Death Progress Bar

Jian Jinwen's information is not long, only two short pages.

The first sentence at the beginning of the material is that Jian Jinwen is Jian Chenghua's adopted child.

This……

When Shi Jin's hand stopped flipping through the materials, he was a little surprised, but felt that this was more reasonable.Although Jian Chenghua is also fat, his facial features are very ordinary, and he has no similarities with Jian Jinwen at all. Judging from the appearance alone, the two are not like father and son at all.

The information is really too short, Shi Jin scanned the content of these two pages in less than 10 minutes after a brief pause.

Jian Jinwen, an orphan who was abandoned at birth, whose parents are unknown, lived in the orphanage until he was two years old, and then was adopted by Jian Chenghua, who had no fertility.

The disease he had was very troublesome and would not kill him immediately, but he could not be cured completely. He had to be hospitalized for a long time and received hormones on a regular basis.

The originally pretty boy gained weight rapidly due to hormones. He couldn't go to school anymore, and he couldn't do strenuous exercise. He could only stay in the hospital every day and endure the boring and painful life of medical treatment.

Jian Chenghua was very kind to this adopted son, he gave Jian Jinwen the best treatment environment as much as possible, and also acted as a teacher himself, giving Jian Jinwen lessons every day, reading books and newspapers, and guiding Jian Jinwen to study on his own.

This situation has lasted for many years. Jian Jinwen's physical condition has not improved, but he is very optimistic. He not only actively studies by himself, but also develops a small hobby of writing. Occasionally, when his health can bear it, he will go to participate in Jian Chenghua's organization Funded public welfare activities to help children in orphanages or children in mountainous areas, tell stories to children younger than him, and teach them to read and write.

I have to say that Jian Chenghua is an excellent educator. Under his teaching, Jian Jinwen, who was suffering from illness, not only did not become depressed and withdrawn, but grew into a very gentle and kind person.He will donate his pocket money to buy stationery for the children in the orphanage, write letters of comfort to the abused children reported by Jian Chenghua, and play with other sick children in the hospital to encourage and comfort them.

He is like a warm little sun, treating everyone around him gently.

It's a pity that such a gentle person has not been treated gently by fate.

When Jian Jinwen was 19 years old, his condition suddenly deteriorated and he had to be transferred to a large hospital in City B.Also in the same year, Jian Chenghua quit his job at the city newspaper and went to the big newspaper office in city B.

After going to City B, Jian Jinwen had a major operation and stopped using hormones. Under the torment of the disease, he quickly lost weight.After suffering like this for a few more years, Jian Jinwen finally exhausted his vitality and passed away regretfully, ending his short life.

Shi Jin withdrew his hand from flipping through the materials, feeling a little bored and puzzled.

Jian Jinwen must be Shi Xingrui's white moonlight, this is definitely not wrong, but looking through Jian Jinwen's information, he can't see any traces of Shi Xingrui's contact with Jian Jinwen.Putting aside the possible correspondence, the life trajectories of the two are like two completely parallel lines, which have never intersected.

This is too strange, with Shi Xingrui's obsession with Bai Yueguang, he thought that Shi Xingrui would have a sadomasochistic relationship with Bai Yueguang.But judging from the known information now, Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen don't even talk about dating, it's a question of whether they even met formally.

How is this going?Doesn't Shi Xingrui love this white moonlight very much, then why has he never been in contact with this white moonlight?Jian Chenghua's employment information is so transparent, even if Shi Xingrui temporarily cut off contact with Jian Jinwen because Jian Chenghua took Jian Jinwen to B city for medical treatment, didn't Shi Xingrui also go to B city afterward? With the ability, it should be a breeze to follow Jian Chenghua's information to find Jian Jinwen.

When it was so easy to find someone, Shi Xingrui didn't look for anyone. No matter how he thought about it, there was only one possibility——Shi Xingrui himself didn't want to find Jian Jinwen, and even deliberately avoided contacting him.

But if that's the case, the situation gets even stranger.Like each other, but avoid each other?What a strange logic.

Fearful crush?Is Shi Xingrui emotionally so timid?

Shi Jin was at a loss, and the more he thought about it, the more he couldn't figure it out. He just felt that there must be something hidden that was not written in the materials.After all, Shi Xingrui's behavior of desperately looking for a substitute to have a child in the later stage was too crazy, and it was too different from his early restraint behavior of not looking for Jian Jinwen.

"There must be someone who knows all the truth." Lian Jun said suddenly, attracting Shi Jin's attention.

Shi Jin looked at Mr. Lian, blissful in his heart, and said, "You mean Jian Chenghua?"

Lian Jun nodded, took out his mobile phone, and asked, "I remember that Jian Chenghua settled in City B after retirement, and invested in an orphanage by himself. Do you want to talk to him?"

Hearing this, Shi Jin instinctively raised his hand to touch his face, struggled for a while, nodded and replied: "Let's talk... But don't let Jian Chenghua see me, I look too similar to Jian Jinwen, I'm afraid When he sees that I think of Jian Jinwen, he feels sad."

Lian Jun reached out and touched his face, nodded: "Okay."

After lunch, the two went out together, heading straight to the orphanage run by Jian Chenghua.

After half an hour's drive, the car stopped at the gate of a relatively small orphanage.Changing into an ordinary white-collar outfit, Gua Er straightened his collar, greeted Lian Jun in time, got out of the car with his bag, and entered the orphanage.

Shi Jin watched Gua Er leave, and sat in the car waiting for Gua Er's news.

About half an hour later, Gua Er unexpectedly returned home.

"Jian Chenghua was inside, telling stories to the children. I talked to him in the name of donating books, but he probably didn't want to talk about the past. No matter how I guided him, he didn't answer the call. I I was afraid that my words would make him suspicious, so I made an excuse to come out. What should I do now, should someone else go in?" Gua Er turned around and asked, with a helpless expression on his face.

Lian Jun frowned and looked at Shi Jin.

"I'll go." Shi Jin hesitated for a moment before opening his hand to open the door.

Gua Er hurriedly took the "props" out of the bag, and said, "Wait, I'll give you the donation list, you can pretend to be my assistant..."

"No need." Shi Jin waved his hand to refuse, and pushed open the car door, "My face is the best stepping stone."

Lian Jun moved to the side of the car and instructed, "Call me if you need anything."

Shi Jin nodded towards him, let out a shallow breath, and walked towards the orphanage.

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The orphanage is not big, there is only one building, Shi Shi entered the building, followed the guidance of the orphanage staff to the small classroom where the children usually play games, and saw Jian Chenghua sitting at the front of the classroom.

Jian Chenghua is over 70 years old, his hair is all white, but he is very energetic and has a good complexion. He smiles like a Maitreya Buddha and looks very kind.The children should like him very much, and obediently sat in a circle beside him, listening to him tell stories with eyes full of admiration.

The staff member who came over called Jian Chenghua, and Jian Chenghua turned his head to look over. The casual expression that was originally smiling changed immediately after seeing Shi Jin. Book got up, went around the children and walked in front of Shi Jin, stretched out his hand to grab Shi Jin's hand, and said in a trembling voice: "You, you are..."

"Dean Jian, I am Shi Jin." Shi Jin introduced himself, calmed down, and said honestly, "I am Shi Xingrui's child. I have some questions for you about his relationship with Jian Jinwen."

Jian Chenghua's expression was dazed, as if he suspected that he had heard something wrong, the gaffe on his face gradually subsided, his brows slowly frowned, he looked at Shi Jin's appearance carefully, unconsciously tightened his grip on Shi Jin, and asked with difficulty : "Who are you talking about? Whose child are you?"

Shi Jin sighed in his heart, held his hand comfortingly, and replied, "Shi Xingrui, my father is Shi Xingrui."

Jian Chenghua's expression can almost be described as stunned. He stared at Shi Jin stupidly for a long time, then suddenly came back to his senses, grabbed Shi Jin's hand behind his back, looked at the orphanage staff next to him with a serious face, and told him to take a good look at it. holding the child, and then leading Shi Jin towards the dean's office.

Shi Jin watched him hold his hand tightly, but did not pull it out, and followed his pace obediently.

The two sat down in the dean's office. When Jian Chenghua let go of Shi Jin's hand, he was still a little reluctant. He looked at Shi Jin several times, then poured a glass of water for Shi Jin himself, sat opposite him, and said with a complicated expression : "You...you and Xiao Jin look so much alike, by the way, what did you just say about your name, Shi, Shi..."

"Shi Jin." Shi Jin answered.

Jian Chenghua stopped talking, his expression changed, and he suddenly sighed, and said: "I didn't expect it to be like this... If you want to ask anything, just ask, and I will tell you. The one who wanted to donate books before You know the person too, right?"

Shi Jin nodded in embarrassment, and said embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, I asked him to talk to you. I'm afraid that if I show up directly, you will be sad. After all, my face..."

"It looks too similar to Jinwen." Jian Chenghua changed his address to Jian Jinwen, sighed again, and didn't know what he thought of again, he was stunned for a while, then suddenly came back to his senses, glanced at Shijin, Said, "I probably know what you want to ask... Jinwen and your dad did know each other. They wrote letters to each other for a long time when they were young, but they are definitely not the relationship you imagined. I don't know Shi Xingrui How could I give you such a name, your appearance is still... oh."

"I came to you this time just to clarify this point." Shi Jin looked at Jian Chenghua, considered his tone, and said, "If possible, can you tell me in detail how my father and your son met? I I know it's a bit presumptuous to ask, but I..."

Jian Chenghua interrupted him with a wave of his hand, looked at his face, and said, "I understand, it's normal for you to be curious about these things when you look like this, but I don't really understand... Forget it, it's all old things, It would be nice to have someone to talk to."

As he spoke, he also poured himself a glass of water, posing for a long conversation.

As Shi Jin guessed based on various materials, Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen had indeed been pen pals for a long time, and the person who facilitated this friendship was Jian Chenghua.

"When I knew Shi Xingrui, he was still a primary school student. At that time, he submitted more than ten manuscripts to the newspaper in one breath, describing his family's difficult situation, which attracted everyone's attention. At that time, Jinwen had just entered the hospital not long ago. Probably because of empathy, seeing that Shi Xingrui described himself in such a difficult way in the letter, I thought I could help, squeezed the space, accepted his manuscript, and wrote him a letter letter of encouragement."

Jian Chenghua recalled the past, his eyes drifted away slowly: "After Jinwen entered the hospital, he couldn't go to school, and he didn't have any children to play with him. I was afraid that he would be lonely, so I chatted with him about the newspaper office every day, and read to him. Read some contributions and letters from young readers. This is how Jinwen knew about Shi Xingrui. He has been soft-hearted since he was a child. I sent my letter of encouragement to Shi Xingrui together, and I also left a little note for Shi Xingrui to cheer on."

When Shi Jin listened, he also sighed in his heart, Jian Jinwen is really a very kind and good boy, but it's a pity that God didn't take care of him.

"After receiving my letter and the pocket money from Jinwen, Shi Xingrui wrote me a thank you letter very politely, and sent me the next manuscript by the way, expressing that he would donate the manuscript fee of this manuscript to Orphanage. At that time, I felt that this child was really sensible and righteous, and he was a good seedling worth cultivating."

Jian Chenghua wanted to laugh when he said this, and after a short laugh, his expression darkened again: "It was at that time that Jinwen's illness was diagnosed and he started taking hormones. He was in pain, and I wanted to divert his attention Li, it happened that he paid more attention to Shi Xingrui at that time, so I asked him to try to write a letter to Shi Xingrui, and after writing, he sent the letter along with my reply to Shi Xingrui's newspaper office, to ensure that Shi Xingrui would definitely be able to See. Shi Xingrui's child is also kind-hearted. After receiving Jinwen's letter, he will reply to Jinwen every time he submits a manuscript. Just like this, you come and go, and the two get in touch through me, "

Hearing this, Shi Jin had a very subtle idea inexplicably in his heart - in the beginning, when Xingrui established contact with Jian Jinwen, it should not be because of kindness, but because he took a fancy to Jian Chenghua's identity and wanted to stabilize the newspaper office of Jian Chenghua Editor-in-Chief, it’s more convenient for me to publish articles to earn manuscript fees.

But thinking about Shi Xingrui's age at that time, he felt that he was prejudiced again.How could a teenager be so scheming.

He shook his head, collected his wandering thoughts, and continued to listen to what Jian Chenghua had to say.

The unusual correspondence between Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen has been maintained since its establishment.The frequency of communication between the two is not high, and basically coincides with Shi Xingrui's contribution frequency.

After Shi Xingrui graduated from primary school, his family had a hard time because he had to pay for junior high school tuition.Shi Xingrui didn't tell Jian Chenghua about this, but only mentioned in his letter to Jian Jinwen that his parents have been working hard recently, and Jian Jinwen took it very seriously after seeing it, fearing that he really wouldn't be able to go to junior high school, so he approached Jian Chenghua.

After Jian Chenghua learned of this situation, he happened to have a job of editing tutorial materials in his hand, so he recommended Shi Xingrui's article to the people in the studio.

There was actually a long period of time between the acceptance of the article and the payment of the manuscript fee. Jian Jinwen was afraid that Shi Xingrui would not be able to wait, so he generously contributed a wave of his own pocket money.Seeing this, Jian Chenghua made the decision to advance the manuscript fee to Shi Xingrui first, so that Shi Xingrui got the money early.

After this episode, the relationship between Jian Jinwen and Shi Xingrui became better, and the frequency of Shi Xingrui's contributions to the market newspaper accelerated, and Jian Jinwen's replies to Shi Xingrui became thicker and thicker.The two teenagers grew up slowly. When Shi Xingrui was about to graduate from junior high school, Jian Jinwen proposed the idea of ​​meeting Shi Xingrui.

"The two had made an appointment to meet each other, but unfortunately Shi Xingrui's mother had an accident after his high school entrance examination, so the meeting was delayed." Jian Chenghua sighed, with a regretful expression, "Maybe the two have no fate After that, the situation of Jinwen deteriorated a bit, and he was transferred to another place, and when he came back, Shi Xingrui had already gone to the high school in the provincial capital, so he was far away."

After the meeting plan went bankrupt, the two continued to communicate, but the content of Shi Xingrui's communication gradually changed, and there were more emotional expressions between the lines.Jian Jinwen knew that he was sad because of his mother's death, so he was always careful to comfort Shi Xingrui in his letters.

During that period of time, Xingrui probably felt really uncomfortable. The manuscripts he submitted were all things he had written before. Three out of five pages of the letter he sent to Jian Chenghua were written to Jian Jinwen, and the content was very negative.

Jian Chenghua frowned when he said this, and said: "It was also at this time that I discovered that Shi Xingrui was actually very hostile in his heart. He followed up the article in large sections describing his anger and pain, and wanted to take revenge on his grandfather. Grandma, wanted to question uncle and aunt, wanted to hit brothers and sisters, he was full of hatred and had no place to vent, all poured into Jinwen. He suddenly became strange, and the cold and violent writing was so cold and violent that I, an adult, could not I feel terrible. I started to worry, Jinwen's temperament is too soft, I'm afraid he will be hurt by Shi Xingrui."

Shi Jin couldn't help frowning when he heard this, and at the same time knew in his heart that this should be the turning point of Shi Xingrui's feelings for Jian Jinwen. After being stimulated by his mother's death, Shi Xingrui, who had nowhere to vent his emotions, began to confide in Jian Jinwen, I really had a heart-to-heart with Jian Jinwen.

Jian Chenghua continued to narrate: "I tried to persuade Jinwen to break contact with Shi Xingrui for a while, I am just a selfish father, I don't want Jinwen's bad life, and then being brought into any negative energy by others But Jinwen refused. He said that Shi Xingrui was like this because he had entered puberty and couldn't regulate himself well. If he didn't comfort Shi Xingrui, Shi Xingrui might be psychologically distorted by the pain of losing his mother. went astray. He convinced me, and I agreed to their continued contact."

Throughout the first year of high school, Shi Xingrui poured out emotional garbage to Jian Jinwen. Jian Jinwen was like a piece of filter cotton, receiving all the garbage, and then filtered it out by himself, and then returned his tenderness and patience to Shi Xingrui.

Shi Xingrui's mood slowly adjusted. He stopped submitting old manuscripts and started to write new things. During the summer vacation when he was a freshman and a sophomore in senior high school, he took the initiative to ask Jian Jinwen to meet him.

Shi Jin's heart skipped a beat when he heard this—summer vacation for freshman and senior high school?This timing is very important. He remembered that Shi Xingrui cut off all his contributions in the last semester of his sophomore year and started to concentrate on his studies.

Could it be that what happened to the meeting this summer?

Shi Jin looked at Jian Chenghua.

Jian Chenghua was already lost in his memories, and he didn't notice Shi Jin's eyes that suddenly lit up.

"Jinwen also really wanted to meet Shi Xingrui, a pen pal who has been with him for many years, and he readily agreed to meet... But Shi Xingrui missed the appointment, and Jinwen waited at the agreed place for a whole day, but Shi Xingrui never arrived. Shi Xingrui just disappeared and could no longer be contacted. Jinwen's disappointment at the beginning turned into worry and anxiety later on. Probably because emotions affected his body, Jinwen's physical condition suddenly deteriorated, and I had to send him Transferred to a big hospital in City B." Speaking of this, Jian Chenghua's expression became a little tense, and he blamed Shi Xingrui faintly in his words, "Although reason tells me that Jinwen's physical deterioration is caused by objective reasons, but I still can't help but blame Shi Xingrui, he said he wanted to meet, but why didn't he come, Jinwen must be so sad when he plays like this."

Shi Jin was dumbfounded when he heard this, and soon realized one thing——Shi Xingrui might not have missed the appointment at all, but had "seen the light and died" to Jian Jinwen.

This situation often happens when making pen pals and online dating.If you look at this matter from Shi Xingrui's perspective, it is that after graduating from junior high school, Shi Xingrui started to have a pen pal because of his mother's death, and after a year of friendship, he became emotionally dependent on the pen pal or Some kind of affection was born, and then he happily asked for a meeting, and went to the agreed place full of expectations and shyness, but saw an ugly big fat man, so he ran away directly!

This completely makes sense when Xingrui's sudden change!How could Shi Xingrui, who is so proud of himself, allow the person he likes to be a big fat man, so he ran away, disappeared, strangled this crush on his own initiative, and severed the connection with the object of his crush.

It's just... really a plain and true truth.

In order to verify his conjecture, Shi Jin suppressed the galloping horses in his heart, interrupted Jian Chenghua's memory, and asked, "Well, did my father exchange photos before meeting your son?"

Jian Chenghua was taken aback by his question, then nodded and replied: "It's been exchanged, but it's relatively early, I don't worry, when they first started communicating, I asked them to exchange photos once, wait a minute, I'll send the photos to you." It’s still there, I’ll find it for you.”

Actually exchanged?

Shi Jin was also taken aback, and began to suspect that he had guessed wrong.

Jian Chenghua took out two palm-sized old photos from an old photo album, handed them to Shi Jin and said, "It's these two. I'm sorry for that kid Jinwen, but I chose the photos I sent."

Shi Jin took the photo and looked down.

The photo above was taken by Shi Xingrui, and the corners are not smooth, as if it was cut from some group photo.Shi Xingrui in the photo is only about ten years old, and his facial features have not yet opened, which is quite different from when he was an adult.

He quickly removed Shi Xingrui's photo, looked at the next one, and then he was dumbfounded.

The photo below is obviously much clearer and higher quality, and it looks like it was taken with a good camera.In the photo is also a child in his early ten years old, who is very good-looking, sitting on the hospital bed, holding scissors and paper-cuts in his hand, with long hair that goes past the ears... like a girl with short hair.

Really, if he hadn't known that Jian Jinwen was a man, and only looked at this photo, he would definitely have thought that the person in the photo was a girl!She is still a beautiful-looking, gentle temperament, very high-quality young goddess version girl!

Shi Jin only felt that a big thunder fell from the sky with a bang, and hit his head, making him dizzy, palpitation and trembling, and he almost couldn't even speak.

Shi Xingrui may not only have experienced the death of seeing the light, but may also have experienced such a cheating thing as a goddess turning into a male god... He suppressed his emotions a little, looked at Jian Chenghua who was still sighing, and said, "Well, Can I see your son's handwriting, I'm just curious..."

This request was very strange, but Jian Chenghua didn't think much about it. He was happy to share his son's excellence with others, and he was very talkative and took out a well-preserved notebook, and said with a little pride: "Of course, Jinwen here The child likes to be quiet, and he has been practicing calligraphy since he was a child, and his handwriting is very good."

Shi Jin took the notebook, looked at the writing on it, and fell silent.

It is said that Jian Jinwen's handwriting is just like his own, with smooth strokes, no edges and corners, rounded and delicate characters... like a girl's handwriting.

If he was a young Shi Xingrui, after seeing such a photo of a pen pal and seeing such a delicate font, he would definitely take it for granted that the pen pal is a girl, a very beautiful and gentle girl.

He raised his eyes to Jian Chenghua, and wanted to ask the other party if Shi Xingrui and Jian Jinwen had confirmed their gender during the correspondence, but he swallowed the words again.

How to ask, this question is really too mentally handicapped, who would think of confirming the gender of the pen pal after exchanging photos, there were no big women who dressed up in those days.