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...Is it because he gave up that I want to help him fulfill this dream?

Zero gasped.

Deep in her memory, she seemed to vaguely remember this incident.

At first, it was because her mother was sad because of her father's death, so after watching the video of her father at the school festival, she wanted to convey hope to her mother instead of her father.

Even if for a while, I gave up this dream and wanted to become a radio host, I still wanted to replace that person to complete what he hadn't done.

To put it bluntly, her dream is just such a simple thing.

I just want to make my mother happy.

Another question arose in Zero's mind: If that person gave up being an idol because of her mother's blindness before, what is it for now?

"Speaking of which, why did he give up being an idol..."

"Because of the ban on dating."

"Ah, that's right... the ban on dating." Zero forcefully agreed.

That's right, if you think about it carefully, even if mother is not blind, as long as this rule still exists, father will not accept it.

……

This kind of thing.

It would have been nice if it hadn't been played from the start.

Zero bit his lower lip.

"You, I've told you many times that I don't have to go the same way as him, right?" Eili wiped off the water stains on the dishes, and put them into the cabinet one by one.

"It doesn't make sense to talk about it now. Even if it was for this purpose at the beginning, it is not the case now. My dream now is to become an excellent idol. Even if he gave up once, I will not give up now. "

"No matter what you choose, my father and I will support you."

"Hmm..." Zero replied.

She and Eri had already cleared the dishes, and it was time for the man to tell her the truth.Zero was still a little nervous, she didn't know what her mother would think after knowing these things.

However, Zero has made up his mind to face this matter well.

Rei and Eri made tea together, and when he opened the sliding door and entered the main room, the man turned off the TV, and all the noises in the room disappeared.Zero put the tea on the table and sat on the cushion again.

It was as if a major meeting was being held in this room, with an extraordinarily dignified atmosphere.

"Then, what is the thing you want to talk to me about?" Eri took a sip of her tea, then glanced at the three people except herself, "Is it something important that we must talk about together? "

"Ah, that's right." The man felt that now is not the time to drink tea, but he didn't want her thoughts to go to waste. After drinking the tea, he made mental preparations for a long time before putting the The prepared line was said, "I always feel that you really haven't changed at all."

"Really? I think so too."

"Remember when we first met?"

"Of course I remember, why did you suddenly say these words?"

"What did you ask me at that time, do you remember?"

"Remember, what I asked was—are you lonely too?"

"I'm lonely too." The man sighed deeply, the corners of his mouth twitched repeatedly and finally returned to normal. "After you disappeared, I was always lonely."

"Disappeared...?" Eri's expression was a little stiff, she knew that the other party was not someone who would make such jokes, "I've been here all this time, I'm alright."

"No..." The man held his forehead, shook his head, and put the medical record he just found from the room on the table, "This is the car accident you experienced when you were in high school, right? "

"That's right, my parents died, and I was the only one who miraculously survived without any injuries. Don't you remember?"

"Why don't I remember. Even if I forget everything, I won't forget this. But..." The man hesitated to speak.

"But...?" She didn't know what the man was going to say next, but her intuition told herself that maybe it was better not to know.

"After this, our memories will be completely different."

"How is this going?"

"Eri, calm down and listen to me. No, I am the one who should calm down. In short, I hope you can hear the truth. This is my wish, and it is also your daughter's wish."

"No matter what it is, I will listen carefully. So it's no problem, just speak slowly, Yoshira."

The word "your daughter" gave her great uneasiness.She held her daughter's hand tightly.

But Zero couldn't say anything.

She couldn't intervene at all, and even felt that she and Chara were superfluous here.Just as no one else could squeeze between the two of them, they couldn't squeeze between the man and Eri at all.

"Sorry, although I am "your man", but in my memory, there is no memory after a certain point in time.And, it's not because I lost my memory, but because I didn't exist in this world from the beginning. "

Erika didn't interrupt him, so he continued talking.He explained his memories to her: she should have lost her sight in that accident, and later died in an accident because of a cat. He kept looking for ways to save her, even if he jumped the world line, he could only Can watch her die time and time again.

However, when the man told Eri these things, his tone was quite different from when he told his daughter in the morning.At that time, I was just stating the facts calmly, as if I was just telling a fictional fairy tale.

And now.

Men seem to cry at any time.

Although he has been holding back to make himself look less sad, he can't.

When he told her about those things, he repeated "I really want to see you" again and again.

I really want to see you.

I really want you to live on.

That's all.

Eri held Zero's hand tightly, and Zero silently put the other hand on the back of her hand, hoping that doing so would make her feel more at ease.

Today is the second time she has heard these words from the man.She didn't understand herself a little, obviously when she heard it for the first time, she only felt resentful towards him, but now why did she feel sad and sympathetic.

Mom, do you feel the same as yourself now?

she does not know.

"For me, have you been supporting yourself until now?"

She choked for a long time, and finally spit out these words.

Not doubt, nor puzzlement, nor anger and blame.After hearing that the man had done these things, the first thing she thought about was not her own, but the other's.

If she scolded herself, maybe the man would laugh out of relief.

The man raised his head and stared at the bright electric lights on the ceiling, but his vision was blurred.He who had never cried in these years was crying now.

……No.In fact, the above sentence is a lie, there is no if at all.There was no possibility of her scolding herself.

From the very beginning, he knew she would say that.

Men have always believed in this.

"As long as I can see you, I'm not alone." The man replied.

He thought so from the bottom of his heart, and there was nothing false about what he said.Without waiting for her to answer, the man continued talking.

He said that he finally found out that the world cannot allow them to coexist at the same time, and also said that in order for her to live, he "killed" himself.

Zero closed his eyes.

To be honest, taking a step back, she can more or less accept everything a man does, but this is the only thing she can't accept no matter what.She still felt that it was wrong to kill another person even to save one person.

However, this is just her pure opinion.

Zero never knew this man.

Eri is different.

She is the person in the world who understands him best, and the only one.It is precisely because she understands him and trusts him unconditionally that her status in his heart is so high.

Even after hearing these supernatural things, Eri didn't have the slightest doubt.What emerged in her mind was the lonely figure of a man.The saddest thing about her was that she was not able to accompany him through this lonely time, and it was because of herself that he became lonely.

When Eri heard the man say that he killed another "him" in order to keep himself alive, Eri was still very calm.

She took a deep breath, imagined the scene at that time, and continued to speak after a long time.

"You can't fool me."

"What are you talking about, how could I deceive you."

"...If it was you, in order to let me continue to live, you would choose to commit suicide without hesitation."

Eri mercilessly exposed his lies.

The man became unable to think for a while, his expression froze in the air, and finally he smiled slowly.

It was a relieved smile.

He actually hoped that he would be the one who died. Even if this was a choice made by "himself", to a certain extent, he still couldn't forgive himself who killed "himself".The man planned to attribute this matter to himself for the rest of his life, and he didn't intend to tell everyone the truth about this lie.

but.

What to say.

Sure enough, it was her.

Nothing can escape her sight, the person who knows herself best in this world.

"Sure enough, I can't hide it from you."

"...Well, it really is."

The man went on.

After confirming that Eri could continue to live, he planned to stop here.But in the end, she wanted to integrate into this world, and unscrupulously changed the related things around her.

He really never asked her opinions and ideas, like a domineering dictator.

Even today—he who has made the world like this has always been determined to go his own way.

"Aren't you angry or surprised? Do you doubt what I said? Or, do you hate me...?"

The atmosphere when talking about this topic with Zero is fundamentally different. It is clearly such a "truth", but the two of them seem to be chatting about such an insignificant topic as "how is the weather today".

"I've never doubted you. It's just that if I'm surprised... there will be some. To be honest, I often have dreams about my own death. Maybe that's my ending in another world." On Li Ling's shoulder, he still didn't let go of his hand, "As for being angry, you clearly know that I will never be angry with you, so why do you ask such a question."

"Ah... I know."

"Take a step back, if I resent you for this, the death of you who once died is meaningless. If this is the world you want in the end, then this is fine. Even if it is not with you I would also like to share the memories of that time together with you. Anyway, I believe that no matter who you are, it is you. There is nothing wrong with you being Ryosora Segi.”

Erika continued to speak.

"The point is... Although I don't have that memory now, the time when I lost you in the ignorant darkness must have been an extremely painful time. I can't bear it just by imagining it."

"I'm very happy that you can tell me the truth. Whether it's for me or for yourself, you can save me like this and let me survive, thank you very much."

"Thank you...? Actually, I hesitated about this matter." The man's eyes stopped on Zero, "She insisted that you should know the truth."

"This is a matter of course! After all, the mother is the person involved!" Although he answered this way, Zero still couldn't understand the reason why his mother would take it for granted.

after all……

After all, what?

After knowing that her biological father committed suicide, she was unable to continue the follow-up words.

After hearing her mother's answer, she couldn't hate the man in front of her anymore.

At this time, she suddenly felt that what the man did made her mother lose anything?Did you let yourself lose something?

What mom loves is always there and able to live on in the world.

And myself... Even if it was something that was lost, I have regained it again now, right?

What I have always wanted, trying my best to become an idol, at the beginning I just wanted such an ordinary family, didn't I?

"Sure enough, I still can't understand it." Seemingly seeing Zero's doubts, she rubbed Zero's hair, "I've said something like this before. Everyone's love is different, so accept it unconditionally." His love is my love. When you grow up, maybe you will be able to understand it. "

"...No. Now I can probably understand." Zero shook his head, "It's the feeling of unreservedly thinking about the one you love wholeheartedly. Seeing that the other person can be happy makes me happy too. As long as this is the case I am satisfied with myself... this kind of feeling. In fact, I have always had this kind of feeling for my mother."

"So... If you accept it, mom, I don't have any worries. After all, this is also my original dream. I can see my mother living happily. My family is like other ordinary families, with a father and a mother. Although I will not have that memory, but I also have an irreplaceable memory."

"Although I don't have some of my memories recorded in this world, I am willing to say goodbye to the past and create a new future with my family here."

Zero finally revealed his feelings.All her knots were also untied.

What the man has been creating is exactly the life he wants, and now he finally understands this.

"As expected, it's a miracle." Eri rubbed Zero's hair again.

"Miracle……?"

"Yeah, Liang Kong and I thought before that the combination of our surnames is a miracle."

"Is it... like this!?" Zero, who finally got his wish and was able to hear the meaning of his name, was very excited.

"Hmm. It would be a miracle if Yoshira and Erika survived together. That's what your name means, Zero."

Is this what your name means?

In other words, this is indeed a name full of hope, guaranteeing the wishes of the two people, and finally becoming a name of hope in reality.

Zero finally laughed heartily.

And he, who was finally able to survive in this world as Ryosora Segi, also smiled.

Is it so, it turns out that it is not just a simple meaning of "I hope Erika can live", but "the two of you can live together"...

Liang Sora finally realized that if he had to say that he had done something wrong, it would probably only have left her alone in this world.

He continued to struggle in his lonely days, and finally created this "miracle"——

"Speaking of which, you." Eri poked Zero's forehead, which she liked to do "in the past", "Have you forgotten what a few days are?"

"What... days?"

"You don't think that I cook such a sumptuous meal just out of pure leisure?"

"—Happy Birthday, Zero."

On the balcony on the second floor, the wind blows away the heat of summer, and caresses the two standing on the balcony.

He leaned against the railing, and stood beside Zero who was facing the railing, and the two of them were alone under the night sky.

"I always feel like the story is coming to an end." Ling held his face, slightly raised his head to look at the starry sky, the stars were twinkling, "Thank you very much, you have been with me these few days, And… in various other senses.”

"Don't say that, I didn't do anything, did I?"

"It is precisely because you have been by my side that I can persist until now. It would not work if it were any other person."

"So, is it true that I am an important existence to you?"

"Yeah, you are very important to me."

"At a time like this, you unexpectedly became frank, you."

"Thanks to you." Zero leaned lightly on his shoulder. Although he had accepted such a thing, he couldn't change the name of that person all at once, "Just now... Liang Kong and I met again. Said that thing, said the thing that can make the world adjust one last time. 'It's okay to change to a world that makes you an idol,' he said."

"Wouldn't it be great if the world really became like that? That's your wish too, Zero."

"You idiot. If the world really becomes like that, the relationship I built with you after so much effort might be gone. Even if I could do it all over again, I don't want to change our relationship just to become an idol. .and……"

"and?"

"A few days ago, I received a call. It happened last month... Ah, it happened to happen the day before I met you. When I went home that night, I was followed by a strange person. Fortunately, I met a good guy in the park, and he helped me drive away the bad guys...!" Ling continued, "...but...that person is actually a scout or something, who would have thought...why the star Tanhui sneaks up and stalks people in the middle of the night!?"

"Is it really a scout, that person?"

"It's true...but it's really unreliable. Afterwards, the chairman of the brokerage company called me personally and apologized for the incident. He also asked me if I would like to sign a contract with their company to become Idol...I was really excited at that time! But I couldn't immediately agree, how should I put it...I still have a lot of worries in it, so I told the other party that I hope to give me some time to think about it."

Zero paused, turned around in the direction of the wind, and stood in front of him.

"However, now I have the answer in my heart. I want you to be the first person in the world to know about it, so I called you here."

"It's really an honor to be the first person in the world to know that you are going to be an idol. You can definitely become an outstanding idol, I think so. If it's you, it must be fine." He stretched out his hand, stroking On the face of zero.

"Well, of course! You told me before, so my words must be fine. I will definitely become an outstanding idol for you to see and see!" Zero's hand was attached to his, and he straightened He lifted his chest and said the words.

"Speaking of which, it's the first time I know your birthday. I asked you many times before, but you didn't want to tell me."

"It's not that I don't want to tell you, it's that I really forgot... because I don't have the habit of celebrating my birthday, so I really can't remember it clearly. But, isn't it good to know now?"

"It's not good at all not being able to prepare a surprise for you." He shrugged his shoulders and withdrew his hand, "Then, I'll make it up to you later. Is there anything you want? As long as it's what you want, whether it's I will give you anything."

"Anything is fine?"

"Anything is fine."

"Then..." Zero's heartbeat slowly started to speed up when he said this, because it was night, so it was hard to see the slight blush on her face, "Close your eyes."

He closed his eyes instead of answering.

There is no way out.

Zero mustered up his courage, grabbed his hand, stood on tiptoe and closed his eyes.

She brought her face closer to his.

The moment your lips touch.

The wind blew again.

Bitter and gentler.

The author has something to say: Explanation of the name = Liangkong (RAKU) + Eri (ERI) + Yixuに生きたい = REI

All in all...how should I put it

In short, it is probably such a story about love and miracles (.

The foreshadowing is basically the same...the remaining two will be discussed later (.

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Because of the start of school, the time is very tight, and the update has been slow due to the fact that I have been caving (Dogeza