After the years have passed

after many years

i still remember you

I just can't say my name anymore

The white curtains by the window were stained crimson by the slanting sunset.

I narrowed my eyes slightly, leaning against the head of the bed, with an old CD in my hand.

The watermark on it may have been touched too many times, and some of it melted away.

Can barely see clearly.

On the pure white bottom surface, in the eye-catching middle position, there is a huge hot air balloon that looks like seven colors of the rainbow.

And there are two English words written in the upper right corner.

"YOUNG FOREVER"

There are also four small, Korean-like characters below.

But it can't be seen clearly.

But even if one day, all the colors fade away, leaving only a blank.

I still know what those four Korean characters represent after they are translated.

That is only my years

But deeply embedded in your patterns

……

It seems that there is an inextricable connection in the dark

like those who approach you

It must be because there is a certain quality that cherishes you forever

September 2016, 9, cloudy

Sideshows are still performed on the streets of Hongdae.

I dangled a little aimlessly, but my heart was still very comfortable.

Get rid of those annoying daily routines, and don't have to look at certain people's faces anymore.

Knew it!I need to heal!

The boredom that lives in my heart should be moved occasionally, otherwise I really can't live.

In fact, the matter of travel is not very meaningful to me.

Isn't it just going from a place where you are tired of living to another place where others are tired of living?

What a difference.

As for me, I just came here to try my luck.

See if you can run into him by chance.

Although I have some experience with love, after all, at this age, it is not deep.

Not as heartbroken and determined as the book says.

So I still have a youthful heart.

This is my third day in Seoul.

Every day is to eat, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, eat, or come to Hongdae, go to the Han River, and stroll around Dongdaemun.

Although I know the address of his company, I'm not ready yet. If I really meet him, I can just take a photo with a smirk, or should I summon up the courage to talk to him?

Anyway, I don't know Korean, so he should understand a few simple Chinese, right?

Forget it, don't think about it, haven't seen this yet, wait until I really get lucky and meet it.

Today's street performers perform here as usual.

I still danced those few dance songs repeatedly, but at any rate, most of them were songs from BTS, so I was very excited to watch them.

"Ah ah ah~ look, is that over there Tian Zhengguo?"

"Where, where?"

"The one standing next to the tree over there..."

"Let's go...go and have a look"

Inexplicably, I was pushed by the girl next to me, and before I could react, I was bumped by another girl.

Ah hello!What's the situation, isn't it just seeing Tian Zhengguo, why bother!

Wait!Tanaka?

I searched for Tian Jungkook they were talking about through the dense crowd of heads.

Fortunately, I am not short, so I can see the other person's face.

It's him!

The smile on my face became more and more obvious involuntarily.

Now how to do?How to do?

right!Let's rush over first, I have to ask him where my Kim Taehyung is!

"Guoguo, Guoguo, look over here..."

A Chinese-speaking girl yelled at the top of my lungs next to me.

However, Guozi really looked up here.The girl next to her was driven even more crazy by that look.

I looked at the situation, and then at my small body.

After thinking about it, forget it, just watch from a distance.Fortunately, it wasn't Kim Taehyung, otherwise I would have fought to the end with these little girls.

Pushing aside the crowd, I walked back to the hotel with heavy steps.

Insert the room card, all of a sudden the room is bright.

Today is still rewarding, at least I really met one, but it is of no use.

But it's pretty good just looking at it from such a distance, Tian Zhengguo is really good-looking and good-looking.

After taking a refreshing shower, he walked out of the bathroom, turned on his phone and played music, while wiping the ends of his hair, he wondered whether he should go to BigHit tomorrow.

I tucked into the bed, maybe I was too tired, I fell asleep as soon as my head touched the pillow.

The next day, early in the morning, the sky was a little gray.

Shocked by the ghostly ringtone of his mobile phone alarm clock, he jumped up from the bed, washed his hands and walked towards BigHit company.

Please God bless!

Let me definitely meet him!

In fact, thinking about it, I was a little excited and nervous.

Wow... There are quite a few people squatting here. It's only after six o'clock, and the girls are really working hard.

I tidied up my makeup a bit and then joined them.

"Hi, hello"

I was patted on the shoulder twice, and when I looked up, a magnified baby face looked at me with a friendly smile.

"Hello" I responded with a smile.

"Let me just say you are a Chinese ARMY." The little girl was a little proud.

"You can see this? My little sister has good eyesight." I looked at her a little funny.

"Dear, are you very old?" The girl looked puzzled.

"Must be bigger than you"

"Then ~ Ernie, let's go together, it seems that there are local Korean ARMYs here, I feel a little lonely by myself"

The little girl moved closer to me after she finished speaking.

"Okay, by the way, what's your name?" I took her two steps to the side.

"My name is Xiang Lala, O'Neill, how about you?"

"Si Xiaosi"

"Is this surname among the hundred family surnames?"

"Then there are people with the surname Shi (shi) among the hundreds of surnames. What's so strange about that?"

"Oni is so funny" giggled to Lala.

We saw a drink shop next to it, so we went in, ordered a drink and sat down.

"Ernie, have you had breakfast yet?"

While asking Lala, he took out a hamburger from his backpack and handed it to me.

"I didn't eat it, but I don't like hamburgers, but thank you anyway"

I looked at the Western Roujiamo wrapped in paper with a bit of disgust.

"Ernie doesn't like it, forget it, I'll eat it myself"

Or being rejected by me, Xiang Lala gnawed sullenly.

I looked out at the street through the window, and my thoughts began to be a little confused.

Although I am old and not young, I shouldn't follow the example of a bunch of young people to chase after stars.

But, who told me to see Kim Taehyung, I fell in love with him.

Although he is much younger than me, but who said it can't be done, a third-year girl holding a golden brick can even go home with a golden house in my arms, so much money.

"Unnie, Ernie~"

"Ah?" I came back to look at Lala.

"What is Ernie thinking? So obsessed"

Xiang Lala took out a tissue and wiped her mouth.

"Missing my man"

"Who is Ernie Man?"

He blinked at Lala with a curious look on his face.

"You also know Kim Taehyung in the building opposite."

I poked the glass window and pointed to the opposite building.

"It turns out that O'Neill likes Taitai, but I like Tian Jungkook better."

Xiang Lala rested her chin on her hands and looked at the opposite building.

"What a coincidence, I just met your boyfriend last night"

As soon as the words came out, the little girl opposite immediately screamed.

"Really, really, really? Where? Where?"

Xiang Lala stomped her feet excitedly.

"Hush! Be quiet, you're not here anyway, why are you so anxious?"

I motioned her to keep her voice down.

"Does Ernie want to get an autograph? Do you have a group photo? Did you say anything? Is he particularly tall and good-looking?"

Xiang Lala asked a series of questions that made me feel a little dazed.

"No signature, no group photo, and no words"

I took a sip of the juice in my hand and replied flatly.

"Then what did you do?"

Xiang Lala looked at me with some dissed eyes.

"I didn't do anything, just watch"

"Oh…"

Xiang Lala lowered her head in disappointment.

"Otherwise? There are so many people on the street, crowding around him, wishing they could bury him. Do you think I have a chance?"

I also rolled my eyes back at her.

While we were talking, the girls squatting opposite suddenly started commotion.

"Did you see someone?"

Xiang Lala got up immediately, her whole face was deformed when she pressed against the glass window, her eyes were so wide open that they barely fell out.

"Why are you still sticking here, let's go, hurry up"

I pulled up to Lala and ran out.

But the moment I crossed the road, a sudden strange feeling hit my heart.

It’s this feeling again, it’s been happening since a month ago, what’s going on?

I always feel that there are pairs of eyes peeping at me in invisible corners.

I just stood in the middle of the road and let go of Xiang Lala's hand.

"Oni, what are you doing standing there? Come here quickly"

I stood face to face with Lala.

Through her shoulders, she suddenly saw a pair of cloudy eyes staring straight at herself.

Then both feet seemed to be nailed by something, and they couldn't move no matter what.

"Oni...dangerous..." came from Xiang Lala's voice.

A bright red car stopped only an inch away from me in an instant.

I mechanically turned my head.

When he saw the person sitting in the car, he suddenly fell limp and sat on the ground, crying out with a "wow".

"Unnie! Ernie, are you okay? O... Ni..."

As if I couldn't hear anything, I just kept crying loudly.

"Oni, don't cry, don't cry, it's okay, it's okay"

Xiang Lala patted my back up and down with her palm.

He raised his head and looked at her with tears in his eyes, "Am I not dead? Am I not dead? Am I still alive?"

"No, no, Ernie is still alive and well."

Xiang Lala breathed a sigh of relief, her little face turned pale with fright, and she tried to comfort me calmly.

Holding Xiang Lala's arm, he stood up and staggered to the opposite side.

And the car that almost hit me just drove away like nothing happened.

Xiang Lala and I sat on the steps along the street, looking forward as if we lost our souls.

"I just saw something I shouldn't have seen"

He opened his mouth in shock.

"what?"

Xiang Lala looked at me nervously.

"I was standing in the middle of the road just now, you waved to me, and when I looked at you, there were two eyes behind you staring at me, then I turned around and saw the person sitting in that car with the same A pair of eyes staring at me"

After finishing speaking, he cried again with a "wow".

"Oni, don't, don't scare me, I'm afraid..."

Xiang Lala was about to cry while talking.

I was in a happy mood at first, but after being disturbed by this, I lost all interest.

When we got back to the hotel, we were still in a state of depression.

"Unnie, I didn't expect that we lived in the same hotel"

Xiang Lala was sitting on the bed in my room, holding the remote control, and kept changing channels in front of the TV.

"Why don't we sleep together tonight"

I tugged at the corner of Lala's clothes.

"OK"

Xiang Lala readily agreed.

"Huh? Your pendant is so special, what's in it?"

I became interested in the pendant on Xiang Lala's neck. There seemed to be something red in a small glass bottle.

"Oh, this is a dolphin"

Xiang Lala touched subconsciously.

"Dolphin? Why is it red?"

I leaned over to look even more curiously.

"Yes, an old grandma gave it to me, isn't it pretty?"

Showing off to Lala.

"It's pretty~ By the way, thank you so much for today."

"Oni, don't be so polite, the ARMY family in the world. But, since you are thanking me, you should express something and treat me to something."

Pull up to Lala and I'm ready to go out.

"no problem"

I took out my room card, put it in my pocket, and set off for the gourmet area!