By Jia Xiuzhen

Because Daiyu is now practicing Qingming, Xiangyun chose a seat when she lived with her, and wanted to talk to her when she slept at night, but Daiyu's skills were deep and it was inconvenient to answer, and she felt bored after coming and going, so she told Jia Mu Want to change places to sleep.It happened that Baochai said that she was lonely and wanted Xiangyun as a companion, and Xiangyun was also happy to do so. She originally wanted to move to the same place, but Jiamu refused, so she let her live with Yingchun, and only occasionally lived with Baochai. In one night, there were endless things to say.Thinking that Xiangyun was not very close when he first met Baochai, now that he is so harmonious, Jia's mother is also very happy to see her, and she can't help but praise Baochai's courtesy and appropriateness to Aunt Xue and Mrs. Wang several times.

After breaking up at Li Wan's place, Daiyu went back to Jia Mu's for dinner, and Baochai went to Jia Mu's room together after eating at Mrs. Wang's.Sister Feng and Mrs. Wang discussed with Jia's mother about the details of giving out money for porridge during the New Year's Eve. Xiangyun followed Baochai back to Lixiangyuan.Seeing that Xiangyun was depressed, Baochai asked her, "Although I interrupted you just now, sister Lin is right. You don't seem to be in the mood today, but what's on your mind? I'm old, maybe I can relieve boredom with you."

Xiangyun smiled and said: "Sister Lin's mouth, if there is nothing wrong, she will find out the trouble." Then he said, "It's nothing. Although I come here several times a year, I haven't been to my sister-in-law for a long time. I will go today." It’s unavoidably strange.” Baochai followed her words and said, “Just now you said that things are very different from before, so things must have moved over time.” Xiangyun said, “That’s not the case. Those things now are the same as before. Never seen it before."

Baochai said: "It's not uncommon for the things in the mansion here to change every few years." Xiangyun shook his head and said, "It's natural to say that it can be changed, but it's not like this. First of all, the old lady likes some old people." Objects, the couch in the main room has been moved to many places, and I still sit on it. My wife doesn’t like new things, and there are more half-old things in daily life. The sister-in-law’s place, it used to be...it’s not the case anyway.”

Baochai smiled and said, "Then it's no wonder you lost your mind. When I first went there that day, I was also very surprised. Now that I think about it, I'm very rude. I stared at the porcelain bowl on the shelf for a long time, and I really remembered that it was said in the book that there were Secret-colored porcelain 'cleverly gouges out the bright moon to dye the spring water, lightly swirls the thin ice to fill the green clouds', and that pair of bowls is very similar."

Xiangyun didn't know what he was thinking, and laughed when he heard this, and said, "You haven't seen Brother Lan's room, and even Baoyu is not like that... that... I don't know what to say." Baochai was curious Said: "I have never been to Lan Ge'er's house. If you want to talk about Baoyu's house, it is not ordinary."

Xiangyun said: "Second brother's use is of course good. The old lady loves him so much. It's just that Lang Ge'er's room is covered with half of the leather mattress on the floor. It's soft and white. It's not an ordinary wolf fur bear. Skin those crude things." Baochai was taken aback when he heard that, then smiled and said, "Brother Lan is very young, he is very confident in studying and practicing martial arts, I think this is also for him to practice."

Xiangyun nodded and said: "I heard from the fourth sister that it is so." Youyou sighed and said: "You don't know, there is a room full of small tables and chairs, all novel and exquisite, and there is such a tall boat in it, which can be burned With three layers of charcoal, we feel hot in the face when we stand so far away."

Seeing her complexion, Baochai stopped talking, and Xiangyun said after a while: "At first I thought my life was not too bad, but only after this comparison did I realize that there must be a father and a mother in order to be truly human." It hurts, so I live a decent life." Seeing her like this, Baochai persuaded: "What do you want to do again, you are not like this by nature, and you have seen a lot of good things, why do you feel emotional today?" Xiangyun laughed. : "No matter how many good things you see, they are not your own."

Baochai thought about it for a while, and said: "Everyone talks about blessings, so it can be seen that blessings are also measurable. Just like people's daily life, there are also examples of shares. Where does this share and share come from? There is also the theory of division." Where you stand, you will get where you are', although there is a natural destiny in this place, is there no manpower to do it? Kings and generals have kindness, such words have also been said."

Xiangyun was stunned when he heard these words, and after a while he raised his head to look at Baochai and said, "Sister Bao is more ambitious than ordinary men if she can say such things, and she can be called a high-ranking scholar." Not as good." Baochai took her hand and said with a smile, "Is it common for anyone to say what I say? I'd like to ask you to make fun of me."

Xiangyun smiled and said: "I don't know what's wrong these days, I don't look like myself anymore. After hearing what my sister said, although I don't understand it very well, I can feel it." Said with a solemn face , "Xiangyun thanked sister." Saying that, he bowed.Baochai supported her with a smile and said, "I just feel the same way, as you have seen, I am the only one left with my mother and such a brother, and now I live here by borrowing. Do you think that I No? Scholars, farmers, businessmen, although the ancestors were granted the title of Ziwei Sheren, but now they are just imperial merchants."

Xiangyun listened to Baochai's words, smiled and said: "Sister, this is absurd. It is just a sour opinion. Then some people say that pearls are like earth and gold is like iron." Baochai smiled warmly and said: "What's the matter? You can figure it out when it comes to me, even if I, a 'Shang', have to hold my breath, you, an orthodox Miss Hou's concubine, will hurt yourself." Xiang Yun thought about it for a while, and then laughed.The two joined hands again, talked about what they had seen and heard just now, and slowly went to Lixiangyuan.

Li Wan stayed with Xichun and Yingchun for dinner, and sure enough, Xichun ate and laughed as usual, and Jia Lan even promised to ask Primrose to send a copy to Fourth Aunt when she got fresh food in the future. As for people who are "unreasonable" like Aunt Lin, they naturally don't think about it .After dinner and tea, Li Wan asked about Yingchun, Yingchun shook his head and said, "Since I finished talking to my sister-in-law, I have thought about it for a long time, and... I have done some things, but in the end it still won't work.

The world is like chess, but most of the chess pieces are living people. Although it is not difficult to play with them, I am clumsy in communicating with people.After doing the thing, although it has seen results, I felt a kind of sadness in my heart, not feeling relaxed. "

When Li Wan heard this, Chi Jie exclaimed, "Second sister has such a root of wisdom!" Xichun joked with Jia Lan at the side, half-heartedly refusing to listen, and then said: "Last time, Smarter said that I have roots of wisdom. How come the second sister also has Huigen, and she will be a good companion in the future when she is an aunt."

Jia Lan hurriedly said: "Fourth Auntie, how can you be a monk now that you are not close to meat?" After hearing this, Xichun suddenly said: "That's right! That's not possible, I still open a dim sum shop. But I really like it." The quietness of the nunnery, or just living there, not going out."

Jia Lan shook his head and said, "Even if we live there, I'm afraid we won't be allowed to eat big fish and meat, and we might be kicked out." The two began to chat and discuss how to have both peace and fish.

Li Wan rolled his eyes helplessly, and then said to Yingchun: "I said that my sister has the root of wisdom, because my sister recognizes this 'state of mind'. Ordinary people do things more 'outside' and less 'inside'. No matter how many things, when you do it, you only do it. In line with a "should be done", but forget to ask your own heart, so sometimes, even though it is a "good deed", the more you do it, the more uncomfortable you feel in your heart. , or worse, become fate!"

Yingchun was confused after hearing this, and said: "I didn't think as deeply as my sister-in-law said. Although there is something interesting, I don't quite understand it."

Li Wan continued: "For example, if a person doesn't know what's in his heart and doesn't care about it, and he lives with patience and patience, everyone will naturally call him a virtuous person. If his nature is like this, it doesn't matter if he has resentment or dissatisfaction in his heart. No matter how much other people praise him, his own life becomes more and more boring.

This kind of deep resentment, accumulated for a long time, may become a symptom.Or, he is so tolerant but really doesn't want to endure, and he doesn't want to go on patiently. This situation is born from the heart, and some more unbearable people and things come, step by step, and in the end, it may be a rare and kind fate. up.Look at it, isn't this the 'bad heart'? "

Yingchun didn't know why, when she heard this, she felt as if her heart was stabbed, and cold sweat oozes down her back, thinking about it carefully, the more she thought about it, the more startled she became.Li Wan asked Suyun to refill her tea, and said: "Just now you said you were unhappy, but you have to divide up your unhappiness. People are born with a vision, for example, you are good at chess, and our Laner is good at eating. This is the mind. But it has fabrications, which are the habitual upbringing from birth.

For example, Lan'er is good at eating delicious food, but in our house, the food is exquisite and we pay attention to rules and etiquette. When the guests are feasting, he can eat a table by himself because of his delicious food, which is a great loss of face .When it is time, the tension between 'want to eat' and 'not to eat' is naturally unpleasant.

People need to know these two, know which is the base and which is the end, endure for a while with full etiquette, and go back to the yard to make up for him. This is a "way of life".If you don't know the whole story, thinking that you love food so much that you want to eat a whole table of banquets, it's really against the teachings of saints, it's really out of character, and you will deny your nature of "deliciousness" from then on , pretending to be a fairy who doesn't like food and doesn't pay attention to food and drink dew every day.

The embarrassment at the banquet is naturally gone, and this nature is also suppressed, but this nature is a natural tree, and it must grow. If you press this end, it will grow crookedly. I don’t know what will grow. , or just fell in love with some other leftist thing.This is to live out the 'dead end'.When I say this, can my sister understand? "

Yingchun pricked up her ears, listened to every single word, realized something in her heart but couldn't explain why, she just felt that something broke out in her heart, a sense of prosperity, and hurriedly replied: "I can't understand it either. I don’t understand, I just feel that there is something in my heart, and I will taste it when I go back.”

Seeing her expression, Li Wan knew that she might have understood, so he nodded and smiled: "Everyone's understanding of this thing is different, and it's beyond the reach of words. I'm just talking about it like this. Don't worry, just think about it." What's the matter, come here at any time, we can talk about it."

Yingchun nodded happily, and Li Wan asked Suyun to fetch another cloth bag, untied it and handed it to Yingchun, saying, "Last time, you liked that Zongheng book, if you don't like those books, you will only doze off after reading them." For the sake of it, the two books here are of the same vein, and they are of no use to me. Since you like it, I will give it to you as a gift, and it is better than reading 'Taishang Sensition' wrongly if you have nothing to do." Yingchun saw that There are several ancient characters "Black and White Road" written on the book, he smiled and thanked and took it, and when Xichun and Jia Lan had had enough fun, he said goodbye and went back.

Yingchun went back to her room, and when she heard that Xiangyun had gone with Baochai in the evening, she asked Siqi Xiuju to wash up and have an early rest.In the dead of night, I lay quietly on the bed thinking about what Li Wan said.The "deception" behavior of "being patient, kind and patient, but not wanting to bear, don't want to be patient" is exactly reflecting on myself.If it wasn't for my sister-in-law, someone else would have said this to me, or I would have to deny it thousands of times in my heart, and I would be estranged from her, or I would be terrified.

Now that the fear and the resulting resistance have rested, looking at the inside, this statement is absolutely true.Although I hate these human affairs, but because of my background and temperament, I had to choose patience. The more I endured, the longer I endured, the more human affairs I had to endure, and the more unbearable it became.This deceitful journey is indeed a dead end.I couldn't help but think of the nanny again, why didn't I endure it for a few years and become as out of control as I am now.Since it is a dead end, where is the way out?I wanted to take a rest earlier to think about things, but the more I thought about it, the more I couldn't understand, and I couldn't sleep because of my confusion, so I simply asked Xiuju to light the lamp and read the book that Li Wan had just given.

Li Wan at the other end was chatting with Nanny Chang for a few nights. Jia Lan asked Nanny Chang: "Mommy, how many flavors are you eating today with tea?" As for me, they are all good, all are good, especially the old sauce beef. There are probably no less than [-] kinds of spices in it, and medicinal materials are added. I'm afraid it's a big effort to match up with you, and Mammy has opened her eyes."

Jia Lan said: "Nurse is amazing! His family relied on the pot of old soup. His house was originally in the north. When the war broke out, his ancestors fled with a pot of old soup before they could get it. Later, It was too peaceful, so I borrowed money in Beijing to open the current shop, and I earned back the house and land in a blink of an eye."

Li Wan said with a smile: "You heard people talk about it, but it's just a cover for business." Jia Lan said: "That's what the storyteller in the teahouse said when he was resting, not the people in the shop." Li Wan said He smiled and said, "Come on, come on, what's the matter. It's just why you're still visiting teahouses."

Jia Lan scratched her head and said cheerfully, "I heard from the nuns that life in the city is another important learning, so they pestered Chang An to take me to the teahouse. The gentleman in the 'Youyan Building' was talking about Journey to the West, which sounded very good. , so I went two more times." Li Wan said: "I was too tired to listen to it all day, so it's better to take the book and read at ease."

Yan Momo hurriedly said: "Grandma, my son doesn't read Journey to the West, how can I let my brother read this." Li Wan laughed and said: "If you don't let him read it, he will listen to it everywhere. That is because I am afraid that the little boy will read Journey to the West all day. Lippi must be the same as that monkey grandson, here, it’s okay if you don’t read it, and it’s okay to read it.” Jia Lan said: “A book is a book, and listening to others tell it is another taste.”

Yan Momo said: "Tell my brother that life in the market is knowledge, but it is not a market where you go to teahouses and listen to books. It means that people's principles and actions are in daily life, and worldly affairs are knowledge."

After hearing this, Nanny Chang said to Li Wan: "Speaking of this, the girls are all here today, but why did grandma leave the second and fourth girls alone for dinner?"

Suyun hesitated and said: "Miss Shi seems to be in a trance today, which is very different from other places." After hearing Suyun's words, Mother Chang said, before Li Wan could answer her, "What about you?" Time is not waiting for you, the old man has gone, and we are offering memorial tablets for three years in the house. The girl is young, she looks scared, and she hasn't been here since then. So, although there are many jokes on weekdays, this time It's the first time in our yard in many years. I'm afraid it's the National People's Congress, so I'm sorry."

Bi Yue said: "It seems that our place is different from before or something." Chang Momo and Yan Momo couldn't help but looked around, then looked at each other and smiled: "I don't feel it when I'm in it every day. , It’s really changed a lot.” Li Wan said with a smile: “It’s still this room, what can be changed. When I don’t live here anymore, I can arrange it according to my own wishes.”

Nanny Yan was about to speak when Nanny Chang said: "Grandma, please be content! Now it's enough to do as you wish, so what else is there to do?" Li Wan smiled.Yan Momo said: "A moment ago Mama Chang said that she would keep the girls for dinner, I also want to say that, Grandma loves the girls in her heart, she always wants to be fair on the surface, this girl Lin has more clothes than others , and now the second and fourth girls are left alone for dinner. I think Miss Shi is not at ease, and I am afraid that there are girls who are also relatives, and grandma only cares about Miss Lin. If there is injustice, there will always be trouble."

Li Wan listened and smiled and said: "I just said that we have all changed a lot. The thoughts of these nuns have not changed at all. They are still so trembling, afraid of offending one or that. Of course I have my reasons for doing this. Others If he doesn’t understand, it’s because he doesn’t understand, so it’s my fault. Ms. Lin is an aunt, and Ms. Xue is an aunt. Ms. Shi can only be regarded as a family friend. How can it be the same?

What's more, Miss Lin lives in the old lady's yard, and she came here as a girl in our family, so I naturally take care of her.If I want to take care of Miss Xue, how many girls are there in Uncle Lan'er's family? Should I take care of them?I prepared a gift for Miss Shi, how many girls do the two Marquis themselves have, should I prepare a gift?

What's more, what I take care of are all small things for eating, clothing and clothes. Naturally, my family members are called caretakers.The old lady gave Miss Shi a big woolen dress, I'm afraid his uncle and aunt still have some ideas in their minds, let alone it from me?Hey, what I said is in vain. It’s a no brainer to take care of other people’s ideas one by one. I can’t be too busy doing what I want to do. "

Yan Momo shook her head helplessly, Chang Momo smiled and said: "There are things like this in the world, when you have nothing to do with others, you just do what you want, and others will give you an explanation for yourself after a long time of doubts, which in turn It's an easy way. Now that grandma has thought about doing this, we don't have to worry about it. It's just that grandma said something like "too busy". Tiandi, my eyesight is weak, I really didn't see it." Li Wan also laughed out loud when he heard that.