Blow

In Xia Jue's eyes, the "best" Wen Xiao became "the scariest" and "ruthless" when it came to others.

On Sunday afternoon, Wen Xiao sent Xia Jue away, called Ji Xinci on the way back to school, and asked him to have an interview.

Probably because Wen Xiao's attitude was too indifferent. When Ji Xinci received the call, he was obviously in a daze for a long time, as if he was frightened, and when he came back to his senses, he asked suspiciously and anxiously, "What's the matter?"

Wen Xiao didn't answer.

"Then... 04:30, see you at Lanca next door to the sports center, okay?" Ji Xinci tentatively asked.

Wen Xiao let out a "hmm" and hung up the phone.

It happened that Fu Ningyu sent a WeChat message, asking if he would like to go to Shaoyuan Western Restaurant for dinner tonight.Wen Xiao replied: After five o'clock?or tomorrow.

Fu Ningyu was very angry: Wen big name!What's the matter with you, is it time to arrange a date to invite you to dinner now?

Wen Xiao said: There is something temporary.

Fu Ningyu began to complain: This sentence again.You said the same thing the day before yesterday, but you went to pick up Xiaoxia; what about yesterday?to accompany him.It’s hard to wait until today... Brother, I just want to celebrate your birthday regardless of thousands of school girls, but you are so ruthless? !

A long list of news, gushing.Wen Xiao said helplessly: Tonight at 05:30, NOVA, may I invite you?

Fu Ningyu looked reluctant and typed "OK".

At around four o'clock, Wen Xiao took the subway and got off at Peking University East Gate Station. It took about 10 minutes to walk to the Lanca Cafe on the west side of the school.

At this time, it happened to be 04:30, and Ji Xinci had already arrived first. He was waiting for Wen Xiao at the booth, looking nervous.

Wen Xiao sat down opposite him.

"You're here," Ji Xinci greeted awkwardly, "I only ordered drinks, why don't you look at the menu first?"

Wen Xiao shook his head and said, "No need, I have an appointment with a friend later."

Ji Xinci was a little embarrassed for a moment, and responded embarrassingly, not knowing what to say.He originally thought that Wen Xiao would take the initiative to find him, but he deliberately picked such a time and place, and they would have at least one dinner together.

During the brief stalemate, Wen Xiao adjusted his posture backwards and leaned on the back of the seat—this action invisibly prolongs the distance between the two, showing a deliberate alienation.

Ji Xinci is a person with a keen mind, and he had a premonition, his eyes flickered.

"I'll just say it straight," Wen Xiao looked at him and said, "Ji Xinci, you—"

Ji Xinci suddenly asked: "Wen Xiao, did you find something?"

Wen Xiao looked calm and did not answer.However, Ji Xinci already understood what he meant, and the hands and fingers on the table were gradually closing.

"...I didn't expect you to come to me for this matter," Ji Xinci said after a long time, "You found out that we are the same kind of people—but so what? You suddenly used this question me with this attitude?"

Wen Xiao frowned.

Ji Xinci smiled sarcastically: "I've only heard of straight men being homophobic. But you're an insider, and you're still so hostile to me. What's wrong with you?"

He has never spoken so harshly before, and his reaction now is as if his scars have been exposed abruptly.

Wen Xiao said: "You made a mistake, you and I are not the same kind of people."

"It's funny, what do you mean by being different," Ji Xinci said angrily, and cursed in a low voice, "Aren't you gay? Play me."

"It has nothing to do with whether you're gay or not. I haven't hidden anything about me. You knew it from the first day we met," Wen Xiao said flatly, "But you never told me, and neither did you. You just said that I suddenly questioned you with this attitude, so when you treated me with that attitude before, didn't you feel guilty? "

Ji Xinci snapped back with a look of embarrassment: "What attitude? Do you think... just because I call you brother? You should stop being sentimental."

However, Wen Xiao clearly hasn't pointed out the specifics, and he said that, it is tantamount to self-inflicted.

Wen Xiao picked up the coffee on the table and took a sip.

Ji Xinci stared at the table with his head buried, his hands clenched and then separated, his fingertips trembling slightly.

"There is no such thing as you." Finally, he gritted his teeth, "If you want to refuse, I will refuse. It is necessary to say it so harshly? Who would take such a trivial matter seriously."

Wen Xiao said: "You think it's a trivial matter, but I don't. You know my sexual orientation, you know that I have a lover, but you deliberately conceal yourself and get along with me with a vague attitude-these three things, if there is one less I won't come to you like this today. The problem is that you have a lot of things, which makes me feel that you don't respect him. "

"He?" Ji Xinci was stunned for a moment before realizing the object of "he", and his expression froze.

Belatedly, he finally realized the reason why Wen Xiao treated him so coldly, and a sense of unwillingness suddenly surged in his heart.

"What is this? Don't you know how common this kind of thing is in the circle?" Ji Xinci couldn't help but said, "You are with him now, what about next month? Next year? Our group, everyone They all come and go for a little bit of interest, no exceptions. I—I just try to take chances for my own interests."

While listening to him, Wen Xiao held a small spoon and lowered his head to slowly stir the liquid in the cup, his expression remained unchanged.

Ji Xinci asked: "Why, have you nothing to say?"

Wen Xiao gently put down the small spoon, and the handle of the spoon touched the wall of the cup, making a crisp sound.

Ji Xinci was inexplicably shocked.

"I don't understand the rules of the 'circle' and 'group' you mentioned," Wen Xiao looked up, glanced at him, and said slowly, "I just know that I'm not just interested in him—I love him."

Ji Xinci was stunned for a moment, as if he couldn't believe it.After a momentary blank, there was another more complicated emotion, densely packed, filling his heart.

Like suspicion, like jealousy.But none of these feelings came from Wen Xiao's refusal, after all, he was just interested in Wen Xiao as he said himself.

Ji Xinci thought to himself: Maybe it's just that he hasn't heard the word "love" for too long since he joined the so-called "circle". Almost no one in the "circle" believed this, and neither did he.

But at this moment, he found that even though his first reaction was to laugh at Wen Xiao, he couldn't laugh.It seems that all the sarcastic swords prepared can only turn into a sigh of defeat once they encounter this old-fashioned monosyllabic word.

Wen Xiao looked at his watch opposite him.

"Speaking of which, it should be almost done?" Wen Xiao got up and said, "Let's pay AA, or I will invite you."

Ji Xinci shook his head, smiled wryly, and said, "Wen Xiao, do you know that I thought you were looking for me because of some difficulties you encountered—I even thought about whether your company really If there is a situation, I am ready to help you."

Wen Xiao paused and looked at him.

"At least I can still be a classmate." Ji Xinci said.

Wen Xiao replied, "I won't transfer schools for the time being, will you?"

The two parted at the door of the store, each with its own way to go.

Wen Xiao opened WeChat and confirmed the meeting place with Fu Ningyu: a NOVA bar closest to Peking University, just next door to Lanca.

It was [-]:[-] at this time, and Fu Ningyu had the habit of arriving early, so he showed up not long after, bringing an explosive news along the way.

"Old Chen and Miss Su broke up," Fu Ningyu said the first time they met, "Sit down and talk."

Wen Xiao was still thinking about the "group" and "circle" mentioned by Ji Xinci, but when he heard what Fu Ningyu said, he was shocked, went into the shop with him and sat down, ordered some grilled skewers and drinks.

"What's going on specifically? How is Xinyue doing now?" Wen Xiao then asked.

Fu Ningyu sighed: "It is said that we broke up peacefully...Old Chen mentioned it."

The initial surprise gradually subsided, Wen Xiao thought about it, but he was not very surprised, but he felt a little strange, and said: "That probably is really inappropriate."

"It's not suitable or not," Fu Ningyu said, "It's just that I don't like it anymore, I don't feel it at all—this is what old Chen said."

His tone was emotional, and what he said was that it was a pity for the two of them, after all, they had spent five years together in their youth.

But in many cases, when it comes to emotional matters, outsiders may only see the length of time, and only the person involved knows whether the so-called "spending" is enjoyment or killing.

Wen Xiao wasn't sure how much Fu Ningyu knew about the affair between Su Yao and Chen Xinyue, he thought to himself, and didn't speak up right away.

The waiter brought their snacks and drinks.

"We didn't order wine?" Fu Ningyu roughly glanced at the things on the table, raised his head and asked in doubt, "We've come to the bar, and you still don't order wine."

Wen Xiao said: "Don't drink, it will cause trouble."

Fu Ningyu looked at him strangely, and suddenly said, "Sometimes I think it's not easy to be your brother."

Wen Xiao heard that there was something in his words, and the lines of his lips tightened unconsciously.

"You look like a big bug." Sure enough, Fu Ningyu said, "You are impeccable, you can do everything, and you can do everything. To put it a bit exaggerated, within a few square meters of your body, you can feel that feeling." There is a shadow and pressure from the sky, no wonder Lao Chen was like that at the beginning."

The more Wen Xiao listened, the more anxiety arose in his heart.He looked at his friends around him, and wanted to justify that he was just an ordinary person, or even worse than an ordinary person. Until now, he did not have a specific ideal.

"—But," Fu Ningyu changed the subject, "This time, Lao Chen specifically told me that if I talk to you about his breakup with Su Yao, I must make a statement, that is, this matter has absolutely nothing to do with you. It has nothing to do with it, it's their own choice."

Wen Xiao was slightly taken aback.

Fu Ningyu said: "What's that expression on your face? The three of us have been friends for so many years, don't we know you yet? You just look like a normal person, but in fact, you are not a two-year-old, and you always like to think about it behind your back. Accusing yourself, as if all problems are yours. You don't drink because you are afraid that you will talk nonsense after drinking. "

"Love to think blindly" and "accused myself".It was the first time Wen Xiao was judged so bluntly by someone, and he subconsciously denied it: "I'm not—"

"Aren't you?" Fu Ningyu looked helpless, "You always like to carry things by yourself, including your family affairs, so far you have refused to tell me and Lao Chen in detail, and you have a straight face all day long. I'm really weird Now, how can your guy stand you... In short, I just want to inform you about such a thing, don't think too much about it, Lao Chen also meant the same thing. He didn't want to tell you at all. "

Wen Xiao was silent for a while after listening.

"Look, I started thinking again." Fu Ningyu pointed at him with a skewer.

Wen Xiao was still silent, but made a quick movement, cleverly, and snatched the skewer from Fu Ningyu's hand before he could move his mouth.

Fu Ningyu's hands were empty, and he was stunned: "Are you acting out of embarrassment for me?"

Wen Xiao bit a piece of meat off the bamboo stick and glanced at him.

"...All right, for the sake of your treat, the senior will let you." Fu Ningyu said angrily.

They ate, drank, chatted, and hurt each other as usual.The friendship of more than ten years has been preserved until now, and Wen Xiao understands the kind reminder in the other party's words.

"By the way, I always forgot to ask," Fu Ningyu said while eating, "What are your plans for next year? You should go for a walk."

Wen Xiao casually asked: "Where are you going?"

Fu Ningyu was surprised: "You didn't pay attention? The best time to go abroad for undergraduate exchange is sophomore year. The school has programs every year. Cornell, Penn University, Duke, UCLA... usually exchange for one year in the past. It’s for earning credits.”

— to go abroad.

Wen Xiao thought for a while and said, "I don't think about it."

"Why?" Fu Ningyu felt strange, "such a good opportunity."

Wen Xiao glanced at him: "Aren't you a sophomore? Why didn't you go?"

Fu Ningyu regretted: "It's not that easy. My language skills are not good enough. Those who apply are all starting with IELTS 7 or TOEFL 100, but you must be fine."

"Is it so meaningful to go out and communicate?" Wen Xiao said.

"Of course it makes sense," Fu Ningyu looked at him inexplicably, "You don't know about our school? The same is true next door. Every year, a group of people want to go abroad. Isn't the exchange just a foreshadowing?"

Wen Xiao still shook his head and said, "Forget it, I don't even know what I'm going to do in the future, so there's no need to pave the way."

"I don't know what to do? You have already been admitted to Guanghua, and you still say you don't know what to do. It's too much." Fu Ningyu thought he was joking.

Wen Xiao followed suit with a smile, without further explanation, and continued, "And it's inconvenient to go abroad."

"...Understood, love." This time Fu Ningyu suddenly realized, and gave him a thumbs up, and then sighed, "You say you guys who are in love, how do you feel? Divide and reunite, reunite and reunite.”

"I have never been separated from Xia Jue." Wen Xiao reminded him.

"Okay, no separation, no separation," Fu Ningyu raised his hands in surrender, "I'm feeling sorry for the situation, not against you. But based on the various situations I know, I think separation and reunion are indeed the norm for young couples. you--"

Wen Xiao pursed his lips and said lightly, "We won't."