Late ripening

How many times can a person have a chance to fully recall the past in his life?When Lu Qian got off the elevator, he was distracted by this question.He doesn't like to reminisce about the past, for him it is a kind of emotion that can only be escaped from reality.But just a few minutes ago, he relived the kiss with Jing Yan over and over again in his heart.

He leaned against the wall, his phone was on, and the text message just now was sent again.Get off me, he said silently once in his heart.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier. He pushed the door open and took two steps outside while drenched in the rain. Not far away was a person who was also drenched in the rain, smoking a cigarette and waiting for him.

Hearing footsteps behind him, Fang Fei casually threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stomped on it.He turned around, and Lu Qian looked at him in his usual work clothes, without showing any doubts about the message he sent.Fang Fei knew that there was no need to ask, what he saw was true.

Without saying a word, he grabbed Lu Qian by the collar and punched him hard.It was a merciless and effortless punch. Lu Qian staggered a few steps and almost fell on the hood. He took a breath, wiped the corner of his mouth and stood still, without any intention of fighting back.

No matter how the other party beat him, he would admit it, and he should have paid it back long ago.No matter who it is, whether it is Fang Fei, the teacher, someone he knows, even Jing Yan, he feels that he should have paid it back long ago.

"The surname is Lu, you're really fucking capable!" Just as he expected, Fang Fei didn't stop because he didn't resist, and grabbed him who had just stood still and made it up.This time I used all my strength, and I didn't worry about the fact that the two of them had to go on a business trip in the afternoon.

Lu Qian's head buzzed with pain, worse than when he was hit by a brick, but he could still hear every word the other party said.

"You can even touch the teacher's child, are you still human?!" Fang Fei's own hand hurt, he gritted his teeth and asked the man in front of him.

"You didn't have such a nasty idea when you adopted him, did you? Tell me everything right away." The rain on Lu Qian's body made him sting, and he coughed again and again.Fang Fei held back his anger and dragged him to the back seat, closed the car door roughly and forced him to question him.

Lu Qian pulled a piece of paper to wipe off the rainwater and blood on his face, put his hands on his legs, hunched his back and lowered his head, "I didn't think so at the time. It was after he went to college that we got together. Now we are discussing whoever takes the initiative can't do anything." It doesn't make sense anymore. The responsibility is all on me."

Fang Fei wanted him to roll off, so he held back his fists so as not to land on him. "Don't think I can't understand what you mean. You can accept Jing Yan if you take the initiative? Don't talk to me about homosexuality being a genetic problem, he doesn't understand anything at all. I figured it out, you and he Mom hasn't led anyone on the right path in the past few years."

He was the only one in the carriage who was cursing angrily, and Lu Qian supported his head and was speechless.What he scolded has already been repeated a thousand times in his heart.What kind of obligations have I fulfilled these years, and what kind of "teaching bad" Jing Yan is.He asked himself these questions countless times, but he didn't dare to think of the answer once.

It would be great if I could be firmer that day in the hospital, and the situation today would not be the same.

But he didn't have a second choice at that time, but now so many people told him that he had chosen the wrong choice, and even he himself began to wonder if there was a second way to go if he stepped back a little at that time.

"Don't tell me you haven't thought of the teacher, do you still dare to see him? Don't talk about the distance, just talk about the front, do you dare to take Jing Yan out? What do you tell him to do when his schoolmates find out!" Fang Fei Seeing him standing still, he became more and more angry, and said that sentence without choosing words.

"Earlier, you'll be seduced! Do you understand seduced!" Lu Qian trembled, the rain made his whole body cold, and he grabbed the edge of the chair as if he couldn't sit still. "I really didn't..." These two words made his voice weak, so soft that only he could hear it.

No one in the car spoke anymore, only the breathing of two people, one was heavy and powerful because of anger, and the other was as quiet as if it had disappeared.

After a few seconds, Lu Qian took a deep breath, leaned back on the chair with a pale face, "I know I'm sorry...I also know what you mean, let me think again."

"What the hell are you thinking about? What else do you want to think about!" Fang Fei simply hated iron and steel, and he almost didn't know this old friend for many years. "Just think about Jing Yan. Can you guarantee that he won't regret it in a few years? He hasn't even seen the outside world much. If you don't let him see other ways of life, can you live with your conscience?"

Lu Qian looked out the window, the two of them passed by this garden more than an hour ago, and the rain was not as heavy as it is now.Fang Fei looked at him, knowing that he couldn't say anything more, so he was ruthless, "He's been clinging to you throughout adolescence, maybe it's just a little bit of Electra. When he gets in touch with other people in the future, he might find that he just depends on you for a while. "

Lu Qian opened the window, took a pack of cigarettes from the car and lit it, "Well, I see."

Jing Yan sorted out the notes for tomorrow's class in the small room, and the bed here was left unused after being together.Most of the time he came here to do homework and build Lego. All the books in the closet were taken away, and the assembled models were placed in several rows.

While reading a book, he listened to the movement of the porch. Lu Qian had been down for a while, and he didn't know why it took so long to deliver the materials.When the doorbell rang, he immediately put down the book in his hand and ran over.

After opening the door was Uncle Fang, who stood outside the door with a somewhat stiff face. "Jing Yan, your Uncle Lu is in a hurry to change his ticket and is leaving now. I'll come up and get his luggage."

"Ah... oh," Jing Yan regained his senses and let him in sideways, "Has he gone to the airport already..." "Well, he and other colleagues have something to do first." Fang Fei seemed to have a cold Yes, his voice was hoarse and he sniffed.

Didn't even have time to come up to say goodbye, Jing Yan was very disappointed.He followed Fang Fei and saw that he was anxiously taking this and that, guessing it must be something really important.

"Then..I'm leaving. You can stay at home alone these few days..." Jing Yan nodded and sent him to the door.

Fang Fei walked into the elevator, the door was about to close, Jing Yan stretched out a hand to stop it.He hastily pressed the door open button several times, "Be careful not to pinch your hand!" He looked at Jing Yan with a bit of reproach, Jing Yan retracted his pinched right hand, and handed over the things in his left hand.

"He didn't take an umbrella when he went downstairs, Uncle Fang, remember to bring this to him."

Lu Qian left for several days, and only made a phone call on the third day to come back.The voice was vague and tired, and he asked if he had eaten well these days.Jing Yan asked him what he was doing, and he said he was very busy at the hotel, so he hung up hastily.

He buried his head on the table between classes, he missed him so much, he murmured in his heart.

Someone knocked on his desk, he was shocked twice and raised his head, "Lin Jingyan, it's our group's turn to do the presentation next week, which one are you in charge of?" Jing Yan was confused, "I don't know which group I am. .Am I on your team?"

The other party pouted impatiently, "Didn't you look at the grouping table? No other group wanted you, so you were assigned to our group." Jing Yan felt that this person seemed unhappy and a little nervous, "I Okay..you decide which part I'll do."

"Oh." The other party dropped a sentence coldly and walked back to his seat, muttering to his companions for some unknown reason, turning their heads to look at him from time to time.Jing Yan suddenly felt very uncomfortable all over, obviously no one was talking to him, but he seemed to hear many, many noisy voices around his ears.

After finally getting out of class, Yao Yihang waited for him to eat at the door. "Help me get the water glass and I'll go to the bathroom." Yao Yihang gave him the glass and ran in.His classroom is at the corner of the teaching building, and there are not many people using the bathroom. Jing Yan is waiting for him at the railing at the door.

Two girls he didn't know walked out of the women's room, exchanging mobile phones and looking at something while walking. "Impossible, there are still such shameless people in our school?" "Oh, you don't know, my classmate said that the news of that department has spread, and I heard that the boy was picked up by the person who kept him every day. Once they drove directly to the teaching building, and everyone saw them kissing."

Jing Yan put his hands behind his back and pinched himself, listening to them dry-mouthed, his body was too stiff to turn around.The two girls just glanced at him, then stood in front of the big mirror and began to touch up their makeup.

"It must be very good-looking to be wrapped up, right? Do you have a photo of him and show me quickly." The other person wiped his hand with a tissue after washing, "I don't have one, I will ask my classmate when I get back."

The two girls left after chatting, without paying attention to the person standing behind them with their heads bowed.It turns out that even people who don't know me can say that about me, Jing Yan stared at his toes and felt cold.He puts on his thick coat long in advance every winter, but he is still huddled in a corner and motionless.

Yao Yihang ran out shaking the water droplets, Jing Yan suddenly felt afraid of the cold and light, and wanted to squat down with his head in his arms. "Let's buy some food and go back to your dormitory to eat. I feel a little uncomfortable and want to lie down for a while."

With chattering teeth, he followed Yao Yihang all the way back to the dormitory, trying to urge him to hurry up a few times.The dormitories of the School of Physics and Mechatronics are in the same building, and Jing Yan walked in evasively after him.

Someone patted Jing Yan on the shoulder, and he almost fell without any strength. "Lin Jingyan," the monitor of their class, "the counselor asked you to go to her office."