How many buildings are in the mist

"Ok?"

"your hands."

Feng Zizhang's voice was very low, as if afraid of being heard.But there was no one outside the house for several feet, since she lived with Xie Yan, no one dared to approach the bedroom at night.Whatever happens, don't make trouble anyway, right?

Sometimes people's shame doesn't care whether there are others watching. In the bottom of my heart, I am my only and biggest onlooker.

"Ah, I—" Xie Yan was already close to falling asleep, and now his mind was blurred, what hand?Where?In fact, her hand was indeed still on Feng Zizhang's waist. At this time, she didn't take it up in a daze, but stroked it up and down.When the skin touched the calluses on Xie Yan's palms from practicing martial arts, Feng Zizhang gasped and his heart beat like thunder.

"you--"

As a result, she took it away, and she suddenly felt empty again.

"what happened?"

She wanted to speak, but was speechless.What should I say?At this time, she was no longer the one who actively asked for kisses, and even these days when she was sleeping with Xie Yan in her arms, she refused to kiss on the couch.Otherwise she worries that she will lose control.The strange lingering desire that went straight to the top of her skull made her at a loss. It was a frenzy, and she was afraid.She forgot that she said it was torture to be close at hand but not being able to touch it, she forgot that she said it was time-saving, and when she was sober, she would despise her courage when she thought about it, but unfortunately her courage must rely on reason no matter what.Who said Xiaobie was better than a newlywed?Thinking of it makes me annoyed, if Xie Yan hadn't gone to Nankang, maybe they would have already followed them... After Xie Yan came back, hugging each other tightly and kissing, she realized that each other's lips were swollen, Almost hurt each other.It was the pain that brought her back to her senses, and she found herself on the verge of madness.

There was a trace of hesitation in her eyes, Xie Yan must have noticed it.

Since then, Xie Yan has been able to remain quite a gentleman, holding his hand very well, even though he occasionally hopes that she will not be so gentleman in his heart, and occasionally fears that she is not a gentleman.As a result today...

Xie Yan's hand could easily ignite himself.A raging fire must be beautiful, she knew, but it was fire.

What is rationality and what is sensibility?Why are some people sometimes extremely rational to the point of cruelty, and other times emotional to the point of madness?She once asked her mother, are we so out of control?The queen mother laughed for a while, and then said to her, "Zhang'er, you might as well understand it this way. A person's soul is like a hill, his rationality is like the wind, and his sensibility is like rain. No matter how violent the wind blows, it can at least sculpt the stones on the mountain." ;The rain falls violently, but it can form a mountain torrent, covering every inch of land in the mountain {128}. Sometimes the wind comes, and sometimes the rain comes. As the mountain itself, it cannot ask for wind and rain. Sometimes it will rain , what are you doing about it?"

"But--"

"But? It's nothing but. Although sometimes the wind is too strong and the trees are blown down, and the rain is too heavy to wash away the soil, but..." There was an emotion in the Queen Mother's eyes that she didn't understand at the time, "It's fine to let them go, after all, you, Not the Buddha. Wind and rain are necessary, after the wind and rain, you will be a better you."

Raindrops fell and spread across the land.

She turned around and faced Xie Yan, stretched out her fingers and gently stroked the familiar outline with her fingertips.

"I don't know," she replied.

This silhouette is soft and handsome, from the first time she saw Xie Yan, she admitted that it was a creation blessed by God.After a long time, emotions attached to it, she can only say that this face is cute, she can't think of other words, and is always confused by it.

She leaned forward and gently kissed Xie Yan's cheek, then moved to the bridge of the nose, the tip of the nose...

"Hmm." Xie Yan opened his closed eyes again, his hands and feet moved as if he had self-awareness, turned over instantly, moved up and down, the remaining rationality could only control himself not to use too much force.

You are a fairy descended from the heavens, with magical powers, you can transform me from a human into a beast in an instant.Or I'm a bundle of firewood, and you're lamp oil, and you're about to fall and set me on fire, and I'll collapse and bury you.Frenzy and obsession are like a saw and a sharp blade, opening a hole several inches long in my mind, my altar, and my soul, and I melt with it, I am roasted so that I must melt, I will melt myself and then you Melt into my arms, and after cooling we will be one, never to be apart.

No, we won't cool, we'll keep burning, keep warm, keep in this sweet semi-melt.

Fengzizhang feels like being in the waves.She has seen the sea, blue or turbid.She has always wondered why the waves never stop.But at this moment she has no time to think, at this moment she just hopes that the waves sweeping her will not stop.There was a warm breeze blowing over her ears and body, and a warm current slowly injected into her limbs, and finally gathered at the heart and started to burn, making the heart work crazily.She heard herself panting, making a strange voice, and hearing Xie Yan panting beside her ears, she finally opened her eyes and saw Xie Yan's eyes lost focus, staring at her dully, and then she was taken away by the waves and heat, closing her eyes eyes.

I was thrown into the sea, I didn't know how to swim, my hands and feet were limp, I was thrown back and forth with the waves, I didn't know what to do.Then I saw you, grabbed you, hugged you like the only driftwood for survival, and let the waves keep throwing you and me higher and higher. I need to hold you tight and hold you tight until we Together they were washed ashore safely.

"Zizhang, Zizhang..." Xie Yan still called her name in her ear, but she had no energy to answer.

I have burned, and now I can only hear the soft crackle of the firewood in my head.

The next day Feng Zizhang still got up to go to the morning court, although he was almost unable to get up at all.Xie Yan woke up earlier than her, so he helped her get up, wash, dress, get in the car, and accompanied her to the gate of the palace.She looked tired, but kept smiling and asked Xie Yan to serve her.When Xie Yan brought her the court clothes, she lazily said, "Although... I'm bothering you, shouldn't this be what you did?"

Xie Yan laughed out loud, knowing that she was fine. "Yes, I should do it all. It's fine if it's like this all my life."

When she came out, Xie Yan was still waiting for her in the car. "Eh? Did you leave so early today?"

"Yeah. I told my sister that I'm not feeling well, so I'll go back and rest first."

"His Majesty……?"

"She... didn't see it." Feng Zizhang replied in a low voice, let the ox cart go away, and leaned on Xie Yan's shoulder.The ox cart is covered with curtains, so they are not afraid of being seen by others.

"My sister is full of thoughts about someone being assassinated, and she is going to make a big search. It's hard for me to keep it. I discussed it with Cui Xiang, and I'm going to come back first to draw up the list."

Xie Yan put one arm around her shoulder, and put the stove into her hand with the other. "A large-scale search? Didn't you say yesterday that there was no pursuit at all? What are you searching for? I'm afraid they would have already run away."

"Didn't it mean that I searched the mountains at night, and now I want to search the city. Alas, my sister is just angry and needs to be persuaded. The little official suspected of snitching has already been killed in Ting Wei's prison. Wei was also dismissed early in the morning. Guess who my sister promoted?"

"Who?"

"Xiao Pei."

"Tsk, His Majesty took the initiative to dismiss Zhou Xuan??"

"No, it was suggested by Gu Heng."

Xie Yan laughed, "Isn't this digging a hole for myself?"

"He probably didn't expect his sister to be like this."

"He didn't object?"

"No."

"It seems that I didn't think about the next move."

Feng Zizhang nestled in his lover's arms like a cat, very comfortable, closed his eyes, and murmured at this moment: "You say that, do you doubt that others don't doubt Gu Heng?"

"I don't doubt it, because Gu Heng is too old and cunning to do such a thing. I'm afraid someone else is the mastermind."

"Sun Family?"

Feng Zizhang also felt stupid after speaking, Xie Yan smiled even more, lowered his head and kissed her forehead: "Are you tired, or are you stupid, huh?"

"Oh, it's your fault for making everyone in the Sun family look like idiots."

"It's not my fault, their family is obviously a family of idiots."

"Then who else do you think is behind?"

Just as he was talking, the car stopped, Xie Yan got out of the car first, and then helped Feng Zizhang down.While enjoying her service, Feng Zizhang whispered: "You... I haven't just given birth."

"Hey," Xie Yan protested softly, "It wasn't like this before? I'll be like this every day from now on. Always like this."

After getting out of the car and walking inside, Feng Zizhang let go of her hand indiscriminately, but her body moved a little closer, almost touching back and forth, "Say forever if you don't move, how to win people's trust."

Seeing that there was no one around after entering the gate of the palace, Xie Yan pressed Feng Zizhang's ear to protest: "Oh, last night you—"

Feng Zizhang pinched the back of her hand and swallowed the words as expected.

Seeing the two of them from afar, Hui Yuxin said that I saw that the bed sheets for you two were not enough, and I still ran into such a scene.

The two were unaware of Huiyu's sighting, and walked to the back garden to have a rest and eat.After the meal, take out the list to discuss.Feng Zizhang asked: "You said, let Yang Liang check Jian'an and Peng Shu check Yongjia, is that okay?"

"Do I think so? I don't think so well."

"why?"

"Yang Liang is serious. In a place like Jian'an where the water is deep and the water is muddy, I'm afraid it won't be handled well. Not only will it offend people, but you won't be able to find out why. The treacherous tricks of others, in the end ruined the court's reputation."

"In your opinion, what should these two people do, and who should be sent to these two places?"

Xie Yan changed her to a cup of hot tea first, thinking while changing, "I think, since Yang Liang can't go out, it's better for Peng Shu to be sent to Kuaiji."

"It's a waste of your own territory to send such a person there."

"I'm innocent, it's not like you haven't seen the Chen family before."

"Yang Liang is highly valued by his sister. If Xiao Pei hadn't been there today, he would have been promoted."

"I guess His Majesty promoted Xiao Pei because Xiao Pei advocated harsh punishments and strict laws many times. It is not only for deterrence, but also because it will be more effective in the future. People take advantage of him. If His Majesty insists on him making contributions, then choose an easier place for him, such as Yuzhang?"

Feng Zizhang laughed, "What merits can be built in Yuzhang! Cui Xiang told me today that Yuzhang can send the most useless people, and the Cui family will definitely cooperate and report the truth."

"Auntie, what else did she say?"

"Tell me to prepare two sets of plans, because His Majesty will definitely modify it and be ready to make suggestions."

"Didn't you tell her you were going to bed early in the morning?"

Feng Zizhang glanced at her, "I'm not you, so I like to ask for credit."

"I'm only asking for credit. Seriously, you can send people like Yang Liang anywhere, but you can't send them to places where the local forces are deeply rooted. Otherwise..."

"otherwise?"

"Otherwise, making meritorious deeds is not a small matter, but making troubles is a big matter."

Feng Zizhang chuckled lightly, a little contemptuously, "Huanzi, isn't it too big now? You haven't finished talking to me just now, it wasn't Sun Mu who murdered Fengxi, who could it be?"

"It's hard to say. It can only be said that relying on the means of the Sun family, or they dare not, or they simply can't plan it. But apart from him, there are too many people who can doubt it."

"Both the guts and the means, and if it's not your Cui Xie family, others are possible?"

"You know that too, why ask me?"

Feng Zizhang looked up at the sky, "You say that, it makes me feel that I don't need to be too careful on the list."

"Why?" Xie Yan asked curiously.

"Anyway, this matter has angered the big clan. Although it's just a battle of spirits, it's not clear what's going to happen. These conspiracies and plots have already been made, and swords have been mobilized; the court and the royal family can't lose at all, and we must show this matter. It depends on our determination. Only those who are willing to do, dare to do practical things, and never hide anything from anyone can participate in these things.”

Xie Yan sat up straight and said solemnly, "However, you also have to think that if this matter is not handled properly, it may divide the world instead, and the aristocratic clan will oppose the royal family and the imperial court."

"It's not that I haven't thought about it, it's just that if we retreat, the world won't be divided? Many aristocratic clans are not like your two families, they are betting on both sides between confrontation and cooperation. You know, even you and Cui Xuan Ji, in the eyes of my sister, I still have suspicions of hedging. After thoroughly investigating the facts, the actual situation obtained can be used as a warning like the previous family meeting. We can also operate on how to deal with it later , so as not to immediately become tense. Perhaps it can be like Tian Ji’s horse racing, when the time comes, give her sister two strategies, and then discuss with her. Cui Xiang, me, you, and Cui Xuanji should be able to make her get a middle strategy .”

Xie Yan nodded in approval, "Yes. Does your aunt say the same?"

"No, I'm just guessing that she thinks the same way. It's just that she hasn't told me directly now."

"Then I'll ask tonight. It's inconvenient for you to go directly. I can always go to see my aunt."

"If you go, doesn't that mean I'm going? Also, I have to ask you, do you think it is necessary to assign people to follow these inspectors?"

"Follow? Are you afraid of being blocked by the place?"

"nature."

Xie Yan thought for a while and said, "I'm afraid His Majesty should bring this up by himself. She will bring it up sooner or later. Think about what you saw along the way, even if it's just those. According to our current plan, let the inspector It is already very serious for the officials to report the truth sentence by sentence. Your Majesty knows, but you don’t know how to be angry. You don’t think, maybe it’s the trivial things you saw in Kuaiji that made His Majesty decide to do these things in a year. ?”

Feng Zizhang shook his head and sighed, looking at the list in his hand, there were sketches on it, and the names of people in several places had already changed several times, "Maybe. I didn't think so before, but now that I think about it, I think it's not necessarily what it is. It’s a good thing. But it’s also bad if you’re not upright. Alas, why is the world like this?”

"So what?"

"It's like a terminally ill person. A person who can influence the state affairs should take responsibility, but he only has himself in his heart, and only seeks personal gain, or even harms one party."

Xie Yan smiled and said: "It's normal to be self-serving, and it's extraordinary not to be self-serving but for the country. What's more, it didn't take long from the time when the first emperor was ordered to travel south, when he was enthroned in danger, and then passed on to His Majesty. , so the local power is strong; the royal family has to cooperate with the big clan to achieve stability, it is all about mutual compromise and tolerance. Ordinary people, how can we expect them to think like gentlemen and scholars?"

Feng Zizhang looked at the birds circling in the sky, then stood up from his seat and walked to the center of the courtyard, "So people can't rely on it for a long time, they can only rely on a reasonable system. Unfortunately, it is always difficult to establish a system, or if it is established, Rotten and rigid, and hard to change."

"Oh, you still have me."

"Yeah, I still have you, you..."

"Ok?"

"You are unique in the world."

"Well, of course it is. Your only one."

"I really didn't want to take care of these things at first. Now that I see you, I feel I have to."

"can not watch anymore?"

"Well. I don't want to be a hero, but in this situation, this is probably my destiny."

Xie Yan looked at her figure, almost lost in thought. "I've never seen you like this."

"Ok?"

Xie Yan was moved by Feng Zizhang's firmness, so he also got up from his seat, "Your Majesty, I will be worshiped by you." As he said this, he was about to kneel down, but Feng Zizhang smiled and pulled her, "You know, I only have You are a courtier. And I have a hard time ahead."

"Yes, no matter what the way ahead, let the Lord send you."

"it is good."

Feng Zizhang pulled her up, then leaned into her arms.

The author has something to say:

{128} The best explanation that can be applied to changes in rationality and sensibility is actually brain science, hypothalamus, amygdala, and hippocampus.Rationality is the normal operating mechanism under normal circumstances, but sensibility is not, especially sensibility is more affected by hormones.Man himself is still an animal.