we didn't flirt

The tranquility of the mountains at night makes the lively atmosphere in the villa even more cheerful, and the night wind in early autumn blows in through the open glass door, which is particularly refreshing.

He Lan sat on the sofa drinking and chatting with a few friends, enjoying the relaxation brought by the gathering of friends after a long absence.

Halfway through the conversation, my friend put down his glass and got up to greet a guest when he saw a visitor: "Guan Yan is here, I'll pick it up, you guys talk."

Following the direction in which his friend left, He Lan saw Guan Yan who had just entered the door.

Although they debuted in the same generation as Guan Yan, and both of them have been in the circle for more than ten years, they have never cooperated and have almost no intersection in work, so He Lan's impression of Guan Yan is only in rumors and works, and There are only a few occasional encounters.

Right now, Guan Yan still feels the same to He Lan, with a deserted demeanor, giving off a seemingly easy-going, but actually slightly alienated atmosphere, which makes it difficult to communicate with her.But He Lan knows that although Guan Yan's personality is not very warm, his popularity in the circle is very good. It seems that she has never heard anyone speak ill of Guan Yan. He always has a very trusting attitude, which is very rare in the circle, and because of this, He Lan has always been somewhat curious about Guan Yan.

A friend led Guan Yan to this side through the crowd in the living room, Guan Yan was stopped by his friend halfway, hugged Guan Yan intimately and kissed him, Guan Yan pretended to be disgusted and slapped his friend, the two joked a few words, Guan Yan continued to come here.

After arranging Guan Yan to sit down on the opposite sofa, the host of the banquet turned around to get her something to drink.A few people here greeted Guan Yan one after another. Even if they were not familiar with each other, they all knew each other, so it wasn't embarrassing.

Looking at Guan Yan who had recovered his desolate demeanor, He Lan felt that she might have discovered something extraordinary.When she was kissed by a friend just now, the aura on Guan Yan's body loosened for a moment, and some imperceptible softness subconsciously appeared on her body.

He Lan can be sure that the difference she felt at that moment was definitely not her illusion.

During the chat, He Lan intentionally or unintentionally communicated with Guan Yan, and then took advantage of the opportunity to ask for Guan Yan's WeChat account.

*****

When asking for WeChat, He Lan didn't think too far. She just asked for WeChat out of curiosity and unintentional aroused interest. She didn't intend to deliberately create any opportunities.It's just that every time I see Guan Yan's name when looking through the address book, I wonder if I can find a reason to contact him.However, the fact is that there is actually no reason to find between them, because there is really no intersection.

In the end, He Lan asked Guan Yan to have dinner very directly, without any reason.For her invitation, Guan Yan seemed very surprised, because they were not familiar with each other at all, but it was precisely because of this unfamiliarity that it was difficult for Guan Yan to refuse her invitation.

The two made an appointment to meet at a restaurant opened by an insider, and Guan Yan stepped on the light. After the meeting, Guan Yan was obviously a little uncomfortable, because they had no reason to meet at all.

During the meal, Guan Yan still politely and casually asked why she asked her out for dinner, and He Lan said indifferently, "I just want to have dinner with you."

Knowing that Guan Yan would care, He Lan evil-heartedly used this reason that seemed to be a reason but was not a reason at all.

In the end, the two of them really just had a meal and didn't talk about anything nutritious.He Lan thought, maybe when Guan Yan came, she was still thinking that she must have something to ask her, but she didn't say it because it was hard to say in WeChat, but no, she really just wanted to have dinner with Guan Yan If I had to give a reason, it was probably because she had a different interest in Guan Yan and wanted to get in touch with him more.

After this unreasonable dinner, He Lan asked Guan Yan to come out to exchange feelings from time to time, without exception, every time he used eating as an excuse, without exception, Guan Yan would agree as long as he was free.

Probably really curious about her intentions, after seeing her several times without getting a decent reason, Guan Yan finally couldn't help but say a word: "Do you like eating very much?"

Seeing Guan Yan with a slightly helpless expression, He Lan didn't hold back for a moment, and laughed out loud: "I like to have dinner with you."

I don't know if she finally heard the ambiguity in her tone, Guan Yan pursed her lips, and didn't answer the words.

After meeting and eating several times, He Lan gradually realized that Guan Yan was really slow in some aspects, so she secretly looked forward to how many times she would have to eat before Guan Yan could realize her intentions.

After several meals, when he invited another invitation, He Lan changed the location to her home, and Guan Yan agreed.

He Lan can cook, but her cooking skills are very unstable. Unfortunately, the first time she entertained Guan Yan at home, her hands shook.

Seeing Guan Yan's embarrassment after eating her fried home-cooked food, He Lan calmly picked up the phone: "Okay, let's order takeaway."

Guan Yan readily put down his chopsticks, and joked, "Why do you embarrass yourself and me."

He Lan gave her a dissatisfied look, and after ordering takeout, he packed up a table of unpalatable dishes and put them in a food box.

Seeing He Lan's strange behavior, Guan Yan asked curiously, "Aren't you going to throw it away?"

"There are many stray dogs outside the community, and I will feed them later."

"...Are you going to use it to embarrass the dog?"

He Lan, who was squatting on the ground, turned around and said very dissatisfied: "I find that you are quite humorous."

"So-so, did you misunderstand me before?"

*****

Before getting acquainted with Guan Yan, He Lan still felt that Guan Yan's good popularity was inexplicable. How could this kind of seemingly difficult person get along so smoothly in this circle.

After getting acquainted, He Lan finally understood the reason. Guan Yan is a person who will not invade other people's emotions, but can accept others' dependence unconditionally. Lots of trust.

At first, He Lan felt that Guan Yan’s trait was very powerful. It is difficult for ordinary people to maintain their “self” while accepting other people’s feelings. They will always be assimilated unconsciously or have some derived emotions. Come.

However, it took a long time for He Lan to gradually understand that Guan Yan could do this because she never expected others emotionally, and was very stingy with her own emotional efforts. No matter how close the relationship is, Guan Yan will not treat anyone People get too emotionally involved, whether it's a friend... or a lover.

"Don't believe what's in the news, it's just that the angle is just right." He Lan saw the gossip news about the photos of her having an affair with the actors of the same crew, plus the content that was deliberately inciting, afraid that Guan Yan might misunderstand, so she hurriedly told Guan Yan Smoke called to explain.

I thought Guan Yan would be a little angry, but Guan Yan on the other side of the phone smiled and said, "What are you in a hurry for? Of course I know it's fake."

"That's good, I'm afraid you misunderstood."

"How is it possible? Of course, I trust you more than the news whose veracity is unknown. You don't need to make a special phone call to explain this kind of thing."

"Yes." He Lan was very pleased with Guan Yan's trust in her.

In this circle, it is common for gossip news to cause some troubles, but because of Guan Yan's trust, He Lan gradually feels indifferent to these things.

The two of them, whose careers have been steadily rising in the past two years, are both very busy. It is rare that neither of them has a job. He Lan went to Guan Yan's house to enjoy the rare two-person world.

However, halfway through the TV, He Lan received a call from her agent, saying that she was having an affair again.After hanging up the phone, He Lan searched the news nonchalantly. When she saw the exposed photos, He Lan realized that she was photographed when she went in and out of the restaurant with the actors of the same crew two days ago.There were actually other people at the time, but the news said that there was only her and an actor, and the attitude of provoking trouble was very obvious.

Although it was made up, the photo really looks like that. He Lan looked at Guan Yan beside her. Guan Yan heard it when she was on the phone with her manager just now, but what is Guan Yan doing now? Without even asking, He Lan deliberately showed the photo to Guan Yan with a joking attitude: "I was photographed again."

Guan Yan shifted his gaze from the TV to his mobile phone, glanced at the photo and then turned his attention back to the TV very calmly: "Normal things, don't pay attention."

"..." Originally it was just a mischievous mentality, I thought Guan Yan would feel a little uncomfortable, but He Lan really couldn't read the slightest concern from Guan Yan's expression. "Um."

*****

Both of them are busy with work, and the number of times they meet can be counted on the fingers. He Lan feels that the relationship between her and Guan Yan is a bit too loose. Although the relationship is stable and there is almost no conflict between the two, it is probably because of the time they can spend together. It's really too little, but He Lan knows that Guan Yan has no dissatisfaction with this state, and even has a kind of natural comfort.

"Why don't we live together?" With the idea of ​​asking casually, He Lan tried to raise her expectations, even though she felt that this was a luxury.

Guan Yan turned to look at her, and asked calmly, "Are you serious?"

"……seriously."

Guan Yan paused, and after thinking for a while, he agreed: "Okay."

He Lan never expected to get an affirmative answer, and couldn't believe it for a moment: "Are you serious?"

"Well, I just want to change to a place with better security and environment."

He Lan didn't understand Guan Yan's meaning for a while.

Without waiting for He Lan to think about it, Guan Yan said indifferently: "Recently, someone found me a pretty good place, a newly built community, do you want to come and be my neighbor?"

"..." Although it was different from what he had expected, He Lan felt that this was already a very good result.

The house is very expensive, so expensive that He Lan might not be willing to pay for it two years ago, but it is worth it.

On the day of moving, He Lan saw Guan Yan coming out of the house next door, smiling at her from a yard away, so beautiful that she couldn't move her eyes.

*****

"How long will it take to join the set this time?" The room was covered with things that Guan Yan wanted to bring into the set, and every time he entered the set, it was like moving.

Guan Guan, who squatted on the ground to collect things, did not lift his cigarette butt: "Two months."

For two months, He Lan, who was also going to join the group next month, was thinking about when the next meeting would be. This calculation made her feel that this was really a sad arithmetic problem.

"Even if we become neighbors, nothing has changed at all." He Lan said amusedly and helplessly: "Do you want to make a lot of scenes?"

Guan Yan looked up and looked at He Lan calmly: "Are you serious?"

"...Just say whatever you want."

"Oh." Guan Yan lowered her head and continued to organize things.

He Lan stayed by the side silently. After a while, she couldn't help asking: "Are you not dissatisfied with our current state?"

Guan Yan looked at He Lan inexplicably: "Isn't it good now? I'm no longer a child, and I still have to stick to it when I'm in a relationship?"

He Lan laughed helplessly: "That's right."

*****

When she opened her eyes and saw Li Miaomiao lying beside her with bare shoulders, He Lan felt despair in her heart, a despair never seen in her life.

She couldn't remember what happened last night, let alone how she and Li Miaomiao developed to this point, she just drank two more glasses.

The figure of Guan Yan flashed in his mind, and He Lan forcibly expelled the picture, not letting himself think about it for a second, as if he could treat this incident as if it never happened.

The movement of lifting the quilt startled the sleeping person, Li Miaomiao opened his eyes, saw He Lan, and smiled slightly: "Morning."

"..." He Lan clearly saw the emotion she didn't want to see in Li Miaomiao's hazy eyes. At this moment, she realized how absurd and ridiculous her thoughts were. How could there be nothing? It happened.

Seeing that He Lan was going to get up, Li Miaomiao checked the time on the mobile phone beside the bed and asked, "What time is your flight?"

He Lan still didn't respond to her, and went straight into the bathroom.

Seeing her haggard face in the mirror due to hangover, the irritability and restlessness in her heart grew like vines until it entangled every corner of her body.

Li Miaomiao, who was wearing a shirt and bare legs, appeared at the door of the bathroom, and looked in through the door frame. He Lan put away his thoughts, pretended to wash up calmly, and tried his best to look as good as possible.

The chaotic thoughts made He Lan completely ignore Li Miaomiao, and Li Miaomiao naturally sensed her indifference, leaned on the door frame and looked at He Lan silently, and broke the silence after a while, saying: "So last night was What? A one-night stand?"

He Lan paused while washing, unable to turn her gaze to Li Miaomiao, and said calmly and indifferently as she fixed her makeup in the mirror: "Did I do something that misunderstood you or did I say something that misunderstood you? If so, I apologize because I don't remember at all."

Li Miaomiao was silent for a while, then curled her lips and shrugged slightly: "Okay."

He Lan knew that Li Miaomiao had a crush on her, and she felt it when filming, but she kept pretending not to know and kept a proper distance from Li Miaomiao, and Li Miaomiao never crossed the line.Last night, it was an accident.

The sound of opening and closing the door came from outside, and Li Miaomiao left, He Lan stopped the movement of his hands, looked at himself in the mirror with a tense expression, dazed, and continued to move for a while.

When the assistant came over, He Lan pretended to ask about what happened last night unintentionally. No matter how much she drank, it was impossible for her to give herself to someone other than the assistant and manager. She couldn't figure out how Li Miaomiao could sleep with her From the bed.

According to the assistant, it was indeed the assistant who sent her back to the room last night, but because she drank too much and felt uncomfortable, she fell asleep on the bed, and she didn't ask the assistant to wash her. The assistant had no choice but to let her sleep like that up.

After listening to this, He Lan became even more depressed, so how did Li Miaomiao sleep in her bed?Probably no one knows about this except Li Miaomiao himself.

*****

Li Miaomiao would occasionally send some light-hearted messages, and He Lan knew that those nonsensical and intentionally funny things were just intentionally sent by Li Miaomiao in order to gain a sense of presence.

Every time He Lan just read it and deleted it without replying, Li Miaomiao didn’t send messages frequently, maybe once a month or even longer, and never mentioned any sensitive topics. It's really just to make her happy, but she never smiles.

He Lan never asked Li Miaomiao what happened that night, she didn't want to know, she hoped that what happened that night would become an eternal mystery, and she didn't want her life to change because of that night.

However, she probably thinks too highly of herself.

Same scene, same situation, different people.

When He Lan opened his eyes and saw the people around him, he couldn't help but burst out laughing. It turns out that it only takes a second for a person to degenerate, just a flash of thought, just a moment of relaxation, and it will make the tense nerves completely torn off.

What made her want to laugh even more was that this kind of depravity made her feel more at ease than clinging to that glimmer of hope.

*****

The start-up banquet was still so boring. Halfway through, He Lan received a message from Li Miaomiao after a long absence. It was still nonsensical and funny. She read it blankly and then deleted it.

In a bad mood, He Lan used the excuse of going to the bathroom to get some air. When she came out after untying her hands, there was another person in the bathroom, a woman who looked familiar, and her eyes lit up after seeing her.

The other party is probably an insider, a newcomer, and these newcomers have emerged too quickly these years, one batch after another, and the name and face can't be matched, so they change to another batch.

He Lan didn't pay much attention to it at first, thinking that if the other party wanted a group photo, she would give it.Seeing her wash her hands, the other party gave her toilet paper very attentively, seeing that her eyes were shining brightly, as if there was no trace of impurities, Guan Yan's cool and clean eyes flashed in his mind for a moment, He Lan hurriedly suppressed the screen.

Her heart was very uncomfortable, He Lan regained her senses, took the paper from the other party, and smiled slightly: "Thank you."

The other party seemed very excited: "I grew up watching you play."

He Lan didn't want to get entangled with the other party, so she lifted her legs and left, but probably because of an inexplicable sense of intimacy, she unconsciously raised her hand and pinched the other party's face: "The kid really can't talk." This action reminded her of Guan Yan Come, she couldn't help feeling even more uncomfortable.

Probably teased by her action, the other party followed, chattering and clamoring to take a photo with her, feeling inexplicably irritable, it reminded her of a long-lost morning when she saw Li Miaomiao waking up next to her, and her heart was dark The emotion forced her to stop, agreed to take a photo with the other party by accident, and even made some actions that were not suitable for meeting someone for the first time in revenge.

Then, He Lan heard herself blurting out uncontrollably: "Shall we go for a drink?"