[Comprehensive] Martyrdom is not a good civilization

It was dark in the parking lot.

The air outlet of the car's air conditioner was blowing cold wind, and the skin on his face was tight after the tears had dried up.I hugged my knees and sat in the palm of Dazai's hands, with my back turned to him, and my whole body was filled with black air.

Dazai held my hand and slightly folded it, and lightly poked my shoulder with the other hand.

"..." I turned my body silently, ignoring Dazai.

"Little Ayako..." Dazai's voice was soft, with a flattering tone, and he continued to poke me from another angle.

Dazai's movements are neither light nor heavy, and the poke doesn't hurt but has a sense of presence, which makes people unable to calm down and think about life.

"Don't touch me, I don't want to talk to you now."

Slapping Dazai's fingers away vigorously, I used his palm as a platform to jump onto the car's center console.Sitting in a sitting position for too long resulted in poor blood circulation in the legs, and now they are numb like ants biting.

I staggered and sat on the center console, my legs felt numb if I didn't touch them, and it was even more sour and refreshing when I touched them. I frowned and blushed.

I can't hold back, I have to maintain my noble and glamorous image!

"Little Ayako...?"

Dazai was lying on the steering wheel, a big face suddenly approached, I smothered and patted the tip of his nose: "You, don't talk."

Dazai blinked and put his hand on my leg.I don't know which leg I pressed on, and then it became swollen after a moment of numbness. My leg is now thinner than Dazai's fingers.

I was attracted by Dazai's hand, staring at the slightly protruding veins on the back of his hand in a daze.

Dazai observed my expression carefully, and gently rubbed my calf with his fingertips, soothing the twitching muscles with moderate strength.

I looked at his "orchid finger" in silence for a moment, and finally said nothing.

The incandescent lights in the parking lot were silently on, the black film blocked most of the light, and the interior of the car was barely visible.

Dazai's eyes were black without mechanism in the darkness, twisting the darkness inside the car like a muddy vortex, he blinked and acted coquettishly: "Little Ayako, girlfriend, don't be angry."

Here, Dazai is the only person I trust, and after discovering his concealment, all my negative emotions came out at once.The loss of emotional control didn't last long, and after my sanity returned, I felt at a loss.

Not being confused by Dazai's coquettishness, there are some things that must be made clear.My throat felt uncomfortable after crying, and I spoke slowly: "... Dazai, what do you think of me?"

"..."

The atmosphere in the car was stagnant, Dazai looked at me closely and intently, we looked at each other, I could see the little me in his eyes, and himself in my eyes.

"Little Ayako is cute and coquettish, hates trouble, her brain is inflexible but her perception is unexpectedly sharp, but..."

"...But?" I was attracted by Dazai's eyes, and subconsciously asked back following his words.

"Whether it's Ayako who is full of advantages, or Ayako who is full of shortcomings, they are all mine—"

Startled by Dazai's coquettish speech, I jumped up and grabbed his eyelashes: "...you speak well."

"Well, it hurts."

"Did you hear me!"

"Okay."

I looked at Dazai with reddish eyes, feeling absurd that I was regarded as his own.I said I like Dazai, what about him?After the confession, he seemed to only respond with "I like it too".

How much of this "like" is mixed with water? I really can't stand the feeling of Dazai turning ten or eight corners in his words, and still can't grasp the center of gravity when he finished speaking. I?"

When Dazai was asked, he showed a rare dazed expression: "Why does Ayako ask such a question?"

Did the rhetorical question change the subject, I lowered my head sadly and said in a hoarse voice, "Since you don't like it, why did you agree to my confession?"

Dazai's expression was blank, he was dumbfounded for a moment and hastily expressed his loyalty to me: "I like Ayako! Very, very much!"

"Then why didn't you say anything about the world a few days ago?"

Dazai's eyes wandered, and it was rare for him to be honest and straightforward: "...If I say so, Ayako will leave soon, right? I just want to stay with you a little longer."

"Huh?" I was stunned by Dazai's magical brain circuit. If you want to stay with me, just say so. Even my stupid brother will say before I leave that my sister will not let you go if you stay longer. Dazai, you won't explain?

"I couldn't bear Xiao Lingzi to leave, so I stayed - saying that would scare Xiao Lingzi away right away?"

I wrinkled my nose for a long time before choking out an adjective: "...a coward."

Dazai chuckled lightly and recognized the title of coward: "So break up or something, Ayako, don't scare the coward."

"Humph."

I turned my face away, the corners of my mouth slightly raised.

Dazai seemed to heave a sigh of relief, tentatively stretched out his hand towards me, and carefully placed me on his shoulder again after seeing that I didn't resist.

So, the first emotional crisis was resolved in such an anticlimactic manner.

Back at Dazai's house, I saw the clock on the wall and realized that Dazai got off work just after noon.

"Are your working hours so casual?" If it wasn't for the high risk, I'd like to ask your organization if you can recruit someone who can give out sugar every day.

Now that the world is merging, can my candy bottle be seen?In the future, I will open a candy house, raise cats and draw pictures~

Dazai took off his suit jacket, sat on the sofa and winked innocently at me: "Yes."

"so good."

"By the way, Ayako's mobile phone is here for you."

"Ok?"

During the holidays, I seldom contact my friends. The most heart-wrenching reason is probably that I have few friends.During the summer vacation in May, I was busy making training menus for the basketball team. Atsushi would occasionally recommend snacks for me, and Ryota would post funny jokes from time to time.Even teacher, I asked for leave, and wanted to stock up some drawings before school started...

As for Cousin Jingwu and Chunqi, they met directly more often, so I stayed at Dazai's place for two days, and I wasn't worried at all that someone would report me missing. It was a bit miserable when I thought about it.

The battery of the mobile phone is still full. I turned on the communication software, and sure enough, there were very few other people sent me other than push messages.

"I originally wanted to wait for Xiao Lingzi to recover before giving it to you, so stay a little longer, okay?"

"Okay... No, when did you bring my mobile phone? And the kimono you prepared. I wear it next to my body and the size is right. Isn't it possible to buy it immediately?"

The kimono that Dazai sent was handmade, and the pattern on the corners of the clothes was exquisite and beautiful.Kimonos, especially handmade kimonos, are hard to come by.

Moreover, how does Dazai know what size I wear?

I widened my eyes, feeling that my previous self had entered a misunderstanding.Did Dazai premeditate?

"The preparation of the kimono started a month ago, and Ayako came here earlier than I expected."

"So you were playing tricks at that time?"

"No……"

"Oh."

"A little earlier."

"How early?" I felt very bad when I asked this sentence, as if I fell into the pit dug by Dazai.

Sure enough, Dazai leaned closer with a smirk, and whispered in my ear: "A little before Ayako's bubble bath."

"!"

Isn't the bubble bath the time when I accidentally answered Dazai's call!The matter was so embarrassing that I packed up this memory and threw it into the recycle bin a long time ago, but I didn't expect Dazai to mention it.

"Bubble bath, you shouldn't have seen anything you shouldn't have seen, have you?"

"Little Ayako guess?"

"I don't guess!" My cheeks flushed, now sure Dazai was not just some damn possessive of me.But lead me to confess, Dazai, you are too timid.

I pulled my hair and said in an awkward voice, "Now that I've chased you, it's your turn to chase me. We won't break up, but we can only be considered a formal relationship if I agree."

"Probation period for boyfriend?"

"That's right! And Dazai, I'm still very angry that you concealed my affairs. You are the only person I rely on. I am very sad to be concealed."

I looked directly at Dazai and spoke out my thoughts bit by bit.Dazai is a person who can't be straightforward.

"There won't be a next time, I promise."

"Forgive you for now, hum."

After a lot of fuss, I decided to take a nap. After getting smaller, I get tired easily, and my physical and energy consumption is much faster than usual.

The air conditioner was on in the room, the windows were still open as if they were free, and the blue curtains were blown by the wind and shook slightly.The hot air outside the house was rushing in, and the cold air created by the air conditioner was quickly neutralized, making the air extremely dry.

"Little Ayako, come to sleep!"

Dazai changed into pajamas and sat on the tatami, patting the pillow excitedly to extend a warm invitation to me.

"Don't make trouble, just close the window first."

"Obviously this is very interesting~"

"I see you want to heat me to death, I will be familiar with it when I wake up."

"Did you die on the tatami? Ayako is really smart!"

"If you don't know how to speak, you should say less. It's your fault that I'm not flexible enough?"

Dazai took out a thick book from under the pillow, and flipped through it: "How to Cope Your Woman Well No. 20 and three items—praising her for being smart, beautiful, and generous, it's always right to praise a woman to death of."

"Delusionally taking shortcuts, one point will be deducted. The full score is one hundred, and now Dazai loses one point." I looked at the brick-thick book indifferently, and smiled at Dazai looking foolish.

"I didn't look at anything, Xiao Lingzi, don't deduct points from me!"

Dazai got up from the tatami, ran to the window and threw away the book neatly.

"Bang!"

Dazai closed the window and sat back obediently on the tatami, pretending nothing happened.

"Little Ayako is here to take a nap, I'm ready!"

I helplessly raised my forehead, Dazai rolled over on the tatami and wrapped the quilt into long strips, looking like a fat bug.

"Why do you sleep, I'm afraid you'll turn over and crush me to death."

"I'm very good." Dazai retracted the lower half of his face under the quilt, and looked at me intently and expectantly with his eyes.

"...you sleep next to me again, I'm afraid."

I sat beside Dazai's pillow, pressed his cheek and pushed it to the side.In fact, the main fear is not that Dazai will turn over. After all, a person who can be forced to the corner of the bed by my sleeping position, I don't believe he can have any lethality.

But when I woke up and saw a giant face, it was super scary.

"Oh."

Dazai lifted the quilt and put it over, the quilt covered me at the right height, but for Dazai who was resting on the pillow, half of his face was covered in it.

Tsk, how pitiful.

I brushed the hair that was under my neck to the top of my head, turned over and grabbed the corner of the quilt and fell into a deep sleep.

"Tuk Tuk."

The window was knocked with small force, and the rhythm was unhurried.

Dazai on the tatami opened his sleepless eyes, got up barefoot and opened the window—the one standing on the window sill was Fengshen Yimulian.

"Sorry, Ayako felt hot during her nap, so she closed the window."

Dazai apologized with a smile, the shadow cast by his eyelashes enveloped his pupils, showing no emotion at all.

Yimulian Feiqi and Dazai looked at each other, eyes full of scrutiny.