Confessions of a retired star

"Shuyun, did you receive the last postcard? You didn't reply to me. I think it might be because I missed it. It was the first time I sent a transoceanic postcard, just in case I sent it to you again. Received you I am very happy with the letter. I am doing well in China. I joined Liuguang Entertainment. Unexpectedly, I would choose the path of being an artist. My mother asked me to repeat my studies, but I don’t want her to work so hard again, even if I am admitted to the Capital University. I don’t have a major in astronomy, and I can’t reduce her financial burden in the short term. I don’t think my choice is wrong. What do you think? I miss you very much. When can we meet again? Don’t worry, we will meet as friends.”

The signature reads "14", and the letter was sent at the end of August nine years ago.

Zhu Shisi recognized his own handwriting, and he looked at Fang Ting blankly. Fang Ting had already sorted out the rest of the postcards, which also had Zhu Shisi's handwriting on them, starting with "Book Cloud" and ending with "14".

The tinnitus exploded again, Zhu Shisi's hand trembled, and the postcard fell from his fingers.

"How do you have my things...?"

Fang Ting picked up the postcard that fell to the ground from Zhu Shisi's hand, put it in the box, sat upright, and looked at him seriously: "Here are a hundred of them, 99 of which were sent by you, and one more Zhang was taken away by me before you delivered it in time."

"One hundred..." Zhu Shisi's mood can no longer be described as surprise, "I wrote all of them?"

"Well, I planned to collect a hundred of them and meet you again, but you didn't send any new ones after No. 90 and nine. I can't wait to go back to China," Fang Ting nodded and put down the little girl in his arms. Swan, held the box in front of Zhu Shisi's eyes, "Now, do you remember who I am?"

Fang Ting's solemn expression was not joking, Zhu Shisi shook his head in astonishment, it was unbelievable that these one hundred postcards spanned nearly ten years, and they were all sent to that person named Fang Shuyun, not only that, he also received a hundred postcards Reply from Fang Shuyun.

How could they be in Fang Ting's hands?

Zhu Shisi couldn't figure it out, and repeated in confusion: "Why do you have my postcard?"

"Not only do I have them, I also wrote the 99 replies you received in the past nine years," Fang Ting smiled, with a little helplessness in his smile, "Only the postcard that Fang Shuyun sent you for the first time was written by him." of."

"...Nine, 99 replies?"

"Yes, I sent them all to you. They were carefully packed in envelopes and written from the age of 14 to the age of 23."

Zhu Shisi's heart jumped out of his chest again, stuck in his throat, and his vocal cords were scratched by a sense of emptiness. He really wanted to cough hard, but thousands of words were stuck in his mouth, leaving no gap for sound.

He opened his eyes wide like a dumb man, managed to sort out a thread from the mess in his brain, and pulled it out with a choked throat: "Fang Ting... who are you?"

Fang Ting seemed to have expected such a chaotic reaction from Zhu Shisi, poured him a glass of water, watched him drink a few sips, and then began to explain.

"I am Fang Shuyun's younger brother, originally named Fang Tingchen."

"Fang Ting... Dust?"

Zhu Shisi can't think of this person. Fang Shuyun does have a half-brother, but does he have anything to do with him?Have they met?Is he qualified to keep the postcard for Fang Shuyun and reply on his behalf?

"Fang Shuyun didn't tell you my name?"

"It's been too long, I can't remember."

"Then do you still remember that on August 11rd [-] years ago, in the garden of Fang Shuyun's house..."

On August 11rd [-] years ago, Zhu Shisi certainly remembered, even if he wanted to, he would never forget what happened that day.

"Why mention this day?"

Zhu Shisi looked at Fang Ting, his eyes were red, and his voice was smooth, but also hoarse.

"That was the day we met, August [-]rd, have you forgotten?"

"No!" Zhu Shisi's hoarse voice suddenly rose, making a piercing sound like an inflated balloon, then slumped into a ball and fell down, "I remember that day, I didn't meet anyone... I didn't meet you... ..."

Two tears hit the back of Zhu Shisi's hand, he thought that Fang Ting was frightened to cry by his anger, but when he blinked, he found that he was crying.

Fang Ting's expression was also very hurt, it wasn't the grievance after being yelled at, but rather bewildered, so bewildered that Zhu Shisi was puzzled, but he was not in the mood to interpret it.

The vision fluctuated and distorted in tears, and Zhu Shisi saw a crying boy with earphones hugging his knees, a person riding an old-fashioned two-seater bicycle, and a sky with green leaves shaking in the wind.

The cyclist was humming, passing through the shade amidst the singing of cicadas, a group of people surrounded him at the end of the road, they seemed to be waiting for him, but they turned their backs to him from a distance, whispering in low voices.

The song he hummed was... "Close To You".

It turns out that I heard this song not only nine years ago, but 11 years ago. No wonder every time I hear it, I feel a secret pain in my heart.

"Fang listen."

After a long silence, I returned to Fang Ting's impersonation of Fang Shuyun's communication. Zhu Shisi wiped away his tears and looked at Fang Ting indifferently.

Fang listened for a moment, raised his drooping and injured eyelids like a dog, and looked at his master vulnerablely and reverently.

"It's okay, I'll help you find it if you forget it, and we can create new memories..."

There were tears in Fang Ting's voice.

Just because of this sentence, Zhu Shisi was moved, he hated his infirmity, shook his head sadly, tears rolled down again: "Let's forget it..."

"you do not like me?"

"I don't want to like you."

"why?"

"You pretend that Fang Shuyun is communicating with me..."

Zhu Shisi's hesitant tone was intercepted by Fang Ting, who immediately refuted.

"I wrote you all the replies in the past nine years. It was me, not Fang Shuyun, who went through these years with you."

"I can't accept it," Zhu Shisi shook his head, "I thought the recipient was Fang Shuyun, and there were words on the postcard that only he could know. If you pretended to be him and cheated my trust, I would treat you as Fang Shuyun like a fool. ,I can not accept."

"Is it just for this reason? Why are you crying?" Fang Ting caught Zhu Shisi's indecision in his firm tone, and asked forcefully, "You like Fang Shuyun, right?"

"This is my personal business."

"Answer me," Fang Ting said emphatically, his eyes glowing with blazing light, "Do you like Fang Shuyun?"

"I told you, this has nothing to do with you!"

Zhu Shisi's face turned cold, he hated being questioned, hated asking him to answer secrets he didn't want to mention when he was in a state of confusion.

The stalemate was only stalemate for a few seconds before it was broken by Fang Ting's body suddenly pressing up. Zhu Shisi was pressed on the sofa by him, hugging his back as if trying to embed him in his body, pinching his waist, Grabbing his shoulders, madly kissing his hair, his eyes, his lips, and his neck.

If Fang Ting's right arm wasn't wrapped in a plaster cast, Zhu Shisi felt that he would tear himself apart.

Zhu Shisi is powerless to resist him, or rather irresistible, they have played He Sai and K too many times, and each time they forcefully stop before the fire, too much desire for each other has accumulated in their bodies, Zhu Shisi can only struggle After kissing twice, she rolled with Fang Ting and kissed for a long time.

But they still stopped before the critical step, because when Zhu Shisi was about to put aside the sad matter and forgive Fang Ting for pretending to be Fang Shuyun, Fang Ting asked in a low voice in his ear:

"You rejected me because of Fang Shuyun? Although I lied to you, you have been with me for these nine years, and I have been with you at the same time."

The warm atmosphere dropped to freezing point.

Fang Ting is still too young, eager to find a reasonable reason for his mistakes, and also eager to prove that he is unique in the hearts of the people he likes. If he does not speak, Zhu Shisi will not stop unzipping the zipper.

Zhu Shisi asked himself, if Fang Ting started with a forced kiss and Fang Shuyun didn't say a word, would he be able to accept him?

May be.

But when the name Fang Shuyun appeared, many lingering things appeared in Zhu Shisi's mind. Fang Ting pretending to be him was just one of them. There were also some unspeakable and even unbearable things that filled his chest, making him Unable to plunge into Fang Ting's arms.

"Let's forget it, really."

Zhu Shisi said quietly, when Fang listened in a daze, he turned over and sat up, put on his clothes and pants, tied up his scarf, and limped towards the porch.

Fang sounded very strong, and his body was much heavier than it looked, which made Zhu Shisi's legs numb.

Zhu Shisi was a little sad, Fang Ting was his favorite type no matter in terms of appearance or personality, but the past was too difficult to digest, and he didn't like him to the point where he gave up the principle of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages.

Behind him, Fang Ting chased after him, Zhu Shisi thought that he would hug him from behind, and force him to stay again, but Fang Ting didn't.

He rushed in front of Zhu Shisi, blocking his way, holding a transparent crystal cube in his hand, like a mermaid holding tears, and eagerly offered it to Zhu Shisi.

"Here, look at this," Fang Ting picked up the cube in a panic, "This is the Milky Way you gave me, we met 11 years ago, brother, I am Fang Tingchen, we met before."

Just now, he was as fierce as a man-eating beast, but in a blink of an eye, he turned into a poor puppy again. With red eyes, he kept calling his brother to look at it. Zhu Shisi wanted to laugh for no reason. When his eyes shifted to Fang Ting The palm of the hand, the smiling face froze.

A miniature galaxy is engraved inside the cube, and the crystal glass light is shining brightly under the ceiling lamp in the entrance, and a line of words is engraved under the galaxy:

cube of the milky way

Cube, Q Bu, and Zhu Shisi almost immediately thought of the reason why Fang Ting changed his name to Q Bu, but the turbulent memories did not allow his thoughts to have any chance to breathe. He drowns.

He still remembers the situation when he took the cube from those rough hands, they were laughing at that time, as if happiness would not leave for granted.

Zhu Shisi's heart ached terribly, he was about to leave, Fang refused to let him go, twisted his arm and confessed eagerly:

"At that time, you gave it to me and comforted me to hold it to hold happiness. Since then, I have you in my heart, and I wrote to you afterwards, which made me find what I love. It is you, it is you Take me out of the most painful period."

Zhu Shisi laughed, it was too weird, how could he save others when he couldn't even save himself?He couldn't delay any longer, he had to leave this place as soon as possible.

"So you're here to repay me? Use a pseudonym to lie to me, withdraw from the role, and then use your superb acting skills as a movie star to demonstrate to me, an idiot, just like an examiner directly revealing the answer to a stupid student?"

The playful and mocking tone gave Zhu Shisi the illusion that he was not speaking. Fang Ting was also startled for a moment, and explained sadly: "I want to help you. You said you need this role. I just want to help you."

"Help me, why don't you ask me if I appreciate it?"

"I... I see your enthusiasm and focus on acting. I don't want to give this good role to an impure actor like Qing Feng."

"You are too naive Fang Ting," Zhu Shisi looked away from Fang Ting's rosy eyes, "The only difference between me and him is that I don't rely on being accompanied|sleeping in the top position, and I only want to gain the title of actor through this role. I'm not interested in acting."

"...You are not such a person," Fang Ting let go of Zhu Shisi's arm, "You obviously wrote so many words of encouragement on the postcard, you said that you don't want to lose to others, you want to be in the showbiz..."

Zhu Shisi interrupted Fang Ting in a cold voice: "That's because you pretended to be someone else to communicate with me and imagined me. You don't know me. I'm a person who hangs around in Vanity Fair. Unlike you, I only have goals and no dreams. "

"..."

Fang Ting seemed to be stupefied by Zhu Shisi's words. He didn't pick up the Galaxy Cube when he dropped it on the ground.

"You're not like that, are you?"

"Stop glorifying me."

Fang Ting's eyes blinked, and the tears in the resonant cavity finally flowed out.

"You go..."

Fang Ting gave way to the door.

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