Confessions of a retired star

In mid-April, the Pearl Film Festival Awards Ceremony was held as scheduled.

As a big hit for the award, "Fake Fake" naturally became the focus of tonight.

The loudness of the voice can be seen when the main creator walks on the red carpet. The screams and applause are intertwined in the flashing lights one after another. The noise is like thunder, bright as day, and the battle is more amazing than Shadowman Night.

At the end of the red carpet, the reporters surrounded Zhu Shisi tightly. Regarding the best actor, the public opinion was almost one-sided towards him, and many media outlets had already written a draft of his award.

The ceremony started on time at [-]:[-] pm. After Zhu Shisi accepted the interview alone, he walked to the infield, took a seat, and sat down next to Fang Ting. The ceremony just kicked off.

Zhu Shisi's outfit tonight is white with blue, and Fang Ting wears a suit of black. It is similar to Zhu Shisi's suit, and it is made by the same designer.The camera is aimed at two people wearing the same series of dresses, and many tacit pictures are taken, such as laughing at the same time, paying attention to the camera at the same time, looking at each other at the same time, and applauding at the same time, even the number and frequency of applause are the same.

Time passed in every move of the heart, and soon it was time to award the best supporting actor.

The exciting drumbeats sounded, and a split screen of the nominees appeared on the big screen. Fang Ting, who was next to him, was also included in the screen.

There wasn't much suspense, the light hit Fang Ting, he hugged Zhu Shisi, walked quickly to the podium, his acceptance speech was shorter than the congratulatory speech of the award presenter, and hurried back to Zhu Shisi with the trophy around.

Many awards followed, before best actor and best picture were announced, "Fake" also won best original screenplay, best cinematography and best soundtrack, and "Personality" won best art direction .

After a long wait, finally ushered in the announcement of the best actor.

As an award presenter, Fang Ting went to the backstage early, Wei Pengpeng and other main creators sat on the other side, and Zhu Shisi was left alone in the audience. The nervousness is self-evident.

When the performance clips of the finalists were finished and the shots of each of them appeared on the big screen, Zhu Shisi was already sweating.

On the stage, Fang Ting kept looking at Zhu Shisi, and the eyes of both sides met. Fang Ting smiled at Zhu Shisi and said his guest's opening remarks.

"Relax, I believe in you."

The audience was quiet for less than a second, and there was an instant sensation for this targeted opening sentence. Everyone booed and applauded, and all eyes were on Zhu Shisi. Under the eyes of everyone, Zhu Shisi suddenly became less nervous, because he Seeing Fang Ting, Fang Ting was also looking at him.

"The winner of Best Actor is..."

After the uproar stopped, Fang heard that he opened the envelope directly without saying a word, and then, his gaze was fixed there, among the hundreds of faces waiting for the result with bated breath, for ten seconds, he Mouth pursed, he stared at the name on the envelope in disbelief.

"F*ck!"

After a long dead silence, dirty words burst out from the microphone, Fang Ting crumpled the envelope, his eyes were as red as fire.

"calm down……"

Zhu Shisi caught Fang Ting's out-of-focus eyes due to rage, and continued to comfort him with his lips. Fang Ting held back his anger and opened the envelope again, patted it on the awards platform, and said the name on the letter.

"Qingfeng."

"Wow--!"

No one applauded, Qing Feng yelled first, he rushed to the podium, raised his trophy and cheered, at this moment, the audience reacted, applause was scattered in the hall, and most people turned their attention to the upset The horse's wish is picked up.

The camera was also aimed at Zhu Shisi, and a close-up of him appeared on the screen. Almost everyone thought that he would be extremely disappointed.

However, Zhu Shisi only raised his hand to wipe off the sweat on his forehead, and smiled with relief: "Congratulations, Qingfeng."

There was an uproar.

Fang Ting had already left the stage and walked towards Zhu Shisi, leaving Qing Feng alone on the stage. Without congratulatory speeches or thunderous applause from the guests, he generously delivered his acceptance speech, and gave Lei Ao a kiss after stepping off the stage, turning the focus on Sucked away from Zhu Shisi, and pushed the ceremony to a climax.

In the end, "Fake" won the best picture, and when the main creators came to the stage to accept the award, Fang Ting's eyes were swollen, as if he was the one who missed out on the actor.

The film festival came to an end in the middle of the night, and the reporters at the scene did not disperse, but flocked to another venue not far away to attend the press conference held by Zhu Shisi.

All the media believed that Zhu Shisi was determined to win tonight, and the press conference was specially prepared for him after he became the film star. Unexpectedly, there was an upset, and the duck that Zhu Shisi won flew away.

After being in place, Zhu Shisi announced something unexpected to all the media——

He's quitting the showbiz.

Zhu Shisi only said three sentences before and after.

"Friends who like and support me, I believe that in the future, you will definitely find someone who will accompany you and bring you joy. Sorry, I will no longer be with you. After the contract expires, I will terminate all performing arts activities."

"Six years ago, Ye Kai became a vegetable because of my fans. As an idol, I did not fulfill my responsibility to guide and restrain fans, let them hurt my partner, and did not make substantial compensation to him afterwards. For Ye Kai, I am very sorry, from today to before I quit the entertainment industry, including the follow-up box office dividends generated by the movie, all income will be used for Ye Kai's treatment expenses."

"Finally, I implore all friends who care about me or are curious about my private life, please do not bother Fang Ting. I am married to him, I love him very much, and he loves me very much. This is the only explanation for our relationship."

All the media at the scene were so surprised that they were silent, only the cameras were clicking, and suddenly, there was a voice of opposition from the corner.

—— "I don't agree with you quitting the entertainment industry! Don't leave!"

Zhu Shisi looked at the source of the sound, Qing Feng blushed furiously in the corner, he threw the best actor trophy in his hand to Lei Ao who was next to him, and strode across the crowd towards Zhu Shisi.

Driven by Qingfeng, the reporters and the media swarmed forward. Seeing that the wall of people was about to surround Zhu Shisi, Fang Ting, holding a motorcycle helmet, appeared at the scene, took Zhu Shisi's hand, and brought Zhu Shisi Then he fled the crowd.

When people rushed out of the press conference, Zhu Shisi and Fang Ting had already left, just like the night at the hospital last year, when the motorcycle roared and disappeared into the night.

After that, Qingfeng received a message from Zhu Shisi.

"You will definitely meet better opponents."

Qing Feng's eyes were red, and he turned to look at Lei Ao angrily.

"It was you who voted for me to win the best actor? Do you know that you left Zhu Shisi in a fit of anger?"

"Didn't you say that you want to be the actor?"

"I was joking with you!" Qing Feng became impatient, "People like Zhu Shisi are stubborn, and it's no fun to fight him with tricks. He likes to compete openly, so I'll use fair means to defeat him." , it's all your fault! You pay me a decent opponent!"

Lei Ao took Qing Feng's claws a few times, clasped his hands with his ten fingers, and put them on his heart.

"Isn't it enough for me to be your opponent?"

"Fuck?!"

Yan Yu was watching the live broadcast of Zhu Shisi's press conference at home, and Zhu Shisi's sudden announcement of quitting the entertainment industry had already confused him, and he left the scene with Fang Ting without saying a word, which made Yan Yu even more confused.

The camera in the arena was focused on Qing Feng and Lei Ao again, at first Qing Feng was still beating Lei Ao, but no matter how he hit the two of them, he started booing, it was still hot and wet and not suitable for children.

Everything was messed up, Yan Yu's face was full of question marks, he turned off the computer, went out, drove, and went straight to Yin Bing's house.

In the past six months, Yin Bing has been busy releasing a new album. The company doesn't come much, and the information is also slow to reply. Yan Yu is worried about his success and loses his mind. Everyone around him has a partner, only he is single. Anyway, everyone is crazy tonight, Yan Yu Yu also went all out.

He wants to confess!

At twelve o'clock, the door slammed, and seeing Yan Yu in pajamas from the surveillance, Yin Bing opened the door.

Before asking him why he visited late at night, Yan Yu jumped up and hugged Yin Bing's neck, and kissed him on the mouth. Their faces bumped into each other, Yan Yu's mouth was broken, and Yin Bing's It feels like the front teeth are about to be loosened by this sneak attacking corgi.

"You... what's the situation?"

Yin Bing lowered his head blankly, Yan Yu stubbornly raised his face, still maintaining the posture of hanging his hands on Yin Bing's neck.

"Why didn't you give me New Year's wishes? Why did you ignore me when I asked you to escape from the secret room? Why didn't you forward so many pink videos I made? Why didn't you reply when I left a message on Weibo?"

"What? I'm preparing a new album, student Yan. I'll do all the post-singing of the lyrics and music by myself. I missed it when I was busy... Wait, you miss me so much? Could it be...?"

"Yes! I like you! I have liked you for 12 years!" Yan Yu replied quickly, "I started to like you since I was 17 years old when I first joined the company and you helped me out when reporters made things difficult for me!"

"I see."

Yin Bing's mouth slowly unfolded a satisfied arc.

Yan Yu's sense of shame came a step too late, and he realized it later, his face flushed and burned, and he began to regret it. He wants to fall in love when others fall in love?When others go crazy, he also goes crazy?

"Damn, what a shame!"

Yan Yu let go of his hand, turned around and wanted to run, but was pulled back by Yin Bing.

"Then I have an hour less than you."

"What, what?"

"I like you for an hour less than you like me. I fell in love with you after touching your soft hair backstage after the interview 12 years ago."

The nearly 30-year-old deer in Yan Yu's heart howled, smashed its head to death on his chest, and turned into countless heart-shaped pink bubbles, squeezing back and forth in his body—his whole body would Fly up!

"Then, why didn't you tell me? Even a little hint is fine, you made me wait for 12 years, I'm going to be 30 and I'm still a virgin!"

Yan Yu accidentally uttered a shameful word again, Yin Bing put away his foxy smiling eyes, and explained seriously:

"In the early years, I was arrogant and thought that love should come after work. Later, when I got old, I was not busy with work, but I had more worries. I was worried about gains and losses, and I was afraid that you and Zhu Shisi would really be a couple, so I kept it in my heart. Later, Zhu Shisi fell in love with that one, and I started to make a new album, I wanted to wait until the album was ready before I came to you... But it’s okay, it’s the same if I tell you now, let’s go, I’ll show you something.”

After Yin Bing finished speaking, he carried Yan Yu into the house with one hand, closed the door, the spacious room was lit with warm lights, and there was a sweet smell floating in the air, Yan Yu had a premonition that tonight would be a place to escape night of.

"Look... what are you looking at?"

Yan Yu leaned against Yin Bing, nervous and expectant.

"a song."

This answer made Yan Yu slightly disappointed, Yin Bing held back his smile, and left a light kiss on Yan Yu's forehead.

"A song written just for you."

After half a year, Zhu Shisi once again topped the list of hot searches because of his resignation. Some people said that he did not become an actor and forced himself to save his respect. Some people said that he did it for the movie box office hype. Definitely coming back.

Zhu Shisi didn't know about these rumors, Cheng Yalan told him all of them.

Cheng Yalan knew about Zhu Shisi's decision before the film festival, and Lei Ao came to probe her, but she didn't say anything, and she didn't say a word to Zhu Shisi that whole week.

Zhu Shisi could feel that this rational woman was very angry. She only talked to him after Zhu Shisi proposed to give Ye Kai all the income for medical treatment.

"You are really too sensible and too ignorant. The elders can't do anything with a child like you." Cheng Yalan's tone was still sonorous, but his eyes were moist. "What are you going to do when you leave the entertainment industry?"

Zhu Shisi took out a college notice and handed it to Cheng Yalan.

"Go abroad and study for an undergraduate degree."

Cheng Yalan's pink nails pinched the electronic notice printed on the paper, and quickly glanced at it.

"Astronomy? When did you apply? Where do you find time for this?"

"At the end of last year, Fang listened to tutor me to take the language test, and assisted me in preparing the documents. This year, I received an admission email during the Spring Festival."

"What's wrong with learning this? Can you find a job? Can you make money?"

"I failed the college entrance examination ten years ago. I wanted to study astronomy but didn't get it. Now that I have made enough money, it's time to fulfill the promise I made with myself ten years ago."

Out of the corner of her eye, Cheng Yalan saw the seriousness in Zhu Shisi's eyes, her two scimitar eyebrows softened, and her tough tone remained unchanged.

"If you want to do it, then you have to make achievements. Don't come back crying halfway through learning, understand?"

Zhu Shisi nodded solemnly.

"Keep it in mind."

When the enthusiasm about quitting the circle subsided, Zhu Shisi also did something he had always wanted to do.

He went to the hospital to visit Ye Kai.

It was a weekday afternoon, Zhu Shisi came to deposit Ye Kai's medical expenses, and the nurse took him into Ye Kai's ward.

The environment of the ward was different from the photo Guo Xi secretly took. Zhu Shisi asked the nurse and said that someone had upgraded Ye Kai's ward in his name.

Zhu Shisi easily guessed who it was. He didn't follow today, so he must be rewarded after returning home.

"Xiao Kai..."

Beside the bed, Zhu Shisi stared at the sleeping Ye Kai, and called his name many times until the sun outside the window went down, but Ye Kai didn't respond.

Before leaving, Zhu Shisi put the star bracelet that originally belonged to Ye Kai on the bedside cabinet. Under the bracelet was his "Superstar Handbook". There were several copies, many pages were cut, and only COC was left everything related.

Under the star bracelet and the "Superstar Handbook", there is a note——

"Xiao Kai, when you wake up, I'll tell you the 'I'm sorry' I owe you."

After everything was settled, Zhu Shisi took one last look at Ye Kai and left the ward.

A few minutes later, Zhong Xiaolong came out of the cubicle, muttered a few times, and put the star bracelet into Ye Kai's hand.

September.

Yan Yu rejected the company's plan to sell rot with Yin Bing, and began to develop in the direction of variety shows. Mu Di released a new single and was invited to participate in a popular singing show. They stayed behind to replace Zhu Shisi With COC.

In addition to playing music, SMASH has also started a talk show. Yan Yu and Mu Di are permanent guests, and Qing Feng also comes to the show from time to time.

Lei Ao and Qing Feng haven't broken up yet, this relationship has far exceeded the record of Lei Ao's dating time, and there is a tendency to keep it going.

Qingfeng has become a first-line star by relying on the best actor trophy and crazy hype. He often cues to Zhu Shisi on the show, shouts to Zhu Shisi countless times, but receives zero responses.

School started at the end of August, and as soon as Zhu Shisi went to school, he fell into the hyperactive state of getting up earlier than chickens and going to bed later than dogs, and had no time to care about what happened in the entertainment industry.

He applied to Fang Ting's alma mater, which is in Gordon Hill, not far from home. Fang Ting accompanied him, cooked for him, took him to school, read and studied with him, until the end of September when the new film started filming in China only to leave.

With this departure, the two faced a long-distance separation that lasted half a year.

There is one person missing by the bed, I wake up in the middle of the night without warm arms to hug, Zhu Shisi has suffered from insomnia for half a month, I want to cry when I hear Fang Ting’s voice on the phone, even studying doesn’t work, video chatting with him Sometimes I can't wait to get into the screen.

But Zhu Shisi didn't tell Fang Ting how much he was suffering from thinking about him, because he knew that Fang Ting liked acting, just like he liked astronomy, and he understood Fang Ting, so he could overcome loneliness.

After a period of time, the loneliness was overcome, but the longing remained undiminished. Just when Zhu Shisi was debating whether to fly back to China on the weekend to watch Fang listen and then fly back to class, "Fake Fake" had a small amount of filming abroad. .

In other words, Zhu Shisi can watch her husband in the cinema to relieve the pain of lovesickness.

So, the air ticket was replaced by a movie ticket, and the plane was replaced by a projector. On Friday, Saturday and Sunday, I wished to book three shows in a row, vowing to watch as much as I could.

In the first scene, staring at the postman all the time, Zhu Shisi sighed: So handsome, even if he looks so ugly, he is still so handsome.

In the second scene, watching the rival scene between Fake and the postman, Zhu Shisi felt sad: I was sprinkled with dog food by myself.

The third scene, the late night scene, went to watch a movie when I was supposed to be sleeping, Zhu Shisi watched... and fell asleep while watching it.

In a daze, he smelled a familiar fragrance, looking for the fragrance in the dream, Zhu Shisi sank into it soundly, and when the dream went from thick to light, the list of cast and crew rolled up on the screen.

"The ending song is almost over, do you still want to sleep?"

Zhu Shisi's head was tapped lightly, and he rubbed his eyes dizzily. There was another person beside him, who was leaning slightly, with his fingers still in mid-air, and Zhu Shisi was leaning steadily on the on his left shoulder.

He was wearing a black long-sleeved sweater, and Zhu Shisi's cheek was warm against the fabric on his shoulder, and it was not difficult to guess that he had slept on his pillow for a long time.

"husband……"

This sleep was indeed too deep and sweet, before Zhu Shisi came out of the aftertaste of the dream, he lazily said something in his sleep, sat up straight and limply leaned on the armrest between the seats.

"it's me."

Fang Ting nodded and chuckled, hugged Zhu Shisi and let him lean back on his shoulders, intertwined his fingers, and the lingering fragrance penetrated deeper into Zhu Shisi's breath.

The ending song goes from gentle to climax and then to gentle. The overlapping hands are clasped together. The ring of the same style is shining with a tiny luster on the ring finger. Fang Ting's palm is as warm as a dream of chasing the afternoon sun in winter. Get close to it and wish you The unrestrained longing was roasted and emptied.

Also warm were Fang Ting's solid shoulders, the soft black cotton cloth on his shoulders, and his soft ear hair lying on the side of his neck.

Leaning against them, Zhu Shisi opened his eyes, and slowly closed them again.

All this is too real, so real that I dare not confirm whether I am dreaming.

"husband……"

Zhu Shisi raised his eyes, his eyes rolled gently to his upper eyelids like glass marbles, looking sadly, joyfully, and confusedly at Fang Ting.

He said silently in his heart, kiss me, even if it is a dream, it is worth it.

As if receiving telepathy, Fang Ting's kiss was imprinted on Zhu Shisi's lips moaning like a whisper.

Is it a dream?Zhu Shisi sipped the sweet spring beside his teeth, and slowly melted his consciousness into the jumping temperature and trembling humidity.

Wait for the ending song to end, wait for the projection hall to turn on the lights that disturb the dream, and wait for the staff to stand at the door and politely urge: Customer, the screening is over, please take your belongings.

Everything will reveal the answer.

(End of the article)