Late ripening

Occasionally, people passing by on the side of the road looked back at the two of them. Jing Yan's arm was held tightly by Lu Qian. He couldn't exert himself, but his body language clearly showed his reluctance.

Jing Yan could guess what the other party wanted to say.Lu Qian has always been so eloquent and eloquent, every sentence he said made sense.But this is not a debate contest, no matter how much he lists out more arguments, he doesn't want to hear them anymore.

There were more and more people coming and going, Lu Qian felt that this was not a place to talk, and wanted to take Jing Yan to the side.Jing Yan didn't eat anything last night, and was so dizzy after being pulled by him like this, and felt sick for a while, almost fell on him.

"What's wrong? Where's the pain?" Lu Qian felt his arms hanging limply, a little cold sweat broke out on his forehead, and he wanted to hug him nervously.Jing Yan struggled twice in his hands and was about to fall, Lu Qian had no choice but to let go of him, and surrounded him modestly.

Standing here to continue entanglement was fruitless, Jing Yan casually pointed in a direction, "Find a place to sit down."

They sat down in the coffee shop outside the school, Lu Qian pushed the menu card to him, just about to speak, Jing Yan closed it.

"Come on, I don't want to eat." He insisted on ordering just a cup of hot chocolate despite the cramping pain in his empty stomach.

However, when he really had a chance to speak, the impeccable opening logic that Lu Qian had conceived for a long time was forgotten again.

"I'm sorry." He stared at the protruding bones of Jing Yan's wrist and said shyly, no longer trying to find any beautiful and perfect packaging for what he did. "I should say sorry to you for everything that happened during that time."

"Fang Fei found out at the time that you had an accident at the school. I...I thought breaking up was the best choice for you, at least you don't have to suffer those grievances because you are with me."

Jing Yan said nothing, these words were light and light, none of which he could really listen to.He sat here feeling like he was wasting his time.

The steaming hot drink was served, Jing Yan took a sip, the sugar and heat gave him some courage, he wanted to stand up and say goodbye before going back.

But Lu Qian spoke earlier than him, "Actually, that's not the case. What I just said is still lying to you."

Lu Qian squeezed the iced coffee cup hard, and the water droplets flowing from the outer wall wet his palm. "I lied to myself and you, it's just a high-sounding excuse for your own good. I'm a coward."

He didn't know whether it was sweat or ice water in his palm, he spread it upwards, exposing all his inferiority and shortcomings to Jing Yan without covering up.

"It was me who was afraid, and I was knocked down by what other people thought of me. I was really cowardly, and I was always afraid of hurting you, but all I did was protect myself. The one who really backed down was me, but once It was I who started forcing you to go this way."

It's hard to show the worst side of yourself to others, and maybe even less so in front of a lover you want to get back.

But chasing the word always involves skill, Lu Qian doesn't want to hide anything anymore, he would rather send his fragile neck up, as to whether he wants it or not depends entirely on the other party's will.

Jing Yan turned his head to look out the window, and didn't seem to care about what he said.It wasn't until Lu Qian couldn't help but want to sit beside him and let him see himself that he said, "You didn't force me, you remembered wrongly, I was the one who pestered you in the first place."

He used that unpleasant word to describe the beginning of the two of them, and Lu Qian felt a kind of heart-wrenching pain.He wanted to grab Jing Yan's hand to relieve the pain, but Jing Yan retracted immediately, as if he really didn't want to be touched by him.

"I know what you want to say now. I won't blame you anymore, and I have nothing to blame." Jing Yan gulped down the hot cocoa, but spoke slowly.

He drank the drink to the bottom, and the time Jing Yan left for himself to stay by his side is almost up.He felt that Lu Qian might not be as smart as he thought at all, and to some extent he was even stupider than himself.

The relationship between the two of them is not due to the external factors that Lu Qian mentioned, nor is it a matter of disagreement.Even the pillow person who sleeps next to you every night cannot fully understand what the other person is thinking.

But Lu Qian didn't seem to be aware of all this. Seeing Jing Yan standing up and wanting to leave, he was so panicked that he almost knocked his glass to the ground.

"I'll leave after I finish speaking. You should go back quickly, aren't you busy with work?" Lu Qian took a big step to stop him, Jing Yan was blocked by him and had to fall back on the chair .

"Don't drive me away, okay? Don't say anything about you doing well. Can't I see how you are doing?" Lu Qian knelt on one knee and looked at him, just wanting to let He also took a good look at himself and let him know that he was not just apologizing to him casually.

Jing Yan stood up all of a sudden, obviously wanting to get angry but couldn't cry out. "It's you who say that a person can live well, and you who say that it's not good. You say everything. Have you ever asked me what I want? Don't bother me anymore!"

He forced his way through the gap between the two tables, and left quickly through the door.Before Lu Qian could react, the clerk, who was used to this kind of scene, was afraid that this person would also run away, so he hurried over and asked him to pay the bill.

After leaving him in the store like that and walking away, Jing Yan thought that Lu Qian would go back.But not only did he not leave, but he appeared by his side more and more to bother him.

Lu Qian seemed to be staying in a hotel near the school, bought some new clothes, and sent over his usual work computer.If Jing Yan went downstairs, he would be able to see him waiting for him on the narrow chair on the first floor while working, with his favorite breakfast or dinner beside him.

But Jing Yan didn't feel happy, he just found it annoying, in order to avoid him sometimes he didn't go out for a whole day, if he really had to go out and passed by him, he didn't look at him and didn't stop at all.

Lu Qian always stood up as if he wanted to stop him, but he was afraid that he would get angry, so he hesitated to speak.Jing Yan didn't understand why he had so much to say, but she didn't even want to hear his voice.

If you don't go downstairs to let him see it all day, there will always be calls from various takeaways at night.The dormitory manager said that the takeaway can't be put downstairs, and the dormitory building can't come up without registering. Jing Yan had no choice but to go to the back door and hurriedly carry the big bag upstairs.

When the roommate is still there, he can still let him solve it for himself, but in a few days, the roommate will also go home for the summer vacation. Jing Yan doesn't want to waste it, but he doesn't want to smell the food that makes him sick, so he doesn't even open the package Give it to the cleaning aunt.

That person just appeared one step away from him every day, but Jing Yan didn't want to take a centimeter away, and even wanted to retreat until the day when Lu Qian couldn't stand it anymore.

Jing Yan checked the balance of the bank card in hand, so he didn't have to worry about living, but he didn't know how much money he had.

Lu Qian stuffed three cards in his bag at the time, probably left behind by his parents. He didn't count carefully, but he thought that his father, a university professor, couldn't earn much.

He still has to study for a long time, and Jing Yan doesn't want Yu Yu to take Lu Qian's salary anymore.There were still two months before school started, and he tried to find a job in the school library to sort out materials.

The salary is only a little, but this is the first job he applied for, Jing Yan happily told Song Bo who came to him for dinner.

"Not enough living expenses?" Song Bo asked him while ordering food. "No, it's just that there's nothing to do during the summer vacation, and it's nice to be able to read while working."

In fact, Song Bo didn't quite agree with his approach. The work of the library was boring and unskilled. In his eyes, it was meaningless to do it just to save some money.But it was rare for Jing Yan to make his first choice, he didn't want to stop the destruction.

They ate at a Cantonese restaurant that had just opened not long ago. Jing Yan ate very irregularly. When Lu Qian pushed him into a hurry, he simply stocked up a whole box of instant noodles and relied on them to satisfy his hunger when he was hungry.

Now the food that really fits his previous taste is placed in front of him, but he doesn't feel any attraction.He ate slowly, though he seemed to be chewing all the time, but only a little bit was actually swallowed.

"What are you busy with recently? I can't find you." Song Bo served him a bowl of soup and stared at his dark circles.Jing Yan had something stuck in his throat, and his words were very vague. "No, I just fell in love with reading novels, and sometimes I stay up late and go to bed late."

Song Bo wanted to ask him what books he was reading, but Jing Yan choked and kept coughing.He reached over and patted his back gently, and put a tissue to his mouth.

Jing Yan was rarely so close to him, and when he looked up, he saw Song Bo staring at him intently.Teacher Song, who wears glasses, is always cold and hardly smiles.

But now there was an inexplicable smile on the corner of his mouth, Jing Yan almost thought that he had misread, he took the tissue to wipe his mouth in a daze.Song Bo stepped back a little, and returned to his usual state.

Jing Yan ate more than usual for this meal, and the feeling of fullness soon made him drowsy.Recently, even in the dormitory, he feels very insecure, sometimes waking up in the middle of the night to check if the door is locked.

When the car arrived downstairs in the dormitory, he had already fallen asleep with his head tilted.Song Bo waited for 5 minutes and felt that sleeping like this would be bad for his cervical spine, so he tried to wake him up softly.

Jing Yan was still rubbing his eyes, but Song Bo suddenly leaned his whole body towards him, unfastened his seat belt and backed away.Teacher Song got too close just now, and he is still not used to the distance where he can clearly smell the smell of others.

He got out of the car, Song Bo didn't know why he insisted on sending him upstairs and followed him down.Jing Yan said goodbye to him dryly, and glanced at the corner of the path out of the corner of his eye.

His face became stiff, and his body began to feel uncomfortable, "What's wrong?" Song Bo seemed to know that he was looking elsewhere, and wanted to turn his head to follow his gaze.

"It's okay, I'm going upstairs, you should go back quickly." Jing Yan waved his hands quickly, and walked up with the same hands and feet.

Song Bo waited at the gate for a while, estimating the time.He walked out of the dormitory building and walked to a place not far from the parking lot.

"Do you have something to do here?" He looked at Lu Qian who was sitting in the shadows.As soon as the car arrived here, he found someone looking at him from the rearview mirror, but it wasn't looking at him.Jing Yan's reaction just now made him more sure of his conjecture, so he simply omitted the opening scene.

The light at the window on the third floor was finally turned on, and Lu Qian turned his gaze away from upstairs.Standing up and staring at Song Bo sharply, his tone was cold, "Who are you?"