Confessions of a retired star

"How... how?"

Zhu Shisi's voice became hoarse, his heart was pounding, he hurriedly looked away to the screen, and then pretended to look at Q Bu casually.

"You..." Q Bu squinted his eyes as if he had discovered a new world, and suddenly opened them wide, shining brightly, "Your face hasn't been washed clean."

Zhu Shisi broke out in a cold sweat: I was so frightened by you that my heart rate went straight to [-], so you just told me this?

"Where is it not cleaned?"

"See for yourself."

Q Bu clicked on the paused video, which happened to be a close-up of Zhu Shisi's face, and there was a gray mark on the left side of his face.

"This..." Zhu Shisi held the phone closer, "Hey, it's not the dirt on my face, the video was shot by the assistant and then uploaded to my phone, it should be her shot. "

Zhu Shisi moved the video forward a bit, and the gray mark on the screen was also there in the previous shot, but the brightness of the picture is not as bright as the close-up, so it is not so obvious.

"Did you see it?" Zhu Shisi held up his mobile phone to prove to Q Bu, "He Sai just covered him with heat, it doesn't mean his face is dirty, I pay attention to the restoration of the character's image...Look at the clothes I wear, The shirt and windbreaker are crumpled, do you think I am sloppy? Wrong, I specially designed them."

The corner of Q Bu's mouth twitched, he nodded and laughed while falling on the pillow: "It's interesting how serious you are."

"?" Zhu Shisi didn't understand.

"I just want to see the reaction of you sneaking a glance at me and being smashed by me." Q Bu stood up suddenly, and slightly frightened Zhu Shisi in front of him, "Ha, it's fun."

"boring."

Zhu Shisi didn't refute the fact that he peeked at Q Bu, but rolled his eyes at this smiling childish ghost, and continued to play the video, Q Bu consciously leaned against Zhu Shisi's side, and the hot breath came again, Zhu Shisi face is hot.

Three 10-minute audition clips left two 10-minute intimate scenes, Zhu Shisi played He Sai first in front of the camera, and then K, because there was no one playing with Zhu Shisi at the scene, he hugged in the air alone , this paragraph looks a bit awkward.

Q Bu was very absorbed in watching, Zhu Shisi didn't glance at him again, who knows what childish tricks he is planning?I wish Shisi will not be fooled.

"Well...I think about it."

At the end of the video, Q Bu thought for a while, leaned over and poured a drink into the cup in front of him, and handed it to Zhu Shisi.

"I usually don't touch sweet things."

Zhu Shisi pushed the cup to Q Bu, and Q Bu shrugged, drank the drink in one gulp, and said:

"I don't think you're good enough."

"What?" Zhu Shisi felt uncomfortable in his heart, but after thinking about it, now that he has made up his mind, he should communicate with the sharp-eyed audience like Q Bu. He collected himself and asked, "Where is it?" Did not do well?"

"You don't have a sense of narcissism." Q Bu slept on the backrest and stretched his waist, "The two personalities belong to the same pair, if you don't lay the emotional foreshadowing in front, then when you finally reveal the answer It looks awkward."

"Well……"

What Q Bu said makes sense. During the second audition on the set today, the screenwriter and director have been guiding Zhu Shisi towards narcissism. Zhu Shisi thinks he seems to have found some feeling, but from Chen Quan's Judging by his expression, he still owed it.

"To be honest, that's what the director said about me," Zhu Shisi lowered his head dejectedly, smoothing the curled up hair in his hair, "but I don't understand what narcissism is, not because it's a difficult term. I understand, but I don't have any emotional experience, and I have to internalize it to myself, it's really strange..."

Zhu Shisi's depressed mood was captured by Q Bu, he put away his lazy expression, and looked down to find Zhu Shisi's gaze: "Look more in the mirror, you will fall in love with yourself, you are very good-looking."

Q Bu’s words seemed to be joking, but his tone was very serious. Zhu Shisi couldn’t tell the difference for a while, and responded with a wry smile: “Isn’t it just one nose and two eyes, which have bothered me since I was a child.”

"Then..." Q Bu scratched his head, his eyes lit up, and lightly hit Zhu Shisi's arm with a plaster cast, "The way you work hard is also very attractive, you should love yourself for that."

Zhu Shisi shook his head: "I work hard because I care about winning or losing. Why is my competitive spirit attractive? Is it annoying? The outside world thinks that my personality is generous and casual, but in fact I like to secretly talk to others. Competitive, small-minded."

Q cloth did not speak.

Zhu Shisi looked at him, he was looking at himself with a happy and satisfied expression, Zhu Shisi realized that he had spoken his heart without knowing it, whether it was self-doubt or hidden in his heart, It's all said.

"No, it's not annoying, but very real." Q Bu's eyes were filled with small surprises and great tolerance, "I'm very happy that you can tell me this."

Q Bu raised his hands, gave Zhu Shisi a hug, and whispered in his ear, "This is so cute."

Zhu Shisi was hugged in a daze, and when he understood, Q Bu had already sat back with a clumsy plaster cast.

But they were still very close, with Q Bu's left hand on Zhu Shisi's right, his fingers bouncing briskly on the cloth, their fingertips touching each other from time to time.

The warm lamp shone on Q Bu's soft face, his compliments lingered in his ears, and his fragrance was in his nose, Zhu Shisi was in a strange mood.

The atmosphere has become ambiguous, and the topic has gone far... What did you say to him before?

Zhu Shisi retracted the hand touched by Q Bu, and interrupted his strange mood with words:

"As an audience, please comment on the flaws of my play."

"I've already evaluated it."

Q cloth reminder.

"right."

Zhu Shisi was even more embarrassed.

……

"Otherwise, you play the original personality, and I play the split personality. Let's play against each other. Maybe there is a physical object, and you can find the feeling?"

Q Bu didn't seem to have the idea of ​​pushing the ambiguity further, and took the initiative to turn the topic back to acting, Zhu Shisi heaved a sigh of relief.

But he is a layman, although his vision is very poisonous, if he really acts, can he do it?

While Zhu Shisi was thinking, the light in the living room suddenly went out, and he was in the darkness for an instant.

Suddenly, the curtains and windows were pulled open with a bang, the breeze was blowing, and the fading moonlight was entwined with incandescent neon lights. Dazed silhouette.

"Say hello to me."

Zhu Shisi heard Q Bu's voice, but couldn't see his expression at the moment. He leaned against the window frame, as if inviting, but also as if giving orders.

One second, two seconds, three seconds, time was flowing, Zhu Shisi's inquiring gaze did not get the answer from Q Bu who was hidden behind the light, he didn't even repeat the order, but just waited for Zhu Shisi in a waiting posture. Pick up and play.

"OK……"

Zhu Shisi stood up unknowingly, recited He Sai's lines, walked slowly along the right angle, step by step, to the person waiting by the window.

"Okay," Q Bu's voice was laughing, not his usual bright and cheerful laugh, but a familiar and quiet smile, "I came to you in advance, He Sai."

Zhu Shisi walked into the area where Q Bu's facial features could be clearly seen with the blunt steps He Sai took when he went upstairs.is this him?A man with a thousand words hidden in his eyes, every time he blinks slowly, the deep pupils will stir up layers of ripples like a pool of water, and suddenly turn into a raging ocean, involving those who stare into the abyss.

Looking closely, Zhu Shisi was scalded, it was not water, it was fire, it was a raging fire climbing out from the bottomless pit, it was burning silently, waiting for He Sai to die here.

The person in front of the window is not Q Bu, this is K, the K in "Personality", he appeared in reality.

In the last second, Zhu Shisi still had time to think about how Q Bu remembered his lines, and in the next second, he became He Sai.

"That's great," after looking at each other, the eyes of both He Sai and Zhu Shisi were dyed in a dark red arc, he turned sideways, imitating the movement of opening the door, and said in a low voice, "If you follow the agreed time Meet me, maybe we won't see each other."

Pushing open the virtual door, He Sai led K into the room. Similarly, Zhu Shisi returned to smile with Q as if meeting an acquaintance, and took him away from the backlit position, and walked four steps away. framed in the middle of the screen.

Here, each other can clearly capture each other's saliva swallowing and every hesitation.

"Anything on your mind?"

asked K.

"It's not a big deal."

Jose replied.

"It's hot today, don't you think?"

K asked again.

"It's very hot."

He Sai answered again.

"Have you had dinner?"

K continued to ask.

"not yet."

He Sai continued to answer.

After three rounds of brief conversations, Zhu Shisi's sweat came out, stopped on his neck, and was cooled by the night wind. It was hot and cold, and condensed into a thin watery light, like needles piercing the skin. It was very itchy. frizzy.

As He Sai, Zhu Shisi tugged at the sweat-stained collar of his shirt, showing a slightly dizzy sense of crampedness from his subconscious body language.

"drink water?"

This time it was He Sai who asked first.

The two faced each other, looked at each other, and the sight of touching each other made people anxious, and the boring and plain conversation stretched and tightened the restless string, so tight that it was difficult to make the next sound.

He Sai looked away, he didn't understand the purpose of wrestling with this familiar stranger, he wanted to let go of the string temporarily.

"There is only water in the house."

Jose added.

"Ah."

K replied, in a calm, accustomed tone.

He Sai got a reason to avoid his gaze, Zhu Shisi played He Sai, dominated by this subtle emotion, and slowly walked to the straight edge of the square light under the window frame.

one two three four five six seven……

Seven seconds counted down, and in the first three seconds, the two sides stood silently at the two ends of the scene.

In the middle three seconds, K's footsteps seemed to be quick and slow, and he walked up along the trajectory of He Sai pouring water on his back.

At the last second, K opened his arms, and after a very short pause like accumulating strength, he hugged He Sai to his heart.

"Take it off."

He Sai's coat was pulled to the sides by K's powerful arms, and his fingers stretched down, frantically wandering over his old shirt and to his belt.

The plaster cast on Q Bu's right arm was tightly pressed against Zhu Shisi's waist, and his left hand fumbled impatiently for the buttons of the windbreaker, pulling and pulling, and three buttons fell off. Zhu Shisi followed the sound and looked confused, Q Bu sucked it The blue veins under his messy neckline, while kissing disorderly, pulled out his belt, followed his struggling arms, and threw the windbreaker to the ground.

The two hearts attached to the front and back were beating wildly with high frequency, the fingers were twisted together, and the shoulders shrank, stretched, trembled and then tightened like an electric shock.

Is Q Boo playing K, or is he playing himself?

Is this He Sai, or is this me?