[Black Basket] It's not that easy

It wasn't that many people hated her at first.

The world still remembers that time, she was not very popular in the class, but there would always be one or two girls who would greet her, occasionally come to chat with her, have lunch together or something.

Just this, the world is already very satisfied.

Later, when it happened that Fujiwara Yuno was stolen from her class lunch nutrition expenses, she immediately became the target of public criticism.

At that time, in the circle of elementary school girls, small groups were a very common phenomenon. I don't know who said, "Whoever dares to talk to Chu Luye, be careful that no one will play with her."

So far, the world has become a truly transparent person.

You can't understand how it feels.

The test papers and homework that belonged to her were deliberately missed, and she had no way of knowing the things that were told to each other in the class. When I was on duty, I always cleaned the garbage on the ground the next day. Complaining endlessly, there is also the art homework that the whole class put on display in the back row of the classroom.

There are fragments of clay sculptures all over the floor, as well as portraits painted messily by someone who doesn't know.

Even the class teacher couldn't mediate this phenomenon. The female teacher wearing oval rimless glasses patted her on the head and told her that this was the time to learn to endure. The world still remembers that she didn't go far and heard the female teacher helpless sigh:

"Another troublesome kid."

The world doesn't want to be a trouble to others, so she rejects the remaining girls who are still willing to play with her, because she doesn't want them to be isolated like herself.

In her school life alone, she has thought of many ways, such as minimizing her presence during get out of class hours, always going to the bathroom when classes are about to start, and asking for leave as much as possible to pretend to be sick in physical education class.

She still remembers that at that time, she always asked Sachiko to buy more pairs of indoor shoes. After a few lessons, she learned to hide the spare indoor shoes in her schoolbag.

It's ok.

The world tells itself it's okay.

But then, Kawaguchi Yuta appeared.

To the world, this person is like a sweet dream that doesn't even have time to wake up, and quickly falls into another nightmare.

Sometimes she also wonders, if Kawaguchi Yuta hadn't transferred to her side, would she have ended her elementary school life in a normal way, wouldn't be startled every day, always thinking about where to hide after class, no need Every day, I feel the cold eyes that seem to stick to her back.

At that time, she really liked Teacher Shibata in the health room. Later, the world knew that she was actually just a college student who came to the elementary school health room for internship.

It was she who rubbed the top of the world's hair and told the world with a smile: "It's ok, the world doesn't want to go back to the classroom, so let's rest here."

For elementary school children, the bed in the school health room is magical.

The world took it for granted, and drew the white curtains. If it was spring, the teacher would open the windows, and warm wind would blow in.

Oh, and it was nice to have firm pillows on the bed.

Pat the slightly heavy quilt, lie on the bed and indulge in the darkness behind the curtain, sleepy bugs jump on your eyelids one by one.

What a treat, the world thought drowsily, there is Shibata-sensei working outside, they won't come in here.

It's good that no one can come and hurt her.

The good days were fleeting, and on a day that I can’t remember clearly, the world happily pushed open the door of the health room, but the person sitting inside was not Shibata-sensei, but a very serious person, wearing the same doctor’s uniform as Caitian-sensei , turned to ask her what's wrong, what's wrong with her.

Shi Shi shook her head in a daze, the white doctor's uniform was so beautiful and gentle on Teacher Shibata, but she felt strange wearing it.

"If you don't feel uncomfortable, go back to the classroom." The health care teacher looked at her blankly: "The health care room is not a place for you to play."

"...But, I don't want to go back to the classroom." She explained in a loud voice.

"Why do you come to school if you don't want to go to the classroom?" the teacher tidied up the desk, admonishing with two purposes: "Don't always think about avoiding things, learn to be patient and tolerant, since you are here, you have to try to integrate into the collective yes."

She picked up the thin glass vase on the table, pulled out the nearly withered white rose, and threw it neatly into the trash can.

The world stood in a daze for a while, and answered "yes" in a low voice.

In the hand behind her, she unconsciously pinched off the stem of that fresh white rose.

......

"Patience, world."

"You have to learn patience and tolerance, and try to integrate into the group."

"World, are you happy at school?"

......

She is not happy.

She didn't even have the courage to walk into the crowd, staring at the girls in the far corner with wide eyes, cold sweat on her palms and forehead.

The world hesitated for a long time, she shuffled over and asked them to let go of the disheveled girl who fell to the ground.

She was terrified, swallowing, and trembling all over.

What happened later, Shi Shi thought she didn't remember, when she was dragged into the corner by her hair, she stared at the girl with wide eyes and quickly climbed up and ran away until she couldn't see her figure.

"Why are you so stupid, you should be taught a lesson if you meddle in your own business!"

The world curled up on the ground with its head in its arms, until the girls felt bored or had a good time, she was the only one who stayed where she was.

Her head resting on the ground slowly turned sideways, staring into the distance for a long, long time.

......

It turned out that she couldn't figure out what she should do to be pleasing to people. For a long time, she really thought that she was an outlier, and people would feel sick and sick at a glance. People like her should be alone Just stay in the dark shadows and don't bother others.

Later she knew that she was not the only one who couldn't get in, nor was there only one lonely corner.

She hid in a safe corner, looking at the scene of being bullied in the distance, she felt very familiar, the only difference was that her footsteps never moved again.

The already terrible days have ushered in new troubles. The world feels that there are too many things that cannot be understood, just like the arithmetic problems in the exercise book. There are still so many gaps waiting for her to fill.

The long-term chaos finally made her unable to think about anything anymore. The world covered her ears, and she stuffed herself into the closet. There are her favorite things here, and every piece of clothing is soft, as long as she doesn't go out , Those blank things will never find her again.

That day, the world stood behind the door, and the adults outside thought she was asleep. She was barefoot, with long black hair hanging behind her shoulders, like a delicate doll with transparent skin.

The world looked out through the gap in the door, the adult's voice was very soft and clear.

"She no longer has the awareness of differentiating others. She will be nervous when she comes into contact with people, and she has no desire to communicate normally. Psychologically, she passively rejects differentiating emotions for others. It is worth noting that she is slightly malnourished. In such a situation, it is recommended not to let the children go to school, but to rest and observe at home for a period of time."

Malnutrition.

The world was stunned to see Sachiko buried her head and covered her face and cried, ah, yes, the classmate on duty was responsible for distributing the lunch, and she walked over with a plate, and the student on duty scooped up a lot of ingredients and put them on her plate.

She shouldn't be picky about food, it's her fault.

Shi Shi turned around and climbed onto the bed, pulled the quilt to cover her body, she stared at the pattern on the ceiling, which was her favorite soft pink, Shi Shi slowly closed her eyes.

She suddenly remembered a sentence, it was Kawaguchi Yuta who told her.

"Do you know why I like you so much?" The handsome little boy smiled with two cute little canine teeth, his maroon eyes looked at her moistly, and there were things in his eyes that the world had never noticed: "Because you and Everyone is different."

He laughed so happily, the emotion that didn't match the age made the backlit face flash a little ferocious, the world looked at Kawaguchi Yuta foolishly, and also grinned cheerfully.

Kawaguchi Yuta leaned closer and pinched her face, Sekai wrinkled her face unconsciously, she was a little hurt.

"You know, the world, you can be very likable." He was so close to her that the world could see his lips moving, and he said, "As long as you become like everyone, many people will like you." you."

......

Akashi followed her straight gaze, but couldn't see anything.

She didn't know what she was thinking with her empty expression, Akashi frowned and called her in a low voice.

The world blinked slowly, her long eyelashes trembling with the movement, she finally focused her eyes, and looked at Akashi who was watching her.

At the same time, Shi Shi's slender, white fingers relaxed their strength, and the two fan handles she was holding slid to the ground with a soft sound. Amidst Atsushi Ziyuan's continuous "creaking" sound, it was like raindrops. It fell on the surface of the lake and disappeared.

Akashi still looked at her, the frowning Qingjun looked extremely good-looking.

The world chuckled at him, still as squeamish as ever, Akashi unconsciously stretched his eyebrows with his sweet and glutinous voice.

"Go ahead, I'm leaving."

After speaking, she turned and left without a trace of nostalgia in her footsteps.

Akashi who stayed where he was was stunned for a rare second, he was actually ready to accept the emotions of the world, and the current situation was beyond his expectation.

He strode forward and grabbed her wrist.

"Since you're here, I'll take you back later."

"No need," Shi Shi raised his eyes to look at him, the delicate expression on his face was simply seductive: "I want to go back by myself."

Akashi didn't speak for a while, Sekai smiled sweetly and raised his head: "It's okay, Dad will come to pick me up after he promised."

"I'm sorry, I came here today without saying anything, and I'm causing you trouble," her voice was soft, no different from the voice she used to admit when she made a mistake before: "I just want to congratulate everyone on winning the championship .”

Despite his doubts, he pursed his lips and softened his tone: "Yes."

Akashi whispered to her to call him when she got home, the world obediently answered, he checked the time, then turned his head to look at the three people who were as quiet as chickens in the lounge.

The world persuaded: "It's okay, go get busy."

Her observation of words and expressions has always been very useful to him, Akashi didn't think about it any more, let go of his hand and watched her leave.

The world walked out along the passage step by step. After a long time, she squeezed her palms tightly, and only then did she feel that there was almost no warmth between them.

Akashi stared at her weak back, until she melted into the light that seeped into the passage at the end, making his eyes unable to distinguish clearly, then slowly retracted his gaze, lowering his strange-colored eyes.

He turned around and took the two fans that Momoi Itsuki had already picked up.

With just one glance, Akashi couldn't help laughing, this was the first time he had shown such a soft expression since the game, Momoi Mayzuki couldn't help but feel relieved, she turned her head and looked inside the door where she was still sitting on the bench Shang Heizi Tetsuya.

While Momoi hesitated to speak, Akashi raised his eyes, the light in his eyes was brighter than before, like gorgeous fireworks blooming.

His voice was even more indifferent, making people have to crawl under his feet.

"Zhe will also figure it out, let him go."

The author has something to say: Oh, I think of what to say!

Some relatives asked me if I was going to abuse, in fact...probably, Akin said before that the world is a completely different person from Akashi, so now it’s time for the problem to arise, also write The reason why there is a psychological shadow in the world, I said a lot of nonsense, just want to say that I won’t abuse for too long, and maybe I will give sugar in the middle~

Another: love you~