[Comprehensive] They forced me to die

Alice returned to her dormitory with her simple luggage. The dormitory was very quiet at this time. Everyone might be in class at this time.

She put the luggage back in the room, and flicked her phone habitually.

"What happened to the nearest Wifi?"

When Alice returned to the living room to check the router, she heard a sound as soon as she turned her head. A girl with short hair, carrying a big easel, stood blankly by the door.

"You're back?"

Alice stood tugging at the corner of her clothes, stood with her feet crossed, and looked at her vigilantly.

"You... I'm sorry."

The girl looked at her apologetically, but Alice didn't know what to say at this time. Long before she came back, she thought that she would meet Chen Lijun sooner or later, but she didn't expect it to be so soon.

"Let the past be the past." Alice remembered saying this to her, and she calmly returned to her room under the nose of the deal, closed the door, and took a deep breath.

"Still scared."

She always felt that the other party might take out a knife and cut herself at the slightest disagreement. What about the trust between people?

"Maybe I'm thinking too much."

She took a look at her room, it was the same as a month ago, only with a little more dust, she found that she was really unpopular, hadn't anyone mentioned her since she disappeared for a whole month?

Alice couldn't help smiling bitterly, she turned on her mobile phone.

"I've arrived at the dormitory, what are you doing?" --Alice

It didn't take long for the other party to reply the text message.

"Institute, are you okay?" - AQ (Professor Ai Qing)

"It's okay, I just met her just now, I'm afraid she will take a kitchen knife if she disagrees, thank you roommate for not killing me." ——Alice

"Anyway, be careful, I have a project, I will go to the Taklimakan Desert, do you want to go? It will be good for your condition to go for a walk." - AQ

Alice was thinking about it when there was a knock on the door, and her little heart trembled inexplicably.

"Who?"

"I, Chen Lijun."

"Is something wrong?" Alice asked with some concern.

"I want to talk to you."

"Sorry we have nothing to talk about."

There was silence outside.

"I'm sorry." The voice outside was very soft, like a feather, but it softened her hard heart.

When Alice opened the door, she saw Chen Lijun standing at her door with a tear in her eye, as if she was covering up something, she immediately wiped it away.

"I'm sorry." Chen Lijun said again.

"I know, so I said, let the past be the past."

"I didn't expect that I would lose control. During this period of time, I was really not well at all. I often had nightmares when I was sleeping, as if someone was standing behind me, forcing me to hold a knife." Chen Lijun When it came to the latter, he covered his cheeks in some collapse.

Alice couldn't describe her mood at this time, and a voice in her heart told her to forgive her, this child was just a poor person.But another voice told her that since the damage has been done, no matter what, it is still a kind of damage, even if the wound is healed, the scar is still there, even if the scar is not there, the fear is still there, once bitten by a snake, ten years of fear well rope.

"I don't know what drove you to apologize to me and I accept your apology, but we can never go back, we are all responsible for what we did, the moment you took the knife."

Chen Lijun lowered her head and couldn't see her expression clearly. Her shoulders shrugged, but her mood seemed much better.

"How are you and him now?"

"...He." Chen Lijun hesitated.

"I don't like him. If you're in school a lot, you've heard that I'm with my psychology tutor."

"That is true?"

"Yeah, so how are you and that sunny boy Kesi?"

"He's fine, we've had a great time, and these days...he misses you a lot."

Alice smiled and said: "Work hard, one day, he will only see you. You have to believe that you are happy, and you can pursue it, but not all love in the world can be so pure As long as you like it."

Alice patted the other party's shoulder comfortingly, closed the door, she fell heavily on her sofa, looked at the snow-white ceiling, and seemed to have a long, long dream, a beautiful Christmas, delicious food, There was white snowflakes floating outside, and the sound of the violin was twirling in my ears, as if telling the thoughts of a couple of lovers.

There was a bit of chill in early spring, Alice was holding a bottle of wine, standing on the balcony of the living room, facing the bright moon.

Maybe she shouldn't have come back. When she came back, she suddenly remembered that when she first came to China, she desperately swiped the Internet to connect to blogs, and spent her days with nostalgia.

It's just that the longing is too painful, and the pain is too much to consume. The more I think about it, the more blurred I feel. For four full months, everything in the past can only be described as "far away".

In the endless night sky, the bright moon exudes a faint, soft light, but in this busy city, people no longer have the heart to appreciate the brightness of the moon, and people who occasionally look up will be confused by the brilliance of the street lights.

She gulped down a glass of wine, feeling hot and her body was hot.

"Alice?"

Alice looked at the girl in front of her in a daze. She was different from the usual coquettish. She was wearing a goose yellow coat today, and her long hair was coiled up, giving her a romantic look.

Alice glanced at her for a while, ignored her, and drank on her own.

"Was drunk?"

"No, no."

Alice sat on the ground with red eyes.

"You hate me?"

Yuxier sat down next to Alice very simply.

"No, oh!"

Alice commented drunkenly: "I hated you at first, but later I think you're pretty good, and you're a real person."

Alice gulped down a large jug of wine again, until she found that there was no drop, she fell down on the wall feeling a little depressed, her neck was flushed, as if she had been bored out.

"Unhappy? Because of the professor?"

Yuxier didn't dislike her at all because of her appearance of a drunk, Alice felt inexplicably that the other party was much kinder.

"Do you have wine?"

"I'll tell you a story with wine."

Alice pouted.

"As a person who often goes to nightclubs, of course I have wine, but now I only have cocktails, would you like it?"

As Yuxier said, she took out a bottle from her handbag, and Alice looked at her in surprise.

"It's normal for someone like me to have a bottle or two of wine with me."

Yu Xier laughed at herself and said a few words, looking at the moon tonight, suddenly remembered that today is Alice's birthday, and said happy birthday.

"Alice looked at the other party in surprise, because she never thought that this girl would be the first one to remember her birthday when she came to China."

The dark clouds covered the moon, and the street lamps confused people's eyes. Alice thanked dryly.

"How did you know?"

"I saw it by accident, but somehow I suddenly remembered it."

"Hmm." Alice took a sip of the wine and wiped the water from her mouth with her sleeve.

"I don't think you're a drinker?"

"I haven't drank for a long time."

"why?"

"When I'm drunk, I always forget whether I'm this Alice or that Alice."

"Isn't it all you?"

"The one who lives in the moment is me, and the one who lives in the story."

"But the story already has you."

Alice took a deep look at Yu Xier, opened the cocktail, took a sip, and said, "In Greek mythology, a person was tortured and he was immersed in water."

"When the water reaches his lips, he still has to suffer from thirst, but once he lowers his head to drink, the water recedes, then rises, and recedes again. This cycle makes him see it, but he will never be able to..."

"...His name is Tantalus, the son of God who was punished. Because of too much desire and greed, he finally angered the gods."

Alice looked at the wine bottle that was about to bottom out, and pursed her lips in dissatisfaction: "Everyone in the world has desires and greed, and when they get it, they desire more, and I am the same, but I am more cowardly than the world, and I can't get it." , I’ll just pretend I don’t want it anymore.”

Tonight's moon is extraordinarily round, and occasionally a gust of cool wind blows, Yu Xier can't help shivering, and hears Alice muttering to herself: "If I can't get it, I'll just pretend I don't want it."

What can't you get?

What is pretending not to?

Yu Xier didn't understand, she just looked at the girl in front of her quietly, and asked gently: "Are you afraid? Or are you looking forward to it? Or have you been avoiding or ashamed of your avoiding?"

"All."

"it is good."

"My story is finished, and it may not be so good."

"No, I think you're right."

"Thank you."

As soon as you enter the door of the living room, you can see a super-large TV. Going forward, you will see a large sofa, two small sofas, a coffee table, and a large table.

It's just that when Chen Lijun and another roommate came back, they saw the two older girls crawling on the table in a strange manner. When they stepped forward to take a closer look, they realized that the two of them were drunk.

Chen Lijun stared at it blankly for a long time, and occasionally he could hear someone talking about something.

"Alice is back?"

Chen Lijun replied: "Well, I saw her when I came back at noon."

"Have you made it clear to her?"

The other party was silent for a while.

"I've said everything that needs to be said. After all, it's my fault. Even if she doesn't forgive me, it's understandable. Do you think I'm disgusting and terrible because of this?"

"No, I won't. You know I'll be by your side no matter what you do."

Wen Fang looked at the girl in front of her and said firmly, just like them when they were young, remembering that time, she always thought that their relationship was just... inseparable.

☆、Chapter 79 Birthday present

Early in the morning, McCoff saw his mommy was already sitting in the hall downstairs. When he saw him, the look in his eyes gave McCoff a headache. Maybe he should lie to her that he was in a meeting.

"McGee, why did you just get up, come and have a glass of milk."

"Oh, Mommy, I'm getting old enough to stop drinking milk."

"No matter how old you are, in Mommy's eyes, you are still a child." Mrs. Holmes looked at her son with a smile, as if you were my son and had to obey me in everything.

Mycroft couldn't help rubbing his temples, thinking maybe he could send Mommy to Sherlock, but in view of the previous not-so-good conversation, McCoff quickly dismissed this idea.

"So are you here this time for something?" Mycroft was wearing a nightgown, walked to the dining table and asked the butler to serve him a cup of coffee.

"McKee, drinking coffee early in the morning is bad for your stomach."

"Mommy, Sherlock has been doing some research recently, and he doesn't always eat well." Mycroft betrayed his brother mercilessly.

"I'll visit him, uh... I heard you brought Alice back earlier?"

McCoff had already expected the main purpose of Mommy's visit to him, so he wasn't very surprised.

"As you said." Mycroft took a piece of cake and stuffed it into his mouth, touching his round belly.

"Then why didn't I see her?" Holmes asked, pretending not to know about Alice's departure from London, looking around.

"She is in China. If Mr. Holmes allows, I think you can visit her in China." Mycroft took a sip of coffee and said methodically.

"I thought maybe she didn't want to see me."

"Oh, no, you must know that she has amnesia."

"We sent this kid to a mental hospital, you know I actually..."

"Enough, Mommy, that's a thing of the past." Mycroft said with some dissatisfaction.

"Mycroft, I know, that incident hurt you very much. You know, I'm worried about you. Look, you've gained a lot of weight."

"Oh, Mommy, I just like sweets." Mycroft stood up straight, suddenly felt a little unsteady in his breath, and sat down again.

"Look at you, you're so fat you can't walk. I remember Alice having a sweet tooth too, and if she was around she might be able to keep you in check."

"Mum, you don't understand the situation at all." Mycroft declared weakly.

"I don't know the situation, but I know Alice has a bad personality, but she has liked you since she was a child. If you go to find her and come back, she will definitely come back."

"Where to go is her freedom."

"But you should at least go and see her. After all, she is also your sister, but before that, I think you need to lose weight." Mrs. Holmes kindly suggested, but now Mycroft only feels that his toothache hurts.

Alice was woken up by urination, subconsciously touched her mobile phone, opened it and saw that it was already noon the next day, and that guy Yu Xier didn't know where he went, Alice curled her lips, and quickly I packed up my things, thinking that I might still be able to attend a class.

"Hey, Alice!" A familiar voice came from afar.

"Ai Qing? Is there something wrong?" She remembered that the professor had no class today.

"Didn't you see the text I sent you?"

"What message?" Alice took out her phone.

"It's about my research project, the treatment of human emotions by nature (desert). The location is in the Taklamakan Desert. I want you to go with me."

"When?"

"next month."

Alice nodded hesitantly.

"Tonight is the weekend and you want to come to my house?"

"Professor, what you said is very rebellious. The little girl is not selling herself."

The professor smiled and took out a Chinese cigarette.

"You smoke?"

"I smoke all the time, I haven't seen you smoke before."

"Smoke when you're bored." The professor took a few puffs and then twisted it off.

"Why don't you smoke?"

"I thought you didn't like it very much."

Alice didn't speak.

"Come to the institute tonight, I'll give you a hypnosis."

"Okay." Alice nodded and agreed without hesitation.

The professor smiled and said, "You answered so quickly, you trust me so much."

"You are a good guy?"

The professor stopped suddenly and looked at her with very serious eyes: "Promise me, don't trust me easily."

Alice was taken aback by the seriousness of the professor. "What?"

"No, just take it as a joke."

In the psychology class in the afternoon, there was a female teacher, known as Extinction, wearing old-fashioned eyes, a blue skirt, and a meticulous look, which made the whole class afraid to speak out.

"Students who are late come to the podium." Unfortunately, Alice was one of the latecomers. Many people around felt a little ashamed. A female teacher glanced over, and they fell silent for an instant.

"As a student who studies psychology, you must understand the importance of a sentence. When you face a patient, you must know that every sentence of the patient is worth thinking about."

"Not only in psychological treatment, but also in real life or when the police handle cases, psychology is the top priority, and analyzing speech is an indispensable column."

"For example, there was a young customs officer in France who entered the port with a British flag ship." Alice was inexplicably a little excited when she heard about England.

"A lot of people went ashore (going ashore is to go through customs inspection), when the customs found a British sailor's toothache powder, and where to test it, it was found to be a super drug, and interrogated."

The female teacher paused, looked around the professor, and Alice knew that the point was coming.

"The customs asked, do you know this is a prohibited drug?"

"The sailor just said, sorry, this is not mine, but a French lady asked me to bring it."

"The customs continued to ask, this French lady, where did you entrust it to you?"

"The sailor replied that it was the night half a month ago, when I raised the national flag on the plywood, and then she came to give it to me."

"In the end, the sailor was arrested. When the story reaches this point, who knows where the sailor's weakness is?"

The audience was quiet, and Alice felt that this was a good time to show her performance, so she immediately stood up and said, "Because the ship raises the flag in the morning and lowers the flag at night, the easier it is for people to say something inadvertently." Alice suddenly thought of Ai Qing The professor told himself not to believe him, and frowned inexplicably, feeling that he was thinking too much.

When I went back at night, I received a courier from the doorman, which was from London.

She took the package, feeling a little apprehensive, and went back to the dormitory to carefully open the package.

Inside was a pink mobile phone, I couldn't tell what brand it was, and when I opened the address book, there were MH and SH in it, tears streaming down my face immediately.

Alice couldn't tell what she was thinking, she could completely guess who sent the call, she stared blankly at the phone in her hand, and suddenly remembered that when she kept swiping the blog login interface, she was anxious again, Looking forward again.

Why does he remember his birthday?

Why is he sending a cell phone and what does it mean?He is so smart, he didn't understand, did he come to China just to cut off all contact with him?

Alice tried her own blog, and boarded without hindrance.

"I haven't seen your update lately, how are you?" - Little Teemo (Jim) drinking coffee

"I haven't seen you for a long time, and I found out after I asked Sherlock that you left London. How are you doing?" - Sheriff Black Cat (Lestrade)

……

Jasmine requests to add you as a friend.

The landlady has requested to add you as a friend.

……

The blog is full of information from a few months ago. I always wanted to post it, but now that I have it, I don’t know what to say.

I'm not a little girl chasing rabbits (Alice) posted on Weibo: "Now I live in a beautiful city in China. I just received the package you sent me. I thought about it a lot, and finally I just say thank you."

Alice agrees to Jasmine's request.

Alice was easy on the landlady's request.

……

Lying on her tender bed, Alice picked up her phone, looked at the phone book inside, and dialed Sherlock's number hesitantly.

"Hi, hello, who are you?" A familiar voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Fcuk, Whatthehell." Hang up after a few seconds.

Alice didn't know what to say, so she called the other party again.

"If you have something to ask me, please speak, I'm very busy." The other end of the phone looked very impatient.

"You know who I am?"

"A transoceanic phone call from China. As far as I know, the phone you're calling should be a birthday present from Mycroft. Just guessing based on the time, who else is free besides you, Alice."

"Oh, how are you lately?"

"Okay, fine, if you didn't call me all the way across the ocean and the stupid buzzing ringing just interrupted my train of thought."

"I'm very sorry."

"You should be sorry, so is there something wrong?"

Alice was silent for a while.

"I'm busy, I'm going to hang up." Sherlock said to the phone ruthlessly.

"Don't, don't... W, I just want to ask you to know how McCoff is doing recently?"

"You should ask him."

"I think your IQ is not so low that you can make a wrong call!" The other end of the phone seemed to really believe her words, and Alice suddenly changed from stupid to mentally retarded.

The author has something to say: I am finally back~ Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone