Beauty Is Filling Xu Sibai's Colleague: So This Is Love

Bai Jinxi, I could have rejected her more decisively, but I didn't.

I said I didn't love her, but I kept giving her chances.

With me like this, I can't afford the good person she said at all.

Those words, those things, I will eventually tell her.

Another winter, we walked side by side on the school's boulevard.

"Si Bai, do you know what day it is?" She put her right hand into my coat pocket, held my hand and said.

How can I forget that one year ago today, we met on the snowy street.

"Remember." I reached out and patted the snowflakes that fell on her.

"Then you must not know, that day was Chuxue." She caught a few snowflakes with her left hand and said with a smile: "It is said that men and women who meet in Chuxue and succeed in confession will grow old together forever."

To grow old together, this is a dream I never dared to dream, I let go of her hand and said: "You can believe this kind of words to coax children."

She turned to face me, saw that I was cold, and said a little lonely: "But for those who are willing to believe, their desire to be with them until they grow old is true."

She said: "I used to think that you didn't love me, but I can feel more and more that you are kind to me."

She said: "Xu Si Bai, you are not some kind of playboy, you have indulged yourself too much."

She said, "You fool who doesn't know how good you are, what are you worrying about?"

Every word she uttered, every tear in her eye told me she was in pain.

I don't want her to cry.

Raising my hand to wipe her tears, I said, "Jin Xi, I'm not as good as you think."

"Good or bad, I have the final say." She sobbed and said, "Xu Si Bai, if you don't tell me anything, how will you know what I think?"

I know we've reached a dead end.

She should know the truth.

It's just that some things are not said now.I'm afraid that there will be no chance in the future.

"I love you, Bai Jinxi." I kissed her on the forehead and hugged her tightly.

"I love you too, Si Bai." Her voice was a little hoarse after crying just now, but it made me feel that it was the most beautiful voice in the world.

She put her arms around me, so beautiful.

"There is something you don't know." I let go of her, my heart throbbing with pain. "If, after hearing this, you still love me, I will never let go."

She seemed to be still immersed in the joy just now, and looked at me with wide eyes and doubts.

I was cruel, and I closed my eyes and said, "It was my father who killed your uncle. And I was a criminal." Every word in my mouth was like a knife, leaving flesh and blood on each other's hearts. Vague wound.

I can only watch as Bai Jinxi's eyes become more and more dull, she just keeps retreating further and further back.She was so desolate, as if she had been abandoned by the whole world.

That way she did not shed a tear, just laughed.

Tears ran across my face.Saddened to death, I let her taste the most heart-wrenching pain.

Snow, like catkins, like reed flowers, like dandelions, like blown pear petals, scattered in the air with the wind.

We met on a snowy night, and we ended up on a snowy night.

She squatted in a corner, only a few steps away from me, so close yet so far away.I wanted to pat the snow on her head, hug her, and say sorry to her, but I couldn't move half a step.

She said: "Xu Si Bai, I hate you."

"Don't let me see you again," she said.

What am I expecting?When a heinous criminal falls in love with a kind girl, it is destined to be a relationship that ends without a disease.

Isn't this ending what I expected?

Am I not used to being rejected and abandoned?

Why, would I expect her to be different?

I heard people say that when you want to cry, just look up and the tears will not fall.But, why, no matter how much I look up, it still keeps pouring out.

She was sick, she asked for leave, and I could only stand behind her and watch her leave school with her parents.

I thought it was God's mercy for me to return to my first life and meet Bai Jinxi.But I don't want to, this may also be a punishment for me.

The members are getting more and more used to the lives of ordinary people, and my original wish has been fulfilled.From now on, it's just a matter of living day after day.

Another Spring Festival, those guys didn't come, but she came.

My dead heart seemed to be alive again.

Looking at her standing outside the door with tears streaming down her face, her heart was both sad and happy.

"Aren't you going to invite me in?" she said, wiping the corners of her eyes.

I let her in, handed her the blanket, and she said thank you.

Thank you, I can still hear her say this to me.

Sitting on both sides of the sofa, they were silent for a long time.

Don't ask her, don't open your mouth, just afraid that she will leave.

"You could have lied to me forever. Why not?" she finally said.

Because I love her, I don't want to bully her.Because I love her, I want her to accept her completely.

It's just that, doesn't she think it's too brazen.

"During this time, I studied criminal psychology and met your companions. Those six people said a lot of things I didn't know. I just realized that those things are also your wounds." She seemed to be talking to me Said, and seemed to be talking to himself, "You will only show me if you believe in me."

She said: "Your father is your father, you are you. I don't care anymore, don't care about your past, don't care if you are perverted or not."

She said: "The scariest thing in this world is not a few mentally ill people, but the desires of most normal people. It's just that the perverts have lost the ability to hide their desires, and ordinary people can hide them."

She said: "Xu Si Bai, are you willing to regain the ability to hide desires for me?"

"Yes." My voice trembled unconsciously, I hugged her, and couldn't say anything else.

I will never meet another person who justifies me, feels sorry for me, and sheds tears for me.

I once spent half my life loving someone. For that person, I forgot my name and past, my partners and beliefs.I paid for my companion's life for this, but I only ended up dead physically and mentally.

Back to the original point, I thought I could only face a boring life day after day, but unexpectedly, there is still one person in this world who is willing to compromise for me and accept my unbearable past.

"Bai Jinxi, I love you." After she left, I regretted how little I loved her.

"What did you say?" She raised her head, with wet tears still on her face.

"I love you." Kissing the tear stains on her face, I looked at her face and said.

"Who do you love?" She obviously wanted to laugh but held back, this girl heard everything and asked me on purpose.

"Bai Jinxi." I thought, I will tell her more about this in the future.

............

"Dang--", the New Year's bell rang.

I thought, I'll never make her cry again.

Hold your hand and grow old together.

I only wish in this life, I love Jinxi.

The author has something to say: The scumbag author has been thinking about how to let Jinxi know the truth, and finally decided to let Si Bai confess. Although this will make the plot more flat, I still have the following three considerations: First, in the original work, if Si Bai Bai did not confess, Su Mian's father's death can only be an unsolved case that cannot be proven; second, Jin Xi is a simple girl, not that smart, it is too unrealistic for her to find out the truth; third, Si Bai himself Frankly, it is also a proof of his feelings for Jin Xi.Finally, this chapter contains a lot of information. Jin Xi's words showed why she tolerated Si Bai. Sure enough, in the end, I was still reluctant to abuse Si Bai, not even a single chapter.There will be the last bag of dog food tomorrow, everyone eat and cherish it.

In this chapter, the article quoted some words of Si Bai from the original novel, because the scumbag author was touched by these words when he first read it, but the scumbag author still changed it, and did not completely copy it.