By Jia Xiuzhen

When Nanny Chang heard Biyue say this, she also opened her mouth in surprise, but was unable to speak.On the other hand, Mammy Yan said: "Aunt Zhou is gone on the road, and I didn't hear that she sent someone there later. The one who waits by the master's side should be... a little girl next to Aunt Zhou, and... Miss Jin Chuaner... "

Li Wan murmured: "This...couldn't be these two, a little girl next to my aunt, a person in front of my wife..." Although she said so, there was another voice in her heart: "Zhou The little girl named Rui'er next to my aunt is pretty good...Miss Jin Chuan'er was kicked out by his wife, I don't know if there is any resentment in her heart..."

Since she thought about it, Mammy Chang and the others naturally thought about it too, but Biyue said, "Master has become a high-ranking official outside, so someone must be fawning on him, maybe who sent him in?..."

Everyone thought about it, and there was nothing to guess after all, so they laughed and said: "I don't know whether to add a girl or a brother this time, I think the old lady is always happy."

Mother Chang said: "As long as Second Master Bao is well, the old lady won't care too much about the brothers and sisters nearby. My wife fell ill, and I only hear how jealous Second Grandma Lian is. Now it seems to be the same.”

Li Wan didn't answer this, Nanny Yan glared at Nanny Chang, Nanny Chang stopped talking with a smile, and said something else.

It's just that because Jia's mother and Mrs. Wang love Sister Feng very much, they worked in several nunneries and temples praying for amulets and chanting Buddha's name.

One day, Ma Daopo came to look for Yu Xin's family to collect Baoyu's sea lamp oil money for the month, walked past Mrs. Wang's courtyard, and was dragged into the side courtyard by two waiting women.Seeing her coming, Aunt Zhao hurriedly poured tea by herself. Ma Daopo wanted to hide but could not bear the benefits later, and was hesitating, she heard Aunt Zhao say: "Mother, you must help me this time."

Seeing today's situation, Ma Daopo was afraid that it would be difficult to leave, so she simply sat down and drank tea, and asked her, "What's the matter? I told you that I'm not good enough, and I'm afraid I can't help you."

Aunt Zhao pointed her head back, and said with another two words: "Hey, it's amazing now. Why did you come here? You pretended to be confused with me? It didn't work last time. You asked me to go back and look for something. If I didn’t find it, I owe nothing to you. This time you have to help me. If you really let her give birth to a son, look at the situation, oh, we will step on our mother and child in the mud in the future You can't get two at once, but can't get her one?"

When Ma Daopo heard her bring up the past, she felt very anxious, and hurriedly said: "Don't mention the past again! If my aunt and grandma continue to behave like this, I'm not afraid. If you post it anyway, I will pay for my life. What will happen to you?" good!"

Aunt Zhao quickly waved her hand: "No, no, how could I harm my godmother?! Just as an example! Well, I'll leave it to you. Only this time..."

Ma Daopo suddenly took out the IOU written by Aunt Zhao from her sleeve, threw it to her and said, "If nothing happens, I won't accept this from you, I will pay you back!"

Aunt Zhao hurriedly wanted to stuff it back for her, but the woman refused.Aunt Zhao's heart moved, and she called the woman who was guarding the door in, and asked her to rewrite another sheet, and put it in front of Ma Daopo, saying: "Here! Goddamn, don't bother the two masters with one thing. I have seen your skills It's over. As long as... the house will be our Huan'er at that time, if you just keep this, can I still renege on my debt?!"

Ma Daopo looked at the glaring 1000 taels on it. Although it was an IOU, there was money behind it!Aunt Zhao found some hairpins and wrapped them in silk bags and put them in front of her. After all, Ma Daopo couldn't help it, grabbed them and put them in her arms, humming: "Wait a minute, this woman is pregnant. It's already dangerous. I just hope that my aunt won't forget what I said today."

Aunt Zhao hurriedly said: "No more, don't worry, don't worry!"

Ma Daopo took out a thin square piece of black wood from her waist, handed it over and said, "Put this in an inconspicuous place in that house, and it will be effective within three to five months."

Aunt Zhao curled her lips and said, "Three to five months? The baby is already born! What's the use of proving it?!"

Ma Daopo said: "Auntie, did something happen to the big month and hurt the body, or did something happen to the little month hurt the body?"

Aunt Zhao's eyes lit up, she quickly took it, and said, "Dear mother, don't be as knowledgeable as I am, we don't understand your fairy tricks."

The two chatted a few more words, Ma Daopo specially asked for a few strings of money and a few scraps of cloth on a conspicuous bag, and carried it out. Others saw it as if she had searched for some sesame oil money from Aunt Zhao again.

As the twelfth lunar month approaches, all the villages that should have been sent have also been sent, but the number is nearly half that of previous years. Several places are either reporting drought or flooding.Jia Zheng was not at home, and Jia Lian couldn't be the master. If he wanted to say a few words about the village, the stewards all came to help him say good things. "Those disasters were even reported by the imperial court. They are natural disasters, and it's hard to blame people."Mrs. Wang looked at it and frowned: "This year's expenses are iron-clad, and they are at a loss. They are waiting for their bet. This is good, where can I move it!" I'm upset, and I have no idea when I see it like this.I don't care about Sister Feng's pregnancy, and I have to discuss with her almost everything.

Sister Feng has a strong temper. Seeing that it is useless to complain, she said, "Since this is the case, we must see where we can save and save."

Mrs. Wang sighed: "Everyone is used to enjoying the blessings. Now it is pitiful to hold them back in our hands. Let alone make up words, I don't know when it will reach the old lady's ears."

Sister Feng has known for several years that Mrs. Wang is soft-hearted and has no means of restraining others. She is only afraid of this and that, and makes urgent decisions when things come to an end.If you rely on her, no matter what you do, it will not be perfect.Then he came up with an idea: "don't worry, ma'am, I'll make a way to let the wind out first, just to let everyone know that life is difficult. There will be a matter of letting people go out in the coming year. The hatchback has said it, and they will naturally know it. If There are still those who don’t know what to do and insist on making troubles, and we are not afraid to deal with one or two of them. There is no reason why a master should be restrained by slaves everywhere.”

After hearing this, Mrs. Wang secretly felt the anger in her heart, she nodded and said: "You have always been an idea, and the old lady often praises you in front of me. You can just do this matter, if the old lady really asks one day, I will answer with you."

Sister Feng was surprised, it was rare for Madam Wang to say such bloody words, and then recalled the rumors below, she changed her mind and became clear, so she said solemnly: "Madam, just don't worry."

A few days later, it was reported that Sister Feng was discussing with others and wanted to get a few boxes of goods that the old lady didn't need at the moment to go out to make up for it.Just as they couldn't help it, there were Lin Zhixiao and several managers who were in charge of rebuilding the roster from house to house.After asking carefully, I vaguely heard a few words, saying that it is related to the old man's birthday in the coming year, and the mansion will accumulate blessings to release people.

They were silent for a while, even though they saw a few expenses being cut in the next year, which hurt many people's money, no one dared to speak out. ——If someone accidentally falls into someone's eyes, maybe the whole family will be released next year!If it is said to be released, only those who are happy, who doesn't want their daughter and son to have another future.They just want to let the whole family out, but no one is willing to respond. People can eat people at any age outside.This family has gone out, what do they rely on for a living? !The life of a poor man is not as easy as that of a slave!

Mrs. Wang saw Sister Feng take care of the matter with a few gentle touches, and she valued her more and more. She let her take care of many things, and didn't even ask her much.Although Sister Feng also wanted to take care of her wholeheartedly, she couldn't refuse because she had so much power in front of her.Ping'er watched from the sidelines and secretly worried, but whether she was pregnant or the head of the family, they couldn't be replaced.I had no choice but to order my servants to cook soup and stew soup and serve them diligently.

This day, I went to the garden to do something, and Tanchun and the others stayed to talk after I finished talking.She then said: "Grandma just doesn't want to rest. There are so many things to do this year, and she often thinks about things so much that she can't sleep at night. How good it will be if this continues."

Everyone said that Sister Feng really worked hard, but they also knew that she had a strong nature, and since she was in charge of the government affairs, she would not let people talk about it.It's just a few words of consolation out of thin air, which is of no use after all.

Ping'er then asked Li Wan: "Grandma, do you have any prescriptions for calming the nerves and nourishing the fetus? Now our grandma feels a little short of breath at night. The imperial doctor changed the prescription twice, and it still doesn't matter when eating. Like that."

Li Wan shook his head and said: "She is pregnant now, and many medicines are untouchable. When it comes to nourishment, the most important thing is to rest. She is not calm, and no matter how hard she is outside, it will only make her more energetic and manage longer , to no avail.”

Daiyu said: "Sister-in-law wants to talk about meditating like us who don't care about everything, so Sister Feng is afraid of difficulties now, so there is no way to do things and meditate at the same time?"

Li Wan glanced at her, nodded and smiled and said, "Aren't you a ready-made example? Now you are also in charge of housework. Although it is not as complicated as here, it is still a bunch of trivial matters. See if you are not good? Why don't you put this It would be good to teach Feng girl how to do it."

Daiyu laughed and said, "My sister-in-law has changed her way to bury me again. Those who don't use their strength are naturally relaxed."

Li Wan nodded lightly, and sighed: "Isn't that what matters? 'Exercise your strength but not your heart'. But for the same thing, if you only care about the matter, you should only exert your strength. If there are many grievances and grievances in it, it is inevitable to have to do it." If you feel angry or angry, it hurts your heart. Just remember in everything, 'If you think about it internally, your anger will be concentrated, and if you think about it externally, your anger will disperse'.

Just like making a snack.You only want to make this snack the way you want it to be. This is called internal guidance.It is a matter of one's own hands and one's own heart. Whether it can be accomplished is just your own cultivation.See if the mind can manifest itself with its own skills.

If you are making this dessert, you have in mind that you want to compete with someone, or you want to please someone, or you are afraid that it will not be easy to make people laugh.These are the source of the 'five labors and seven injuries'.Because what other people do, think, or think is beyond your control, entrusting all your emotions and anger to things that are not under your control, you will naturally feel the words 'displaced'.How can I not be tired, how can I not be hurt. "

Daiyu and Yingchun listened, Ping'er was at a loss, Tanchun looked at it and said with a smile: "If you can remember, you can learn these words to your grandma, or she will have an epiphany. .” Then he laughed.

Only then did Ping'er realize that Li Wan had been a widow for many years, and that there had always been immortals and gods and Buddhas in the courtyard. He presumably was like those nuns who thought about nothingness and supremacy in everything.She is the only one who can do this, but my grandma is not destined to be like this.So I just laughed and chatted a few more gossips. The first daughter-in-law came to call her, and followed her.

The rest, Tanchun, sat for a while and then left. Only Yingchun Daiyu and Xing Xiuyan followed Li Wan back to Daoxiang Village.Li Wan said with a smile: "Now is not the time to form an association, and it is not the time to hold a Fa conference. You just follow me one by one."

Xing Xiuyan spoke first, and she said, "What grandma just said reminds me of the word 'impermanence'."

Li Wan nodded: "The world is impermanent but the heart is permanent. You have to ask carefully about this, but I dare not say it. Now I have only scratched the edge. I have not been able to prove that state, and I dare not tell you casually.”

Yingchun said: "Last time we talked about the 'Nianguang' thing, and then I went back to talk with sister Xing at night by candlelight, but I started to talk about it. I was about to talk to my sister-in-law, but today I didn't have that just now. If so, I have to come over."

Li Wan asked people to serve tea, and everyone talked in detail.Yingchun said: "Sister Xing, I always feel like I know it in my heart, but I can't say it very clearly."

Xing Xiuyan didn't refuse, and said: "The second sister told me that day, since she said that our 'knowledge' can only be reached by the 'light of thought', and in this case, all we can know is this piece of 'thought'. What the light can reach is spelled out? But what the 'read light' illuminates is covered with a film, doesn't it mean that everything we know is, after all, all fake?..."

When Daiyu frowned, Li Wan smiled and said, "I will tell you everything. You tell us everything we know, and I will call it 'Jing', the 'Jing' of the realm. Among them There are what you call "mind light", that is, what we take in directly from the outside, and what we generate by ourselves. For example, we all think that stealing is a sin, and when we hear who stole what, By the way, so-and-so is a bad person, a thief. The latter sentence, which no one puts on the forehead, is born out of our thoughts and thoughts. All these things are intertwined in one place, and it becomes a 'state'.

It is often said that so-and-so has a lofty realm, which means that the realm woven by his thoughts is closer to reality or wider than ordinary ones.As for saying what we know is true or false.Hey, I haven't removed that layer of film myself, so how can I tell if it's true or not.But if you observe carefully, or find that many things in the world are contrary to your "preexisting thoughts", although it cannot be said that what you know is wrong, at least you can know that these "knowledges" are incomplete. . "

After hearing this, Daiyu thought about it for a long time, and said: "When Sister Liu'er comes back, I will ask her. She often speaks strange words, but she suddenly has a flash of inspiration. Now that I have heard this, the more I think about it, the more confused I become. But there's something about it, I just can't tell."

Xing Xiuyan and Yingchun also nodded, and Yingchun said again: "The fourth girl is working on her painting today. I haven't come here. I will tell her to go later."

They picked out some favorite books from Li Wan, and they left.