why are they still in love

Xiao Zhaoshan pinched his watch and asked Xiao Chining to continue skateboarding for 10 minutes, and then announced that he was sleepy and wanted to go back to the hotel to sleep.

Xiao Chining's physical strength was not good, and he was too tired after bouncing and skating for a while, so he stepped on the skateboard and hugged it under his arm, sweating and ran to Xiao Zhaoshan, expressing that he would go to the hotel with his father.

Xiao Zhaoshan was softened by his gaze, he rubbed his hair and told him to wait a while: "I'll go buy a pack of cigarettes first, so as not to fall asleep while driving."

Xiao Chining volunteered: "I'm skating, I know where the nearest convenience store is, and I'll be back soon."

"Bring me a pack of Su cigarettes and a lighter." Xiao Zhaoshan said.

Xiao Chining nodded, and then spread his left hand towards him.

Xiao Zhaoshan looked at his palm, then raised his eyes to look at his suggestive eyes, finally took his hand, and asked with a smile: "Didn't you say you're going by yourself, and you want me to hold you?"

Xiao Chining laughed out loud: "I'm asking for money, I'm penniless, Dad."

Xiao Zhaoshan withdrew his hand stiffly: "Oh, fine, I'll forward you on WeChat."

Xiao Chining was still giggling.

"Hurry up." Xiao Zhaoshan urged slightly annoyed, "It's already 02:30."

"Yeah, got it, let's go now." Xiao Chining stood on tiptoe, and quickly kissed him on the cheek, "Daddy wait for me."

He turned around and put down the skateboard again, kicked his foot on the ground and accelerated towards the school.

Standing on the edge of the square, Xiao Zhaoshan looked at his slender ankles and Zaifeng's back from a distance, and after a while, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up.

It turns out that there is only one person in the eyes who feels this way, he thought.

The father and son who tacitly unlocked a new life experience tonight were in a happy mood. Even though Xiao Zhaoshan returned to the car and received a call from Chi Yan just after transferring money to Xiao Chining, his relaxation was not affected in the slightest.

"What else is there?" He looked at the direction Xiao Chining left and asked Chi Yan.

Chi Yan's voice was indifferent: "I've already contacted the lawyer, when are you free?"

Xiao Zhaoshan was not surprised, and said after a little recollection: "I don't have time recently, you can sign the divorce agreement and send it to the gallery."

Chi Yan found it ridiculous: "You asked for a divorce, but you asked me to prepare for these things."

"You have a civil lawyer on call 24 hours a day, but I don't." Xiao Zhaoshan finally saw Xiao Chining at the end of the road.

"Because I don't want to be that kind of bitter woman who begs you not to leave." Chi Yan said.

Xiao Zhaoshan unlocked the car ahead of time: "You are destined not to be that kind of woman, you are very similar to my mother in this respect."

Chi Yan sarcastically said: "In terms of cheating, you are also very similar to your father."

Xiao Zhaoshan said disgustedly: "He doesn't love anyone. I'm different."

"Is there a difference between loving everyone and not loving anyone?" Chi Yan said coldly, "Xiao Zhaoshan, don't pretend to be a good person with affection and righteousness, you are not qualified."

Xiao Chining was getting closer, Xiao Zhaoshan didn't want to entangle with her anymore: "It doesn't matter if I have the right or not, it's up to the person I love to say."

Chi Yan's pride does not allow her to be compared to a person who does not know her name, face and family background: "It's only what he says? He doesn't have the ability to distinguish right from wrong, otherwise he won't be willing to degenerate and shamelessly step into other people's families My mistress!"

Xiao Zhaoshan told her: "Chi Yan, since the day we fell in love, we have never been the kind of lovers and couples who pursue loyalty, and now there is no need for it."

Chi Yan forcefully said: "I only loved you once."

"Me too." Xiao Zhaoshan paused, "I thought I was too."

Chi Yan was furious: "Xiao Zhaoshan! Why do you humiliate me again and again?! Why do you!"

Xiao Chining got into the car panting with the skateboard on, his forehead and the tip of his nose covered in fine sweat.Xiao Zhaoshan glanced at it, leaned over to open the drawer of the co-pilot, pulled out a piece of toilet paper and handed it to him.

"I didn't want to humiliate you. You have been hypocritical for too long and can't accept the truth."

Xiao Chining wiped the sweat off his face and asked him who it was so late with his mouth.Xiao Zhaoshan didn't answer, but expressed with his eyes that you will know after listening.

Chi Yan on the other end of the phone took a deep breath for a while, and then said after a while: "Can I be more hypocritical than you? While taking all the credit for raising the child on myself, I wish I could send him away as soon as possible. Sweet talk, while promoting your bullshit love here, I really let you say all kinds of good things."

The carriage was closed enough for Xiao Chining to hear Chi Yan's voice clearly. Xiao Zhaoshan glanced at him subconsciously, and then found that he had withdrawn his gaze, lowered his eyes and folded and folded the toilet paper wiped off sweat in the palm of his hand.

"Well, I'm hypocritical. Are you satisfied with this?" He was eager to conclude, "I'm going to rest, and we'll talk about the division of property another day."

"What about Xiao Chining?" Chi Yan asked, "Who will take care of him? He's not yet an adult, let him go out to beg for food?"

Xiao Zhaoshan frowned: "Of course it's me. I don't think you are qualified to raise him."

Chi Yan smiled: "That's not what you said when you were arguing with me at home just now. Don't you don't want a child? Don't you think he is cumbersome and delays your painting? Why do you pretend to be a child now? The appearance of the deputy loving father is here?"

For the first time in his life, Xiao Zhaoshan felt guilty.He wanted to observe Xiao Chining's reaction, but Xiao Chining turned his face out of the window the moment he turned his head, leaving only the back of his head with no emotion.

Chi Yan saw through his silence: "Are you guilty?"

Xiao Zhaoshan looked back to the front, and repeated with a sullen face: "I said, I will raise him."

After emphasizing this sentence, he hung up the phone directly.

The car was completely quiet.

"Xiao Chining."

"dad."

The two spoke at the same time and stopped at the same time.

"I'm here, tell me." Xiao Zhaoshan started the car and drove to the other side of the city.

Xiao Chining still looked at the night scene outside the window.

"I can not be your child, just be your lover." He said this, his voice sounded a bit dull.

Xiao Zhaoshan uttered three words loudly: "Impossible."

Xiao Chining's voice became even lower: "Then what can I do so that I won't become your burden?"

Xiao Zhaoshan replied: "No matter what, you will not become my burden."

"Really?" Xiao Chining asked lightly.

The car was speeding smoothly on the street late at night, Xiao Zhaoshan was steering the steering wheel, and suddenly said in a wrong way: "I have been working on drafts in the gallery for the past five days, and I am not angry with you. I will discuss property division with Chi Yan soon I can live with you without waiting for the divorce agreement to take effect. You can move out anytime. It is better to buy a new house in Xicheng District. It is more convenient for you to go to school and I to work, but this matter will not be easy until the property is divided .I like simple and bright decoration, and I am used to sleeping on harder mattresses and pillows. You can buy whatever shower gel you like, and I don’t care.”

Xiao Chining was finally willing to turn his head to look at him.

So Xiao Zhaoshan continued: "As for going to jail, it was something that happened before you were born. It's very complicated. I'll tell you about it when I have a chance."

Xiao Chining covered his hands on the steering wheel and shook his head: "It's okay, I don't have to know."

Xiao Zhaoshan laughed at him: "It does matter, in case you don't want to be my child after listening to it, you don't want to recognize me as a father."

Xiao Chining withdrew his hand, and said indifferently: "What's wrong with being in prison, I was detained before, don't let anyone of us dislike anyone."

Xiao Zhaoshan stopped the car in front of the red light and looked at him with great interest: "Do you believe it now?"

"What do you believe?" Xiao Chining asked.

Xiao Zhaoshan pinched his face: "Do you have to tell me?"

Xiao Chining blinked innocently.

Xiao Zhaoshan warned: "You're going too far."

"Keeping an inch?" Xiao Chining's face was full of incomprehension, "I really don't know what Dad you want me to believe."

Xiao Zhaoshan leaned over and pinched his shoulders, and said softly: "You're so fucked up, you know, you'll be honest after lying on the bed and crying."

Xiao Chining looked horrified: "I'm not yet an adult, dad, what are you talking about!"

Xiao Zhaoshan was amused by his reaction, and said in a dragged voice, "I'm talking, I'm going to fuck|death you."

Xiao Chining covered his ass and hid back, his eyes drooping and delicately said: "Don't tell me what you want me to believe so I won't give you a fuck."

When the green light came on, Xiao Zhaoshan straightened up and stepped on the accelerator again, looked at the road ahead and said, "You have to believe that before you are my child, you are an independent person first, and you are definitely not a burden to anyone."

"I have never interfered with your hobbies, I have never made choices for you, and I have never restricted you to live the life I want you to live like Hu Yingxue's parents." He solemnly said, "Xiao Chining, what do you want? Understand, it's not that I chose you, you have to become my ideal appearance, but because you have grown into my ideal appearance, that's why I chose you."

"Understood?" He took the time to look at the co-pilot, but the expected appearance of Xiao Chining listening carefully did not appear.

"What are you doing?" he asked.

Xiao Chining had already unbuttoned his jeans, and was eagerly pulling down the waistband of his jeans: "Dad, can't you see, I can't wait to get fucked."

Cayenne swayed to the right lane, Xiao Zhaoshan quickly turned the steering wheel and stopped him sharply: "Put it on for me!"

Xiao Chining was very horny: "I haven't tried a car|shock yet, come dad."

Xiao Zhaoshan had a headache: "Did you listen to what I just said?"

"I not only listened to it, but also listened hard." Xiao Chining took off his pants, raised his leg and rubbed his knee, and said urgently, "Dad, you look so handsome when you enlighten me. He looks even more handsome when he guides me while driving."

"Xiao Chining!" Xiao Zhaoshan grabbed his ankles to prevent him from doing anything wrong, "Do you know how many electronic eyes there are on this street, and how dangerous it is?!"

Xiao Chining said indifferently: "Then you pull over and stop, let's have an in-depth exchange on this issue in the car, and then go back to the hotel to continue the exchange."

Xiao Zhaoshan also lived from the age of seventeen or eighteen, but he had never seen such a restless high school student as Xiao Chining, and asked in a moment of anger, "You were drugged?!"

"It's boring." Xiao Chining finally withdrew his legs and sighed, "I don't even want to take it off and send it to the door."

Just at the next red light intersection, Xiao Zhaoshan stepped on the emergency brake, immediately unfastened his seat belt aggressively, stretched out his hand to pinch his chin, and kissed him so hard that he couldn't speak, and would just nest in the corner of the seat and the car door Howled.

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't let him go until the car passing by thoughtfully honked the horn to remind them that they could leave, and then returned to the steering wheel to put on his seat belt, and accelerated towards the hotel.

Xiao Chining leaned on the neck pillow with flushed cheeks and panted: "Dad, why do you have such a good lung capacity?"

Xiao Zhaoshan stared at the road, and asked solemnly: "Is there still trouble?"

"Stop making trouble. You know I'm happy." Xiao Chining leisurely put on his pants and sighed, "Kissing under the electronic eyes is so exciting. Dad, I want it again next time."

Xiao Zhaoshan had nothing to say, wishing he could bite him.

No, I just wish I could swallow him whole.

I didn't even see the cigarettes I bought, and I relied on Xiao Chining to refresh myself all the way. Xiao Zhaoshan only remembered this when he saw a box of matches in the hotel room.

He knocked on the bathroom door and asked Xiao Chining who was taking a bath for a cigarette.Xiao Chining said that the cigarettes were in the bag of his jeans, so he went to the dressing table again, picked up his pants from the chair and looked for cigarettes.

Good guy, he didn't find out the Su cigarettes he usually smokes, but turned out a pack of Marlboro that Xiao Chining usually smokes.

Xiao Zhaoshan threw the cigarette on the table, took off his clothes and went into the bathroom without further ado, pressed Xiao Chining, who was covered in bubbles, against the wall and beat him up.

Xiao Chining raised his head and begged for mercy loudly, covering his red buttocks: "Father! Stop beating me, I'm going to be hard again!"

Xiao Zhaoshan was completely convinced: "Why didn't you molest yourself to death?"

Xiao Chining looked back at him with red eyes, and tentatively said, "Does that mean I'm not coquettish enough?"

Xiao Zhaoshan pressed his shoulders, and took a firm bite on his watery face before he relieved a little: "Did I treat you too well recently and be so arrogant?"

Xiao Chining turned under him with difficulty, hugged him and rubbed against him: "Father, smoke some young people's cigarettes, maybe you can also become younger."

Xiao Zhaoshan squinted his eyes: "Think I'm old?"

"No, no." Xiao Chining said mysteriously, "Actually, I want to smoke, but the money you gave me is not enough to buy two packs, so... ah!"

Xiao Zhaoshan twisted his nipples skillfully, and said with a half-smile: "I can't tell, this minor is still a smoker."

"I haven't smoked for a long time, almost half a month." Xiao Chining defended himself.

Xiao Zhaoshan put his arms around him and said, "I haven't smoked for a long time, more than ten hours."

"...you are the smoker."

"In the end, you bought a pack of Marlboro for the old smoker."

Xiao Chining said disdainfully: "Look down on Marlboro? When you were out of cigarettes in the mountains, you condescended to smoke mine."

Xiao Zhaoshan stared at the teeth marks on his face: "Talk back to me?"

Xiao Chining said righteously: "I am helping you correct the stereotype."

Xiao Zhaoshan lowered his head and rubbed the two teeth marks with the tip of his nose, his voice couldn't be softer: "It's not a stereotype, it's a generation gap."

"I see, you don't even want to learn to skateboard." Xiao Chining felt itchy and pushed his shoulder.

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't get enough of his son, so he stood up reluctantly: "Well, so guess how long you'll get tired of being with me."

Xiao Chining was taken aback for a moment: "Father..."

Xiao Zhaoshan was indifferent, passed him and turned on the shower, and stood under the warm water: "Come here. With your current physique, a cold is enough for you."

Xiao Chining stayed by the wall for a while before walking over, silently washing off the foam on his body.

The two of them didn't bring their pajamas, so they had to change into the bathrobes provided by the hotel after taking a shower.Xiao Zhaoshan didn't plan to smoke tonight, so he brushed his teeth with Xiao Chining.

The toothpaste was mint green tea, and it smelled very fresh. When Xiao Chining kissed him good night, he got a feeling of not distinguishing between each other.

"Dad, there is a question I have been curious about for a long time."

When the blackout curtains were drawn and the lights were turned off, the room was completely dark. Xiao Chining lay in Xiao Zhaoshan's arms, raised his head and asked him, "Which brand of perfume do you use, and why does the fragrance last so long? I still have it."

Xiao Zhaoshan was so tired that he closed his eyes and said drowsily, "What fragrance?"

Xiao Chining sniffed his neck fascinatedly: "Sandalwood scent."

Xiao Zhaoshan tightened his arms, put his chin on the top of his head, and said lazily, "It's incense, not perfume."

Xiao Chining also wanted to hug his waist tightly, but was afraid that he would be uncomfortable when he slept, so he had to change a way to express intimacy.

He patted Xiao Zhaoshan's back lightly, and asked, "Incense?"

Xiao Zhaoshan smiled at his actions like coaxing a child.Xiao Chining, who was dependent on him, felt the tremor in his chest, as if he was also laughing along with him.

"My mother—that's your grandma, has this habit." Xiao Zhaoshan intermittently described the past, "No matter what time, as long as there is someone in our house, there will always be a burning sandalwood in the incense burner. Wash the clothes and hang them in the air. After drying, she will take it to our small study room to smoke for an hour, and then fold it up and put it in the closet. Over time, I seem to be infected with this smell myself."

Xiao Chining has never met his grandma, but based on this passage alone, he can easily imagine an old lady with a delicate life and strict self-demand.

"Are you incense now? I haven't seen it before."

Xiao Zhaoshan told himself that he was falling asleep, and he couldn't even organize his words smoothly: "Too busy, occasionally. Besides, there is such a sachet now, put one in the closet."

Xiao Chining didn't continue to speak, Ren Xiao Zhaoshan gradually fell asleep.He himself didn't know whether he had slept too much in the past few days, or he had the phrase "how long will it take to get tired" in his mind, making it difficult to fall asleep for a while.

He looked at Xiao Zhaoshan's peaceful sleeping face with eyes adapted to the darkness, felt his steady and soothing breathing with his slightly cool cheeks, and carefully traced his handsome facial features with his index finger hanging in the air.

He felt that this scene was so happy, but also felt that this scene was so cruel.

At the same time, he clearly understands that what is cruel is definitely not the ordinaryness at this moment, but the blood relationship and love that are more ordinary than this moment and can be seen everywhere.

He loves Xiao Zhaoshan, very much, very much, so much that he sheds tears quietly in the dark night that no one knows about, and he will not get tired of loving until the day he dies.

But he would rather Xiao Zhaoshan never believe it.