[Comprehensive] My sand sculpture ex-boyfriend

After drinking the porridge, my spirit recovered slightly, and I didn't feel sleepy anymore.Thinking of the snowy scene I saw in my dizziness last night, I got up to open the paper door.

"It's still snowing outside."

Zero made a sound to stop my movements, and stuffed me back under the covers.

He was wearing a silver-gray pinstriped kimono, standing in front of my bed in a relaxed posture, his slender legs blocking my way.Dissatisfied, I poked the kneeling right leg and accidentally pulled down the hem of his kimono.

The smooth and well-proportioned calves are straight, and the honey-colored skin is matched with beautiful muscle lines. Before yesterday, I could simply give pure praise to such a scene, but now I can only read countless lazy erotic tastes.

"What are you looking at? Huali."

Ling didn't pull his clothes, and asked me playfully.

I quickly turned around and brought up other topics.

"Is it snowing a lot? What time is it?"

"It will be ten o'clock soon." Zero handed over my mobile phone. "The news reported this morning that the amount of snowfall in Tokyo is the largest in 50 years, and the Shinkansen has been temporarily suspended."

Now, I ignored Ling's dissuasion, and immediately got up and ran to the paper door.Probably because of the temperature difference between indoor and outdoor, I felt a slight difficulty in opening the paper door. I had to increase the strength of my hand and pull the whole door open at once.

The cold air with snowflakes flew towards me in response to the call of the airflow, but finally lost to the long corridor and fell powerlessly in the middle.

Zero chased after me angrily, took the quilt and threw it off my head.

Before the body that felt the chill had time to shiver, it was immediately wrapped in a warm quilt.Zero hugged me with the quilt in his arms, resting his chin on my shoulder.

"The roads are closed? I don't know if it will be troublesome to go home from here." After watching the snow scene for a while, I remembered the business. "Even if you leave a note, Xiang Zhizi will be worried when she wakes up in the morning, should I make a call now."

Zero lazily rubbed his head against my neck, and answered me only after finding the most comfortable place to stay.

"It's okay, grandma called when you were asleep in the morning. You called me when your phone couldn't get through, and I told her we'd be out for a few days."

I felt relieved and turned on the camera, wanting to take a picture of the courtyard under the snow.

"It seems that you didn't take the professional chess player's exam this year." Zero suddenly asked after seeing the keychain that I kept on the phone holder after Nase gave it back to me. "You worked so hard last year, why didn't you sign up this year?"

Many kinds of rhetoric flashed through my mind in an instant, and finally my eyelashes trembled, and I concealed it casually.

"It's too troublesome. We couldn't even see each other during this time last year. You have so many training camps. I am so busy that I don't have time to be together."

"Hmm...Is that so?" Zero's fingers slowly entered the gap between my fingers from behind, and firmly clasped my hand. "It feels a little sad."

"I'm here in Huali, so I can't compare to Go. It can only be used as a reason to escape."

His voice was soft, and his tone was not harsh, but it was like pouring a basin of cold water on my head.

"I'm going back." I wanted to retract the hand that was grabbed by Zero, but he held me tightly and couldn't get rid of it at all. "I don't want to talk about it."

Zero started kissing my neck.

The tooth marks and bruises from yesterday's bite were still there, and besides the tingling sensation from his kiss, there was also a slight tingling pain.

I tried my best to shrink my neck to avoid this wonderful feeling, only to find that it was just kissing the plump and smooth forehead beside my lips lightly, and the resistance like a response aggravated his breathing.

"Zero, it hurts."

I stopped resisting and said aggrieved.

"I'm sorry, Huali." Hearing my words, Zero stopped moving, and his voice was rarely frustrated. "It's just that you still can't tell me now?"

It's the first time I've seen him look slightly out of control, and he can make Zero feel so anxious because of my affairs, which makes my heart soften.

"Have you been worried for a long time? Zero."

I removed the keychain from the stand and fiddled with the pieces on it.I actually thought that I was hiding it very well, how could the keen zero not be aware of my question, but it was only until today that I finally felt that I could ask it out.

Zero felt my guilt and kissed the corner of my brow comfortingly.

"If you don't want to say it, I will continue to wait."

"It's okay." I pushed away the quilt wrapped around me, and pulled the paper door a little.Sitting in front of Zero. "Since when did you worry so much?"

Zero thought about it briefly, wanted to say something, and shook his head again.

"If I had to say it, I felt that there was something wrong with you since the meeting in October last year. Then in November you told me that you failed the professional chess player exam. I thought it was because you were in a bad mood because of failure. , I didn’t continue to pay attention. This year, you suddenly stopped going to the chess academy to practice.”

Hearing this, a question suddenly popped up in my heart, so I interrupted Zero's words.

"It seems to me that I didn't tell Zero that I would no longer participate in student activities."

Zero nodded, the cold wind outside the door messed up his bangs.

"In February of this year, I received a call from my grandmother. She said that something happened between you and she wanted to ask me about Go. Did you tell me anything? She told me a lot at that time, including Huali. Regarding Go, I have worked hard to become a professional chess player for a long time.”

A strange premonition emerged in my heart, and I continued to listen to Zero.

"After knowing this, I tried to mention Go-related things to you, but you were not very willing to tell me these things, so I started my own investigation and went to meet the teacher in charge of the students in the chess academy to learn more about Go world-related things, and then I noticed something unnatural."

Zero said that he investigated my affairs by himself, maybe because our relationship is very close, and he did it out of worry and grandmother's request, which didn't make me feel very offended.

"Last year you told me in November that you failed the exam, but according to the timetable announced online, the exam results came out in October, and the time you met me in October was confirmed after the competition results Before. I studied the competition system. At that time, you only had three losses, and you still had a great chance of winning. The teacher of the Chess Academy told me before that although you will be hit every time you fail in an exam, you can always adjust yourself quickly So I think, you probably don't care that much, or care as much as others think about the failure of the professional chess player exam, but there are other things that make you decide not to continue."

The grandmother who was always by my side, and the partners who worked hard together among the students in the hospital, things that no one paid attention to.This man investigated, understood, and discovered for me.

"Yes, you are right, Zero, why didn't you ask me before?"

Sour sweetness filled my heart and I tried to make myself laugh at him.

"Someone once commented on me, saying that I am naturally rap and eloquent." Zero suddenly said something that sounded irrelevant. "I have always been confident in my investigative capabilities."

He stared at me, his gray-blue eyes were only the reflection of me, making me mistakenly think that I was the only one left in his world.

"But at that time—it was in March. I told my grandmother to stop worrying, and I would be with you. Then when I wanted to ask you about these things, you stood in front of me, but I said I can’t say anything, I wonder if you would mind if I investigate you, and if it’s all my speculation, in fact Huali you decided to give up because you couldn’t pass the exam, I’ll only make you sad if I mention it hastily.”

A burst of intuition that I can't express myself made me blurt out this sentence at this moment.

"Nase, did you find it?"

After finishing speaking, I also found that this kind of suspicion was groundless. I just wanted Zero to ignore my words, but Zero's silence revealed a certain fact.

I was really surprised now, and touched the keychain of the black and white chess pieces in my hand to calm myself down.

"You probably don't know each other, and Naze has no reason to listen to you."

As soon as I finished saying this, I remembered that Zero just mentioned that he went to the chess academy to ask for my news.

"I met under the recommendation of the chess academy teacher. He also regretted that you no longer go to the chess academy, so he gave me a lot of help." Sure enough, Zero explained that. "I met a lot of people who are said to be your friends. Someone told me that there is a person who is one year older than you and named Yijiao who will no longer participate in the student training with you. I think if he continues to play chess, maybe he will let you go. You changed your mind and went to the Nine Stars Club he joined, and learned from there that he has been adjusting his status, and he plans to go to China with the Nine Stars Club for further studies, and come back to continue taking the vocational exam."

How much this man did before I knew it.

"At that time, I wanted to ask Yijiao to talk to you after he came back from China. But in the conversation with your fellow students, I found someone." Zero didn't notice the tears I was holding back, and continued to recall. "Shindo Hikaru, you decided not to play Go because of him, didn't you?"

Why is he trying so hard?Just because I gave up, is it worth his time to investigate?What about his scrambling to learn?Didn't he learn new things whenever he has time, saying that it is a waste of himself not to study at his age?

"If the police in our country have such amazing ability to investigate facts." I couldn't help walking to Zero, wanting to get closer to him, and used a joke to cover up my emotion. "Suddenly I am full of confidence in the country."

This is the question of admitting zero.

Shinto Hikari is really a very strange person. When he first entered the hospital, there were rumors that he was the opponent of Taya Ryo, who was a professional chess player in elementary school, so everyone was very defensive about him at first, but the people in the second group can easily defeat him.Later, he still lost often, but the ranking rose up unconsciously, to the first group, to the top of the group.

Frankly speaking, being surpassed is a very common thing for me. Every year, there are people who are behind me and enter the world of professional chess players before me.

I told myself that it was because I didn't work hard enough, I wasn't that enthusiastic about Go, and I didn't want to win that much.

I kept lying to myself like this, hypnotized myself, and I was not unwilling, until last year's professional chess player game, after losing half the game against Shinto Hikaru.

Even though the gap is so small, as long as anyone who knows Go will not assert that there is any difference in strength, but after losing at that time, I recalled the Go strength of Shinto Mitsu when he first entered the Go Academy, and a great fear rose from my heart .

His young body was infinitely magnified in my eyes and became a wall in my heart.I understand, this is the person who is favored by Go in the legend, I understand, I have been just deceiving myself, I want to pass the professional chess player exam, I want to see Michiko's surprised smile again when she was admitted to the academy when she was a child .

It’s just that no matter how much I love Go, the growth of Go strength is still so slow, and I can’t see the wide chessboard clearly.I gradually forgot deliberately that I have persisted for so many years not just because of habit.

Losing to Hikari Shindo reminded me of the feeling of unwillingness to lose at the beginning, but after so many years, I have lost a little confidence in Go, and I can't believe that I can beat him at all.

"So, Huali, you chose to run away." Zero asked me quietly after listening to my confession. "Right?"

I'm already very tired, and I don't have the extra strength to hide my embarrassment.

And this person, no matter what I am, will accept it.

I nodded.

"It doesn't matter if you give up."

Zero said something I didn't expect.

"As long as Huali thinks about it, there is nothing wrong with giving up Go. If it really makes Huali feel very hard and uncomfortable, no matter what, no one can force Huali to do something she doesn't like. "

I stared blankly at Zero. He has done so much to make me face up to the problem between me and Go, but now he tells me that it’s okay to give up.

He gently pulled me into his arms, as if he was touching something fragile.

"Hua Li, you know why I'm going to investigate this, even if you know it's probably useless, would you please Ms. Nase, if Izuku passed the exam, come to Ice Emperor to tell you?"

"Because Huali, who doesn't play Go, is free and spends a lot of time with me. I'm really happy about this. You always say that I'm busy with various things, but I want to be with you all the time more than you can imagine. with you."

"One time this year, when I had time, I rushed to your house immediately. My grandmother asked me to go upstairs to find you. You sat on the bed and looked out the window with a very, very lonely expression."

"When Huali was still playing Go, I went to see you, and you were always setting up chess records or solving puzzles. At that time, you never showed such an expression."

The author has something to say: I really worked hard to explode my liver again, sitting until my butt hurts, but everyone did not leave paw prints