Inquisitor's Melancholy

Since it was Reixu's personal reason, it was hard for Uesugi Kenshin and the others to try to persuade him to stay.After all, Li Xian was just a guest they invited over, not a subordinate.

Watching the last rays of the setting sun disappear and the moon rise, Li Xian decided to wait until the rest was over before leaving Kasuga Mountain City the next morning.

He has received three letters from Yaken Toshiro, so Yaken Toshiro will return to him tomorrow, right?He is looking forward to Yaken Toshiro's growth.

But thinking of saying goodbye to Uesugi Kenshin and the others tomorrow, I always feel... a bit lonely?Even though I only stayed in Uesugi Army for three days, many interesting things happened.

Maybe it's because Reishen knew about them in relevant historical materials before, so although the time was short, Reishen and Uesugi Kenshin felt like they had known each other for a long time when they met for the first time.

Compared with the blunt and cold words in the books, standing in front of him is a real person.

Like the cherry blossoms blooming in April, it is gentle and warm.

Very nice, Li Xian likes this kind of beautiful flowers.

Just like the man who appeared in front of him at the beginning.

"My lord, what are you looking at?"

Jian Lixian had been standing by the window looking out, Mikazuki Zongjin also stood beside him, and there was a bright full moon in front of his eyes.The faint light sprinkled in the courtyard, which was less noisy than the daytime, and more clear than the night.

"It's beautiful, isn't it? Crescent Moon."

"This kind of moonlight always makes me feel peaceful in my heart. I used to be unable to see or touch anything, until the moonlight shone in front of me, until that warm hand stretched out to me."

Li Xian looked at Mingyue, with a little nostalgia in his eyes.Yes, if it wasn't for him, maybe he was still imprisoned there, or he might have died.

An irresistible darkness soaked his heart.

Li Xian raised his hand and grabbed his left chest fiercely.Have you ever seen darkness?The real darkness that you can't even see, your whole body hurts, you don't know if your hands, your feet are still there, you don't even know if you are still alive.

Unable to move.

That is fear, despair and darkness enough to swallow everything.

However, in that darkness, he saw a gentle light shining in from the damaged corner of the wall.Obviously because he stayed in the dark for too long, seeing the light should feel very dazzling, but he looked at the light greedily, fearing that it would disappear soon.

Struggling desperately to move forward, the pain of the wound grinding on the uneven ground disappeared after seeing the young man stretching out a hand towards him under the moonlight.

That was the first time he met him.

Beautiful moon, beautiful man.

"My lord, is it the one who made an agreement with you?"

Mikazuki Zongjin then asked.The lord rarely mentions his past, and he has no acquaintances in this world, but the lord made a promise that forced him to become a god judge.

Whether it was before or now, Mikazuki Zongjin didn't feel how happy Lixian's past was.Even in this peaceful era, there are still people who live in pain. If not, they are at the age of the lord, probably just graduated from college, and their parents are still alive.

Oh, by the way, the protagonist is the type that is very popular with women, although he himself is not very self-aware.

If he hadn't been a God judge, he might already have a girlfriend or something like that by now, right?

But for that agreement, he gave up his ordinary life and was willing to be restrained.

What kind of agreement is it?Since it is related to the god judge, is it very likely that it is a member of the government of time?Or... the man with the sword?

The lord had other men with swords before them?

...Impossible, even if the spiritual power is strong, it is useless. Only a god judge can summon the sword man.

"That's right. He saved me, but what's ridiculous is that he was the one who wanted to kill me. Even so, I still like him very much. That's the only warmth I can touch." After a while of silence, Li Xian replied.

"So, where is he now?"

"Disappeared, and said to myself, 'We will definitely meet again in the future, this is a promise', but did not come back, no, maybe I have found him, maybe it is not him, I don't understand."

Li Xian let out a low sigh, turned around and looked at Sanri Yue Zongjin with burning eyes.Even so, he still didn't regret that he chose to be a god judge because of that person's words, because only when he became a god judge would he meet Mikazuki Zongjin and so many men with swords.

He is no longer that child who is slaughtered.

The pain and humiliation he suffered back then will no longer appear on him.

Now, if it was now, he could protect everything he wanted to protect.

But just when Li Xian thought he could get along with these men with swords and swords, he realized that he was changing.

Those encounters in his childhood planted darkness and resentment in his heart. He didn't want to mention his past, and didn't want to face up to those darkness, but the darkness accumulated more and more.Although Lixian always wanted to be a positive person, in fact he did it, trying to be a gentle and strong person like him.

Unfortunately, it didn't last.

The consequence of time travel is not only that the men with swords and swords will be shaken when they meet their former masters, but also the personality of the judges will be destroyed due to too many memories stored in their minds.

The human brain can store memories for about 70 years. However, if a human being such as a spiritual judge travels to other time and space and lives there for a long time, it may only take a few hours or a few days to return to Honmaru.

Then, in the same memory period, the examiner experienced more and remembered more.This incompatibility of memory is also the noisy sound of history, which will torment those who judge God gradually lose themselves, and do not know what is their real memory.

This is the real reason why the god judges are called the generals behind the scenes, because they should try to avoid accompanying the swordsman in battle, and increase the memory of different time and space in their minds.

In contrast, Li Xian had played too many battles with the sword men, and his memory was inevitably disturbed.The memories of his youth and the suppressed darkness are occupying his body. If this continues, he may gradually lose his consciousness and personality.

What a hassle.

It would be fine if he just changed without being noticed by him, but he just met a group of people like Uesugi Jun who are purely righteous, and he was infected by them, and his sanity is recovering.

What will happen if you allow yourself to go to the dark and evil side?He doesn't really care about this kind of thing, but if it will cause harm to the sword man, he will never allow it.

The days when he can happily get along with the sword men in Honmaru may be numbered.

The author has something to say:.Well, when the Warring States chapter is over, I will write some main content appropriately (such as Lixian's past, such as Aunt Suxing~), although the picture means "I'm going to abuse", but I will definitely not write be! (Because I myself never read be's articles hahahaha)