[Gintama] Craftsman's Word

"stand up!"

A child under three years old fell to the ground, and the father next to him neither picked up the child distressedly, nor patiently guided the child to stand up by himself, but sternly scolded him.The sharp edges and corners of the gravel on the ground scratched the child's delicate skin. The child couldn't help crying, but was frightened by the harsh scolding, and fell silent for a while.

This is a valley far from the town, remote and uninhabited, the echoes full of anger go back and forth in the valley, and are finally swallowed by the valley.The child climbed up tremblingly, his legs were trembling and he was not yet able to stand still, when the father's palm came, and he slapped the child on the chest.The child flew upside down, like a rubber ball, rolling several times on the gravel ground before stopping.

"You can't hide from such a simple action, waste is not qualified to cry, there is only a dead end! Stand up and continue!"

The child's clothes were torn and torn, and he was in a state of embarrassment with many injuries on his body. The father's every move to attack the child did not show the slightest hesitation or water.Children are afraid of the blow that will come after climbing up, but they are also afraid of the consequences of not being able to get up in memory.The cruel training from learning to walk, the child does not understand anything, the only thing he can do is endure, until he loses consciousness.

The child does not know that after losing consciousness, facing the threat of death, the instinct flowing in the body will wake up and resist the external blow on its behalf.And the little beast that roared in a low voice to warn everyone is the one that father really likes to see.

In the first few training sessions, the child did not show talent for fighting, which made his father very disappointed.He himself has mediocre fighting power, and he doesn't see any room for improvement to become stronger, so he pins his hope of being "strong" on his own children.It is unknown whether a person who truly has the talent for fighting can show his talent as soon as he learns to walk, but the father hopes wholeheartedly, and the training of the child cannot be delayed for a day.

Although the child was beaten all over his body and fell into a coma every time, the father refused to give up. He held a glimmer of hope and intended to tap the potential in the child's bones.The child's repeated "failures" kept compressing the father's hopes, but the father firmly stuck to his position, advancing instead of retreating, and increasing the intensity of training step by step.For a father, it is not a pity to die in training if the child cannot burst into potential.

The cruel and merciless torture finally awakened the child's survival instinct.She appeared just to survive, just for the child to want to survive.She is not consciousness, not thought, not some kind of definite existence. With the relief of the crisis, she should have hibernated in every corner of the deep layer of the body again, guarding the last step before death for the child, but her appearance inevitably became The key to open Pandora's box.

The father's training of the child intensified, he gave up the child itself, and instead pinned his hopes on the "instinct" of showing amazing fighting ability.The father wants the child's "instinct" to rise to the surface. In order to train the child's "instinct", the father can't wait to kill the child at the beginning of each training session.

She is not consciousness, she cannot resist and she will not resist the moment of death to protect herself; she is not thought, she does not know how to think about the consequences of repeatedly rising from the deepest part of hiding to the most surface layer, when she wants to resist and start thinking, everything will come to an end. late.Like a diseased cell, although a single cell is insignificant, it can become an "independent individual" that hinders the mother's body after being replicated and strengthened once, twice... too many times.As a child's "instinct", after experiencing too many times and too frequent rising to the surface of consciousness, her existence is strengthened, extending meaning and thinking, she is separated from the child's inner self, and begins to perfect into an independent "personality" .

Just like the long evolution of her being stripped from the body of a child, it will also take a long process for her to completely shed another personality.For the time being, she is only a chaotic and superficial consciousness—even the child herself is still young and ignorant.

However, although she has no cognition of the outside world and no way of thinking that is sufficient to list and analyze, she was born out of instinct and understood before her body that her existence is definitely not beneficial to "herself".She suppresses and restrains herself from rising to the surface of consciousness. Even if the child's consciousness is lost and the body is dominated by her "instinct", she tries her best to seal off the beast part of the instinct, leaving the child blank.

She was born to protect herself, but she grows up to threaten herself.She restrained her growth, but she had to make herself grow.Until she has the ability to break the twisted chains, the child will not be able to escape this nightmare.

Su woke up in tears, and what greeted her eyes was the same tearful Mo Yue.Mo Yue let her pillow on her lap, like a gentle and loving mother, gently comforting her sleeping child.Su's eyes hurt, tears flowed into her hair along her temples, she raised her hand towards Mo Yue, and touched Mo Yue's face easily.Su's hand was cold, Mo Yue held Su's hand back, her hand was very warm.

"When I stretched out my hand to my mother like this, my mother always looked at me gently, but didn't respond once. You want to know that you can just look at it. Why do you want me to remember?"

"slave……"

After spying on Su's memory, Mo Yue has no position to defend at this time.

"I was beaten into a coma by my father, and when I woke up, my mother hugged me like this, asked me if it hurt, and then fed me the medicine spoon by spoon. The painful wound rotted, and I just thought I was useless, I couldn’t cope with my father’s training, and it was extremely difficult to recover from the injury. Am I ridiculous to realize that the bowls are poisonous?”

"No, you are not to blame for everything. You are just a child who doesn't understand anything, and those two people are not worthy to be your parents."

Mo Yue held Su's cold hand, wanting to convey her firmness to Su.

"Children? Yeah, except how to avoid beating a 5-year-old who doesn't know anything, killing parents, setting fire to mountains, destroying all traces of the past, and waking up with a blank slate. They want to create A strong person wants me to replace them to accomplish what they can't do. After all, no one deserves such a cold blood."

Su smiled lightly, with a stern look on his face.

"It's not you who did it."

"Isn't she me? I, who is so weak that I can't save myself and can only wait to be rescued, should disappear. She is the one who snatches the life away, and she is the one who has the ability to become the strong one, but the weak me keeps going from She took the power from there and used it for herself."

"You don't want to be horny, she can't replace you, she is always a part of you. She is a part of you that was separated and created in your own struggle to survive, a part that you closed off to protect yourself. She is far from a complete personality, those who What she thinks of as consciousness and thoughts actually still belong to you. She is an 'instinct', and everything she does is still a manifestation of your instinct, without surpassing it."

"So the person who kills the relatives is still me."

"you……"

Mo Yue was out of breath, and several white fluffy tails were protruding from under the hem of her clothes, scurrying around with bared teeth and claws.

"The father who only smiled when she appeared, the mother who gave me poison (==) with a smile, killed their own, these pasts have no memory value for the present me. Let me forget it ? Just like when I woke up next to the master, I was full of other beautiful fantasies about my parents."

Su no longer shed tears, closed her eyes and sank her breath.

"Don't run away!" Mo Yue stood up abruptly, and Su slipped from her lap to the floor. She grabbed Su's shoulders and tried to wake him up, "Don't run away anymore, cowardly running away is even more obvious to you." Lose to her, face it and get over it..."

Mo Yue's voice gradually weakened, it was useless, Su had already fallen into a deep sleep, and his consciousness was closed again.

Mo Yue pulled her tail angrily, making it hide under the hem of her clothes.This is the third time she has failed. Facing the sudden revelation of her past and her cruel parents, Su repeatedly chose to back down and forget it again.Even though her technique can reflect the lost memory to Su, the original memory is cut and sealed by "Instinct". If the "Original" cannot be regained, the consciousness of "Instinct" will interfere with it, how many times will you try again? As long as Su is determined to forget, the result will eventually fail.

The incomplete second personality split from instinct, what she wants is not a complete "self", she only believes that the body is herself.Su wants to forget her, so he floats up for a short time, and he doesn't even need to float up to the most surface layer to solve the problem.When Su said "Let me forget" and fell asleep, perhaps part of her consciousness was controlled, so she could be so sure about forgetting, but if that consciousness didn't show up, Mo Yue would have nothing to do with her.

Right now, before Mo Yue, there are only two extremely risky options: first, she personally casts a lethal spell on Su, forcing the instinctive "Su" to show up and give back her memory; When the man came in, he once woke up "Su" forcefully and offered him a chance, and he would never let it go.

The risk of the former is that Mo Yue's physical combat power is completely scum. If "Su" is really forced to show up, she may not be able to protect herself. Besides, she has to personally inflict a lethal spell on Su, which makes her heartbroken.The risk of the latter is that Shenwei's actions are out of control, and one mistake is to lure wolves into the house.

Mo Yue picks up Su and walks out of the room. The shady and dark valley, with gravel pavement, completely restores Su's living environment when he was a child.Walking out of the valley, the houses built of stone bricks are scattered high and low, and the mountains and brick walls are covered with moss. Looking around, you can see a blue-gray mountain city.Moyue's clogs tapped on the bluestone steps with a clear and sweet sound, echoing in this city that had been abandoned for a hundred years.

Moyue thought of the scene when she walked through the city thousands of years ago.The older foxes bowed and saluted her respectfully, while the younger foxes didn't have so many scruples. They surrounded her in groups, cheerfully like birds, and chirped and called her "Lord Mo Yue".They scrambled to talk about what they had done to be praised, and she had to praise them one by one.The tribe built a pavilion for her on the top of the mountain, and she lived in it happily. Every day when she opened the window, she could see foxes all over the mountain.

But her life was too long, and her old elders and friends left one by one. Before she died, they crawled in front of her, kissed her instep, and prayed for the longevity of Master Mo Yue and brought prosperity to the family.After several generations, she finally got tired of it, closed the pavilion and went out to travel, becoming a legend among the people of the clan. 200 years ago, foxes began to leave their hometown and move to the ground to integrate into the city.Before the last group of foxes left, they worshiped the legendary patron saint in front of the pavilion, and finally only Moyue and an isolated city remained.

Mo Yue returned to the top floor of her pavilion with Su in her arms. She opened the window and looked at the blue-gray city below.The original Luoyue was a natural fault zone hidden under the earth's crust. Her ancestors were born here, and their family created the prosperity of the entire Luoyue ground, so she wanted to end here.

Mo Yue made a decision to let Shenwei in.