Confessions of a retired star

Zhu Shisi didn't move. He looked at the light coffee-colored curtains that were drawn a few meters away. The room was well lit, and he could easily see the outline of his body from the [-]th floor opposite.

Why follow suit?Zhu Shisi's resistance is not because of his self-esteem and his inability to succumb to orders, but because he has escaped from the intimate role-playing relationship. They are just ordinary friends who are one step closer to strangers.

The phrase "Come to the window, I want to see you" goes beyond the boundaries of ordinary friends.

But this sense of offside is only one of the reasons why Zhu Shisi didn't follow suit. What he cares more about is that this ordinary person who enters the play in a blink of an eye, turns each other into another person and plays their roles mesmerizingly. Friends, what is the unspeakable secret?

Zhu Shisi didn't move for a long time, and the person in the receiver was also silent, as if giving him time to digest and overcome.

"Are you ok?"

After half a minute, the other party asked, the tone of the imperative sentence improved a bit, but it was still slow and deep.

"who are you?"

"Did I help you?"

"who are you?"

"Why are you sitting still?"

"who are you?"

"I want to see you."

"Who the hell are you?" "Come here."

In the last two sentences, the voices of the two people sounded at the same time, collided with each other in the digital signal, and mixed into a vague and messy sentence.

"..." "..."

Silence fell again. After the strong probing and touching of both sides, they both withdrew their language and silently silent.

The breath passed through the earpiece and slowly hit each other's ears. After a long introspection-like stalemate, there was a fine rustle at one end.

In the living room on the sixteenth floor, the lights were turned off.The light-colored curtains enveloped the darkness, and it was no longer possible to spy on the figures in the room from the seventeenth floor.

But Zhu Shisi did not hang up the phone.Q Bu on the other end of the phone coughed, with a tacit sense of urgency in his tone:

"coming?"

"Ah."

Zhu Shisi opened the curtains.

The street scenes late at night reflected his clean hair and face, casting a dim warm light on his new white clothes.There was no wind at night, and he stood between two hanging curtains, like an actor stepping out of the curtains.

His audience, ten meters away, on the upper right, black-clothed and black-haired, stood in disorder in front of the transparent floor-to-ceiling windows, staring reverently at the actor's appearance.

Zhu Shisi found that the street lights between the two buildings were not so dark, and he could see each other's every move by the window without the need of a flashlight.

At this time, Q Bu, as he said, "watched" Zhu Shisi, just watched, didn't speak, didn't move extra, just watched quietly.

Zhu Shisi also looked at him, holding phones in both hands, looking at each other wordlessly.

In the connection without human voice, the same street sound resonates and spreads on both ends of the phone, there are one or two cat meows, night passers-by who sing loudly to embolden their courage, and the sound of moths crashing into street lamps in early summer.

Zhu Shisi felt that he should take the initiative to say something, because finding complacency in silence is not his strong point, let alone such a silence soaked in ambiguity.

What should I say, continue to ask who are you?How do you memorize the positions and lines after reading it once?Are you an amateur performer?How did you get your scar?Do you dislike the beast-like excitement in the play...

"I have a physical reaction to you, as K."

The empty silence in the earpiece was broken, and a male voice with a hot and humid breath suddenly inserted into the empty ear canal, Zhu Shisi trembled suddenly.

"...reaction? To me?"

Zhu Shisi's secret seems to have been uncovered by Q Bu's confession. Besides his embarrassment and embarrassment, there is inexplicably a little more pleasure like an accomplice.

"If I'm hiding it, it's an offense to think you set yourself free."

Q Bu stood behind the neatly spliced ​​glass obliquely above, his shoulders and chest undulating, and under his messy hair, he showed a restrained and impatient expression.

"I have to tell you."

The deep and melodious voice polished by the scalding emotions rang in his ears again, Zhu Shisi tightly pinched the phone that was covered in mist, he felt that he should be angry, that he should puff up his fur like an elegant cat, Respond to rudeness and disrespect with polished fingernails.

But is he really rude?Frankness is always better than hypocrisy, and just now in the bathroom, I was the one who offended first...

The air exhaled by Q Bu was blown into Zhu Shisi's ears through the mobile phone, his scalp was numb, his eyes moved down one meter from Q Bu's face eagerly waiting for a response, his pupils adjusted slightly, it was difficult to see that he was escape.

"There's no need to say such things..." Zhu Shisi swallowed with difficulty.

"Can I do it myself?"

The other end of the phone immediately answered the question, and the short sentence made Zhu Shisi's heartbeat, which he tried his best to suppress, suddenly speed up.

"……what ever."

Zhu Shisi's answer was very light, as if nothing had happened, but when the ending sound was withdrawn, his breathing was trembling, Q Bu heard it, and also found that he seemed to be looking at himself, but in fact the focus of his eyes fell on the window in front of him.

"look at me."

"look in."

"You didn't," Q Bu debunked, and ordered, "I said, look me in the eye."

"..."

Zhu Shisi rolled his eyes upwards hesitantly, a clump of sweat oozing from the tip of his nose below his vision.

Q Bu's lustful expression died away, replaced by a mixture of cunning tenderness and sentimental nostalgia.

Zhu Shisi met his eyes and was stunned for a moment: What did I do too much?Make him look at me like that.

"You want to know who I am?"

Q Bra returned to the topic, Zhu Shisi was still wandering, and gave a slow "hmm".

"I'll tell you the answer when you win the role of He Sai," Q Bout paused, and added, "Also, at that time, the postcard will also be given to you."

"……it is good."

There was no room for rejection, and no reason for rejection, Zhu Shisi agreed.

Holding the phone in their hands, the two parties looked at each other silently for a while. Zhu Shisi felt that he should hang up first, but looking into Q Bu's eyes, he seemed to have something to say.

"Actually, you should have known who I am."

"what……"

"Nothing, good night."

Q Bu shook the clumsy plaster cast, waved to Zhu Shisi, hung up the phone, turned and left the French window.

The mobile phone beeped twice and ended the call automatically.Zhu Shisi was still standing by the window, looking at the glass corner at the end of the seventeenth floor, the place was empty, with the still warm light leaning against the window, without a single ripple, as if no one had ever existed.

A car drove by, the exterior wall of the apartment flashed the light of the headlights, the dim curtains shook twice, and Zhu Shisi also disappeared by the window.

Q cloth, you are a question mark in my heart.

"Okay, you, you suddenly became enlightened. I was so worried yesterday afternoon, and it's not easy to tell you. Once you talk about it, Wu Linkang will come to push Qingfeng. Do you believe it or not? Hahaha, fight for me." Take a deep breath, I use people to judge acting skills, and all capital backstages stand aside."

In the COC lounge, a shrill female voice was talking and joking on the other end of the phone, the volume was so loud that it jumped out of the receiver, Zhu Shisi responded humbly, the clips sent yesterday were affirmed by Chen Quan, Zhu Shisi was in a good mood.

"Wu Linkang insists on saying that Qing Feng's acting skills are better than yours. What's the point? He turned our literary film into a tertiary film. I don't like this kind of romantic film. He Sai is a virgin. What should I do?" Some youthfulness must be there, don’t you think so? That Lei Ao even came to the set to put pressure, I feel annoyed just looking at him..."

Chen Quan was talking non-stop, and suddenly there was a fierce quarrel outside the lounge. Without listening carefully, Zhu Shisi also recognized that one of them was Yan Yu. This way.

"What happened?"

"Brother Si, don't go out, that person is coming."

"he came?"

Zhu Shisi walked faster and went straight to the source of the noise.

There is no air conditioning in the meeting room, and there is a stifling heat as soon as you enter the door.Mu Di was wearing a long-sleeved denim jacket that had been washed out, his face was pale under his fine hair, and he was shrinking on the chair at the door, motionless.

Zhu Shisi noticed him first, stretched out his hand to stroke his bangs, and felt a little sweat: "Uncomfortable?"

"No……"

A loud bang broke Mu Di's weak voice, Zhu Shisi raised his head according to the sound, at the end of the oval desk, a cup of milk tea bursting on the table was rushing to the ground, Yan Yu turned his back to Zhu Shisi, His fist was pressed against the plastic he smashed, and he turned towards the person blocked by him violently.

"I'm going to make trouble again and again, I'll bear it, you fucking dare to fart in front of me, see if I will spoil you!"

Zhu Shisi was startled, although Yan Yu was outspoken in private, but after working with him for so many years, Zhu Shisi had hardly seen him get angry.

"what happened?"

Zhu Shisi hurried forward to hold Yan Yu, and the person blocked by him appeared.

Legs crossed on the desk, hands playing with mobile phones are covered with all kinds of ferocious prajna tattoos from wrists to biceps, a black T-shirt with skulls printed on it wraps a solid figure, and three lines are shaved on the sideburns of the inch head , his cynical eyes looked at Zhu Shisi playfully through the edge of the purple Harley sunglasses.

If it wasn't for Zhu Shisi who knew him, seeing his attire, he would have thought it was Q Bu's friend Ah Tiao who came over.

"Zhong Xiaolong, what are you doing?"

"What am I doing? I didn't do anything, but after telling the truth, your captain Yan slapped the table."

"You fucking..."

Yan Yu shook off the rotten milk tea cup in his hand, pointed at Zhong Xiaolong's nose to scold, but was held back by Zhu Shisi.

"Calm down, someone will come in the meeting room at any time... Mu Di doesn't seem to be feeling well, go and see him."

Yan Yu was held down by Zhu Shisi and couldn't move, so he cursed, kicked the stool flying, and walked towards Mu Di sullenly.

Zhong Xiaolong smiled at Zhu Shisi: "Hey, after so many years, you still stay here as their nanny? Are you not tired? One is a giant baby and the other is a waste."

"I have something to talk about, I don't have time to talk nonsense with you."

"I wish the big star cherishes my time so much?" Zhong Xiaolong's sarcasm contained a trace of vicious hatred, "Then why don't you know how to cherish Ye Kai's time?"

"..."

Zhu Shisi froze for a few seconds, bent down and pressed his hands on the table, and said with a heavy tone, one word at a time:

"Please, you, have, thing, say, thing."

"Okay," Zhong Xiaolong was satisfied with Zhu Shisi's reaction, and smiled and pushed the phone in front of his eyes, "You owe Ye Kai and me this amount, when do you plan to pay it back?"

Eight digits are displayed on the screen.

"Fuck your fucking fart—!"

Yan Yu's scolding sounded suddenly behind him.