Confessions of a retired star

"I wish Shisi—"

Suddenly, Zhu Shisi heard a voice calling him.

The spotlight flashed and his eyes hurt, Zhu Shisi came back to his senses and hugged Yan Yu's waist in a panic.

"Damn, what are you doing?" Yan Yu slapped Zhu Shisi's hand away, "It's not in this position for a long time, and you won't listen to me, what the hell are you doing!"

"Teacher, I'm sorry."

Yan Yu turned around and apologized to the photographer who was holding up the camera and waiting for Zhu Shisi to change his movements, then grabbed Zhu Shisi's hand and led him to barely complete the photo shoot for the cover of the two-person magazine.

Today is the No.13 of June, the No.18 day of Hefang Ting's stalemate, and the second day after being fired from the crew of "Personality".

Zhu Shisi rested for a few days after June [-]th. When he returned to the recording studio, his condition was not adjusted well, and the simplest scenes were performed in a mess.Now that Chen Quan couldn't keep him anymore, Wu Linkang came forward and gave Zhu Shisi some symbolic compensation, saying that he would be asked to cooperate with him next time there was an idol drama, and then sent Zhu Shisi out of the crew.

When he left, Qing Feng had already arrived on the set, and He Sai's role naturally fell into his pocket.

"What plastic acting skills are you doing? What was the level of your previous auditions?"

Qing Feng teased Zhu Shisi in front of everyone, Chen Quan looked at the monitor and said nothing, and Wu Linkang laughed the loudest among the group of people.

This ending was expected by Zhu Shiwan, but he was still too sad to breathe.He has devoted a lot to this role, just like how he put in all his heart and sweat to get into the ideal major, but in the end he failed.

The past happened again, and nine years later, Zhu Shisi was still the same fragile, easily dominated by emotions similar to broken love, but this time, the object changed from Fang Shuyun to Fang Ting.

"Hey, let me tell you, have you really found a way to get rich and don't want to do this anymore?" Yan Yu rolled his eyes at Zhu Shisi while removing his makeup, "You've been more floating than the bell bird cage back then."

"Ah."

Zhu Shisi replied lazily, and Yan Yu concluded that his answer was not thoughtful at all, and was about to turn around to scold him, when someone started to scold him.

"Zhu Shisi! What the hell are you doing to me? You're the only one who got kicked out after entering the group! You've lost all my old face!"

Yan Yu flinched in fright from the sharp female voice, carefully looking back in the mirror, Cheng Yalan's five blood-red nails were tightly pinching Zhu Shisi's arm, tearing his shirt collar crookedly .

"sorry Sorry……"

Zhu Shisi bowed his head and kept apologizing, his messy hair swayed like a ball of cotton wool, and there was a crying face on his face, Yan Yu smiled secretly, "I'm sorry", moved the stool and walked towards Cheng Yalan.

"Forget it, boss. You can't blame him entirely for this matter. You know, Wu Linkang is a money-seeker, and Lei Ao is rich and powerful. He didn't just find a reason to fire Zhu Shisi," Yan Yu snapped Pat Zhu Shisi on the shoulder, "Don't expect anything from Chen Quan, those who can get to her level will definitely not be so pure."

"You know what a fart! If you can't act, you blame the capital? Don't mess around here!" Cheng Yalan scolded Yan Yu, "Wu Linkang's grandson is really nothing. He even joined the group and didn't sign a contract with the actor. Waiting for Qing Feng to sneak in?"

"That's right, that's the reason." Yan Yu answered, Cheng Yalan gave her a glare, and walked out of the dressing room embarrassingly.

After Cheng Yalan yelled, most of her anger subsided, she stared at Zhu Shisi for a while, and found something was wrong, grabbed a makeup remover wipe, and wiped off Zhu Shisi's base makeup involuntarily.

After taking off the makeup of foundation and blush, Zhu Shisi's face lacked a trace of blood, and even thin blue-purple blood vessels could be seen on his cheeks.

"How much do you weigh now?"

"120... less than."

"What? Didn't you stay around 134 all the time?"

"I've lost weight recently..."

"Are you kidding, have you lost more than ten catties in half a month?" Cheng Yalan lifted up Zhu Shisi's sleeves and touched him around, her eyes were fixed on his face, her menacing scimitar eyebrows drooped, "You It can't be that you have cancer...cough, what kind of disease do you have?"

"I'm not sick."

Cheng Yalan breathed a sigh of relief: "Then why is this happening? You are about to encounter some difficulties, let's solve them together."

"It's not difficult, it's because I can't do it myself, it's because I'm not good," Zhu Shisi's eyes turned red, "I'm sorry."

Zhu Shisi lowered his head, which reminded Cheng Yalan that when he first met him, he was like this. After so many years, Zhu Shisi seemed to have never grown up, and Cheng Yalan's heart softened.

"Then you... well, okay, you are almost 27 years old, you are not a child anymore, you must learn to handle the relationship between your private life and work, don't bring your emotions to work, let alone affect your life because of it." Work."

"Um……"

"There is an interview announcement this week, and the next event will be the Glazed Light Music Festival at the end of the month. You put the interview on, and you have a holiday in the middle of half a month. Whether you need to recuperate or rest, you must report your status Adjust back, understand?"

"I'm not sick..." Zhu Shisi pouted.

Cheng Yalan smiled, patted Zhu Shisi's head with five fingers, and hurriedly left the dressing room.

Zhu Shisi drove home slowly, ate dinner slowly, and then sorted out the "Superstar Handbook" slowly. Anyway, he was on vacation again, so he had more time.

"Superstar Handbook" wrote two pages, all of which were words of blaming himself. After writing, Zhu Shisi lost his energy and lay down on the sofa to check Weibo, bored.

During this period of time, Zhushisi's black fans were as happy as it was Chinese New Year, and all kinds of reposts and lottery posters were in full swing, and Xida Puben celebrated his dismissal from the film crew.

I don't know who spread the news that Qingfeng replaced Zhu Shisi. The fans of the two scolded and tore each other's posthumous photos. Heizi danced and danced. "Earn enough topics and popularity before the filming started.

Zhu Shisi took a few glances at Weibo, and was very upset. He took out the Marlboro in the plastic bag, turned off the light, walked to the window, took out a cigarette, put it in his mouth, and lit it twice like a smoker. The flames sprang up, Zhu Shisi smelled burning, the smoke was not lit, and a handful of bangs were bent.

"Depend on."

It's farting to use cigarettes to relieve worries, Zhu Shisi gave up, and Marlboro and lighters were all thrown into the trash can.

Outside the window, the oblique upper part of the opposite building was still pitch black. It had been eighteen days since Fang Ting's house had not turned on the lights since they parted ways that night.

Zhu Shisi called him once. In the early morning of June [-]th, Zhu Shisi had insomnia until four o'clock. By accident, he found Fang Ting's call records. When the dial rang, he immediately hung up and turned off the phone quickly.

Turning on the phone at noon the next day, there was no message sent, nor any calls made. Zhu Shisi blamed himself for breaking his promise not to turn back, and searched the news on the Internet, but found no news about his recent situation. .

Zhu Shisi thinks it is very funny, a person who chases you, barks like a dog, "Brother, I like you", and stares at you deeply with those innocent and sensitive eyes, just evaporates and disappears, doesn't he? Don't you have any nostalgia?

He went to check the horoscope, and summarized the personality of Sagittarius on the Internet: he likes excitement and pursues novelty.

Zhu Shisi sneered at this label of pretending to be a ghost, but he found that even if he read the materials about Fang Ting countless times, even if he spent so many days with "Q Bu" day and night, even if he kissed him on the sofa inseparably She, he didn't understand Fang Ting at all.

Just like he didn't know Fang Shuyun, he didn't even know that Fang Shuyun was going to study abroad. Zhu Shisi was just enjoying the feeling of being accompanied and relying on them blindly.

Zhu Shisi closed the curtains and turned on the light. There was a pack of cigarettes in the plastic bag, which he bought when he returned home. He heard that smoking could relieve anxiety. Throw it in the trash.

My memory has unknowingly deteriorated.

There are a pile of old and new letters spread out on the coffee table. Since nine years ago, there have been 99 replies, plus a postcard. Only this postcard is from Fang Shuyun, and the rest are written by Fang Ting pretending to be his brother to Zhu Shisi.

"Really, to be fooled around by a child, how stupid..."

This kid not only lied to himself, showed Zhu Shisi the relics of his father that made him miserable like a treasure, and gave him the role in the way he hated the most. Zhu Shisi was disappointed and lost the role, It's shameful, hateful, hateful.

Thinking about it this way, Fang Ting was not cute at all.

But Zhu Shisi was still terribly uncomfortable.

He couldn't figure out why he couldn't restrain the other party's longing, why Fang Ting disappeared so completely like his brother, and why he had already experienced Fang Shuyun once, and he wanted to repeat the same mistakes.

Was he destined to fall into the hands of the two brothers?

With unsolvable questions in his arms, Zhu Shisi slowly fell asleep on the sofa.

Lei Ao suffered from insomnia, he did not expect Qing Feng to leave so simply.

In the evening, after the routine intimacy ended, Lei Ao came out of the shower, Qing Feng was wearing a bathrobe, with wet hair, standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, smoking a cigarette in a daze.

"Break with them." Lei Ao hugged Qing Feng from behind, his tall body pressed against Qing Feng's back, and Qing Feng fell into Lei Ao's arms effortlessly.

"I can give you the resources they give you. If you want more money, I can give you too."

Lei Ao lowered his head and kissed Qing Feng's neck, the wet hair of the two of them stuck together, dripping water slowly, Qing Feng tilted his head and rubbed the itchy neck that was rubbed by Lei Ao, and lightly refused: "Unless you and Those crazy bees and butterflies you raised broke off the relationship, otherwise I wouldn't just sleep with you alone, this is called fairness."

"..." Lei Ao let go of Qing Feng, and extinguished the cigarette in his hand, "The wild bees and butterflies? How can I have any wild bees and butterflies?"

"Haha, Mr. Lei, why are you acting like a kid? You just had a room with your ex-girlfriend a few days ago. Oh, by the way, there is also the newcomer Wu Linkang introduced to you. His name is Su..."

Qing Feng pinched his chin, pretending to be thinking, there was a sneer in his vacant eyes, Lei Ao became angry, and interrupted Qing Feng angrily: "Fair? What the hell do you have to talk about fairness with me?! I One phone call can get Zhu Shisi back and let you get out of the set!"

"No, no, Mr. Lei, you have no way out."

Qing Feng smiled viciously, a sharp tooth was exposed under the corner of his raised mouth, stabbing Lei Ao like a dagger.

The author has something to say: the third part has started, sweetness will come back soon!