emperor of a dynasty

Seeing that she didn't speak, the king asked her with a serious face, "Is there something unspeakable?"

She looked hesitant, wondering if she should confess to the king at this time.

"Tell everyone around you to stay away, Wugu ordered you not to come near this courtyard." The king emptied out the people in the small courtyard, and said to her, "Can we talk now? Let Gu listen to what you have to hide ,Um……"

Wang rested his chin with his left hand leisurely, raised a pair of beautiful long eyebrows casually, then looked at her with some amusement and said, "I have always felt that Mrs. Gu is thin-skinned and tender, let Gu guess—— General Gu's unspeakable secret, could it be that Mr. Gu likes men?"

Her heart trembled, and she didn't know why, but felt that the king's words were quite meaningful. She took a deep breath, then kowtowed three times to the king, and said, "I... King's crime."

After speaking, it seems that it is not so difficult to continue.

"Chen, I'm... in the form of a daughter, how can I turn into a son and go to the battlefield...

The minister's family was originally a military household, but his father and brother both died in the battle, and they had no fame. What they got in exchange was only three years of tax exemption. When the minister was 14 years old, the conscription order was issued again. According to the law, the tax was paid, but the minister’s family was already desolate, the weather was dry, and the crops were not harvested... After paying the tax, the 50-year-old mother could not survive...

Chen originally had an older brother who would not die, Chen... Chen's twin brother was deceived by the corporal chief during the conscription that year, and took the life of the corporal chief's son to go to the battlefield. He thought that this would make my mother and me safe On that day, I didn’t know that after I went there, I realized that the name I named was actually the name of the corporal leader’s son... But he was already on the battlefield at that time, and it was impossible to come back to ask for an explanation..." Speaking of this, I remembered that when I was young, I was four years old. When Brother took her to hunt birds and catch loaches in the field, she unexpectedly burst into tears:

"In the conscription order after the same year, the corporal leader found my family, because according to the life book, my family still has a force, and the conscription order came down. If my family can't send out this force, as the corporal leader, he has nothing to do with it. So he came to persuade me to get the conscription order in my brother's name... I had no choice but to falsely report my age to enlist in the army. As long as I survived, the old mother in the family could have a meager subsidy. In this day of war... I can still survive. "

She survived, but she was burdened with a shocking lie. What's the point of such a life?

...It's better to be dead, she knelt on the ground and thought quietly, the king will give her the death penalty, right?That's fine, my mother has been gone for many years, it's kind of bleak for her to live alone in this world, even if she dies.

But the king did not give her the death penalty, but asked her with a light smile:

"You've finished your unspeakable secrets, why don't you listen to the marriage that Gu is going to give you now?"

The king's slender hand pointed at Murong Xi standing behind her. Facing her shocked expression, the king said calmly, "Master Gu, what do you think of my lonely sister?"

She followed the king's hand and looked up at the woman who was smiling at her. She was startled, opened her mouth, but couldn't say a word, because her heart stopped for two beats at that moment. .

The king asked her to marry Princess Qinghe, but Gu Ming dared not agree. He knelt on the ground and kowtowed that he did not dare to delay His Royal Highness. Maybe it was her submissiveness that angered the king, or maybe it was her inconsistency that made the king angry. Upset:

"I just asked you to marry or not?" Wang Shang looked at her expressionlessly, with a cold arrogance on his lips, "Master Gu, maybe you came to the capital late, so you don't know. Only members of our Murong family refuse other people's marriages, but no one has ever rejected our Murong family's marriage."

"I don't have the spare time to listen to your nonsense. It's good to say it straight. Today you agree to this relative, and you live. If you don't agree..." The king casually pointed to the stone pillars on the corridor of her mansion, and said to her , "You just hit your head to death and apologize to the princess, so Gu can save himself from grinding his mouth."

Hearing this, Gu Ming breathed a sigh of relief. Being able to apologize with death may be the last courtier's gift she gave to the princess, "I wish to die..." It's just that before she finished speaking, the indifferent king just said Laughed out loud.

"But if you die, won't the orphaned sister get the title of 'forced marriage'? So, aren't you ruining the reputation of the princess?"

Gu Ming was taken aback for a moment, but she was a little dumbfounded when the king asked him such a rhetorical question.

"Gu Aiqing, do you know what crime it is to deceive the emperor?"

She lowered her head, closed her eyes, and said in a low voice, "Death crime..."

The king stood up from the stone bench, walked slowly in front of her, and asked her condescendingly, "Then why does Gu Aiqing risk her life to pretend to be a man?"

"In order to be able to enlist in the army, I will give my mother a discount." She said softly.

It seemed that her answer pleased the king. After hearing the words, the king knelt down slowly, raised her chin with his hand, forced her to meet his eyes, and then asked a question that she had never thought of before. :

"Then have you ever thought about why you can't join the army as a daughter and reduce your mother's tax?"

She widened her eyes, and her mind went blank when asked by the king's words.

…why?

Yes, why can't she join the army as a daughter and reduce her mother's tax?

because--

"Because you have never heard of a woman enlisting in the army, have you? But my good general, you know that before Gu, there had never been any female king in Qin State. You think Gu can sit on the throne only by being Is it luck?" The king looked into her eyes, and said word by word, "Gu naturally understands your insincere words, and also understands your involuntary actions. Gu understands your inner struggle, and even more knows your inner fear:

You are afraid that you will be exposed one day; you are afraid that the comrades who fought with you will leave you one day; you are afraid that the teacher who once regarded you as your own will draw a line with you one day; Your king will one day punish you for deceiving the king; you are afraid, you are afraid that you have done nothing wrong, but suddenly you will fall into the abyss of eternal doom - so you carefully guard your secrets, if you are alone today Asking, if you haven't found out, you can be confident that you can still hide this secret, one year or two, five years or ten years..."

"Perhaps you are lucky enough to bring this secret into your grave. But, Your Excellency, have you ever thought: Why should you be afraid?

are you stupidOr are you not strong enough?No, on the contrary, you are a rare and handsome talent. I believe that in time, you will be able to leave your name in the annals of the history of Qin, and you will use the sword in your hand to open up the territory for Qin.You can do it all, but you still can't sleep well.

why?My lord general? "

...Yeah, why?Gu Ming also asked himself in his heart, why should he be afraid?Is it that I am not strong enough or that I am not good enough?

No... not at all, she can give a negative answer almost without thinking about it.

Then, why is that...?

Because the Qin State has never had a female general... people would not believe that a woman can become a general, and they would not believe that the young man who dared to enter the Ba camp alone and capture Ba Wang alive would be a woman!

But she happened to be a woman, and she happened to be a weak and incompetent woman in the world.

But these... who can she tell?Her fame brought her not glory, but a note of death.

"Because...I'm a woman..." She hoarsely said to Wang Shang, "I...is Gu Yue, not Gu Ming."

It's Gu Yue, not Gu Ming, not that good-looking Gu Ming!She is Gu Yue who loves both red and military uniforms, long knives and eyebrow knives!

"Yes, because you are a woman, because this world does not tolerate women," the king chuckled and asked her:

"Are you willing? Are you willing to always carry your own secrets, like a blind mouse hiding in a dark and wet corner to spy on the world—are you willing?"

Are you willing?She asked herself in her heart, maybe this is not the first time she has asked herself this way, she has asked herself this way since the first day she entered the barracks, are you willing?I am willing that the rest of my life will have nothing to do with stability, and all the glory and starlight will have nothing to do with Gu Yue.

Changed his face, disguised as another person, lived carefully in the barracks, evaded open guns and hidden arrows on the battlefield, how many times he narrowly escaped death, how many times he was frightened.

After enduring so much, it was all in vain...Are you willing?

"...not reconciled." It seemed to be sighing and helpless.

"In this way, you have married Murong Xi. You have saved her twice, and she should return some of your kindness to you."

——"Marry her, only by marrying her can you continue to hide your identity, have the protection of the Murong family, and live in peace. Naturally, I don't have good intentions for you, on the contrary, I want to use you. I want you, I want you to be the solitary fang, to bite through every piece of rotten flesh in the Qin court, and I want you to be the solitary sharp blade, to cut through the thieves who are ready to move outside the country."

——"Gu Geng, you must survive, gain fame, and gain power."

——"You will still live as a man, but if one day, you can be good enough and strong enough, it doesn't matter if you are a man or a woman? Maybe one day you will be visited by those who come after you, maybe one of them ...There will be people with the same status as you, but they don't have to live with lies like you."

——"And these... need someone to create."

——"Gu Ming, are you willing?"

After a long time, it seemed like a moment passed, she closed her eyes and said softly, "Yes."

As these words fell, the first snow in Qin State that winter also fell in the yard.

All living beings are suffering, and she is just a small mortal in this world. The king said that the world is chaotic, don't be discouraged, because there will always be someone who will use his life's strength to light the way forward for future generations.

——That's it, her life is also the only meaning of her existence, good or bad, it's all just like that, she was originally a mortal, entered this chaotic world, she came, lost, possessed Yes, of course, also loved.

It's just that person, she has failed in the end.