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"People's memory of the dead will be preserved in the most beautiful form."

Without giving me a chance to interrupt, he continued.

"Even if it's someone who didn't like that much in life, or someone who knows that he likes the other person but is unwilling to face his own sincerity, after this existence disappears, there will only be regret and guilt in his heart."

"After all, no matter how much you do, that person will never come back. What you owe him and what you failed to tell him, can no longer be conveyed."

"Some people even choose not to forget the memory of the deceased and stay behind closed doors, constantly asking for memories of the past."

"In short, some people have a very, very deep obsession with the dead."

"There are still people who will do things beyond common sense."

He paused, as if waiting for my answer.

"for example……?"

"For example, in a certain work, in order to resurrect their mother, two brothers violated the taboo of alchemy to make human bodies. In the end, the younger brother lost his body and the older brother lost his left leg."

"Another example is that someone sacrificed many lives, including his own students, in order to bring his wife back to life."

"Don't you think that's crazy?"

"Yeah, pretty crazy. But that's something that only happens in novels or movies, doesn't it?"

"hope so."

"Moreover, no matter which work it is, it tells us in the end that doing so will not lead to good results."

"No." The audience denied me, "It's not like that."

"...?"

"At least one I know of where the guy who does that ends up getting what he wants. But he's sacrificing himself."

"Did he die himself? But in this case, wouldn't he get nothing?"

"Yes, he sacrificed himself, he himself is dead. But he got everything he wanted."

"Is the author of this work all right?"

"I think it's all right."

"Uh... But I still don't understand what you want to say, you continue."

"Okay. What I mean is...it is because people's obsession with the dead is so deep that they can't be saved, that's why they do some crazy actions. Even if they know it's wrong, even if they know that they will sacrifice themselves Even others, human beings will do it."

"Because, after death, nothing can be changed, everything is a foregone conclusion."

"Then the scariest thing in this world is death or human beings...?"

"However, death is not the only end of human connection with other human beings."

"There are things in the world that are more unspeakable, more painful, and more devastating than death."

"Then what...?"

His words seemed to lead me to an unknown world.

Although I really have no way of knowing what he wants to say, but his topic is very attractive to me.

It's like digging out the deepest part of my heart——

"For example, in a certain legend."

"The existence of dragons troubles people. Dragons and humans are natural enemies. There is a black dragon that does all kinds of evil and harms humans everywhere."

"At this time, a brave man stood up, and he gathered people of different races to fight against the black dragon with him."

"In the end, of course they defeated the black dragon. The ending of every legend is like this. But—"

"The brave man himself is also a dragon."

"He was a dragon from the beginning, and so was his sister. But he hid his identity from humans, and in the end he had to become a dragon himself because he wanted to fight the black dragon."

"He helped humans kill the black dragon, but he was regarded as a traitor. Even, his best friend gouged out one of his eyes and took away the black dragon gem—because his best friend, A traitor from the start."

"Then there is no more to this matter."

"In the end the hero died, and his best friend became the last dragon supporting the world."

"Until the end, they couldn't open up to each other."

"Until the end, they couldn't talk to each other about the past properly."

"So, even if the other party is still alive, some things cannot be communicated."

"I can't help it, because of my position."

"It's like the leadership of the country and the leadership of the enemy country, different organizations and other organizations, leaders and employees, teachers and students, and even stars and fans."

"Only when people are equal, can people communicate on an equal footing. But if one of them changes their status or position, they may never be able to go back to the past."

"because--"

"……………………"

"Ah, sorry. Only this matter, I can't sum it up well."

"But really, it's impossible to go back to the past. Only this matter can't be changed anyway. Maybe for some people, this matter is more uncomfortable than death."

"...In any case, the essence of death and the inability to return to the past are the same."

"That is, these things cannot be changed."

"Hmm...? So, this listener, your trouble is that the things you can't change make you sad, right?"

"probably."

"It might be, but it might not be."

"Ahaha..." He laughed self-deprecatingly, "I don't even know what troubles me."

"Obviously it was more painful to think about death at first, but now it is even more painful to say that the past that cannot be changed."

"In short, it is really painful not to be able to look forward to the future."

"'My dreams have no future'."

"'It just stays in the past'."

"Such words, just hearing me is no longer enough."

"...Sorry, I really don't know what I want to say."

"Uh, it's okay, you can take your time. I can somewhat understand your thoughts, although I have never experienced the problems you mentioned..."

"I don't know anything, sometimes it's a kind of happiness."

"That's right. After all, it is impossible for a fool to know the troubles of a wise man."

"You mean you're a fool and I'm a wise man?"

"No... I'm just making an analogy. I'm still a little annoyed to be told that by the audience..."

"Hahaha, I don't think you think so either."

"Why don't we talk about our family?"

"Uh..." I hesitated for a while, "It's fine if this can solve your troubles, but my family may have nothing to talk about..."

"It's ok."

"Mothers are really great, all mothers are existences that should be eulogized."

"Well, that's right..."

"But what is the so-called family?"

"In the final analysis, it's just people connected by blood."

"From the very beginning, we have to be bound together as 'family', sometimes it will only become a burden to ourselves, won't it?"

"Ah, even so. But I like my family very much."

"I like it too." I said.

"There is such a sentence in "No Longer Human"—"

"If you can avoid the violent ecstasy, naturally there will be no grief."

"In "Billion Laughers" it says—"

"Only those who have hope for tomorrow will despair; only those who choose to believe in others will be betrayed."

"That is to say, if you have nothing in the first place, you have nothing to lose."

"Only when you have it will you be afraid of losing it."

"Uh... what do you want to say? I can't understand the words that are too advanced."

"—what you have now will hold you back."

"So if you can, don't be entangled by some indifferent things."

"Ha... what you said is very reasonable, but I can't understand a word. No... I can understand it, but..."

"It's okay, you'll understand later."

"It doesn't matter if you understand it or not, after all, these words are not just for you."

"Even if you're a host, it's hard to have a huge impact on the audience."

"After all, under normal circumstances, the moderator is on the neutral side of 'what the majority thinks is justice'."

"A person who will have a huge impact on the world, a person who has a huge impact on someone... will eventually find that the more extreme the person, the more impact he will have."

"So, what can you convey to me now?"

"Do you think that what you said can easily change other people?"

"Talk talk doesn't work in this world."

"——how exactly do you have to do it to convey to others what you want to convey?"

His words echoed in my head.

It's as if a single shadow remains in the center of the universe, and only the ethereal echo of the universe can be heard.

scary.

really scary...

What I'm doing is like a joke in his mouth.

"Feel sorry."

A voice of apology came from the opposite side.

But I can't seem to hear it anymore.

"Time is running out, let me say a few last words."

"When you feel something is wrong, you may be able to see a different answer by adjusting the sequence."

"Isn't the reason for the change more important than the result of the change?"

"I finally became the person I wanted to be, but the price was unimaginable."

"It hurts."

"It really hurts deep inside."

"But there is no way to make up for it."

"I've made up my mind. I'm going to see that person until tomorrow."

"As for what will happen afterwards, I want to think about it after I do it."

"People who really like me will understand me."

"Instead of living in the deep sea of ​​dreams like this, it's better to simply let yourself have no regrets."

He continued on.

"If I can do what is allowed, I want to meet that person again."

"The pure white wings on the back are not the same as back then, they are just clothes."

"I still like things about you."

"No matter what the future holds..."

"There's more, Xiao Ling."

"—Your words must be fine."

"Your words must be fine."

"Your words must be fine."

He finally repeated these words three times, and before I could answer, he hung up the phone.

I don't know whether this is speaking to me, or to himself, or maybe just to someone who is listening to the program.

As for the answer, I have no way of knowing.

The message board for this episode was blank.

However, no matter how many years have passed, I will never forget the content of this program.

No matter what happens, it is impossible to forget.