why are they still in love

Xiao Zhaoshan lost his father when he was seven years old.That day, his mother took him by the tram to Xidan Department Store to buy New Year’s goods. When passing by a Cantonese restaurant, a young woman and a young child looked through the window and saw her husband and father at the dining table with a strange woman. Bian Qing Qing me me.

This was Xiao Zhaoshan's last impression of "Father".

In the evening of that day, he moved from Chaoyang District to Fengtai District. On the trams everywhere, his mother patiently taught him what "derailment" is.

When Xiao Zhaoshan became an adult, he once believed that this experience made him a DINK.

Although Chi Yan later regretted it.

Occasional kindness is a common problem among women, and its essence is greed. Xiao Zhaoshan thinks it's no big deal, everyone is greedy.His lover doesn't need to be a saint with few feelings and few desires, just like his mother.Many times he felt that this woman who immediately separated from her husband after discovering her cheating was too indifferent.Not because she is not kind, but because she is always kind.

"It's better for everyone." - her catchphrase.

Since Xiao Zhaoshan was young, he also believed that it would be beneficial for him not to have a father.He is one of "everyone".

Whether his absence is beneficial to Xiao Chining has never been in his consideration, except for sending money to his mother-in-law at the end of each month, most of the time he can't think of such a person at all.

However, forgetting does not mean loathing. Although Xiao Chining's birth was an accident, Xiao Zhaoshan did not resist it.He loves Chi Yan, and is even very grateful that Chi Yan has not become a woman like his mother.

At the age of 24, he held a crumpled red child in his arms, and he didn't feel like he had become a father.Of course he knows what a qualified father should do. He has studied, gone to college, made friends, experienced ethics, and learned the rules of society. He just doesn't want to do it.

Why do you want to pour love and take responsibility for a pure stranger, a pending product who doesn't know what kind of personality development, hobbies and careers he will enter in the future?Is it because of Chi Yan's kindness on a whim?

He will not change anyone, he will not adapt to anyone, he only makes choices, chooses friends and partners who share the same interests as him, instead of shaping a crumpled red animal into what he wants.This is not in line with his usual philosophy.

Since Chi Yan is eager to succeed in his career and decides to let Xiao Chining leave, then he is also happy to continue to be himself.

Let Xiao Chining grow as he pleases, no matter what kind of person he grows into, whether it is a saint or a criminal, it is Xiao Chining's own business and has nothing to do with him.

Bloodline, however, is a miracle.

He unknowingly copied the behavior of the man he hadn't seen since the age of seven, and Xiao Chining also became as passionate and ruthless as he was in his absence.He was inexplicably extremely unhappy about it.

dad.

It was the first time Xiao Chining called him that, and it was at this moment that he suddenly realized that he couldn't stay out of it completely.

Xiao Zhaoshan let go of his hand suddenly, regained his indifference, straightened up and looked down at him: "If you want to continue to stay in this house, don't interfere in my life."

Xiao Chining touched the fresh fingerprints on his neck, and said with a smile: "Hasn't my existence interfered with you? You're going to kill me."

"You just have to be quiet."

"Am I not quiet enough?"

Xiao Zhaoshan stood at the end of the bed, straightening his shirt with a dignified expression: "Forcibly broke into my studio, slept with someone, and protested against me."

"You're trying to understand me, and that's the biggest noise."

Seeing that Xiao Zhaoshan was not fooled, Xiao Chining felt bored, and turned back to look for his pajamas: "The summer vacation is so long and boring, and I only know you and Chi Yan in Beijing." He grabbed the pajamas in his hand, turned his head Come on, with an innocent expression on his eyebrows, "Dad take pity on me, let me find something to do."

Xiao Zhaoshan saw the hickey, a scar, and a tattoo gathered on his right shoulder blade.

Just forboring, just for fun.

He was inexplicably reminded of a waste draft he drew a few years ago, "A Woman Sitting in a Daze by the Window".And the reason why this painting is invalid is because he still can't grasp the protagonist's eyes well. If it's too much, it's almost stupid, if it's too little, it's too indifferent.

"It has nothing to do with me." He looked at Xiao Chining's button-buttoning fingers and said, "As long as you leave the house, you can do whatever you want."

"The only thing I want to do is seduce my mother."

In just 5 minutes, too many firsts happened. The first time Xiao Chining called Xiao Zhaoshan's father, and the first time he called Chi Yan's mother. This feeling was not as bad as he imagined.Instead, he's kind of addicted.

Xiao Zhaoshan knew that Xiao Chining was reminding himself in this way: he should regret and be ashamed, and he owed him something.

But he didn't have a single bit of regret or guilt, so naturally he couldn't say he was in debt.

"I told you, it's up to you."

"Oh." Xiao Chining suddenly remembered something, raised his chin and pointed in the direction of the dining room, "Chen Yu is an intern at your gallery, right?"

Xiao Zhaoshan frowned.

"It seems so." Xiao Chining got up from the bed after putting on his pajamas, put it in front of him, and smiled, "Then can I go to your gallery for an internship?"

He raised his head, touched the leather shoes that Xiao Zhaoshan hadn't had time to change with his bare toes, and asked softly, "Just like him, huh? Teacher Xiao?"