[Comprehensive Hong Kong] Dream back to TVB

Su Jianyi often feels that Sam doesn't look like a young man at all.He doesn't seem to have the vigor, flashiness, passion, and impulsiveness of a young man. Although he is very young, he seems to be more mature than her old lady.

"Didn't you copy your homework when you were young?"

"No."

"Cats (cheating) in the exam?"

"No."

"Late for class?"

"No."

"Skipping class?"

"I did when I was sick."

What kind of skipping is that.

"Ever had a crush on a girl?"

Sam's big bright eyes glanced at her.

Oh, wrong gender.

"Where's the boy?"

Sam shook his head.

Su Jianyi almost knelt down and wrote "worship" for him.

"Not to mention the game hall? You must have never been there."

"I've been there."

Two words popped out of nowhere in a cello-like deep voice.

Su Jian widened her eyes.

"Then?"

"After that, I spent money and bought a few game coins."

"And after that?"

"After that... After watching it for a while, I went home."

"Where are those game coins?"

"Throw it in the trash can."

Sam answered naturally.

Su Jian was almost hit by his panting.

"You... you are not normal at all, do you know that? You should go out and play, do what a boy like you should do... that is, oops, you are mad at me."

She didn't know why she was suddenly angry, but she was very angry seeing his "as it should be" behavior.

"I usually play volleyball and football with my friends at the same time. We all play normally. What's wrong? Everyone is like this."

Sam obviously didn't understand what Su Jianyi meant.

Su Jianyi gritted her teeth.

"Can't you be a little bit worse?!"

Seeing her baring her teeth and claws in anger, Sam smiled.

As usual, comfort her.

"I've been bad before."

"Really?"

Su Jianyi didn't quite believe it.

"Really. I did some things, those things..."

The smile on Sam's cheek changed, becoming very faint.It was still the sincere and unaffected face, but there was a hint of confusion in the eyes.

he said softly.

"Very bad."

-

Su Jianyi once said that Deng Weitong will definitely have a second move.As a result, just a few days after the peaceful life in the store, the legendary "second trick" came.She also did not expect that Deng Weitong's second move was ks.

"Kana, Sister Cindy said that she finally found me a role in the company's drama. If you don't agree, the company won't be able to find a merchant who is willing to cooperate. If they can't find a merchant, they may directly kill this If you don't play, then I will lose this opportunity."

Seeing ks, who was originally designed by evil and crazy characters, turn into a somewhat girly teenager chasing star dreams, the employees in the store were so scared that their eyes were out of their sockets.

As soon as Su Jian was pulled by ks's sleeves, she really had a headache and couldn't stop it.

"How did you know about this?"

"Sister Cindy told me that your 'Fun Accord' was advertised this year, and the reputation is very good. The company is very optimistic about this cooperation, but the cooperation has not been negotiated now, and all projects are confidential."

Su Jian said with all her heart, you will know everything, and it's the same as if you didn't do this secret work.

"Don't you have any other play to do?"

"Sister Cindy said that this year the company doesn't have any dramas suitable for my type, and there are also small roles, not necessarily more than two episodes."

"It's impossible for the whole of HK to be just one of our antique shops, right? You can just find one to get sponsors, right?"

While rejecting him, Su Jian complained silently in her heart, saying "Sister Cindy", and she didn't see him calling her sister when she asked her for help.

But they have always met as peers since they met.

In the bar, kana hooks up with women, ks hooks up with men.

The two are friends like dogs, like dogs of a feather.

At this time, the dog friend wandered around beside the fox friend, begging all over his face, and clasped his hands together, so he almost worshiped this female fox as a fairy.

"You know I came back from abroad, and I don't know any antique dealers at all. A set of plays is not important to the company at all, but it is very important to me afavor, please!"

Seems like it's really important.

Su Jianyi asked him curiously, aren't you a singer?Isn't it important for singers to sing?Why do you have to join in the fun and act in a TV series?

ks told her that even if singing is very important, it is impossible to sing every day.And normally, there are at most two albums a year.In the rest of the time, in order to maintain exposure, there must be other activities.

The way to maintain exposure is to act in TV dramas?Su Jian asked.

ks nodded.

Then why don't you act in a movie?Su Jian asked again.

KS looked at her and said, I'm just a newcomer, I don't act in movies so soon.

But next year or the year after, you will definitely see my movie.

Before the words fell, he added another sentence with confidence.

"Aren't you afraid that this drama will hit the street?"

Su Jianyi poured cold water on him.

"No, I will definitely succeed, I will definitely become a superstar (superstar), just like my idol James Dean."

Su Jian didn't know who James Dean was. The only thing she knew was that it seemed difficult for her to let this young man who was obsessed with dreams change his determination.

But unfortunately...

"Sorry, I can't help you."

She still turned him down.

-

With his head down, ks left the antique shop disheartened.His attire is very young and fashionable in this day and age, and his appearance is very attractive. Many boys and girls are peeking at him, but he has no mood for them.In any case, he still couldn't figure out why kana refused to help him.

A TV series can improve the reputation of the antique shop and increase the turnover. What kana has to do is only to lend out antiques, not many expensive antiques.If there are valuable items, the company will return the insurance, and the damage can be settled.

What a wonderful thing, come from win&win.

When he got into the car, he turned his head, and Kana was in the shop, elegantly dressed, with her hair tied up, watching him from a distance.It was a little far away, and he couldn't see the look on her face clearly.

Mr. Xiao Deng opened the car window and waved to Kana.

ks got short and got into the car on the other side.

In fact, Su Jianyi wasn't watching KS or Deng Weitong, she was watching something else.For example, the car that ks got into with the door open.This car is very familiar, and this license plate is also very familiar.She seemed to have seen it somewhere.

Where have you seen it?

This feeling of deja vu.

A few years ago, when kana was a rebellious girl, there was a sudden family change.His parents passed away overnight, leaving him alone in the world.

It was raining, and Kana held the wine bottle and swayed around on catwalks.

The night is dark, the wind is high, and the rain is heavy. If you don't look at the traffic lights, you will get hit by a car.

Because it looked slow on rainy days, it didn't hit hard, or it could be said that it was just a small scratch.However, the people in the car came down to clean up the mess.

Kana cried while hugging someone, whom she called Dad.

Dad, I miss you and Mom.

Dad, I'm sorry for you.

Dad, I was wrong, I will definitely listen to you in the future.

Dad, don't leave me, I'm afraid.

……

Kana always thought it was a dream. In the dream, her father, who had always been unsmiling, patted her gently on the back. That was something she had never experienced before, and she was looking forward to and wanting to get it.

As soon as Su Jian rubbed her temples, she seemed to understand why Deng Weitong pursued her so hard.

It was Kana who jumped on it by herself, crying and yelling to hug him.

Years later, retribution came.

-

As soon as Su Jian dialed KS's cell phone from the office phone, the phone was connected very efficiently within two rings.

"kana? Why did you call me?"

ks was clearly amazed.

"Before I answer your question, you answer my question first."

"what is the problem?"

"If a person helps you fulfill your dream, shouldn't you try to get along with him as much as possible, and even try to repay him?"

"Of course. Not only to repay, but no matter how long it takes, he will never forget this kindness."

Su Jian sighed.

"I promise you to cooperate."

"Really?"

"If you ask again, it will be false."

"I don't ask, I don't ask, thank you, Kana, after I become a superstar, I will definitely repay you well!"

Ks originally thought so.

Su Jianyi wanted to laugh a little, but she didn't explain this beautiful misunderstanding.

After hanging up the phone, her gaze involuntarily fell on the photo frame next to the phone.

The photo frame is metal, about the thickness of a finger, very old style, and tasteless at all.

Su Jianyi hadn't paid much attention to this photo frame before.

But she just noticed it today.

There is a photo in the photo frame, there are three people in the photo, kana is in the middle, ks and sam are on the left and right.The three seemed very happy, ks and kana showed their white teeth, sam was still smiling with his lips pursed.Inexplicably, it makes people feel young and young, and friendship will last forever.

She rejected ks, more than half because of herself, and less because of sam.

ks grew up abroad, and his consumption concept is the same as that of many Americans. Spend the money first, and then talk about it if you don’t pay it back.In addition, he wanted to be a celebrity, so the clothes he bought were not cheap, and he was financially stretched, but he was still spending money lavishly.

He himself doesn't take it seriously, and kana naturally can't interfere with other people's lives.

But Sam is different. He grew up in a traditional family. It is almost unimaginable for him not to pay back the debt, so he does not have a credit card and never uses it.

When the two were not familiar, Kana discovered that Sam always gave money to KS so that he could return the money to the bank every month.

KS's eye-catching clothes cost tens of thousands of dollars. An ordinary person can buy one and wear it for three years, and he can buy three in a week. Sam, a newly graduated clerk, where did he get so much money?

Sam never said, and KS, the heartless one, never asked, but Kana more or less guessed.

A young and beautiful body is Sam's greatest capital.

Sam is different from Amon, his family is very healthy, he knows what he is doing.Still, he did those things and took the money for ks.

Sam said he had done many bad things.

Su Jianyi didn't think it was a bad thing, nor did she think it was a wrong thing.It's just a tragedy, a tragedy caused by the loss of age, the lack of concept, too much desire, so longing to spare everything.

But after the fall, Sam didn't become happy either.He changed his name from Ah Hui to Sam, was it to welcome a new life?Still want to forget the past?

Stretching out her index finger, she clicked on the young man with red lips and white teeth in the photo, and Su Jianyi muttered something.

"Sorry."

-

After work, Su Jianyi didn't rush to Sam's house right away. At this time, Sam hadn't got off work yet, so she went there just to chat with her godmother.

In fact, she wanted to find someone to talk to, but it seemed that no one could listen.

The street is full of traffic and voices, the lively people are still very lively, and the lonely people are still very lonely.Su Jianyi carried her purse and wandered in this era that did not belong to her.

Advertisements are plastered on the walls along the street, not small advertisements for infertility treatment, but serious advertisements, real estate, food, home furnishing, photo studio...

Very quaint advertisement, the largest font size is the name, then the address, and finally the main business scope.It had been many years since she had seen such an ad that was as straightforward as "Come on, guest officer".In other words, she has never seen it since she became conscious.

But in Kana's memories, it's all commonplace.

She still remembers that the ad that impressed Kana the most was when she was young, a wedding photography ad, in which there was a rare portrait of a slender beauty wearing a veil, wearing an old wedding dress, with her head bowed , looks quiet and gentle.

Most is the gentleness of the bowed head, like the shyness of a water lotus invincible to the cool breeze.

Memories are an interesting thing.When we start to recall the past, you will find that your own thoughts were innocent and innocent, funny and cute.

Before Su Jianyi crossed over, she once thought that she didn't want to get married, and that she could live a good life alone.Then, she married Yang Yisheng and gave birth to a daughter.

In her previous life, her daughter also said that she didn't want to get married, and she even went to freeze her eggs with great enthusiasm, which showed that even if no one gets married in the future, she can still have a baby of her own.

As a result, the dead girl married a doctor and gave birth to a lively and fat boy.

Kana wanted to get married at first, not because of anything else, but because she thought the advertiser's bride was beautiful and seemed very happy.

Following her, she became a lesbian, with different bed partners every day.

Will people follow their original wishes?

Obviously not.

"Hey, it's you again?"

As Su Jian was walking, she ran into Ah Qing.It seems that he has fought with someone. His right cheek is a bit swollen, as if only one side was hit with hyaluronic acid, and the apple muscle is full of "apple feeling".

"Yes."

"You and yours, Mr. Deng (Mr.) or Mr. (Mr. Dong)'s. How are you two doing?"

"I promised to cooperate with him, but I intend to confess some things to him."

"What is it?"

Ah Qing just asked casually.

"I want to talk to him..."

Su Jianyi bent her lips and smiled mischievously and mysteriously.

"I'm all gay."

Ah Qing was dumbfounded.jpg.

"Are you serious?"

"Why don't I look like that?"

Su Jian asked with a smile.

Ah Qing sized her up and down. The sizing up at this time was not as boring as the first time they met. There was a little more curiosity, but it was full of kindness.

"Then you are not a fellow?"

"Yes!"

Su Jian's tone was short and cute even though she was old. Anyway, does anyone know how old she is? A woman is always a young girl.

Ah Qing rubbed her chin, looking like this.

"No wonder you want my help."

"how about you?"

"What am I?"

Su Jian pointed to her right cheek.

Ah Qing smiled at the uninjured part on the other side.

"Then, isn't every guest here as gentle, beautiful and generous as you are?"

Su Jian remembered the phone he picked up when he first met Ah Qing.

"Have you...haven't thought about changing your career?"

She asked a little cautiously.

"Why do you want to change your career?"

Ah Qing's expression was indifferent.

He glanced at Su Jian, and suddenly "puchi" amused.

"Do you think I was forced to come from a bleak life?"

Su Jian's face was written: Isn't it?

"Come on, it's the 90s now, not the 30s, are you selling meat to bury your father? Sigh...you're pretty funny."

Ah Qing laughed loudly, and accidentally pulled the wound on her face.

Seeing a man with a "Chen Haonan" hairstyle and a kaleidoscope-like floral shirt, scolding her for being old-fashioned, Su Jianyi felt very strange.

Life is so long.

"But you always have to find a decent job."

She still finds it hard to believe that some people like to be ducks by nature, and this hobby is a bit too special.

"What is a serious job?" Ah Qing asked her: "Office clerk? Every nine to five, hard work is not enough to earn a few thousand dollars?"

"You can't be a duck all your life, can you?"

Ah Qing is very young now, so he can show off and speak freely.What about his old age?When the eight-pack abs are gone and the collagen on the face is gone, it is also difficult to find a [-]-to-[-] job.

"I used to be a clerk, and now I can do it again if I want to. But I don't want to, so you don't have to worry about it. Everyone does something willingly, and there is no persecution. If there is, those who persecute others, There will be a price to pay.”

"and also……"

"You don't need to feel sorry for me, no one in this world is more pitiful than anyone else."

Ah Qing spoke so eloquently that Su Jianyi was almost choked up by him.

Of course, only almost.

"actually……"

"what?"

"What I want to ask is, do you want to come to me to do odd jobs?"

"what?"

"Isn't your face injured? The business is not doing well. I'm going to cooperate with a TV series recently, and I just need an assistant. I don't have anything else to do, but it's trivial, running errands and the like. I am worried that your education is not enough, if you say that you have been a clerk, then there is no problem."

This time it was Ah Qing's turn to be speechless.

"How did you remember to choose me?"

"Because you are easier to buy, just give money."

Su Jianyi's words were simple and direct.

"...My appearance fee is very expensive."

"We're all acquaintances, so it's cheaper."

I'm so familiar, it's only the second time we meet, okay?

-

The cooperation is ready, and the filming of the TV series will start soon.In addition to being the boss who sponsors antiques, Su Jianyi is also a specially invited professional. She can give opinions on script revisions and actors' performances.Although she doesn't have much contact with the TV industry, she always feels that her power seems a bit too much.

Therefore, except for common-sense mistakes, she generally does not comment.She didn't study acting. An amateur guides an expert, so it's easy to make a bad movie.Although this era is the golden age of hk film and television, good movies and bad movies can be sold.But for the betterment of the antique business, she still hopes to shoot classic ones.

Deng Weitong also always came here, not doing anything, just wandering around.

Su Jianyi is a technical director, so it's not strange to stay on the set. Deng Weitong is a small boss, and he comes around when he has nothing to do, which makes people feel very strange.

Su Jianyi often hears gossip between sets.

"What is Mr. Xiao (Mr. Deng) doing again? He has been here three times today."

"I don't know. Have you fallen in love with an actress? Do you think it is sister xx or sister xy?"

"I've heard it doesn't seem to be either, it's kind of like the other one."

"'Another'? Oh...it's her, no wonder why she came here to pretend to be a boss without any skills."

"Yeah, 'I think there's something wrong here', ha, who does she think she is, the boss who pays?"

"The boss' daughter..."

As soon as Su Jian heard these familiar words, she realized one thing, any place and any workplace is a Shura field, the difference is only in the open and in the dark.

To paraphrase a vulgar saying: where there are people, there are rivers and lakes.

People are floating in the rivers and lakes, how can they not be knifed.

Su Jian, who was full of knives, complained silently.

Thinking of this, the culprit who caused her to be stabbed walked towards her.

"Kana, why aren't you inside? You ran outside alone."

Can I say that because of you, the knee is about to be pierced?Su Jian flicked the cigarette ash.

"Come out for a cigarette."

Deng Weitong smiled, quite a weird smile.

"I thought you stopped smoking after you got to know your sam."

When did you start smoking? kana would have smoked.But Su Jianyi herself has never smoked.

However, on an unknown day, she had a dream in the middle of the night.

She dreamed that she was going up the stairs.

The stairs are very high, and she who is a little afraid of heights feels quite scared when she looks down.

But the feet are going up automatically and consciously.

Climb and climb.

Climb and climb.

I kept climbing as if I couldn't see the top.

Suddenly, a wrong foot.

She fell.

The whole person "clicked".

Then the scene in the dream changed.

She is standing on a river bridge.

There are two rows of rails on the river bridge, and the middle of the rails is covered with stones.

She looked down from a distance, and the bridge was very high.With a kick, the stone fell without causing any splashes, and the river was immediately calm.

She walked to the other side on the river bridge, walking slowly along the railroad tracks.

Then, she fell down again.

It's not clear how she fell from the river bridge full of iron fences, but when she was conscious, she found herself falling rapidly.

Then, she stood on a cliff.

Very high cliffs.

……

She fell countless times that night, but couldn't wake up.

But when she woke up, she found that her face was cool, and there were tears on her face.Looking around, there was no one, she was the only one in the entire thousand-foot mansion.

From that day on, she continued kana's habit and developed a hobby of smoking.

The smoke is not fierce, but occasionally one or two will come.

"Smoking if you want, what's good before and after."

Su Jianyi's tone was very indifferent.

"Haven't you noticed?"

"Perceived what?"

"Who is ks?"

"I know who he is."

"Then do you know, that Sam is the same person as him. He just changed his name and job, and he's just lying to you."

As soon as Su Jian wanted to laugh, she really laughed.

"He didn't lie to me."

Deng Weitong frowned, he realized the meaning of Su Jian's words.

"So you're lying to me?"

"I didn't lie to you either."

"What do you mean?"

When Su Jian saw him, Deng Weitong was actually a good match, but she didn't like him.And obviously, Deng Weitong can't even tell who is who between her and Kana, so why talk about feelings?What's more, he didn't find out about kana for so long. Does this person really like kana as much as he does?

"You don't really like that Sam, do you?"

"Of course not, I'm just his brother..."

Before Su Jian finished speaking, she continued to speak a few more words.

"Because I am one with him."

Deng Weitong couldn't believe it. He opened his mouth and found it difficult to ask the next question.

"I am the same person as ks and sam."

She didn't need to ask any more, she had already given an affirmative answer.

After finishing speaking, Su Jian snuffed out the cigarette butt, threw the remaining cigarettes into the trash can, and walked slowly and elegantly into the studio.

Deng Weitong stood where he was, looking at that graceful figure, he was still the same person, still the same kind of style, leisurely and leisurely, but it seemed that the person watching had lost the original mood.

A simple conversation, all plans and expectations were easily destroyed.

Unconsciously, he also took out a cigarette from his pocket, pulled out one, and lit it.The sparks flickered, and the smell of tobacco entered the nostrils, making people's eyes burn.

-

As soon as Su Jian returned to the studio, Ah Qing jumped in front of her from nowhere. She still dressed in a "fashionable" style, but she didn't use so much hairspray on her head, and it looked much more fluffy and natural.

Ah Qing handed her a document.

"This is the sales statistics for this month that Ms. Tian asked me to hand over to you."

"Miss Tian? I don't even see you calling me Miss Su."

Su Jianyi always seems to be struggling with addressing.

"Then you are the boss, isn't it more high-end to call you the boss directly than a 'Miss'?"

Ah Qing is still very good at making people happy, this is a professional skill.

Su Jian smiled brightly, took it over, opened it and flipped through it.

She herself is an expert as a secretary assistant, so she can naturally tell the good from the bad. There are a few more items in this statistic, but it is much more organized and clear at a glance.The things Tian Yan gave her before did not have such advantages.

The only difference between last month and this month is that there is one more Ah Qing in the store.He said that he had really worked as an office clerk, and it seemed that he was not bragging.

"Well done." Su Jianyi cherished talents very much, and asked with a smile, "Would you like to come to my side to do more work? I will add labor for you."

Ah Qing shook her head, pointed to the place where she had been wounded, and now it has returned to a smooth state.

"My injury has healed a long time ago, and I won't do it after a month."

That means returning to his poultry career.

Su Jian was a little bit sorry, but not particularly sorry, people have their own ambitions, and a cow can't press its head if it doesn't eat grass.

"After you earn enough money, what are you going to do?"

"Open a sporting goods store."

Ah Qing talked about his great ambition.

"Good luck then."

"Thank you."

Ah Qing bowed her hands and bowed to her like an ancient person.

Su Jian smiled.

She remembered that Ivan once said: Once, it was the most vicious curse in the world.

I used to have, I used to be happy, I used to be rich, I used to be healthy... It sounds like what I used to have, now and never will be again.

But for some people, it is "the sea was too difficult for water, except Wushan is not a cloud".He can have it, but refuses to have it.He can be happy, but refuses to be happy.

One of the biggest things ivan taught her is never to reject good things.Whether you have had it, have it now, or will have it, happiness is happiness, as long as you meet it, why not accept it?If you cling to the bitterness of the past, life will only become more difficult.

Su Jianyi didn't know what Ah Qing had gone through, but she very much hoped that he would be able to let go one day sooner or later.Life is your choice, isn't it?

-

After Ah Qing left, Su Jian continued to stay solemnly on the set like Lafayette, braving everyone's eyes on her as the boss' daughter.

The work in the studio seemed to be non-stop, Su Jian saw that KS was tired several times before going to sleep, and the props were ready for the next scene, so she woke him up and continued acting.

Suddenly I feel a little sympathetic to all entertainers.

It's not easy to do anything.

After a while, I heard gossip about the small boss, Mr. Xiao Deng. I heard that he just left. Could it be that someone has fallen out of favor?

Who knows, maybe I will remember it someday, so don't worry about it.

Well, I agree.

I also agree, Su Jian thought wholeheartedly, what are you doing quietly, how nice, is there a world of friendship and peace?

In the evening, I went to my godmother's house for dinner as usual, and Su Jianyi chatted with my godmother.

"It turns out that TV dramas are not filmed episode by episode in sequence, but according to the scene. One scene can shoot many scenes."

"is it?"

"Yeah, I saw Miss xx who played the second female lead, wow, so sharp, the last scene was a funny scene, and the next scene was a crying scene, within less than ten seconds, the tears came as soon as they were said. "

"Really? It was reported in the newspaper that she got plastic surgery, is it true or not?"

"Of course it's fake. She was slapped in the face in a scene, and her face was swollen. If it was plastic surgery, she would not have dared to shoot like this."

"That's right. By the way, you are on the set every day. Is the store busy?"

"Not busy, I recently recruited a new assistant, a temporary worker, but he can do things well."

"Really? What's your name?"

"It's Ah Qing."

"Cough cough cough cough..."

Su Jian patted the back of the man beside him.

"Are you OK?"

"That's right, you're such a big man, you can even choke on food?"

Sam's father scolded him.

Sam coughed for a while, pounded his chest, and slowly eased the itchiness in his throat.

"Cough, it's okay, I just accidentally choked."

As soon as Su Jian looked at him strangely, Sam's face turned red from coughing, and there was a smear of color on his fair and handsome face, which looked extremely beautiful and delicious.

But he had never been so frizzy before.

It seems that something is wrong, but I can't tell what is wrong.

After dinner, Sam did not send her home for the first time, but went up to the rooftop alone.Su Jianyi also followed up cheekily.

When she was standing on the top of the building, she realized that it wasn't that there were no tall buildings, it was just that compared to HK in her previous life, there were fewer tall buildings.

Sam didn't speak, but leaned on the wall of the roof with his elbows propped up. The wall was not high, just reaching around a person's chest and waist.

Su Jianyi lay beside him and looked at him sideways.The profile of the young man is perfect, with clear outlines. When he looks at you, his clear eyes seem to be looking at you and the world again, sincere, kind, seductive, and sexy.She remembered the evaluation of later generations, if a straight man had to choose someone to bend himself, that person would definitely be Wu Yanzu.

"You really have nothing to say to me?"

Su Jian asked.

Sam lowered his head halfway, and maintained this posture for a while. He just looked downstairs like that, as if the downstairs was not an asphalt road, not a high-rise building, but flowers of different colors.

"Before I met ks, I met a boy."

He opened his mouth and said.

"It's Ah Qing?"

Sam looked up, then turned around.He looked at Su Jianyi, and Su Jianyi also looked at him.

"More than that..."

Sam's tone trembled a little, as if he hesitated in what he said, he had never said what he wanted to say to anyone.

"I thought Ah Qing was my favorite, but it doesn't seem to be the case. I left Ah Qing and stayed with ks. Am I a bad person?"