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Before she could figure out what to do, she got a little drunk, couldn't think rationally anymore, only had the goal in her mind, and didn't have any idea how to get there-I'm going to put Alex to sleep, eh.

"Where are you going?" When walking down the narrow stairs of the bar, she lost her footing and fell forward, throwing herself on Qi Yu's back, "Iain't going anywhere!" The smell of alcohol hung on her neck, "It's cold, cold cold night..." Qi Yu, who was used to being estranged from others, suddenly felt a faint warm current in his heart, and stood still, "Yeshoney, what do yougonnado"

Someone came down from the upstairs, and the two of them moved down a bit to get out of the way. On the flat ground, Sarah still hung her neck, but switched to her chest and looked at her. This posture was a bit ambiguous, which attracted the sideways of passers-by.But Qi Yu didn't look at anyone, and looked at Sarah with a smile. She missed the faint warmth in her heart and hoped it would last longer.

Sarah smiled, leaned forward and kissed Qi Yu's cheek, "Take me home." "Alright," Sarah saw the momentary hesitation in her eyes, "But we will go your home."

When she got home, she plugged her phone into the stereo and played "OneLastTime". Qi Yu laughed and said how inappropriate, "and it's unlucky." .The single song was repeated until late at night, when Qi Yu turned off the stereo, there was the faint light of street lamps outside the curtains, and the sound of pattering rain.

"YouplaythiskittyjustlikeplayaFlamingoguitar." Saying this, Sarah stared at Qi Yu, whose outline was unclear in the dark, with dazed eyes.The two held their hands together over the still wet place.Qi Yu chuckled when he heard the words, "It's gonna be colder tomorrow." "So just hold me closer."

SET THE WORLD ON FIRE (2)

Qi Yu dreamed of Yushan in her dream as usual.That's why she didn't want to take Sarah back to her home, she didn't want to see new people in a familiar environment when she woke up in the early morning.She wants to keep things as they are.Can't change, change destroys one's own existence.

Sarah wasn't awake when she woke up.She spent the few minutes she was most sane - without adding any other considerations - to thinking about why she was intimate with Sarah.But her thinking was disturbed by a dream. In the dream, she dreamed of riding a horse with Yushan in the mountains. It seemed to be somewhere in the middle of the United States, a place she had been to—but it was driving at that time.The dream is happy and quiet, and she really hopes that this dream can last forever, but every time she wakes up, at the moment when her body temperature is still warm and her consciousness is as clear as surfacing.

Sarah seemed to have rolled over on the bed, but didn't wake up.She turned her head and saw Sarah's bare feet.It is still winter and the room is not warm.She reached out to help Sarah pull the quilt back, and tucked it in slightly.

Maybe it wasn't a desire for physical pleasure, she thought, or at least not.There should be something else.But do you want to accept it?she does not know.She has long understood that because of her only experience with Yushan, she actually doesn't know how to love and how to manage a normal relationship.After losing Yushan—especially to this extent—she began to wonder whether she still has the ability to love, or is she incapable of love?Or don't deserve to be loved at all?

Some things do not necessarily have to be forgiven, and there is no need to forgive, no matter whether the object is others or yourself.

She looked at Sarah on the bed, wondering if she should stay or leave.After hesitating, he went to the kitchen first and started breakfast.I thought that no matter whether I want to leave or stay, it should not be like today.Instead of thinking about it, why not make a cup of coffee.

Making breakfast is a very intimate act, she knows it.People who have no further ideas will leave directly after getting up.So she made a sandwich and coffee, ate it herself, left a note for Sarah telling her to keep the sandwich warm in the microwave, and left without a sound.

When she got home, she was holding a cup of decaf coffee and preparing to read a book. Sarah must have woken up. She sent her a photo on WeChat, a note, breakfast and hot coffee, "Sosweet", Sarah said.She didn't know how to answer.She thinks that being able to make breakfast for others is also a kind of progress. If friends hear it, they will definitely think so. After all, she has lived alone for nearly four years and has almost cut off all intimate relationships with other people, even her parents.Kind-hearted, still warm, but no longer open to the outside world, and no one can walk into her heart.

Looking at the pictures sent by Sarah, she was full of thoughts, converging into a silent river.

Sarah was over there, eating silently with a slight smile on her lips.A slight hangover surrounded her body, exuding a kind of satisfied exhaustion. She had hoped that Qi Yu would still be by her side when she woke up, and that would be a perfect morning.However, Qi Yu still left, which was as she expected and confirmed her guess from the side.But what could she do?She is not someone who is used to thinking about the future, especially things that cannot be controlled. She enjoys the present very much, so she played the song "Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman" again.

I still want to see you, I still want to go on.As long as you don't dislike me and leave me, I have no reason not to see you.

She listened to the singer's smoky voice and danced to the strumming of the flamenco-style guitar.Why do you go back to being like a piece of ice when you can play me such passionate songs?It's a pity that she and Qi Yu don't have any mutual friends.

But if God favors you, He will help you.Two days later, when Sarah invited her favorite student to drink milk tea and watch a movie, she suddenly met Qi Yu and her friend in the mall—the only one who was still willing to chat with her so far.The opportunity was not lost, and Sarah made friends with the other party and added WeChat with her face and her improved Chinese.Enough is enough, and she also understands that she will accept it as soon as it is good, expressing that she does not dare to disturb, and see you next time.When I turned to watch a movie with the students, the students asked her, teacher, is that your friend?

Sarah thought for a moment, "Kindaof."

I sure hope she's more than just my friend.

Consistent appointments are maintained throughout the winter months.They always go to drink and chat together, talk about the things around them or the movies they both like, and then go to Sarah's house for the night, and the next morning Qi Yu makes breakfast and leaves. Sarah didn't know whether she should be kept or not, so she could only struggle by herself.She did it early in the morning when the cold air was cooling down from the south, so Qi Yu started to have breakfast with her.

The closer the Chinese New Year is, the more leisure Sarah is on the winter vacation, and the two of them often stay at home for a day.On New Year's Eve, Qi Yu still went home, and she said that she still had to eat this meal anyway. Sarah also understands that being alone at home is boring.A while ago, Qi Yu was just a partner who stayed overnight, but now she can stay with her all day at home, and the two of them do nothing but watch movies and American dramas together, and even watch American reality shows, and complain together while watching.She tried her best to watch Chinese variety shows, but felt that her language skills could not keep up.Now that Qi Yu left, she was suddenly not used to the silence.Laughing to himself that he got stuck too early, and now he is in a disadvantageous situation.

She has no demands from Qi Yu but has expectations. It would be great if Qi Yu could stay with her. China.Qi Yu doesn't seem to care where he lives at all, and has all kinds of random income remitted to his account, but he doesn't look like a person who can leave at will.She thought Qi Yu was not that important, and neither was she.The vast loneliness of this small house now is not the case at all.

She was helpless.We can only wait and see.In Chinese, "wait and see" has a threatening connotation, as if there are still many things that can be done.In English, however, "wewillsee" has a sense of helplessness in it, as if there is not much you can do, and you can only live with the situation.

But Qi Yu came back at eleven o'clock on New Year's Eve. "Why did you come back?" Sarah didn't know that the words she used revealed her own thoughts, and also disturbed Qi Yu's heart. "...It's boring to stay there, and going back to my own home alone doesn't fit the atmosphere of the New Year. I thought of you alone, so I came." Qi Yu was still standing at the door, and the cold wind from the corridor was blowing in. , Sarah hugged her and forgot to close the door.

On the hour, someone set off fireworks. Sarah stood in front of the window watching happily, and Qi Yu just made supper. "