Death Progress Bar

After a meal, there were seven people at the table, except for Lianjun, all of them passed out drunk.

Li Jiuzheng was the first to get drunk. He drank too much white wine at one time and made himself faint.The second drunk was Rong Zhouzhong. He did not drink less when he and Li Jiuzheng were drinking together. Not long after Li Jiuzheng collapsed, he fell asleep on the table.

Afterwards came Shi Weichong and Fei Yujing. They ate and chatted, and unconsciously drank a lot.The remaining two Shi Jin and Xiang Ao Ting seemed to be serious about their meal. They had a great time chatting about the ingredients. When Shi Jin got excited, he insisted on pulling Xiang Ao Ting to taste the wine. Take a sip, the alcohol slowly rises, and when Lian Jun finds out that something is wrong, they have already leaned on the chair and became dazed.

Lian Jun pulled Shi Jin, who was leaning on the chair and talking nonsense, into his arms, touched his face lightly, and called out Gua Yi.

Gua Yi turned in from outside the restaurant, waiting for orders.

"Take them to the guest room and ask Uncle Long to show them. Don't let them have any problems with drinking. Remember to give them anti-alcohol medicine." Lianjun ordered, and then stood up with Shi Jin in his arms, taking a drink that was not completely drunk. In the past, Shin walked in the direction of the room.

Gua Yi answered yes, took out his mobile phone and called for help.

Shi Jin followed Lian Jun out, and when he was about to walk out of the restaurant, his eyes were clear for a moment, and he looked back at the Shi family brothers who were lying around the table in a mess.

"They got drunk on purpose." He whispered, and he didn't know who he was talking to, "In this way, even if they wake up tomorrow and find that everything is in vain, they can still lie to themselves that it was a dream... cunning And timid ones."

Lian Jun also looked at the brothers of the Shi family, agreeing with Shi Jin's statement in his heart - the timing of these people getting drunk was too uniform, it must be on purpose.

"They are all cowards." Shi Jin turned his head and leaned on Lian Jun, "Me too...but I still have you, Lian Jun, don't leave me, I will die."

Lian Jun also looked away, hugged his hand tightly, kissed his forehead sideways, led him forward, and said, "No, I will always be with you."

"That's great." Shi Jin hung all his weight on him, rubbed his shoulders, was quiet for a while, and suddenly said, "Mr. Lian, my name is Shi Jin."

Lian Jun looked at him sideways.

"My father's name is Shi Lei, and my mother's name is Lan Xiao. They live in a town named Huaiyang and run a small supermarket. I was adopted by them as soon as I was born... My father is a good old man with a soft and sensitive heart. I Mom is a bit more forceful, but in fact she has a knife mouth and a bean curd heart... They are very good and will definitely like you."

Lian Jun's forward steps stopped suddenly, and he stared at him in a daze.

"I actually have a very rustic nickname called Da Zhuang. My mother gave it to me. She said that children can only grow up well when they use a native name. Until I went to elementary school, I thought my name was Shi Da Zhuang. Later I In order to get me used to my big name, Dad actually changed the name of the supermarket at home to Jinjin Supermarket. They are cute, right, these are my parents... completely different from Shi Xingrui."

Lian Jun's fingers trembled, and he hugged him tightly in his arms sideways.

Shi Jin leaned into his arms, rubbed him affectionately, and said, "Don't worry, I'm not schizophrenic or delusional, what I said is true, and those are all things I've experienced... Believe me Okay, I'm really not crazy."

"...I believe in you." Lian Jun said with difficulty, and pacified his back, "I know you are not crazy, you are fine, I know."

Shi Jinhui hugged him, half drunk and awake: "I knew you would say that, you are always so nice... In fact, it doesn't matter if you don't believe it, I'm a drunk now, it's not unusual to say anything, just listen Just forget about it..."

Lian Jun tightened his arms even more.

The two hugged quietly for a while, and then continued to walk in the direction of the room.

Probably because of the drunkenness, Shi Jin's words became fragmented and incoherent.

"I'm actually the same age as you... I'm really a policeman, I won't lie to you, I've been a policeman for many years... Calculate carefully if I've died twice... My memory is blurred, Shi Wei Chong, Li Jiuzheng, Shi Xingrui, I don’t remember them all, they are all strangers, their names are written in ink in the book, they don’t make any sense... It’s so strange, my parents didn’t know each other back then. Those who wanted me to be a policeman said it was too hard, but why did I insist on taking the police academy..."

The two finally arrived at the room, Lian Jun helped Shi Jin to the bathroom, stripped off his clothes, put him in the bathtub and leaned against him, and took the shower to wash his body full of the smell of alcohol.

Shi Jin stared blankly at the pouring water, his eyes seemed clear again, and said: "I remembered, I was the one asking for help, I kept asking for help, whether it was pain or resentment, please come and save me, Someone pull me out, these things are terrible, how can someone like me who grew up in a honeypot bear it... No, is that me? No, it shouldn't be me... I am that Shi Jin, It's not this time, it can't be this time..."

Lian Jun's hand holding the shower slowly tightened until his joints turned white.

"But why no one came to save me...No, the fourth brother saved me once, he is very powerful...Then if I become like him, can I save myself...I worked hard, right, for Save yourself so desperately..."

Lian Jun took a deep breath, reached out to wipe away the tears flowing from the corners of his eyes, dropped the flowers, leaned over and hugged him tightly.

Shi Jin leaned on him, turned his head sideways, looked at the mist rising in the bathroom, his eyes became cloudy again, and said in a low voice: "My father is gone, my brothers have changed, money is not money, but I don't." I care too much, so I can take everything I want, but people’s hearts can change as soon as they say it. Before I smiled at them, they would smile at me, and then I smiled at them, and they would only look at me with cold eyes and hatred Me, looking at me sarcastically, looking at me hesitantly, looking at me full of killing intent... It's even more unacceptable to cry, you will be hated... I am obviously still me, but why everyone treats me differently What is wrong, what did I do wrong?"

"No." Lian Jun finally spoke, his voice was low, depressed and tense, "You've done a good job, so far, you've done a good job."

"Then did I save myself?" Shi Jin raised his hand and grabbed his clothes.

"Save, not only yourself, you also saved me, you are very powerful."

Shi Jin let go of his hand again, with a relieved smile on his face, and said: "That's good... In fact, I'm also a coward. I don't dare to talk about some things until I'm drunk..."

Lian Jun touched his back and said: "You are not a coward, you are very brave, braver than anyone else."

"Really... that's great." Shi Jin's eyes were already closed, the corners of his eyes were slightly red from alcohol, his lips moved, and before he fell asleep completely, he murmured: "Xiao Si, don't cry ,very noisy……"

Lian Jun's hand stroking his back stopped, and then continued slowly. After a long time, he said softly, "Good night, Shijin."

……

Shi Jin fell asleep until noon the next day, and when he woke up, Lian Jun told him that Shi Weichong and the others had already got up early to catch the earliest flight and left.He was stunned for a while, and finally raised his hand to rub his head with a bit of hangover headache, and said, "I understand, it's the end of the year and everyone is busy."

"They left you a gift, do you want to see it?" Lian Jun asked.

Shi Jin shook his head and was stunned for a while before finally waking up, looked at Lian Jun and asked, "Should we go to the island? You have been bored in the house for so long, and you need to go to a warm place to have a good rest." Breathe out."

Lian Jun stroked his messy sleeping hair and asked, "When do you want to go there? Gua Liu has already tidied up that side, we can go there anytime."

Shi Jin rarely gave a self-willed answer: "Today, I want to leave today." After the reunion, of course they will be separated, everyone has left, and he doesn't want to stay alone.

"Okay." Lian Jun leaned over to kiss him, and said, "I'll make arrangements."

……

Even Mr. Lian, who only decided to leave that day when it was close to noon, could barely arrange a special plane until eleven o'clock in the evening, barely fulfilling Shi Jin's wish to leave that day.

"I have to go to the plane to rest." Lian Jun helped Shi Jin pack his luggage, and half of the box was full of textbooks.

Shi Jin pretended not to notice, rubbed his chest stuffed with snacks, and said, "You must take a longer nap today."

"Are you with me?" Lian Jun put down his textbook and looked at him.

Shi Jin looked at him and said, "Of course I'm with you."

……

After waking up from his afternoon nap, Lian Jun found that Shi Jin became a little restless after receiving a text message, turning his head to look out the window from time to time.He slid his wheelchair over and asked, "Do you want to go out and build a snowman? By the time you come back next time, the snow should have melted."

Shi Jin frowned and thought for a while, then said, "Let's pile it up, let's make a smaller one this year."

The two came to the rest room where they stayed when they made a snowman last year. Shi Jin wrapped Lian Jun tightly and wrapped himself tightly, and then led Lian Jun out to the one with the thickest snow. In the corner, he pulled Lian Jun to squat down together, and asked him to pinch snowballs with him.

"You make a smaller one, I make a bigger one, and put them together to make a snowman." Shi Jin talked about his plan.

Lian Jun asked: "Don't want to make a fancy one?"

"Let's wait for next year." Shi Jin replied, smiling at him, "This year we will follow the tradition."

Lianjun knew that he was concerned about his physical condition, so he smiled and replied, "Okay."

In the end, the two of them built a calf-high miniature snowman outside, which took less than 10 minutes.Satisfied, Shi Jin took Lianjun to take a photo with the snowman, then took Lianjun back to the house, and hurriedly took him to wash his hands, wash his face and warm his body.

Seeing Shi Jin trying to take care of himself, Lian Jun felt a little distressed.

This person is the one who should be taken care of by everyone, he stretched out his hand unconsciously, and hugged Shi Jin in his arms.

Shi Jin was puzzled, looked at him sideways, and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Just do what you want." He said, kissing Shi Jin's ears that were red from the cold wind, "Don't worry about me, I just want to make you happy."

Shi Jin lowered his head and hugged him tightly, remembering what Rong Zhouzhong and Xiang Aoting had sent one after another, saying that Li Jiuzheng left in the morning with a bad face and something wrong, so he didn't say anything.

……

It was getting dark and the time for departure was getting closer.Shi Jin kept turning his head to look out the window, and finally when the clock reached seven o'clock, he couldn't help standing up, looked at Lian Jun and said, "I'm going out for a while, and I will definitely be back before 09:30."

"It's too late, the plane at eleven o'clock, we have to leave for the airport at nine o'clock at the latest." Lian Jun shook his head.

Shi Jin was stunned, raised his hand and patted his forehead, and said, "I actually forgot how terrible the traffic in City B was years ago...it's nothing, then we..."

"But if we start now, maybe I can let you turn somewhere halfway and stop for a while." Lian Jun added, sliding the wheelchair out, holding his hand, and asked, "Do you want to start now? Gua Er and the others have already moved all the luggage to the car, and the team has also been integrated."

Shi Jin looked at him stupidly, then held his hand firmly, and said, "Let's go, I want to make a trip to the University City...is that okay?"

"Of course." Lian Jun replied, took his hand and kissed it.

……

The car was speeding down the street, and outside the car was the gradually familiar scenery of the university city. Shi Jin reached into his pocket and shook the key inside—it was the key to Li Jiuzheng's apartment, and he was on his way there now.

And why do you want to go there... He took out his phone, clicked on the text message page, skipped the text messages from Rong Zhouzhong and Xiang Aoting, and looked at the last message Li Jiuzheng sent this morning: Thank you, I understand, please continue to hate Me, I will continue to love you, you are a gift from God, I will cherish you, see you in the next year [love].

It is still a messy adolescent melancholy boy with pain-related text message style, but some of the words in it are so familiar that they seem to be engraved in his soul, but it really prevents him from ignoring them like before.

The word gift is really...

"Your fifth brother should have returned to Rongcheng." Gua Er, who was sitting in the passenger seat, suddenly said, looking at the deserted university town outside, he rubbed his arms exaggeratedly, "The students are all going home on vacation. , this place has turned into an empty city, and it looks scary at night."

"Didn't go back to Rongcheng." Shi Jin came back to his senses and looked in the direction of Li Jiuzheng's residence, "The place where his mother and grandparents are buried, he won't go back during the Chinese New Year." At this time last year Li Jiuzheng also stayed in City B, and after receiving his call for help, he immediately rushed over to rescue him.

Yes, save, no matter what Li Jiuzheng did later, judging from the situation at the time, Li Jiuzheng saved him.And in his previous life, Li Jiuzheng actually saved the original owner. Leaving aside the messy mental torture, at least physically, Li Jiuzheng fulfilled his duty as a doctor, not only rescuing the original owner from the serious car accident, but also saving the original owner. Take it to your own hospital for personal care.

And those mental tortures... Shi Jin remembered what Li Jiuzheng said in front of his mother's grave last year, and pursed his lips.

He suddenly understood part of Li Jiuzheng's thoughts and actions. That person was really like a child, pure good and pure evil, and he couldn't express his emotions and feelings at all.

Maybe...just maybe, maybe Li Jiuzheng's horrible words standing beside the original owner's bed in his previous life, and his act of holding a knife to help the original owner get rid of him, were actually not so malicious, and maybe even had good intentions.He was sick, just like Shi Weichong, quietly crushed by the pressure and emotions imposed by his parents.

Doctors don't heal themselves, and there may be no real or fake masks at all. All the schizophrenia shown by Li Jiuzheng is just a symptom of a patient.

When I was in pain, I wished I could drag everyone to hell together, and when I regained my senses, I wanted to try my best to grasp the warmth that hadn't slipped away... It's the same, it's all the same.Moreover, in the same family environment, the original owner still has the false happiness and paternal love of the previous ten years, while Li Jiuzheng has nothing, no matter whether his mother, father, or elder brother, all they give him is the cruel reality. And piles of undigested negativity.

What a young genius, those auras that are put on his head by hard work, are just a child who is driven to a desperate situation, the only way he can think of to save himself.Sometimes children's ideas are really simple. They always think that if they know more and grow up faster, the current predicament will become simpler, and everyone's problems will be solved.

[But you are dead, what should I do. 】

What Li Jiuzheng had said suddenly flashed in his mind, Shi Jin's divergent thoughts suddenly gathered together, and he tightly clenched the keys in his pocket. His brain had never been so clear-headed as it is now.

In his previous life, Li Jiuzheng had gone crazy long ago. He had lost his father and mother, and had only exploited relationships with his brothers. The only younger brother who felt special because of his mother's brainwashing was about to be snatched away by death.All the people involved who gave him pain and hope are dead, what should he do?what can he doWhat would happen to a person who was insane and sick, who lived alone in the world and never really grew up?

This is the first time, Shi Jin thought of one thing - after the original owner died like that, that person showed killing intent to the original owner countless times, but never really did anything, and was still trying hard to snatch the original owner from the hand of death What happened to Li Jiuzheng who came back?

The car stopped, Shi Jin came back to his senses, and found that the community where Li Jiuzheng lived had already arrived.He looked at the floor where Li Jiuzheng lived, and felt an impulse in his heart.

——In the previous life, Li Jiuzheng could no longer see hope, so in this life, even if it was just for those actions called salvation, let's try again.

For the first time, he sensibly took down all the emotions overflowing in his chest, and used the thoughts of Shi Jin who had lived for more than 20 years to analyze and digest everything that the dying Shi Jin could and could not understand.

Don't let your emotions take over your mind, you can do it.

He stretched out his hand to open the car door, got out of the car and walked towards the building where Li Jiuzheng lived, at a faster and faster speed, and finally he started to trot, pressed his head on the elevator and rushed in.

"Young Master Jun, is it really all right?" Gua Er looked at Shi Jin's back and asked with a frown.

Lian Jun leaned on the back of the chair, touched the place where Shi Jin was sitting just now, and replied: "It doesn't matter, he knows what he is doing."

……

The elevator opened, and Shi Jin strode to the door of 3602. After adjusting his breathing, he took out the key and opened the door.

The room was pitch black, the heating was not turned on, and it didn't look like anyone was there at all.But he went straight in, came to the sofa, saw a huddled figure on it, and said, "I can only stay here for 10 minutes at most, or I will miss the plane leaving here."

The person on the sofa didn't move, as if he had fallen asleep.

"To be honest, I'm very afraid of you. I can't let go of the fact that you want to kill me, and I can't let it go." Shi Jin paused, and his voice slowed down a bit, "But you're right, among the brothers , you and I are the most similar."

I don't know if it's an illusion, but the figure on the sofa seems to be curled up even tighter.

"I'm going to spend the winter on Lianjun's island, and by the way, spend the New Year's Eve there." Shi Jin said as he turned sideways, pinching his fingers in his pockets tightly until they turned white, "If you want to be together , pack yourself up quickly and come down, I will only wait downstairs for 5 minutes... Brother Wu, I don’t want to continue hating you, it’s too tiring, and I want to be relieved.”

After he finished speaking, he turned around, did not check whether the person on the sofa was awake or asleep, and left the unpopular apartment without looking back.

The opportunity has already been given. This is the hand he stretched out again with the last shred of rationality after overcoming the repulsion and fear brought by his memory. He has no energy to care about whether the other party wants to grab it or not.

……

Five minutes later, Shi Jin looked at the door of the building where no one had come out, looked away and said, "Let's go, don't miss the plane."

Gua Yi immediately started the car, but Gua Er suddenly gasped and said, "Wait, someone ran out."

When Shi Jin looked up, he saw Li Jiuzheng rushing out of the building wearing only a shirt, holding his mobile phone ID and other items in a mess in his hand, and his forehead was covered with sweat in the winter.He anxiously scanned the door, saw the car about to leave, ran over quickly, stopped the car, panted and said, "Xiaojin, I, I'm with you, I'm looking for documents, I'm Forget where I put it, don't leave me, I'm with you, let me be with you."

Shi Jin looked at him through the car window, as if seeing the self who tried his best to ask for help, closed his eyes, and stretched out his hand to open the car door.

"Come in, or you won't be able to catch the plane."

Huge surprise burst out in Li Jiuzheng's eyes, he quickly went around and held the door to get in the car, and sat down next to him, his body was shaking intermittently, not knowing whether it was because of the cold or something.

Shi Jin took out a blanket to wrap him, and found that he ran out without shoes. At this time, the socks were all wet by the water left after the snow melted, and he stepped on the mat in the car dirty.

"Sorry, I made the car dirty." Seeing him looking at his feet, Li Jiuzheng became a little embarrassed.

"It's okay." Shi Jin came out with another towel, and motioned him to take off his socks to wipe off the water on his feet.

Li Jiuzheng quickly followed suit, a little anxiously, like a child who is afraid of being abandoned by his family because of his mistakes.

Shi Jin looked at his anxious expression and slightly pale face, and suddenly felt a sense of returning to stability in his heart—it felt that as long as he said something harsh, this person could cry directly. Does such a person need to be afraid? ?