.

She dreamed that she was on the school playground, and there was a person swinging on a swing in the distance. The white canvas shoes were very bright in the sun, fluctuating up and down, as if they were about to swing into her heart.

Cen Miao's heart beat faster, and a rush of hot blood rushed to her forehead, an unprecedented throbbing from her heart all the way to her lower abdomen, making her feel uncomfortable all over.

The person on the swing stopped at this moment and walked towards her step by step. The originally blurred face became clear. It was a beautiful face with a straight nose, shining eyes, black eyebrows and red lips.

If it was the past, Cen Mi would have pretended not to see Jiang Lai and ran away when she saw Jiang Lai, but this time she was frozen in place as if by some spell, unable to move.She was looking forward to something, looking forward to some kind of unspeakable secret.

Jiang Lai is withdrawn and introverted, but in Cen Mi's dream, there is a smile on his face, as if the spring breeze blows through the ice for thousands of miles, turning into a spring rain, nourishing all things, and making certain things take root and sprout.

Then, as it should be, as if it was natural, Jiang Lai leaned over and kissed Cen Miao's lips.At this moment Cen Miao realized that this must be a dream, Jiang Lai in the dream would take the initiative to approach her and kiss her.But the feeling in the dream was so satisfying and intoxicating that Cen Miao didn't want to wake up.

After kissing until he couldn't breathe, Cen Miao woke up with a start, a dense layer of sweat appeared on his forehead, it turned out that he felt difficult to breathe because his head was suffocated by the quilt.

But everything in the dream is so real, every detail is vivid... Cen Mi feels ashamed that she had a dream, why did she dream of kissing someone, and the kissing object is Jiang Lai?It's obvious that she and Jiang Lai are so distant... Could it be that she likes Jiang Lai?Impossible, Cen Mi immediately denied this idea, she thought that she and Jiang Lai would never be able to be friends.

Twelve or thirteen-year-olds use the same method to prove their likes and dislikes, and that is to work hard.

Cen Miao is no exception. The way she does it is to grab Jiang Lai's sister, and she always pulls Jiang Zhen together for everything. Jiang Zhen doesn't understand Cen Miao's careful thinking, and often brings Jiang Lai together. A small group of threesomes in the alley.

Jiang Lai has no objection to this small team of three, in fact she has no objection to anything, no matter how many people are playing together, she always looks indifferent, and always has an attitude of not caring about the existence of Cen Miao.

Cen Miao is different, she said that being with Jiang Lai is boring, but in fact she always subconsciously wants to attract Jiang Lai's attention, and wants Jiang Lai to notice her, so Jiang Lai always acts indifferent, Cen Miao couldn't help but explode.Later, Jiang Lai's impression of Cen Miao became: an explosive/powder bag that explodes at the touch of a touch.

Of course, Cen Miao's probing and proving had the opposite effect. Cen Miao hid her feelings for Jiang Lai deeper and deeper, so deep that even she herself agreed that she really didn't like Jiang Lai.

Jiang Zhen is a typical peacemaker, always trying to bring the two of them together, but Jiang Lai is passive and introverted, and Cen Miao has serious conflicts, the more they are matched, the more rigid the relationship will become.Later, the two looked completely different at Jiang Zhen's funeral, Jiang Lai was distracted the whole time, but Cen Miao was crying heartbreakingly.Cen Mi blamed Jiang Lai for being heartless, and he never spoke to Jiang Lai again in a fit of anger.

Cen Mi always thought that Jiang Lai was just as she appeared on the surface, a person who was withdrawn and indifferent by nature, without great compassion or joy.Even if her own sister died, she could still deal with it calmly.But in fact it doesn't seem to be the case, Jiang Lai is too good at hiding, Cen Miao thinks he understands, maybe only one ten-thousandth of Jiang Lai's understanding.

Cen Mi has subconsciously approached Jiang Lai since he was a child, no matter in study or in life.Even so, she feels like she's never really done it.Like all those who failed to get close to Jiang Lai, she was blocked by an invisible wall and could not enter Jiang Lai's heart.

Everyone wants to be that unique and important person, and so does Cen Miao.All she wants is Jiang Lai's unique care and love for her. She wants to be the most special person and the only one in Jiang Lai's eyes.

The desire in Cen Miu's heart has been accumulated over the past ten years, from secretly anticipating to blatantly.Longing swells and grows to a somewhat morbid state.She knew very well that this kind of boundless possessiveness would ruin her relationship with Jiang Lai, but that demonic emotion was slowly biting her, making her want more, more.

Even if Jiang Lai took another look for others, Cen Mi would go crazy with jealousy.But Jiang Lai's love is destined to be distributed to many people. She will be a good doctor, as selfless as Nightingale, but she will not be able to give someone a burning love.

At this time, Jiang Lai was crying for others.Cen Mi couldn't help thinking that if the person lying on the stretcher was her, Jiang Lai might cry like this too.Big love has no boundaries, Cen Mi doesn't want such a big love, she wants a selfish little love.

Yi Ling's body was finally pushed away, Jiang Lai stared at the end of the long aisle in a daze, and it took an indefinite amount of time before he seemed to realize that Cen Miao was still beside him.

Jiang Lai opened his mouth, his voice was already hoarse: "I'm not a good doctor..."

Cen Mi looked straight at Jiang Lai: "You are, you have always been."

Jiang Lai lowered his eyes to look at Cen Miao's eyes, saw that those phoenix eyes were full of sadness, and suddenly realized that today was supposed to be their date, but the date Cen Miao had been looking forward to for a long time turned out to be like this, bloody, There is no romance at all.

"I'm sorry..." Jiang Lai's eyes were red, like a child who did something wrong, "I don't seem to be a good girlfriend, and I made you sad again. I'm sorry, I don't want to do this."

Cen Miao: "..."

This evening, there was a heavy rain in city A, which washed away the blood of the car accident, but it couldn't wash away the sorrow and joy in the world.

The joy of birth and the sorrow of death are happening in this city every day, but human life is only a few decades in a hurry, as short as flowers.

When Cen Miao went home alone, there happened to be an old song on the car, and it was a bit appropriate:

"At first, you didn't care

I'm innocent as a teenager

The love in the world of mortals is only because of the hasty and silent stagnation of life

想 是 人 的 错

或 前世 流传 的 因果

Everything in life is at the expense of the exchange of yin and yang for a moment"

If it weren't for being young and inexperienced, how could you hide your love for someone in your subconscious, to the point where you can't even notice it.

Jiang Lai never asked why Cen Miao kept saying that he was crooked even though he had never talked about his first love.

The author has something to say: the previous details are also obvious. In fact, Cen Miao hates Dr. Jiang on the surface, but in fact, he secretly loves him subconsciously.

Please accept my "Echo" in advance, click on the author's column and there will be one, write this first for the next book.