My Underachieving Seatmate Doesn't Need Any Comforting

For several months, there was only this line in the diary.

In the family diary of three people, there is only one person left, and the person who insists on writing can only write these few words-to this day, if you look at this stroke again, you can feel her pain. heart.

He Shen didn't know how to comfort Qiao Shao.

He has never experienced the warmth of a normal family, and it is hard to imagine how happy Qiao Shao's previous family was. If you don't get it, you don't care about losing it. If you get it, you will lose it forever. How painful it is can't be described in any words.

Qiao Shao cried fiercely, out of breath, as if he wanted to vent all the pain that had been suppressed in his heart for five years.

When he first came home, he didn't shed a single tear. He couldn't cry during the two years of treatment. After his mother died, he cried silently, and then forgot everything.

Now he remembered bit by bit, and the tears that had been suppressed for a long time broke through the shackles of his heart, and all gushed out.

He Shen was so distressed that he didn't know what to do, he hugged him, comforted him, and gently kissed his hair, his eyebrows, and his wet cheeks.

Qiao Shao just cried, like a newborn child, crying in a mess.

I don't know how long it took until Qiao Shao's voice became hoarse from crying, and Qiao Shao slowly stopped his tears.

He Shen looked at him and said, "She wouldn't want to see you so sad."

Qiao Shao's eyes were moist again, but he didn't run away. He wiped his eyes vigorously and said, "Help me, please."

He Shen was taken aback.

Qiao Shao's hands trembled violently, he stared at the diary and said, "Help me read it, I want to finish it."

This was a year he couldn't face from the beginning to the end. He forgot what he had experienced, and he refused to think about what she had experienced.

And now everything was in front of him, and he wanted to see it.

Look at yourself, and look at her too.

He Shen's internal organs were aching: "Why don't we wait until later..."

Qiao Shao shook his head and said, "Right now, I must, must watch."

He Shen paused, and said, "Okay."

He stretched out his hand, as if his fingers touched a hot iron, flipping through the diary page by page, which was full of tears from a desperate mother.

Three months later, the contents of the diary gradually increased.

Although it was still only her own handwriting, it filled a whole sheet of paper. She recorded what happened at home bit by bit, and said everything she saw in the calm tone of a narrator.

It's not like a diary, it's more like long letters after letters to her son who doesn't know where.

Qiao Shao watched without a word. At this moment, he seemed to be back at home, as if he was by her side, as if he had never left.

An indescribable force filled his chest, and he felt a gentle hand push him from behind, pushing him from the endless darkness to the dazzling light.

Warmth spread all over his body, Qiao Shao turned around and saw his mother's gentle smile.

Qiao Shao looked at him without blinking, and choked up, "I'm sorry."

He remembered, all of them remembered.

He Shen almost broke his voice: "Qiao Shao!"

Qiao Zongmin, who was hiding behind the door, strode in and hugged the unconscious Qiao Shao.

He Shen said anxiously: "Uncle, Qiao Shao..."

Qiao Zongmin's eyes were red and his voice was hoarse: "I have already called the doctor."

He Shen breathed a sigh of relief, and strode up to follow, regardless of how much he had to do.

After examining Qiao Shao's body, the doctor said, "There's nothing serious, but I'm too tired and need a good rest."

Both men in the room breathed a sigh of relief.

Qiao Shao was in a coma, Qiao Zongmin and He Shen didn't say a word, they stood by the bed for a whole night.

Qiao Shao had a dream, a real dream.

The weather was fine that day, about April and May. He followed his parents to the Shenhai Building. He got bored in the building and ran out to play.

In a shadow, he saw a woman with gentle eyebrows and eyes.

He asked her, "What are you looking for?"

The woman's eyes lit up when she saw him, and her voice was gentle and gentle: "My little friend, Auntie has bad eyesight, can you guide me?"

Little Qiao Yi looked up at her, the woman's flaxen hair was loosely tied behind her ears, she looked a bit like his mother, for this reason Qiao Yi had a good impression of her, he said: "Okay, are you going to take you home?" ?”

The woman said softly: "My house is very close, can you take me back?"

Xiao Qiaoyi immediately said: "Well, no problem!"

The woman stretched out her hand, her fingertips trembling slightly: "Can you hold my hand?"

Xiao Qiaoyi held her hand generously and said, "Don't worry, I will definitely be able to take you home."

"Thank you," the woman said with sincere gratitude, "thank you, good boy."

Then a strange fragrance blew towards little Qiao Yi, and he passed out.

Qiao Shao woke up from a cold sweat, and He Shen was beside the bed: "Are you okay?"

Qiao Shao trembled: "Dad..."

Qiao Zongmin said: "I am here!"

Qiao Shao looked up at him, his pupils trembling, and said, "I remembered..." He remembered everything.

That year Qiao Shao stayed in Guangxia District, only 500 meters away from Shenhai Building.

The woman locked him in an abandoned underground parking lot and stayed with him for a whole year.

It was a room with only one incandescent lamp, and there was nothing but the simplest furniture. The woman coaxed him softly at first, but after Qiao Shao's fierce resistance, she put the feet on him. Handcuffed, completely imprisoned in that room.

The room was extremely quiet, there was no outside sound, only the endless voice of women talking.

She told him: "Xiaobao, I am your mother."

She kept saying to him: "Mom has been looking for you."

She told him in a voice almost brainwashed: "Mom finally found you."

One day, two days, three days... She only used extremely simple food to maintain the daily necessities of two people.

Qiao Shao struggled, tried hard, and tried to escape, but she never left him, even when she was sleeping, she stared at him closely, for fear that he would lose him in the blink of an eye.

This kind of life lasted for a whole year, because the woman never went out of the house, so there was no clue to look for.

The world is big and the world is small.

Such a small place, but because it is completely cut off from the outside world, has become a mysterious place that no one can find.

One year later, the food and water prepared by the woman were all exhausted. She starved to death, and she refused to leave Qiao Shao in the end. She gave Qiao Shao all the food until she died.

Qiao Shao staggered out of the basement, and returned to the Deep Sea Building with his desire to survive and his last instinct.

Then he met his mother.

When Yang Yun hugged him hard and said the phrase "Mom finally found you", Qiao Shao's spirit completely collapsed. He struggled frantically as if he had seen a ghost, and left his mother's embrace, never allowing her to take a step closer .

Until my mother died of illness...

After two years of treatment, Qiao Shao barely got rid of the nightmare, but lost his beloved mother forever. Under the heavy trauma and deep self-blame, he forgot everything.

Whether it is pain or happiness, whether it is a nightmare or a sweet dream, he has forgotten it all.

After telling all this, Qiao Shao looked at his father, his eyes were red and swollen: "I'm sorry..."

Qiao Zongmin hugged his son into his arms, and the same emotions that had been suppressed for several years rushed out: "She loves you until the last moment of her life, and she is also concerned about you."