How many buildings are in the mist

Cui Xuanji couldn't remember how many times he woke up.Every time I wake up is accompanied by pain, but I always fall asleep with pain and pain.Sometimes she had a slightly lucid dream, in which she repeatedly said to herself, wake up soon, but she just couldn't wake up.Sometimes she had very confused dreams, dreaming that she was either still on the battlefield and was shot into a hedgehog by the enemy's arrows; or she was still in the palace and heard that something happened to Feng Zihuan, but she could not find Fengzi Huan.

This time it was completely awake.Originally, she was about to sleep and wake up, feeling that someone was wiping her body, even though the movement was extremely light, it still hurt the wound.The pain woke her up and she began to discern her surroundings.He gradually heard a human voice, and then recognized that it was his mother, and then opened his eyes with difficulty.

The mother wept excitedly, and someone outside heard it and made a sound of ecstasy.And she could only lie down, feeling pain from every wound on her body with every breath.She found that the only part of her body that could move freely without pain was her neck.Why is there still medicine on this face?

When Feng Zihuan's voice came over, she felt excited and happy at first, and then felt inexplicably sad.She remembered that Feng Zihuan had been by her side during the days when she was half asleep and half awake.It seemed that several times, when she woke up in pain and couldn't speak, all she saw when she opened her eyes was Feng Zihuan's face, either nervous, or forced to smile, as if there were tears in her eyes.She didn't know that the one with tears was because she had a high fever for several days, and things for her funeral were even prepared outside, and even Feng Zihuan was ready to say goodbye to her.

How long has she been asleep?Is Feng Zihuan okay?She only remembered that Feng Zihuan hugged her and shouted her name. Was Feng Zihuan injured?How does she feel physically now?Why is mother here?What about others?

Feng Zihuan came in, fidgeting around, wanted to hug her but couldn't, so he could only gently hold her hand and ask her how she felt.She took a breath and said weakly: "It's okay... I don't know, Your Majesty... how are you?"

Feng Zihuan's tears fell on her cheeks, "I'm fine, I'm fine." Then he turned around and called the imperial physician over, but the crowd stepped aside again, and the imperial physician sounded the pulse to check the wound.Only Feng Zihuan's tear still remained on her face.

why are you cryingShe saw Feng Zihuan retreating reluctantly, and her mother came closer.She wanted to say don't go, but she didn't have the strength; gradually regaining her senses, she also felt that it was really inappropriate to say it on such an occasion, after all, she was nothing.So while the imperial physician was making diagnosis and treatment, she asked her mother, how long have I been asleep?What happened on the fifth day of the first lunar month is now the third day of the second lunar month.Why is mother here?Your aunt sent a letter to our house, saying that something happened to you in the palace, the situation is dangerous, let us come and prepare.

Even though my mother said it lightly, she guessed that she had prepared for the worst.

However, Lu Shi smiled through tears and said, "Oh, you don't know. At that time, there were five coffins prepared. Let me pick them out. I said I really couldn't pick them out, so let's put them all away. It will depend on whether it is the first day or the tenth day of the junior high school." Fifth, decide which one to use. As a result, you can’t use it anymore. You don’t need to thank you for your mother, but you should thank His Majesty for saving you with all his strength, and thank the two empresses for finding medicine for you at any cost. Also remember to thank these five coffins, none of them want to put you in it!"

She wanted to say to keep them and see when I would go in, but there was no strength, the pain took over.

Physician Qin said that it seems that her wound is no longer inflamed, but the healing is not ideal, and the condition of the bones is not optimistic. The internal injury has only healed a little bit, and the next step is to start to shovel off the flesh and blood on the wound. All grow back.Looking at Imperial Physician Qin's face, she felt that Imperial Physician Qin was a little older than before.Doctor Qin noticed her gaze, smiled and said to her: "In short, congratulations to General Zhonglang, it can be said that he has crossed a hurdle and returned from the gate of hell."

As soon as the imperial doctors left, another group of people came in not long after.Besides her mother and Feng Zihuan in front of her, she also heard the voices of Feng Zizhang and Cui Yi behind her.Feng Zihuan's face was full of ecstasy, while lamenting that she was awake, and at the same time ordered people to prepare food and drink, while talking about how to nourish her, shaking his head and apologizing to her while talking.She didn't have time to say anything, Xie Yan's voice came from behind the crowd, saying that there is an important military aircraft and His Majesty needs to come over quickly.Feng Zihuan didn't move, but turned her head to speak. She tried to move her left hand and patted the back of Feng Zihuan's hand, "Your Majesty, go. Don't delay important matters for me."

Feng Zihuan turned to look at her, she had never seen such emotions in Feng Zihuan's big eyes - sadness, worry, nostalgia, reluctance, humbleness.

"I'll be fine," she added.

Xie Yan urged helplessly, so Feng Zihuan had no choice but to go.

When the footsteps stopped, she immediately asked to see Imperial Physician Qin, expressing that she wanted some painkillers.He talked to his mother about what happened during his coma.Lu Xi said it all without thinking.She listened to how Feng Zihuan was worried about himself, how he used all available means to save his life, how he sent her true energy day by day, how he kept complaining about his illness and refused to guard him until now: she felt heartwarming, and then felt sour .There was a voice in her heart saying, look, Feng Zihuan loves you, but she just didn't say it out, she didn't face her heart directly, now that she understands, you should accept it too.However, this voice is too weak, and a louder voice is saying: Feng Zihuan doesn't know whether she loves you or pity you. If it's out of pity and not true love, then it's nothing but a crime; What will happen to Feng Zihuan, you have to stay calm, don't let her impulsiveness stir up your heart, don't accidentally let both of them fall into a new hell.

Maybe you don't love me, you just think you love me.

Later, when Feng Zihuan came back, she sent her mother away, leaving her alone with Feng Zihuan, and then began to persuade Feng Zihuan to return to court, the reason was that she was awake now, and her mother was also there, Your Majesty There is no need to guard her side every day, not to mention that it is still a time of war, the first month has passed, and being old will also affect morale.Feng Zihuan was surprised when he heard the words, and Cui Xuanji tried to persuade him, but he couldn't breathe for a while and coughed lightly, Feng Zihuan immediately agreed in fright, "Okay, I will resume court tomorrow, don't worry."

Cui Xuanji said in his heart that I was not in a hurry, but he couldn't say it.She had never been so weak in all her life.

Feng Zihuan asked her how she felt now, and she said that it still hurts, but she took the medicine given by Imperial Physician Qin, and it didn't hurt as much as before.Not long after Feng Zihuan looked at her, his eyes turned red again: "Thinking about that day, it was really... terribly terrifying, at a critical moment. I dare not even imagine what would happen if something went wrong at that time."

Cui Xuanji smiled, "How could he be allowed to think about the situation at that time? Anyway, I am here now, and His Majesty doesn't need to think about it anymore. There are no ifs and no what-ifs."

Feng Zihuan said: "Do you know the reason for this?"

"What reason?"

Feng Zihuan then told all about Dou Mi.

Cui Xuanji was silent for a long time after listening.Feng Zihuan was still blaming himself: "Actually, it's all my fault, not others. If I hadn't kept you by my side and given you such a great responsibility, how could you have been harmed by others."

Cui Xuanji stopped and said: "Your Majesty, what are you talking about, it's all—"

"You should do it. I know, but why is it not hindered by the status of the emperor? If I were not the emperor, you would not have to risk your life to save me, and even these things would never happen..."

Cui Xuanji said helplessly: "Your Majesty... Even if it wasn't Your Majesty, I would give my life to save something like this."

Feng Zihuan raised his head, Cui Xuanji saw the light in those eyes, but felt a burst of heartache.It seems that a person who has been blind for a long time suddenly sees, and the eyes are stung by the sun.

So she interrupted what Feng Zihuan wanted to say next, and directly suggested that Feng Zihuan go to rest early, and she was going to sleep too.Even though Feng Zihuan felt a little strange, he went anyway.

In the next month, although Feng Zihuan apparently reduced the number of times he came to see her due to the busy state affairs, he still treated her attentively.There are so many tonics delivered every day that she feels guilty after seeing it.If Imperial Physician Qin hadn't come forward to control her and said that no matter how much she wanted tonic, she would not be able to act like this, she would have been strangled to death by this endless soup.Cui Yi and Xie Yan came to visit that day, and she asked, how is the battle going now?The two told the truth, and she immediately said: "The war has not subsided, and I just consume resources like this. Whether it is important medicinal materials and supplements or human and material resources for transportation, they should be used to support the war. How can they be used on me?"

Cui Yi and Xie Yan looked at each other, saying that it was all the emperor's own money, and they could only persuade them, but they couldn't control it.Cui Xuanji asked Feng Zihuan what he did before, and the two knew they had nothing to hide, so they had to tell the whole story.After hearing this, Cui Xuanji persuaded Feng Zihuan not to do so when she saw Feng Zihuan again that night, saying that if the outside world thinks that the royal family is doing everything they can to save me alone, will the reputation of the royal family and His Majesty be lost?

Feng Zihuan didn't want to argue with her, so he said that you deserved to take back Guangling.Sure enough, Cui Xuanji blocked it with "what should be done with a degree".Before Feng Zihuan said anything, Cui Xuanji said that she was just a suggestion, she didn't want to and could not criticize the emperor's actions, as long as the emperor listened to it, that's good, otherwise, she had no choice.

Are you mad at me?You are mad at me.Feng Zihuan felt at a loss, she felt that her trump card was taken away by Cui Xuanji silently, even though she thought about it, Cui Xuanji gave her the trump card in the first place.

Feng Zihuan sighed and said: "Xuan Ji, I didn't mean that. I just feel guilty for you. After all, your injuries are... all caused by me. I just want to make up for the mistakes I made. I used to I have done too many things that I owe you. Although you and I have been harmed by others in the past year, I did not control my temper and acted my own way. It is my fault that you have suffered so much for no reason. Now I will -"

"Your Majesty—" Cui Xuanji wanted to sit up, but Feng Zihuan hurried up to help him, "You didn't do anything that owed me, and it wasn't your fault. Your Majesty knows, and I know, we do what we want. In the final analysis, the thing is right, but the method may be wrong, so there is no need to blame yourself for a little setback."

"Xuanji..."

"Your Majesty, I have an unfeeling request. I hope Your Majesty will grant you."

"Is there anything I can't allow you now? Tell me."

"In that case, Your Majesty, please allow me to resign from the post of Habayashi Churo, and leave the palace and go home to recuperate within five days."

Feng Zihuan was almost stunned.

"Xuan Ji, if you think I've done it, I'll cut it down. We'll talk about it when you've almost used up the ones you bought before. Today, Imperial Physician Qin also told me that you can change your medicine, myrrh and frankincense would greatly reduce—”

"His Majesty."

"..."

"Your Majesty, you just said that you want permission."

"Xuan Ji...why are you leaving?"

"One thing is that I am so injured that it is difficult to return to normal activities within a year. I don't know how long it will take until I recover enough to perform my duties. Obviously, I am no longer suitable for this position. I have chatted with my aunt, Xie Yan and the two ladies. Now, Wubao is doing very well, His Majesty can consider letting him take over. Second, I am just an official of the court after all. Even if I couldn’t be moved to another place because I was injured too badly at the beginning, I can do it now .Staying in the palace is against etiquette."

Feng Zihuan closed his eyes and took a deep breath, "It will be easier for the imperial physicians to treat you if you stay in the palace, isn't it?"

Cui Xuanji replied weakly: "Your Majesty, I am just an ordinary courtier. It is already presumptuous to allow so many imperial physicians to guard me. In the long run, it will not benefit your Majesty and me at all. Besides, I am much better now. It’s moved. If Your Majesty is worried, give the imperial physicians a chance to visit me every few days.”

Feng Zihuan didn't speak, and Cui Xuanji didn't urge them, the two of them just remained silent, and the stars in the sky were also silent.

On the same day, when Cui Xuanji woke up and regained his sanity, Feng Zihuan was still outside discussing the form of quelling the rebellion with everyone, saying how to surround the remaining rebels, whether to force them to surrender or to eliminate their remaining forces.Feng Zihuan was undecided, and immediately stopped thinking about these things after hearing Cui Xuanji's voice.The way to go inside was reduced to a few short steps under her wild running.She was so ecstatic and grateful when she saw Cui Xuanji's eyes look the same as before. This is the treasure of her life, and now she has lost it and found it again.For more than a month, every time she went to see Cui Xuanji, even though Cui Xuanji continued to persuade her, she never got angry, and accepted everything she ordered, being obedient and gentle unlike usual.

She just vaguely felt that Cui Xuanji was a little strange, as if he was avoiding her in his words.No matter whether she shows favor or weakness, the words that would make Cui Xuanji blush in the past can no longer add color to her pale face, and she will not be moved by what she thinks will move Cui Xuanji.Feng Zihuan once worried that the contrast between his front and back was too great, which made Cui Xuanji flattered.But whether it's out of protecting her own dignity, or because she feels that the current situation has gone through hardships, she should cherish each other. She didn't say anything about her sincerity, her thoughts, and her difficulties. She just wanted to show Cui Xuanji her own. action.

You see, I have reformed myself, I want to cherish you, can we connect like broken bones?

"I disappointed you." Feng Zihuan said, "It was what I did before that broke your heart. I'm sorry."

"Your Majesty, that's not what I meant, I—"

"Xuan Ji, during the days when you were unconscious, I thought a lot." Feng Zihuan sat beside Cui Xuanji's bed, his brows were lightly frowned, his eyes were reddish, "I think about our beginning, our beginning, and my memory. What we have experienced, thinking about the things I did to you, thinking about your no regrets. I gradually understand that in this world, what I can do and hold on to is actually very limited, time is even more limited, and the rest of my life Li, I don't want to live like before, and I don't want to... your sincerity is in vain. You have done too much for me because you love me, and now it's time for me to do something for you. So, Xuan Ji, Let's start again, shall we?"

Feng Zihuan didn't see the slightest bit of joy in Cui Xuanji's eyes, so he felt terrified, and immediately added: "Give me a chance, let me try to love you too, okay?"

Cui Xuanji remained silent, and Feng Zihuan's heart sank slowly.

"Your Majesty, why? Is it because of pity that I was hurt, or because I feel that the world is impermanent? If it is because I feel that the world is impermanent, and I want to cherish the present, the me in front of your majesty is me, the me that your majesty thinks, or the Queen's substitute ?”

"Xuan Ji, I..."

"Your Majesty, are you really sure that what you love is me, not someone else's shadow, or some phantom you thought? If you still have the shadow of the queen in your heart and haven't been freed from it, we don't have to worry about it because of our momentary weakness. Torturing each other. If Your Majesty doesn't really love me, we will avoid possible sadness, despair and hardship in the future, so it's best not to start."

Feng Zihuan hated himself so much that he had nothing to say at the moment.

"Your Majesty, let me go, and let yourself go."