Anatomy cristina (Grey's Anatomy)

The powerful force of the whiskey collided with Cristina's head. While holding down the throbbing temples, she stretched her hands to her skirt.

I really should thank Joe for his hospitality. Without the help of alcohol, she probably would never have dreamed that she would commit such a shameful act.But now that you have made up your mind, you have to carry it through.Her fair fingers turned clumsily on the buttons, she didn't understand why she was so unfamiliar and shy at this time, she had to do several times of skilled movements every day.

"Fiona, what are you going to do?" Burke frowned vigilantly when she saw that she couldn't bear it and began to pull the buttons roughly.

"What to do, of course, is to change the wet clothes." Cristina responded pretending to be confused, while biting her lower lip pretending to be soft.

The color of her lips is too full, and when she nibbles on it lightly, there will be some white marks, like pink cherry blossoms blooming attractive stamens.She squinted her eyes, and in the big and bright pupils, there was a pool of charming spring water, which reflected the man's face in a daze.

Her gaze was tender and focused until it slowly turned Burke's eyes slightly red.Seeing that more and more of her skin was exposed, Burke's Adam's apple rolled up and down unconsciously, he effortlessly looked away and clenched his hands into fists.

"Girl, you... have experienced too much today, you are tired... I don't know what you are doing..."

"I don't know what I'm doing?" Cristina's lips curled up into a smile, and she simply took off the top from her body. Her fair skin trembled slightly under the light, like a statue coated with a layer of mercury. "Of course I know. I'm seducing you, DrBurke. Can't you feel it?"

"I..." Unexpectedly, Burke lost his usual composure, and a blush appeared on his dark cheeks, "I...I have..."

"You already have a wife. Of course I know." Cristina fiddled with the rain-soaked hair, drops of water fell down, and the slender and soft arms were so milky and tender that people drool.

Burke's heart trembled, as if trying to avoid this annoying scene, he lowered his head and tugged on his tie irritably.

His right hand is inconvenient, so he has to use his left hand to do it for him.Little did he know that this unintentional little action just touched Cristina's heart.Pulling off the tie, if any man does it, it can make people feel fascinated.What's more, he was naturally good-looking, but at this moment, his indifference was mixed with a little bit of boredom, making him even more alluring.

"Tonight, I just want a hug." Cristina licked her lips and pressed her soft body onto Burke's chest. She knew she was acting vile, but for some reason, she just couldn't control it.Leaning closer to his body, she smelled a faint aroma of wine.

"Dear Burke, you've been drinking too, haven't you? Why don't you use the power of whiskey to get crazy with me?"

Her plump lips opened and closed seductively, and the tip of her nose was only a hair's breadth away from his.Her raised neck is slender and exquisite, filled with the scent of green grass and milk.And the alcohol did break down Burke's self-control. His eyes drifted away, and he couldn't escape the beautiful scenery outlined by the girl.After stiffening his body for a long time, he managed to turn his head and put an arm's length away from her.

"Fiona, alcohol will never be an excuse for me. I will never do something that I regret."

Make you regret it?

Burke's words poured down like a basin of cold water, extinguishing the desire in the girl's heart, but also igniting raging anger.She stopped trying to get closer, crossed her arms around her chest, and instead took half a step back.

"DrBurke, I didn't expect you to be such a chaste man. Or is it that I am too cheap to rush to your door and make you look down on me? Since you are so loyal to your wife, why are you still in Hill's basement?" Desperately protecting me?"

It's not that he didn't see the girl's hurt eyes, but Burke forced himself to harden his heart and spoke coldly.

"I protect you because you are my subordinate, my student. Even if it is not you, but someone else, I will do the same."

If he was single or young, he might not refuse the soft temptation in his arms.After all, he clearly knows that he has feelings for this girl that are far different from others.But in his heart he is a traditional person who cares about the promise he made before God. Whether his wife is awake or unconscious, he will never forget the imprisonment on his ring finger.

What's more...he couldn't tell how much of his obsession was because of her, and how much was because of her who he buried deep in his heart.Especially tonight, this night that was blurred by pain and alcohol, he didn't want to use this child as a substitute for others.The same stubborn eyes, the same willful and strong, the face in memory gradually overlapped with the one in front of him... He really didn't want to seek temporary comfort in order to escape the pain, so as to bring more pain to both of them.

This man always seems to know how to pierce his heart with one needle. Cristina paled, trembling all over, staring at Burke for a few minutes.She looks like a volcano is about to erupt.But after the extreme anger passed, she was inexplicably discouraged, and even felt self-deprecating.

Why between them, Burke can always easily gain the upper hand, looking down from a height like a god, while all her approaching seems to be obscene blasphemy?

never mind.It's not yours after all, why bother to put yourself in such a despised position.Bending down in disenchantment, Cristina picked up the clothes she had discarded on the floor, and dressed them indiscriminately.

"Fiona?" Burke silently watched the girl's embarrassing movements and expressions, endured it for a while, and finally spoke.

"Don't try to comfort me, that will make me feel more miserable."

Cristina didn't look up, and coldly interrupted the man's unspoken words.She also wanted to leave a little bit of dignity.

After walking through this door, she never wanted to see Burke again.If she can neither be his lover nor his right hand this time, then she is also unwilling to use the meeting between the two to remind herself over and over that it was she who hurt him.So, better not see.Perhaps, they should be separated in this way.In this way that made her completely give up.

"Christina, Ido promise, to hold you and cherish you. And I promise, to be there insickness and in health."

A deep male voice suddenly sounded in the room, holding back Cristina's hand that was already on the doorknob.She turned around in astonishment and searched the house.

A huge stereo in the corner, with green lights flickering, played a certain man's oath in a deep voice.

"I could say, till deathdousapart, but I won't.

"Those vows are for optimistic couples, the vows full of hope, but I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope."

These were the vows Burke had written for their wedding, though she hadn't been able to hear them from the other side of the altar.

"Iamnotoptimistic, Iamnothopeful, Iamsure, I'msteady."

Why?Why did the words that had made her happy and painful appear here and now.Could it be that she had an auditory hallucination?She looked at the owner of the voice in confusion, wanting to find out.

The latter's face was caught off guard by embarrassment, and he seemed completely unaware that this audio would be played suddenly.He ran towards the stereo in a daze, fumbling for the off button hastily.

"Burke, um. I... I don't know if you'll hear what I'm saying. Maybe you'll never hear it. If that's the case, it's actually pretty good. At least, to avoid the possible embarrassing."

A woman's voice followed Burke's oath.It seems very familiar, but also a little strange. Cristina racked her brains, but couldn't think of its owner.

"Um... sorry, without your permission. Mere recorded the audio while you practiced your wedding vows in private. She was going to let it out on our wedding day to make fun of you, but... never got the chance... ...Later, she gave me this recording...I think...I think she was trying to comfort me, so that I could keep a...remembrance of you after you left."

As if struck by lightning, Cristina's mind suddenly lit up.Yes, very familiar, but also very strange.Because...that was the voice of her own Cristina Yang.

"I miss you."

The woman in the recording spoke, with a hint of sadness at the end of her voice.She remembered that it was herself seven years ago, the first summer Burke had left.

"I don't think I've done anything wrong, even now. I feel like I miss you just because I can't accept, can't accept that you left me at the door of the ceremony, can't accept that you just disappeared from now on, can't accept that you got It's unacceptable to win an Avery Award without mentioning my name...you can still do well without me..."

"I miss you, but I want to yell at you even more. So I recorded this CD, after the audio Mere gave me, and I'm going to send this to you. Since you won't give me a chance to yell at you You, then I will simply mail you the scolding words. Don’t think I can’t find the address, I’ve already thought about it, and I’ll wrap it up as a gift and send it to your mother’s house!”

The woman's voice was getting higher and higher, so that the listeners could easily imagine her domineering face.oh!The self with the word "囧" on his eyebrows is really nostalgic.

☆、Song Beneath the Song

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Burke, who was in a hurry, finally found the close button, but he hesitated for a long time, but he didn't press it.

"You're always saying that I'm not willing to give, that I'm passive. Yes, I'm passive, because I don't want to live together, I don't want to get married, I don't want a traditional ceremony, I don't want... no reservations, no retreats , to be a man's wife, or let a man take over my life."

The woman's voice continued, and occasionally there was a "rustling" or two, as if the sound of vehicles passing by outside the window was accidentally recorded.

"You are indifferent, arrogant, and perfect. I am closed, stubborn, and strong, just like the South Pole and the North Pole. Our relationship started with a cup of coffee. It may be hasty, but I believe I definitely put my heart into it. You said you doubt that only one person took the initiative. Whether the relationship can continue, but you have completely forgotten that I have been changing."

"For you, I gave up my small apartment; for you, I shaved off my eyebrows and put on a precious necklace from your family; for you, I accepted religion, bouquets, wedding dresses, and wedding. How can you still say...that I...do not love you enough!"

The woman stopped and took a deep breath, as if in this way she could gain the courage to continue.

"Do you still remember our big cold war after I exposed your tremor? We ignored each other for two months. I sent countless people to your ward to inquire about the news, but But you exposed them one by one and scolded them back. God, we two are really stubborn children, neither of us is willing to admit defeat first, we insist on being stubborn to the end. "

"So this time, are you being stubborn too? Deliberately not adding my name to the list of winners, deliberately obliterating everything I have done for you, deliberately forgetting our relationship for several years?"

"You... What a bastard!"

In the recording, the woman suddenly cursed fiercely, heart-piercing, on the verge of collapse.

"Say something for my sake, say something that if you love me, you can't turn me into the person you want me to be. You are... you are afraid, you shrink back... you lose confidence in our future, you It's just... don't believe... don't believe, we can have happiness!"

"So, don't think that I will beg you to come back, I will not beg you to come back. Because, the one who gave up everything between us is not me, but you, you——Preson Burke."

The woman's voice stopped abruptly, and there was no sound in the huge room except for some kind of drowning-like breathing. Cristina clenched her lips, unable to tell whether the poor panting belonged to the woman in the tape or to herself.

Oh, she almost forgot, no matter which one is actually her, isn't it?

"I...I always feel that our ending should not be like this..."

After a long silence that seemed like a world, the woman's voice sounded again.Much calmer than before, no anger, no resentment, just a touch of erratic confusion.

"Today, I sang in the dissecting room. It was Like Avirgin. I sang it while I was dissecting a dead body with a scalpel. That scene...you can't imagine...how ridiculous, how weird...you know, Lexie looks like a fool around me. Poor girl, she's so scared by me, she must think I'm crazy... Oh, by the way, you don't know who Lexie is, she's Mere's half-sister , that's... another story, a story you don't know... You see, I keep forgetting, forgetting that you are no longer in my life... I'm so used to... I..."

The woman in the recording seemed to be crying softly, and the crying was dull and suppressed, as if she was afraid of being heard by others or herself.

"Webber asked me to fill out the SexRelationship. Damn he doesn't know who my sexRelationship is with in this unlucky hospital? Didn't he see the huge clipping congratulating you on your award that was posted at the nurse's station this morning? ... He actually How dare you tell me that he knows it's hard! Damn...he really knows how to torture people..."

"Difficult? He knows what is difficult? He is the one who made people paste newspaper clippings! He called the whole hospital, and people all over the world thought of you again... Of course, they also thought of me, this one, who was abandoned by you at the ceremony Poor little intern outside... what does he want me to say? I want to say it's great, Seattle Grace has a genius like you, and I'm honored to have worked with you before?"

"Fuck! Impossible! It's simple, you're gone, you're better off, you've won an Avery Award, you're world famous. But, I'm still here, nothing has changed. I still live in your apartment , walking through the same hospital corridors, wearing the same sterile gown... No, I am not uncomfortable with all this, because I chose it myself. What I am uncomfortable with is that when your hand is injured, I am the one who operates on you, and I protect you Keep your secrets, protect your pride, he knows, I know, you know. You know, but you didn't say a word about me in that article."

"I used to be your hands, and now, Hann won't even let me have tweezers. It's all the same, but it's all fucking different. It's not bad, Burke, it's unbearable! Maybe all of Seattle Grace People are proud of you, but I don't, I don't want you to be okay. Damn, I want you to be miserable, I hope you never get love again, I want you to be alone forever... like me too……"

More choked up, as if he could no longer suppress it, the woman had to stop.

"I'm sorry. I lost control." It took a while before she continued. "I don't want you to hear me gaffe, but, it's really hard...it's really hard...but that's okay. I don't think I'll send this tape in the end. Yeah, I don't even Know who to send it to, after all I don't even know your current address, after all you asked your mother to return that necklace... I think... I think I just want an ending... Buker, I just I want to say goodbye to you, otherwise I can't start a new life without you, a new life."

"So, Preston Burke, goodbye. Goodbye, Preston Burke."

There was no sound in the room, as silent as a tomb. Cristina closed her eyes and leaned against the door.There was a hole in her heart, and the cold wind gushed in.She felt as if she was back to the summer 7 years ago, the summer when Burke was gone, where she didn't know where the future was, where the goal was, and how to walk alone.

Yes, she remembered the tape, which she made because she was angry that Burke didn't mention her anger in the Avery award coverage.She'd thought about sending it, at least to keep Burke at ease.But in the end she gave up.If a man has decided to turn over a new leaf and decides to classify everything with you and him as the past.Then, whatever you say is nothing to him.

So, in the end, she hid the recording in the deepest part of her closet, where even cleaning wouldn't sweep it.She didn't want to touch it, because it wasn't a good memory that could be cherished or comforted.

"Why do you, um, have this thing." Cristina opened her mouth awkwardly, and asked in a low voice.

Burke stood by the window.The mottled shadow of the sycamore tree outside the glass happened to cover his expression.He bent down silently, and finally pressed the close button.

"It was sent to me by Cristina's mother. She found it by accident when she was packing for Cristina. She said she thought I should keep this thing."

Mom did it on purpose. Cristina secretly affirmed.Mother must still be upset about being abandoned at the wedding, so she wanted to use this thing to poke Burke's wounds.However, all harm must be based on the premise that the other party also has nostalgia.And Burke, did he still care about Yang?

"You don't seem surprised at all." Burke's voice was still steady, but there was a trace of haggardness in the thin tail.

"You and Dr Yang? That story has long been a well-known legend of resentment in the hospital, especially after Yang died." She deliberately emphasized the word "death", as if inexplicably wanting to sprinkle another hand on his wound Salt, of course, if he had a wound at all. "If you want to say surprise, I'm surprised that you put this thing in the stereo, and it seems to have set a timer to play."

Received the taunt in the girl's tone, Burke was not annoyed, he just carefully took the CD out of the CD drive and put it in the CD case carefully.

"Hmph. Is this your loyalty?" Seeing that her provocation was ineffective, but instead provoked by the man's indifference, Cristina sat down on the long sofa opposite the bookshelf. "Come on, Mrs Burke is still lying unconscious in the hospital, and you lie here thinking about your old lover every night? Or is it that only dead guys are harmless to your noble morals and won't destroy your promises?" marriage vows?"

"DrLin." Burke finally couldn't bear it and said in a low voice. "No matter how much dissatisfaction you have with me, at least please respect the deceased, she saved your life after all."

Oh, she forgot.The body I am in now was saved by my original self through surgery.Thinking about it, it really has a taste of karmic reincarnation.But so what?

"Don't blame me, I didn't disrespect DrYang. I was laughing at you, hypocrite. You meant to listen to this recording for me, didn't you? You could turn it off tomorrow morning, but you won't move it. Why? Isn't it just to remind me that even without your wife, the place in your heart is already taken? Or you want to tell me, Preston Burke, is a shameless bastard, a heartbreaker, and all the women you associate with are no good The end... I advise you to save yourself, I am over 18 years old, it is impossible to change my mind just because of two sentences... and Dr Yang also said that it is all her own choice..."

"Enough." Burke abruptly interrupted the girl's self-talk, and looked into the female intern's eyes, which were bloodshot at some point, "If these are not enough for you to understand what kind of person I am , how about adding one more?"

"I killed her, I killed Cristina Yang."