Rebirth of Buddhism

Fu Zhiyu doesn't know how Xie Ke looks at this relationship with each other now. Anyway, as far as he is concerned, it has completely passed. When he was just reborn, he was still a little bit unwilling because of the past. Not only from emotion, but also from the indelible self-doubt in the heart.

—Is there nothing worthy of recognition in me?Why do I give all my heart, but the person I love always abandons it like a shoe?

Not to mention other things, his career, his friends, and his family are all failures. All things are intertwined, which makes Fu Zhiyu's self-doubt become stronger and stronger, even if it is resolved in the system space. part of it, but the deepest wounds are still there, deeply rooted.

Even after rebirth, Xie Ke behaved very abnormally, it was difficult to make up for the feeling of self-denial in Fu Zhiyu's heart, so he never believed for a moment that Xie Ke was sincere.

No matter what Xie Ke did, he couldn't open Fu Zhiyu's heart, because that heart was tightly closed, and no one could touch the deepest part.

Later, the two of them treated each other frankly and shared everything. Not only did the truth come to light, but also the unwillingness in Fu Zhiyu's heart finally disappeared.

It turned out that there was a reason for all of this, and there was also a so-called secret. It was not my problem, nor his fault.

The self-doubt in Fu Zhiyu's heart finally disappeared when all the truth came out, as if it was another rebirth.

Things like feelings are affected by many things. When Xie Ke asked him in tears why they couldn't be together when they were clearly in love, Fu Zhiyu was also very calm.

He calmly accepted the fact that the fate of the two missed each other. In Fu Zhiyu's view, his arrow should be able to get Xie Ke out of this world. At that time, the two people will no longer have any intersection in various senses, and he will also I feel like this is the end of the matter.

Xie Ke gave him an arrow, and he returned it, clearing it up. As for other innumerable things, it is meaningless to settle who owes whom at this time. Fu Zhiyu felt that he had calculated in this breath It's over, the matter between the two is over.

At that time, he felt that he and Xie Ke would never meet again.

But the reality is not always what Fu Zhiyu wanted. When Xie Ke gave Jiangnan to him, the relationship between the two became even more unclear, as if a new line was drawn in the relationship.

Moreover, the imperial decree had already been drawn up at that time, and the golden words could not be changed. When Fu Zhiyu received the news, there was no room for change. Xie Ke has nothing to do with it.

But Xie Ke obviously didn't want to do this, Fu Zhiyu stared at the person in front of him and let out a long sigh.

"I didn't do this for anything in return." Xie Ke looked at Fu Zhiyu's face, and couldn't figure out what he was thinking, and continued to explain anxiously, "I...I'm going back to the capital now, Zhiyu, you Just pretend this never happened, okay? You can go on and do what you want, and I won't interfere."

"You're just deceiving yourself and others again." Fu Zhiyu glanced at him, "Did Zhang Lin also be arranged by you?"

"He's not," Xie Ke shook his head, "Zhang Lin is just a small character, I don't have any impression of him, and I don't even know that he will appear here after the plot changes. It's true, I don't need to lie to you at this time this."

Speaking of this, Xie Ke suddenly remembered something, and he reminded Fu Zhiyu: "Speaking of characters... the plot has changed, Deng Jinghe is out of control, you must be careful of him."

In the original plot, the Yuan family had already been strangled by the prince. Deng Jinghe began to reap the business left by the Yuan family in the south of the Yangtze River. Even at that time, he had already started to connect with Xie Ke. Without communication, Deng Qian can no longer control him. Even if he doesn't want to, the business of the Deng family will be handed over to him.

But now that the Yuan family has not collapsed and the market is limited, Deng Jinghe can only find another way.

"I told people to keep an eye on Deng Qian, after all, it wasn't to the point of asking him to lose his life," Xie Ke said, "When Qian Manguan decided to save him, I found out that Deng Jinghe was doing something secretly, trying to make a fuss about the medicine. A bowl of life-saving medicine becomes a murderous poison."

If there is something wrong with the bowl of medicine, things will be even more troublesome.

Both Qian Manguan and him couldn't tell. If Deng Qian really died, the whole situation would not be as peaceful as before.

It was not that Fu Zhiyu hadn't thought of this before. He asked Yuan Jiangxing's soldiers to watch over it. Moreover, Imperial Physician Chen was watching over the acupuncture, and the imported medicine would be checked by Imperial Physician Chen. He was not unprepared.

"Deng Jinghe changed the spoon for feeding the medicine," Xie Ke said, "Most people don't care about this detail, but luckily my people discovered it."

When he said this, Fu Zhiyu was a little scared, but he immediately realized: "Did you break Deng Jinghe's hand?"

"It's just to teach him a lesson," Xie Ke said, "He has always been like this, and he will do whatever it takes to achieve his goals. If he doesn't teach him a lesson, he will dare in the future."

"For him, don't you miss the old love?"

Xie Ke was taken aback for a moment, he knew that Fu Zhiyu was talking about the plot in the original book.

"He is not a good person. We were just using each other," Xie Ke said honestly. "Times have changed, and I have no different feelings for the current Deng Jinghe."

Hearing this, Fu Zhiyu was silent for a while, and said, "Have you ever thought that Deng Jinghe and I are actually the same?"

"How could it be the same?" Xie Ke subconsciously retorted, "You and him..."

Fu Zhiyu waved his hand and said: "You don't need to rush to object, Xie Ke, you also know that times have changed, and I am not who I was then. Everything you do now is actually to make up for your regrets. This regret is endless. About me, it’s just you. Maybe you have some love for me in your heart, but you didn’t realize it at the time, and these regrets will be infinitely magnified in the accumulation of time, but if you calm down, you will find that none of this is actually true. Meaning. When you look into your own heart, you know what I'm saying is right."

Just like the self-denials in his heart before, these self-denials made him not believe that Xie Ke was sincere, and also made him want to fight and do nothing. Except for a little care and contact with family and friends, the rest was left to his own devices self-destruct.

The revelation of the truth is just a booster, which only brings Fu Zhiyu back to the starting point, but what makes him rekindle the flames are those dreams that he has not achieved, all the dreams that he has never forgotten that were aroused by the current situation in Jiangnan.

Everything from the outside world is a help. The most important thing is that Fu Zhiyu has recognized himself. Only when he sees his own heart clearly can he really know what he wants.

"What about you? Have you seen your heart clearly?" Fu Zhiyu then asked him, "Do you love me, or do you regret it? You used to have smooth sailing in the mission world, and you saw accidents in me, and you also miss the one who was desperate for me. Your Fu Zhiyu, but I will never go back."

Xie Ke patiently listened to Fu Zhiyu's words, and didn't think as Fu Zhiyu thought. He just smiled and looked at the serious Fu Zhiyu sitting on the bed with gentle eyes. He stretched out his hand as if wanting to touch He, however, quickly took it back.

He didn't answer directly, but instead asked a question: "Zhiyu, when you were in the Dimension of the Lord God, did you know how to live?"

There is no clock in the main god space, and it is impossible to calculate the time. Fu Zhiyu can only think that it should be around a hundred years based on his reading speed and other self-perceptions, but he has no way to be sure. As time goes on, his self-perception will not be so accurate. There may be large errors.

"The time in the Lord God's space is the standard time, but when we are in the mission world, the time will be magnified, and the scales are different," Xie Ke explained, "We have been in the mission time for decades, and even have some special time. In the world of missions, you need to stay for a thousand years, but in the system space, only a few days have passed.

Zhiyu, in order to restart this world, I don’t know how many worlds I’ve traveled and how much time I’ve gone through. If it’s just a momentary fever, I can’t hold on for so long. I know exactly what I want. I’m thinking of you. Only then can we persevere. "

He paused when he said this, some nostalgia appeared in his eyes.

"You are right when you say regret, Zhiyu, you are indeed my regret," Xie Ke said, "but it's not what you imagined. I miss the freshness brought by the accident or the symbolic one that was good to me. 'Fu Zhiyu', no.

Zhiyu, there is no shortage of surprises in my life, and there is no shortage of people who treat me well. I am the person with the highest authority among the actors, and there are many people who want to flatter me.But after so long, after watching so much, Zhiyu, I still love you very much. "

In order to be closer to Fu Zhiyu at this time, he half-kneeled beside his bed, as if he had returned from the Qianyuan battlefield at that time, so deeply in love that he couldn't help stretching out his hands to smooth the few strands of Fu Zhiyu hanging down his cheeks Messy hair.

Against the backdrop of the moonlight outside the window, Fu Zhiyu's face was as white as a piece of jade.

"It's ironic that in my last life, after you left this world, I realized that I love you so much," Xie Ke said softly, "I read your political comments and counted all the things you left behind. I love this outstanding Fu Zhiyu who is different from others, not because it is fresh for a while, and it is not because you treat me wholeheartedly, but because you are worthy of love, and you attract me to love you.

Zhiyu, I'm not sorry that I didn't get you. Maybe I had this idea at the beginning, and when I first came back, I took a detour because of this idea, but now I don't force it.I'm just regretting not finding out sooner that I love you so much, and regretting not hurting you like that.

I love you, and I don't ask you to come back to me. As long as you live a good life, I will... get what I want. "

At the end of Xie Ke's speech, he couldn't help reaching out to hug him, but he let go soon.

"I'm sorry, I let you see me in the end," Xie Ke said, "I will leave. Zhiyu, you should be more careful here."