why are they still in love

After Xiao Chining was discharged from the hospital, Xiao Zhaoshan's schedule suddenly became tense. In addition to doing rehabilitation that had been scheduled long ago, he also had to start organizing the gallery.

Before the accident, he had already planned to sell the gallery and take Xiao Chining to live abroad, but to everyone's surprise, Xiao Chining walked through the gate of hell, suffered serious physical and mental injuries, and the situation is still unclear , the matter of going abroad can only be temporarily put on hold.

It's not that he can't see that Xiao Chining's recent free and easy and tolerant is suspected of whitewashing the peace, but Xiao Chining himself has never opened his mouth, so he doesn't know where to start.

The two of them looked at each other and ate and slept on the same pillow every night, talking about trivial matters that had nothing to do with their minds.For example, the downstairs neighbor has a dog, which is a Yorkshire terrier that is in the period of moulting; there are children in the community playing pranks, secretly changing the number on the door of the express cabinet with an oil-based pen, and the staff of the property are pasting the new number. The parents who scold them don't know how to discipline their children; there are always a few old men who go to the atrium garden to play chess in the afternoon, and the tone of their pointing is like two children arguing about the sun.

As Xiao Zhaoshan listened, he gradually realized his negligence.

Xiao Chining currently has nothing to study, his right hand is still wrapped in a plaster bandage, and he cannot prepare to apply for a foreign school portfolio.When he went out to work and went to the rehabilitation center to heal his nerves, except for the newly hired nanny who could barely speak a few words, Xiao Chining had no one to talk to and spend time with. What he saw every day was confined to the community The recurring parental short.

Chi Yan completely cut off contact with their father and son, and Dong Xin was also busy with his career. Looking at the whole of Beijing, no one could handle this important task.

Because Xiao Zhaoshan had been thinking about this matter all the time, he suffered from insomnia for two consecutive nights, and sat alone in the living room smoking a stuffy cigarette.Thoughts were thousands of times, and finally he sorted out the clues in the mess and made up his mind.

He resumed his plan to sell the gallery, and secretly asked a friend to find an expert who was willing to quickly take over the deal.Not only that, but he also insisted on adjusting the rhythm and progress of his rehabilitation, compressing the one-and-a-half-month neurological training into two weeks.

The frequency of twice a week had to be increased to once a day, and he spent all his lunch breaks commuting to and from the rehabilitation center and training that tortured his will.The employees of the gallery saw that he was always sweating profusely and went back to the gallery to take a shower. At one time, they thought that his boss was trying to save his mid-life crisis by actively exercising.

Xiao Zhaoshan had already removed the bandages before returning to work, and there was nothing abnormal at first glance.Xiao Chining stabbed him and then was kidnapped by Yue Zezhang, and the police only knew half of it, so he didn't explain why he was being teased like this. At most, he smiled and said, "Everyone is 40 years old."

In fact, his rehabilitation training was a hundred times more painful than fitness.Although the healing rate of nerves is faster than that of bones, it still takes a considerable period of time to really reach the level of "good as new".

Xiao Chining chose a place on purpose, aimed at the median nerve that governs most upper limb movements with the tip of the knife, and pierced across it. The nearby muscles and other nerves would inevitably be affected.

At first Xiao Zhaoshan couldn't even complete the simple movement of raising his right hand thirty degrees, moving his fingers and turning his wrist was already his limit.Later, through external application of special Chinese herbal medicine and physical guidance, he was finally able to hold a one-jin object in a low position.

The price is sweating all over the body and reimbursement for the entire afternoon. When I return to the office, I can only do some simple work with my left hand.

He stole a set of massage techniques from a doctor in the rehabilitation department, and spent a lot of money to get a prescription from a trusted Chinese medicine doctor for relaxing tendons, activating blood circulation, and promoting wound healing. Pull Xiao Chining to drink together.

Xiao Chining felt that the medicine had a lingering smell of stinky socks, so he refused to take a second sip no matter what.Xiao Zhaoshan persuaded him a few times to no avail, and secretly thought of a trick.

Early the next morning, the nanny received a well-crafted recipe from the employer--ordinary home-cooked dishes, such as tomato scrambled eggs, fish-flavored eggplant, steamed sea bass, cold tofu and various soups. , all added medicinal materials that she had never heard of.

She pedaled a rattling shared bicycle, and traveled back and forth between various medicine rooms in Beijing for two hours, finally got enough of the eight flavors of the dozens of traditional Chinese medicines mentioned in the recipe, and quietly followed Xiao Zhaoshan's request. Noisily added to Xiao Chining's lunch, but Xiao Chining spit it out after chewing twice, and expressed clear doubts about her professional level and enthusiasm for work.

Xiao Zhaoshan came back from get off work and listened to the little nanny complain about his suffering for more than ten minutes. He took back the recipe with a sullen face and decisively.

Later, he decocted a pack of medicine by himself, drank most of it, deliberately hid a small mouthful and pressed it under the base of his tongue, walked into the master bedroom without saying a word, and kissed Xiao Chining who was lying on the bed and playing with his mobile phone just after taking a shower.

Naturally, Xiao Chining didn't know that the kiss was poisonous, and thought that the old man was going to have an estrus on the head of the willow on the moon, and even responded to his initiative with great anticipation and excitement.

It wasn't until the sour liquid that smelled of stinky socks slipped from the tip of his tongue into his throat that he realized that he had been tricked by this dog.

"Bah, bah, bah!" He pushed Xiao Zhaoshan away, raised his leg unrepentantly, and kicked him on the shoulder, "What the hell!"

Seeing that Xiao Chining seemed to have been molested, Xiao Zhaoshan broke down and wiped his mouth repeatedly with the sleeve of his pajamas. After wiping, he didn't forget to put his palm to his lips, breathed out hot air into his palm, and frowned carefully to sniff.

He didn't know what smell he smelled, but he avoided it in disgust, his small face suddenly wrinkled as if he had swallowed a whole raw lemon: "Fuck! I just brushed my teeth!"

Sitting at the end of the bed, Xiao Zhaoshan was amused by his reaction, as if he had forgotten his original intention.

Xiao Chining kicked him down, gritted his teeth and said, "Smile! You don't want to get into this bed if you don't brush your teeth for 10 minutes today!"

Xiao Zhaoshan couldn't remember the last time he laughed like this, the pain and impatience of recovery during the day seemed to be wiped out in this childish farce.

He lowered his head and hugged Xiao Chining's feet, straightened his body, and said with a smile: "Is it really that bad? I think it's okay."

Xiao Chining was so angry that he made up his third foot: "Soak a bunch of stinky socks in tap water for a month, do you think it's hard to drink?!"

"Have you drunk?"

"...Go away, today either you sleep in the study or I sleep on the sofa."

"Okay, okay, let's stop drinking."

Xiao Chining pulled out his foot: "You continue to drink the water from your stinky socks, and I will continue to drink my pure water. There is no 'we', so stop coming."

Xiao Zhaoshan moved to his side: "Then what about when you take out the steel plate? You may not be able to use your hands properly, so you won't take medicine or do rehabilitation then?"

Xiao Chining replied flatly: "I don't drink, I don't do anything. It's what it can be restored after taking the steel plate."

His expression remained the same, but his tone was inexplicably self-defeating: "I'm not you, I don't like drawing that much. Now I live well with only my left hand. I can bathe, brush my teeth, and dress myself. It doesn't matter how good it gets."

Xiao Zhaoshan smiled, looked at him deeply, and said solemnly: "But I have something to say."

Without warning, he raised his right hand and hugged Xiao Chining who was leaning against the bed into his arms: "Look, Xiao Ning, Dad can hug you now."

Xiao Chining was worried that he was forcing it, so he didn't dare to act rashly, and let him hold him stiffly: "Well...you are amazing. It's almost time, let go, it will hurt later."

On the contrary, Xiao Zhaoshan tightened his arms: "It doesn't hurt, the doctor said that he is recovering very well, and I don't need to go to the rehabilitation center in the future."

Xiao Chining didn't believe it: "So fast, have you grown up happily by stealing food?"

Xiao Zhaoshan replied: "I drank water from stinky socks."

"I'm not joking with you." Xiao Chining distanced himself from him, and said seriously, "Is it normal to get so fast? I don't believe it."

In front of him, Xiao Zhaoshan took off his long-sleeved home clothes silently, revealing a tighter and muscular upper body than before: "Seeing is believing."

Without refusing to refuse, he grabbed Xiao Chining's left hand and let him touch the long scar on his arm: "You were stabbed here that day."

The healed wound is still pale pink, and the fibrous new skin is densely packed with sketch-like horizontal lines.

"It's a seam mark."

Xiao Chining touched it with trembling fingertips.

"Fifty days soon?" Xiao Zhaoshan took his hand away from his body, raised it to his lips and kissed it, "Compared with 17 years, it is indeed much faster."

"But it's still too slow for me. It took me fifty days to hold you like this." He said softly.

Xiao Chining frowned imperceptibly, and quickly showed his face: "When I hurt you, I really wanted to make you crippled. I didn't lie."

"Well, I can feel it." Xiao Zhaoshan put down his hand and looked at him, "Recently, I can feel it every day."

Xiao Chining pretended to be relaxed and said: "I have paid the price, you are not allowed to hate me."

"I never hated you. But you can always hate me, it doesn't matter." Xiao Zhaoshan said calmly, "This sentence doesn't mean that I don't matter, of course I think it does. I just want to tell you what kind of Moods and thoughts can’t be overstated, love and hate can exist at the same time.”

The first time the two openly mentioned what happened that day, the atmosphere was a little heavy for a moment, but Xiao Zhaoshan firmly held Xiao Chining's hand all the time, not allowing him to let himself avoid serious illness.

"Free will first manifests as being honest with myself. For example, I will not blindly deny my desire for you just because I care about human relations. The decision to divorce Chi Yan is because I realized that I have this desire to love Your desire|desire took root in an instant. I hope the same is true for you."

"Every scar on your body is real. It is human nature to suffer from it. Who stipulates that you have to pretend to be indifferent to be considered a man? This is not cool, it is called dumb eating coptis, there is bitterness to say out."

Xiao Chining's complexion was getting worse and worse, but Xiao Zhaoshan didn't seem to notice, and continued to sprinkle salt on his wound.

"Do you know how many times I had nightmares in the hospital? Do you know how many times you couldn't tell the difference between morning and night? Do you know that you actually had a shadow on the white powder? When you just woke up, the attending doctor gave you a booster I took a similar new medicine, I mixed it with water and fed it to you, you swallowed it and spit it out, and you lied to me that it was because the taste of the medicine was so disgusting."

His tone became more severe: "Are they really not worth mentioning, or is any of them too shameful for you to tell? Answer me."

Xiao Chining didn't say a word, and after a long time, he turned his face away and said, "You smell like stinky socks when you speak, hurry up and wash up."

Xiao Zhaoshan's expression did not change, he still stared at him almost harshly: "Xiao Chining, this trick is useless."

Xiao Chining turned to look back at him, and smiled mockingly: "Is that enough? You've exhausted all the good things, what else can I say?"

Xiao Zhaoshan replied, "Tell me what you think."

"I didn't think about anything." Xiao Chining broke away from his hand and said impatiently, "I never said that I completely forgot about the unsatisfactory past and the abuse I received in those eight days. It's fucking useless, it doesn't turn back time, it doesn't make us live a better life, so I don't want to hate, is that wrong?"

Xiao Zhaoshan shook his head: "Not wanting to hate does not mean that there is no hatred. It is impossible to coexist peacefully with hatred. You don't need to suppress yourself. It won't eat me in one bite, but it can slowly swallow you, so you have to express it."

Xiao Chining said stubbornly: "I can't stab you again, you can think whatever you want."

Xiao Zhaoshan knew that today's conversation was destined to be fruitless, so in order to avoid getting twice the result with half the effort and self-defeating, he quietly withdrew his aggressive manner.

He stuffed Xiao Chining's hand into the warm blanket, and said softly, "Okay, then let's go on a trip in two days."

The topic changed too abruptly, Xiao Chining couldn't keep up with his rhythm for a while: "What?"

Xiao Zhaoshan looked up at him: "Xiao Chining, let's go out and play. Haven't you traveled a lot before? Is there any place you want to go recently?"

Xiao Chining always felt that there was something deceitful in it: "Didn't you blame me just now, why did you suddenly talk about traveling?"

Xiao Zhaoshan said with a smile: "The rehabilitation course is over, and the gallery has already found a new home. I am now an unemployed vagrant who is about to have tens of millions of RMB in my account. How can it be considered sudden to go on a vacation?"

Xiao Chining's eyes widened in shock: "You sold the gallery?!"

Xiao Zhaoshan raised his hand and gave him a headache: "Didn't I tell you earlier? Why are you so surprised?"

"Aren't you busy with public relations and checking accounts a while ago? How can you say that you just let go of the pick? Are you sick?!" Xiao Chining was successfully diverted.

The tense atmosphere was like a passing cloud, and both father and son tacitly turned the night over.

Xiao Zhaoshan put on his clothes and said indifferently: "Middle-aged crisis, can you get something for nothing? Hurry up and tell me where you want to go. I'm going to book air tickets and hotels."

"It's a shame you're still an adult." Xiao Chining sighed, "Go anywhere, as long as it's warmer."

Xiao Zhaoshan thought for a while, and suggested: "How about Guangzhou? The food is also light, which is quite suitable for us two disabled people."

Xiao Chining leaned against the head of the bed, and said straight to the point: "Why not Sichuan? If you can't eat spicy food, just say so."

"I've been to the Yunnan-Guichuan area too many times before." Xiao Zhaoshan said, "It has nothing to do with whether you can eat spicy food or not."

"It's okay, Guangzhou is pretty good, go shit." Xiao Chining spoke in a very unauthentic Cantonese with a very authentic tone.

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't know that this line was a classic TVB line that was widely circulated among young people, so he answered his call in Cantonese very seriously.Xiao Chining watched his lips open and close, and felt the profound generation gap between the two generations from the bottom of his heart.

"What did you say?"

"I said, why go to Guangzhou if you want to eat shit. There are two big packs of traditional Chinese medicine in the refrigerator. You can drink it as you like."

Xiao Chining choked speechlessly: "... Forget it, pretend I didn't say anything."

"By the way." He recalled suddenly, "Have you stayed in Guangdong? You can speak Cantonese."

Xiao Zhaoshan buttoned up his home clothes: "Are you sure you want to ask this question?"

The more he said this, the more curious Xiao Chining became: "Dare to show off, dare not let people ask, what's wrong."

Xiao Zhaoshan answered bluntly: "I learned from Chi Yan. She was the first grader in the French department at the time, and she has a bit of language talent. When I was young, I was idle and bored, so I asked her to teach me."

Xiao Chining was too lazy to imagine the specific process of Chi Yan's "teaching" Xiao Zhaoshan, and even less lazy to distinguish whether the "boring" in Xiao Zhaoshan's mouth refers to the love between male and female friends or the boringness similar to him. Said: "Shit, Xiao Zhaoshan."

Xiao Zhaoshan thought it was funny: "Be reasonable, it's what you insisted on asking."

Xiao Chining said forcefully: "You seduced me to ask."

"Well, it's my fault. I deserve too much story for you to have the desire to ask|question."

"It's good to know. I don't want to hear this person's name. If you have to mention her in the future, you will always use 'that woman' instead."

Xiao Zhaoshan complied with his childish request, and turned to seriously discuss the itinerary with him: "We are an unemployed vagrant and a teenager out of school. The most important thing we need is time. Why don't we go to the south and stay for a month or so before coming back. Just in time for Yue Zezhang's trial. Fujian and Hainan are also good, there are quite a lot of scenic spots, you can go around. You don't have a Hong Kong and Macau Pass, otherwise I can take you to Hong Kong and Macau for a few days."

"I just want to stay in Guangzhou." Xiao Chining clarified the reason with a one-word motto, "Tired."