Love shuffle

Fang Qining buried himself in the pillow, the pillow was soft. He hadn't used the buckwheat pillow for a long time, but when he closed his eyes, he could still think of the sound of the buckwheat husk crackling.

He can roughly predict what will happen after falling asleep, but it is nothing more than repeatedly falling into dreams and waking up again and again.It is not difficult for him to fall asleep. What is more painful than insomnia is the established ending of waking up every few 10 minutes.

There was a period of time that was particularly frightening. Fang Xining often couldn't tell whether he was asleep or awake, and there was no one around him. When he opened his eyes, he saw a white wall, and when he closed his eyes, it was still a dead white that tightly wrapped him .

In addition to the cracking sound of buckwheat husks, it was accompanied by a tragic sound similar to that of bones breaking, "click, click, click", his eyes and ears were blocked by the darkness, his senses were disabled, but a field was opened up in his mind out of thin air, constantly Reenactment.

Fang Qining rudely defines the people participating in the game as NPCs, and he is a player above all data. The reason why Lu An can touch his mind is because he is an individual, a living person.

He should treat them equally. Lu An just took Fan Zhiqing's place and changed a set of innocuous data, and the machine continued to operate.

But he can't.

He can overlook the data condescendingly, but he cannot be transformed into a god by the player.God doesn't need to do anything, just flip a button with one finger, and he can teach his internal organs to hurt at the same time.

The time flow at night has no rules to follow, Fang Qining kept his eyes open all the time, and couldn't tell how many times the hour hand had passed.He slowly got up from the quilt, half squatted on the carpet, and took a bottle of medicine from the bottom drawer.He hit the bed board with his body, the pain made him clenched his lips, it was really a canopy.

The water glass on the table was empty, Fang Qining couldn't remember when he drank all the water in the glass, so he could only hold the glass and open the door in the dark.

Even though he was in his own house, Fang Qining stepped on the cold floor like a thief.The teapot was placed on the coffee table in the living room. He held the handle and found that the teapot was as clean as the cups in his room.There are quite a lot of things against him today, and this one is not bad, Fang Qining numbly turned to the kitchen, there would always be purified water he bought for spare in the refrigerator.

He opened the refrigerator door, and just as his finger touched the corner of the plastic bottle, he suddenly caught a glimpse of a dark shadow on the ground out of the corner of his eye, and was immediately frightened out of his wits.

Freon flows in the pipe, and the door shaft friction sound is only momentary, and the next second is replaced by the subtle sound of refrigerant.There was a faint light shining inside the refrigerator, and the black figure behind him whispered, "Xiao Ning, are you still awake?"

It is very common to see Fang Qining sober in the middle of the night, it is puzzling that Lu An ran out of the room so late.

Fang Qining didn't reply in a hurry, he took a bottle of purified water first, closed the refrigerator door heavily, and then reluctantly answered him with one word: "Yes."

Lu An didn't seem to have any intention of going back to his room, his tall figure stood in front of Fang Qining.

The only light source in the living room disappeared when Fang Xining closed the refrigerator door, and the small button of the wall lamp could be touched by walking a few steps to the right against the wall. Shore talks a lot.

If he walked around without saying a word, it would confirm that he cared about that phone call.Now the competition is patience, Fang Qining doesn't want to lose his position in front of Lu An, so he fights against him with all his strength.

The two of them stood deadlocked at the door of the kitchen. Every second that passed, the atmosphere became more and more strange, as if this was not a kitchen, but a dead end with no way out.

Fang Qining has never been Lu An's opponent. Taking advantage of the fact that he couldn't see his face clearly at night, he raised the corner of his mouth in a self-deprecating manner, and said, "What are you doing standing here? What time is it?"

Lu An's voice was very low, and it sounded more gentle in the quiet environment. He said, "I thought you were having a nightmare again. Go to sleep. I'll go back to my room later."

As soon as Fang Qining heard his caring tone, she became angry. She not only hated Lu An's calmness and solemnity, but also hated herself for being hesitant and unable to separate the past from the present.

"Lu An," Fang Qining tried his best to suppress the sourness in his heart, and whispered, "Can you please stop doing this."

The intervening years were actually not long, but they gave Fang Qining a feeling that he would never be able to get over it. He looked at Lu An in the dark, and felt that the people in front of him were very strange, and the next moment he realized that it was not only Lu An who was unfamiliar. More himself.

Lu An didn't answer for a long while, which was very unfair, but Fang Qining clearly realized that if anyone wanted to admit defeat, it must be him.

"Fang Qining," Lu An rarely called out his full name, "tell me, what are you awkward about?"

This time Fang Xining remained silent, he couldn't say why.After three years of absence, the ex-lover didn't care about his sudden departure at all, and treated him like a spring breeze, while he acknowledged his love, while turning his face away, how can a person be so ignorant of what's good or bad.

They are all grown-ups, and it is meaningless to dwell on little things. Lu An's liking has always been synonymous with tolerance. He has tasted it, but he is critical, questioning and questioning.

Fang Qining said with difficulty: "I'm sorry."

He was apologizing for today's Fang Qining, not the 22-year-old Fang Qining.

The cold air flowed slowly, Fang Qining wore thin home clothes, sniffed, took two steps forward, and stretched his arms around Lu An's waist.He finally realized that maybe the relationship between him and Lu An was unequal, and what Lu An wanted now was not so much.

One of the buttons on Lu An's chest was undone, and Fang Qining leaned over to kiss a piece of flesh on his chest. He hadn't experienced it for a long time, so he pecked and kissed instinctively, clumsily and slowly.Lu An didn't move and didn't respond to him at all. Fang Qining raised his head in confusion and stopped for a while.

Lu An suddenly pushed him back, the force was not heavy, but it made Fang Qining even more at a loss.

He was still in a daze, his body lightened suddenly, his legs lifted off the ground, he subconsciously hooked the nearest thing, and his arms hung around Lu An's neck.

"What are you doing..."

Lu An ignored him, just hugged him, walked into the master bedroom in the dark, lifted the quilt with one hand, and put Fang Qining down.

Fang Qining immediately thought of the medicine on the table, but he didn't dare to act rashly for fear of being discovered by him.Fortunately, Lu An didn't intend to move around, and then sat on the other side of the bed.

Lu An was next to him, and finally said: "Fang Qining, you are amazing, and you haven't changed in a few years. Isn't this what you hated the most before doing this kind of thing in front of me? Who threatened that if a starlet dared to Do this, see a person who opens a ladle? Do you want to give yourself a head first?"

When he talked about the past, Fang Qining curled up his hands and feet, purely out of embarrassment.At that time, he was still very naive. He met someone with malicious intentions in a bar and hit them twice with a wine bottle. When he talked about it in front of Lu An, he exaggerated it into a scoop.

Many of his old friends are not in this city, and basically he doesn't know much about people, and he starts over when he returns to China.If you meet some friends from the past, you will definitely click your tongue and sigh with emotion. Fang Qining has really changed a lot. The most brilliant person in the past has also settled down and gradually returned to reality.

Only in front of Lu An can he occasionally find a little bit of his former self.

"..." Fang Qining argued with him, "That's different."

His brother Fang Qirui said that my younger brother was spoiled.Hiding by her parents since she was a child, having her older brother leading the way during her adolescence, finally growing up, and having Lu An take over the baton, Fang Qining's first twenty years of life went smoothly.

There should be a limit to how little things can be done. His growing pains came a little late, a full ten years later than ordinary children. His bones grew into an adult, and his understanding of the world slowly caught up.

Like a shining diamond, Lu An plunged into the pool, disturbing all his thoughts.

For example, at this moment, Lu An bent his index finger and tapped lightly on his forehead, intimate and innocent.They have their own concerns, and live in the same room in the sleeping city.

Gorgeous bubbles rise slowly, reflecting the past on the transparent surface.His parents love him and spoil him, but his father doesn't stay at home often, and his mother doesn't like to express himself. He is always afraid of making mistakes when standing in front of his parents. Compared with his elder brother who is proficient in everything, Fang Qining is far behind.His elder brother cared for him in every possible way. In his eyes, he was a simple and innocent child, and he didn't dare to reveal many true thoughts.

Lu An is different, he is different from anyone else.Fang Qining can be herself in front of him, she doesn't have to be framed in the outline of a young master who doesn't know the world, she can act coquettishly, and even play petty temper, revealing her little-known shortcomings.

The root of his pain lies in the unprecedented pressure on himself after reuniting with Lu An.Fang Qining couldn't restrain his emotions. He liked the person in front of him, and he still liked him after a long time. Every minute he spent with Lu An was painful and joyful.He didn't dare to think about how much had changed between them, and he still thought he was living in the past.Fang Qining has already built a high wall for defense, but in front of Lu An, he always wants to tear down the wall and rush to hug him.

The worst thing is that even though Lu An may not be as full of eyes on him as before, after suffering, he is still unwilling to burst the gorgeous bubble.

How vulnerable love is, he took it too seriously, and when it was not opened, it gurgled under the bottle cap, and when it was held in his hand for the first time, it made his whole body ache.

Lu An's index finger paused on his forehead for a moment, and kept going down, resting on the lower jaw. His palm was so big that it completely covered half of Fang Xining's cheek, leaving room for it.He has written many stories, and recently tried to integrate his boy into it, changing and changing, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't describe Fang Qining's one or two characteristics, and finally had no choice but to change to another direction.

Listening to Fang Xining's disordered breathing, he whispered in the chaos: "Xiao Ning, tell me, whatever you want from me, I can give it to you."

He was punishing his heart. Fang Qining lost his composure and bit the palm on his cheek fiercely. It should be Lu An who suffered the pain, but he also felt the pain at the same moment.

Lu An calmly let him vent, his sharp teeth knocked on the flesh, carving a small circle of tooth marks, and the other hand groped and stroked his hair, gently and pampering him.

Fang Xining finally stopped, closed his eyes and panted, he could not hear any emotions or anger, he preferred a kind of reconciliation, adjusted the weights at both ends of the balance, back and forth countless times, Fang Xining said sleepily: "You hug me, I want to I want you to hug me."