Late ripening

When he opened the door, he found an aroma that he hadn't smelled for a long time wafting from the kitchen. "You're back." Jing Yan poked his head out from the kitchen, "I came back so late today, luckily I left a snack for you."

Lu Qian froze at the door, unable to move, the words "Why did you go home" were on his lips.But he soon calmed down, consciously aware that he was in a dream again.

Not necessarily every day, but at most every two or three days, he would dream of Jing Yan once.At the beginning, even the dream was very monotonous, he was forced to repeat the conversation of that day, sending Jing Yan out of the house again and again.

Later, he repeatedly dreamed about the road to the villa.Jing Yan didn't say a word beside him, and after getting out of the car, he pushed such a big suitcase and walked forward alone.In the dream, the person's thinking seemed to be no longer rational and clear. Lu Qian stopped the car and tried his best to unbuckle his seat belt and rush down to see him off.

But his movements became very clumsy, and he couldn't untie the button no matter what.He could only watch Jing Yan crouch down on the side of the road and hold his head, he should be crying.Lu Qian yelled at him in front of him, wanting him to get back into the car, but the sound was blocked in the car, as if it was absorbed by a sound-absorbing panel.

This dream gradually evolved into various endings. Sometimes Jing Yan looked back at him from a distance, sometimes Jing Yan walked resolutely without stopping a step, or Jing Yan lowered his head and sobbed next to him, no matter what. refused to get out of the car.

He never had a sweet, beautiful and calm dream again, and the pain in the dream was so real that he never once doubted whether he was really in the present moment.

This time he was sure he was in a dream.Jing Yan would not appear in front of him like this, he hadn't looked at his face carefully for a long time.Probably because he knew that this was not reality, he completely forgot what to do, and only acted according to his will.

He walked to the kitchen and hugged Jing Yan in his arms, such a light hug, afraid that he would disappear with a little force. "I miss you so much." He kept repeating in the boy's ear, Jing Yan blinked and turned around to hug him, but didn't say a word.

Lu Qian leaned against the wall, rubbing the top of Jing Yan's hair with his chin and cheek, raised his head with the other hand, "Let me see if you are okay." But Jing Yan buried himself firmly in his chest refused to move.

After a stalemate like this for a while, Jing Yan suddenly pushed him away. "I'm leaving, it's time to go back." Lu Qian subconsciously wanted to grab his arm, but he dodged it lightly.He stood in the kitchen and watched Jing Yan change his shoes at the door, opened the door and waved to him, and closed the door again.

He was awakened by a "bang", and the remote control of the air conditioner was swiped off the sofa.Lu Qian sat up from the sofa. It was already twelve o'clock. When he got home, he didn't even change his clothes and just slept on the sofa with his clothes on for two hours.

In front of him was a house without lights and fireworks, only the light coming in from the floor-to-ceiling windows allowed him to barely see where the furniture was.He sat up and buried his face in his hands for a while, then went to the living room and turned on the light.

The house was messy as if it had just been robbed, all the clothes and ties were thrown into a mess, and only a few pieces just brought back from the dry cleaner were still wrapped in bags and spread on the chairs.Lu Qian went to the water dispenser and poured a glass of water to drink. He didn't know how thirsty his throat was until he drank it.

It was twelve o'clock, he hesitated for a while, but couldn't help but make a phone call.

Mrs. Yu picked it up quickly, as if she was still asleep. "Jing Yan didn't come back this weekend, he said he would come back tomorrow to get some summer clothes." Lu Qian couldn't help frowning, "Why hasn't he been home for a few weeks, and he doesn't have to go to class on weekends, what is he doing?"

The other party paused for a few seconds, probably slandering you in your heart for not caring about him and asking so many questions, then he sighed as if he couldn’t help it, “He said that the school was busy, and he hadn’t gone to many classes before and was trying to make up for it, and he said that the experiment What can't be done... I don't know."

Lu Qian frowned and rubbed, "Is he in good health recently, how is his complexion?" He made a phone call in two or three days, asking almost the same questions. "Still skinny and doesn't talk much. Sometimes Xiao Yao can talk more when he comes back with him."

How skinny is he? Is he even uglier than when he was sent away before?Thinking of his thin arms and legs, Lu Qian couldn't help emphasizing his tone, "It's really impossible, wait for him to come back next time and you can take him to the hospital, and I'll ask the driver to pick you up."

Mrs. Yu was frightened on the other end of the phone, "Mr. Lu, please don't do this! I usually don't dare to mention your name. The gardener you called last time was seen by Jing Yan. He He kicked him out without saying a word. He finally calmed down, I beg you not to torment him again..."

He just said a word to find a driver, and he had such a big reaction.A burst of bitterness spread all over Lu Qian's heart, which made him almost unable to stand up, so he went back to his room and sat down on the bed. "Okay, I got it... You don't need to worry about watching him. I'll let the driver go there regularly next week, and you can go to school to accompany him every few days..."

After saying something else, he hung up the phone and lay on his back on the side that didn't belong to him.Jing Yan took all the pillows away, leaving this one empty.Lu Qian rested his head on one arm, looked at the ceiling, then turned around to look at the curtains blown up by the wind.

He had bought this bed for a long time, and he had never felt so empty and inappropriate.

Every time she picks up Sister-in-law Yu to go shopping or make phone calls, she is sneaky and reluctant like a thief. Lu Qian knows that he probably has a negative impression score with her, let alone Jing Yan.He thought that Jing Yan might be hating him, this is what he deserved and the result he wanted.But he couldn't relax, couldn't breathe a sigh of relief.

He thought that the heavy burden he left behind was pulling him and tying him up in another way. He should have hoped that Jing Yan would get better and better on another road, but he couldn't help but want to look at him, I want to know if he is cold, if he is in pain, and if he is accompanied by anyone.

Lu Qian got up to take a shower, and after a quick wash, he put on a pair of pajama pants and came out.He walked to Jing Yan's side as usual, pulled his pillow and fell asleep.

People in the office sometimes joked with him, asking if he had been working so hard recently and wanted to take a month off to go on vacation as before.Lu Qian smiled and said nothing, and walked out of the elevator as usual.

He met Guan Ruipeng in the lobby of the office building, and the two nodded and walked away.Lu Qian pushed their company's project to another partner, and Guan Ruipeng consciously did not contact him again.

Perhaps this is the convenience of the adult world. There is no relationship that you must have, and there is nothing worth tearing apart and never seeing each other again.Love, dating, these are insignificant free gifts, and for most people, it only hurts for a few days and then passes.

In the evening, Fang Fei invited him to an investor reception. Lu Qian didn't want to go at first, but the relationship between the two of them was really bad recently.Sometimes when we meet and talk, we are polite to each other, and we don't want to say a word more.Fang Fei took the initiative to ask him out, so he changed his clothes and went.

Just ten minutes after the reception started, Lu Qian wanted to leave.Apart from work, he couldn't concentrate on anything else.The social activities that used to be dispensable in the past are now so boring and time-wasting in his eyes, he went around and exchanged greetings with a few acquaintances, and left after he wanted to find Fang Fei and say hello.

"Lu Qian." Fang Fei patted him behind him, he turned his head, and there was an unknown person standing beside him. "This is Li Mingyu, whom I met playing tennis together. He works at Yongan Securities. This is Lu Qian, the partner of our firm, whom I keep telling you about."

Lu Qian reached out to shake his hand politely, and the other party smiled shyly.The three of them stood by the window and chatted for a while, Fang Fei took a phone call and left for a while.Lu Qian thought that he was a brokerage firm of Fang Fei's client, so he socialized patiently.

However, after chatting for a few words, he felt that something was wrong. The other party had no business relationship with them, and said very little about work. Instead, he always talked to himself about some private life matters, and asked him to play ball together.

Lu Qian made a few perfunctory words, found an excuse and walked away.Fang Fei stood at the door just after making a phone call, and when he saw him come out, he immediately went up to meet him, "How is it, how are you talking?" Lu Qian suppressed the anger that kept blowing out of his heart, "You specially introduced this to me." friend?"

"That's right. I haven't had time to say that he is also single. I mentioned to me earlier that he is very nice. I just wanted to introduce you to each other. Maybe it is suitable for you..." Lu Qian stared at his eyes and smiled a little He didn't care, "I'm not here to tell you, go to the parking lot downstairs."

The two of them walked to the open-air parking lot one after the other, and Lu Qian stopped beside his car. Fang Fei seemed to sense his gloom, and did not move after a distance.

"Speak clearly, what do you mean?" Lu Qian asked him preemptively, lighting a cigarette.

Fang Fei did not have the polite and warm attitude just now, and spoke out his thoughts without mercy. "I know it's hard for you to be separated from Jing Yan, but that will only happen for a while. I want to introduce you to someone who is more suitable for you."

Lu Qian didn't reply a word, Fang Fei simply said something that was even more difficult to say, "To be honest, I even think that it's because you've been single for too long that you were lonely with Jing Yan... The Lu Qian I know is really not the one who can Someone who preys on children."

Lu Qian stamped out the cigarette under his feet, sneered, and took two steps towards him as if his face was frozen. "Let's just say it, you think I'm with him because I can't bear it, or to put it another way, I put him to sleep shamelessly, right? Lu Qian in your heart is an upright gentleman, in front of you He's a vile, nasty seducer."

Fang Fei frowned, trying to say that I didn't mean it that way.However, Lu Qian didn't give him a chance, and grabbed his collar and pushed him hard against the car door. "Don't fucking think you understand me, let alone just find someone who can replace him."

I don't care what you think, but you can't look at my relationship with Jing Yan with that look.

Fang Fei hurriedly pushed him away, "You must be sick, I just want you to come out earlier. You have gone crazy, you..."

Lu Qian panted and pulled him away from the car, "I listened to a lot of your persuasion, and I also did it if you asked me to separate from him. What do you want to force me to do? You fucking Don't bother me again." He opened the car door and stepped on the gas pedal and left, but Fang Fei was still calling him behind him.

He didn't drink, but he accelerated like he was drunk all the way.If he was really as sick as others said, he hoped that he would be more completely sick, and he would just ignore it if he was hopelessly sick.

The car was parked in the garden of the community. He closed his eyes and thought that maybe the break with his best friend would become more severe in the future, but there was no way, he couldn't get along with the people around him like a normal person.

The phone rang, and he thought it was Fang Fei calling him, so he didn't touch it.It wasn't until I called a second time not long after hanging up that I picked it up.

"Mr. Lu, did Jing Yan sneak back to your place? I can't find him!"