[Comprehensive] Late Night Radio

She must be able to understand her words.

Men think so.

"If she says it, she can save herself."

He had had this premonition from the first time he met her.

It was a young love that started when both of them were immature.On the campus where love is forbidden, they avoid the sight of teachers and other students and secretly communicate with each other. It is not until graduation that they start dating like real lovers.

He is a very good person.Needless to say, his academic performance, when he was in high school, he received an invitation letter from a well-known university, hoping that he could go to that school to study immediately.

However, rather than saying that he has excellent grades, it is better to say that everything about him is different from ordinary people.What his peers are studying hard, but to him, it is just a child's lesson, as simple as a multiplication table.

In other words, he seemed to be a genius favored by God.

And geniuses are often alone.

Although he tried to communicate with the people around him and wanted to integrate himself into the group like ordinary people, these things were in vain.Even if he walks in the crowd, he will have a helpless sense of loneliness. Rather, it is precisely because he is in a group that he feels this way.

They couldn't understand what he was thinking, they couldn't understand what he was trying to do, and what mattered to them didn't matter to him.

It's like humans looking at cats. How can cats understand human thinking?

In his eyes, this is how he looks at other people.

However, even so he is very popular.

In order to better understand human beings, he tried to do things that would make him more popular. For example, he played the guitar and sang at the school festival, but was ridiculed by his friends, "Just become an idol like this." .

He didn't pay much attention to this sentence, most of the time he couldn't listen to other people's words.

Until later, on the day of the school festival, the school invited professionals to shoot the DVD and passed it to him. He just wanted to pass the time and watch it casually, but when he saw his own program——

at that time.

He saw "hope" from himself.

The self singing on stage is quite different from the usual self.Usually, even if I am smiling, I am actually very lonely inside. Although only I can see this, it is indeed the case.But... the self on the screen smiled from the bottom of his heart.

it is this.

This is it.

At that moment, he finally understood that what he wanted as a genius was neither fame nor recognition from others, let alone researching unsolved high-tech issues.Even if these things are achieved, it doesn't matter to him. What he really wants... Although he still can't say clearly, but maybe it is such a thing.

"Just become an idol like this." He began to think seriously about his friend's proposal.

It was at this time that he met her.

In order to find something fresh, he disguised himself and went to a bar in a neighboring town.

It's not the kind of bar that is so brightly lit and noisy that it's disgusting.The bar in the neighboring town, whether it is style or lighting, gives people an elegant feeling, and the piano music as the background music is also just right.Most of the people inside are sitting quietly in their seats and talking in low voices. It is more like a coffee shop than a bar.

It's just that, at the bar, there is a person who is out of place here.

She was lying on the corner of the bar, with an unfinished wine glass in front of her, and a uniform bag with several hanging ornaments leaning on the table. The important thing is that this girl is wearing her own school uniform .

He didn't know the reason, but when he came back to his senses, he had already sat next to the girl.The girl glanced at him, and soon continued to bury her head.Although it was only for a moment, he saw that her eyes were red, obviously she had been crying.

Would you like something to drink, my treat.Maybe it was some interest in girls, maybe it was just out of sympathy, he said this to girls.

The girl was silent for a long time, and finally found a tissue from her bag and wiped away her tears.She held her face and looked at the bottles of wine placed on the inside of the bar directly in front of her. She didn't answer his question, but asked him casually——

Are you alone too?

Are you alone too?

Am I lonely too?

Indeed, it is so.

The girl's casual question made him fall into deep thought. For a moment, he thought that the girl was the same person as him.

Before he could answer, the girl quickly said, "It's nothing, forget it, I'm just talking casually."

She recognized her as the genius at her school.

He said he didn't like being called that.

She shook the remaining liquid in her glass and said, that's it, maybe you want to be better.

why?

Because from you, I see hope.

What she was talking about was the song he sang on the day of the school festival, his voice and his thoughts were all conveyed to the bottom of her heart, it was a lonely voice containing hope.

They talked like this, and even exchanged each other's home phone numbers.He sent her home, and they met each other at school the next day.He didn't stop to greet each other like a friend, but just looked at each other and met his eyes before passing by.

It's just such silent eye contact, but to them, it seems that their hearts are filled.

Finally, I am not alone.

It's just that there is such a feeling.

Neither of them asked the other why they went to that place that day.

After meeting her, he worked harder on idols, went to concerts and bought a lot of albums.He hoped that he could continue to give her hope like she gave him hope. At that time, he didn't understand that this feeling gradually turned into a feeling of love called "like".

Because the school they were in had very strict management on the relationship between men and women, they rarely met in school, and even if they saw each other occasionally, most of the time they just waved or smiled at each other.

The first and only time he took the initiative to find her in her class was when he learned that it was her birthday and wanted to surprise her with a birthday present.

However, he failed to see her.

He stood at the door of her class and looked towards her seat, but there was no one there.Girls who knew themselves unilaterally surrounded them and asked if there was anything they could do to help them.

He asked the girls if they knew where she was, but the girls hesitated when they heard this question, not knowing how to answer.

These conversations were overheard by the boy sitting in the front row. The boy told him that the car she and her parents were in had a serious car accident, and she seemed to be still unconscious in the hospital.

At this time, the class teacher who happened to pass by saw him in front of his class and asked him if he was here for something.

He patted the head teacher's shoulders excitedly, choked up for a long time, and finally squeezed out his voice from the crack in his throat.

Kise Eri... where is she hospitalized?

At Akita Central Hospital.

Ward?

302 in the inpatient room.

...I'll go now.

I'm still in class now... Segi-san!I said Seki-san! ?

Regardless of the teacher's dissuasion, he rushed out of the school, took a taxi and went straight to Akita Central Hospital.Looking at her unconscious in the ward, he cried so sadly for the first time.

The doctor asked him if he was his family member, and he could only shake his head.Fortunately, the doctor said that her life is not in danger for the time being, but she doesn't know when she will wake up.

So what can he do?

Waiting for her to wake up, that's for sure, but beyond that?

He was not content to just wait.

How sad it would be if she woke up and learned that her parents were no longer in this world.

... However, he was powerless about this matter, and he was not even willing to try.There is no way for a person to be resurrected after death. At this time, he simply thought so.

Then when she wakes up, let her see herself who has become an idol.If she does, she will be happy.

Having decided in this way, he ran wildly on this road.His class teacher scolded him for a long time when he learned that his dream was to become an idol instead of advancing on the orthodox path of study and research.

He couldn't remember the words other than the class teacher saying that he was "wasting talent".

"Don't use your thoughts to restrict my ideals." He only remembered that he dropped this sentence and left the staff room without looking back.

Waste of talent?This is really ridiculous.

In the final analysis, talent is such a thing, no one has ever stipulated its use, right?

What does the class guide understand about himself?

What do other people in this world understand about themselves?

Such things as talents, from the moment they are possessed, will instead bind the human beings themselves.

The more outstanding a person is, the more he will have a sense of loneliness that ordinary people cannot understand and experience.

From the very beginning, what I wanted was neither fame nor contribution to the world, but simply wanting to be understood.

That way, you won't be alone.

And those who can understand themselves have no choice but her.

So, he simply stopped going to the useless school, the knowledge in the school he had already figured out a long time ago.His life has become a two-point and one-line life of working hard towards an idol and constantly practicing and visiting her in the hospital.

For her, he must become an idol.

You have to be an idol.

It was a rainy night when I learned that she woke up.

The bus was out of service, and he couldn't get a taxi anyway, so he ran straight to the hospital without an umbrella.When he arrived at the hospital, he was drenched all over. It was a sweltering summer night, and the air-conditioning in the hospital turned into a biting chill on his body.

In a panic, he ran to the ward, and softly called her name who was sitting on the bed in disbelief.

Eri...!

... Liangkong?

There was such a hesitation in her voice.

Because of the accident, she became invisible again.

Her world could no longer see light, but she caught the last gleam of light.

As long as he is there, I will not be alone.

She held him and cried for a long time.

He stayed with her all night in the hospital, and that was the first time he knew the reason why she would go to the bar alone that day.The reason is very simple, because the family has a cat, and she didn't know that she had cat allergies until she had a cat.Her parents abandoned the cat in the cold night without discussing it with her. When she found it missing the next day and looked for it, the cat was already dead.

She originally planned to run away from home, but it was because she met him that she obediently returned home.

Her parents didn't know her, and couldn't possibly understand her.To those grown-ups, cats are just pets, but to her, cats are friends, the existence she wants to protect.Compared with human beings, maybe that is just an insignificant life, but to her, it is unique.

Too bad her parents will never understand either.

Although still underage, they decided to get married.

The parents of both parties are no longer alive, and there is no need to earn other people's consent for this matter.They are both convinced that they can only live if they are with each other.

He told her about how he was spotted by a scout not long ago.He can finally debut as an idol!That's what they've always expected.

When she heard the news, she smiled very happily.But laughing and laughing, tears fell down.

"You have finally fulfilled your dream, but unfortunately I can't witness it."

It's just unintentional words, she has absolutely no other meaning.

After hearing her words, he bit his lower lip tightly.But soon, he laughed again.

Then I won't do it.

what……?are you serious

Well, seriously.From the beginning, it was only for you to have this dream, so now, it is no longer necessary.

but……

It's okay, Eri.Since you can't see, I don't have to do things that you can never see.It doesn't matter, because you can still hear it, it doesn't matter if you can't see it, I will let you hear "Hope".

...why do you want to do this?

because i love you.

Because you love me?

Because I love you, I give up.

...Then, I will accept your "love" for me.

His love is to hope that she can always exist.

Her love is the unconditional acceptance of his love.

Just just, just that.

After they finally got married, and she had the crystallization of their love, until the time when she sent the cat she secretly raised because of dystocia to the hospital.

Another car accident.

Unlike the luck before, she couldn't escape this time.

At her funeral, he couldn't cry.

Maybe it would be better to cry out, but he has no more tears.

The world still has trouble with him.

He was depressed for a long time, and even drunk like the kind of people he used to look down on the most. Alcohol can make him forget the sadness for a while.

What genius, what hope, what dream.

I am nothing.

He is constantly looking for hope in despair.

On a drunken night, he couldn't cry anymore, he took a pen and frantically wrote down his emotions on paper.In fact, he didn't know what he was writing, but doing so seemed to relieve him a lot.

The next day, he saw such a sentence written on the paper.

"Bring her back to life."

He didn't believe in the resurrection of the dead, but because he couldn't bear the torture of despair, he finally started experiments in this area.

However, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't try to reorganize the living cells.So he changed the entry point, if it can't be reorganized, then just let it "rewind".

He wants to create an existence that can rewind things like a time machine.

……

No.

No.

Or not.

Obviously there is only one step away, but this step cannot be crossed.

Going back to the past is also impossible...

So, how about another angle?

If "reorganization" and "backtracking" can't be done, what about "change" or "jump"?

Just like the sci-fi movies I have seen, how about using the "back to the past" equipment produced now to reorganize things that "cross parallel worlds"?

Not "reorganize" and "backtrack", but "change" or "jump".

He believes that he will be able to meet her again in another world, as long as he can look at her, even if he can't recognize her, it doesn't even matter if she doesn't know "myself" exists.

That's what he thought at first.

Until he sees, in desperation and desperation, that she dies again and again because of the cat.

No matter which world, it is hell to him.

For the first time, he killed the most important cat to her.

This is all for her to survive, so no problem, no problem.He comforted himself like this in his heart.

However, this move is also futile.

Even without the cat, she would have died of something else.

He kept looking for a way to save her, but when he finally found the conclusion, he could only lean against the corner and laugh.

——This world does not allow them to coexist.

That is cruel, "choose one of the two".

what is this?

Let him kill himself with his own hands?

Killed the person she loved the most?

kill yourself?

Do not……

At that moment, he suddenly figured it out.

Since no matter which world you are, you are yourself.

In order to prove his conjecture, he found himself in a certain world and told the "self" the truth.

This is also the last method.

He indirectly killed that self.

No... it was "myself" who committed suicide.

Because she couldn't let her find out that she committed suicide, she deliberately disguised it as an accident.

——If she can live on if she dies, then let's stop here.

——In contrast, you have to let her live well, "I".

—By the way, please help me convey my last words to her.

——I once talked with her that if we get married, Seki (せき) and Kise (きせ) together will become a miracle (きせき).

——In this way, if she can continue to live after I die, and our child can be born smoothly, it will be a miracle.

—Let’s call it zero.

——The miracle is to survive, Eri.So the name is zero.

(Live on, Eri = 生きて, エリ. The abbreviation is IER, and REI=zero in turn.)

As the dead "self" said, she gave birth to a daughter not long after, which is the so-called "miracle".

She survived.

My daughter is also living a very healthy life. She also said that she wants to become an idol, and she also has very good friends who play very well.

His wish finally came true.

It should be like this.

It was supposed to be like this.

Until he found that he couldn't integrate into the scenery that should belong to him, a certain idea finally appeared in his mind - he wanted to reconcile this world into a world that he could also integrate into.He wanted to live with her and her.

After all, he still couldn't overcome loneliness.

For this purpose, he had no choice but to kidnap his daughter and did a lot of things to apologize to her.He tried his best to compensate her materially, even though he knew it was futile.

He finally fulfilled his ideal, and he can integrate into this world well.Not only that, he also healed her eyes, allowing her to see the world properly.

Only the memory of him, who does not belong to this world, and the daughter who is the concoct will not change when the world is changed. As for the memories of other people, subtle changes will occur.

He is now sitting on the Shinkansen to Akita with her daughter and her friends.

He decided to tell his lover the truth with his daughter.

Even if her daughter can't recognize herself yet, she will definitely be able to understand herself with that person's words.

Just like he thought at first.

"If she says it, she can save herself."

The man believes so firmly.

The author has something to say: ...the foreshadowing and other things to reveal...don't panic ((Wanting to write such a story from the beginning is really not a divine turn ((((

At that time, the outline wrote a full four pages and it was not blown (.

Whether you write well or not is another matter.

Originally, this chapter was over, but it turned out that I wrote 6K and haven’t written the key points yet.

The next chapter will definitely end...!

Although a day late, happy Mid-Autumn Festival! !

... addicted to Onmyoji and unable to extricate themselves (.

God, give me a big tengu (Dogeza)