Smoke like Ting ABO

"I think you're driving a little too fast."

Lu Yanting pulled on his seat belt, and squeezed out a word from his throat.

Their car was driving on the road below the mountain and facing the sea, the sky was getting late, and the twilight in the distance was filled with smoke and clouds.It's a long detour back to the city from here, and there are basically no cars in front and behind. This should be a journey full of safety.

The speed of the car was actually not fast, but Lu Yanting's heart was beating very hard. He knew that the atmosphere was wrong, and Qu Ruping shouldn't be in such a state that he had never seen before. He had been thinking wildly for most of the way.Qu Ruping never said a word, Lu Yanting occasionally glanced at him secretly, Qu Ruping's non-smiling appearance was not gentle enough, it could even be regarded as indifferent, but he had no chance to find out in the past.

The speed of the car slowed down, but Qu Ruping still didn't speak.

Lu Yanting glanced at him uneasily, and had nothing to say: "The weather forecast says there will be snow tomorrow."

He bites the word "snow" lightly, there seems to be a thin film in the air, and if the voice is too loud, it will pierce something, which makes Lu Yanting subconsciously control his voice.

At this moment, Qu Ruping said the first words since driving, he was calling him: "Lu Yanting."

They have known each other for so long, and Qu Ruping has never called him by his full name directly.Lu Yanting's eyes turned hot, and she hurriedly looked out the window.

Qu Ruping is emotionless, his facial features appear illusory in the twilight, his voice is like an old tree hanging from the sky, gloomy and cold: "Can you tell the difference between drama and reality?"

After he finished asking this sentence, Lu Yanting always felt that the sunset in front of him dimmed in an instant, the cold winter night pressed the last wisps of smoke on the horizon, and the icy sea rolled over and rolled down The waves made Lu Yanting's eardrums buzz.

He knew he was trying to cheer him up, he didn't want to think they were arguing.

So Lu Yanting opened her mouth and said with difficulty: "The play is fake."

——"Variety shows are also fake."

Lu Yanting suddenly looked at Qu Ruping, and almost shouted: "You are true, and I am true to you!"

His voice was hoarse, and there seemed to be the sound of trivial insects in his ears.Thousands of scenes flashed through the window on the side of the Quruping, and finally merged into psychedelic colors and passed away. The outline of the Quruping also became blurred, as if it would be pulled away with them at any time.

Lu Yanting lowered her hand dejectedly, and said blankly: "How can he compare with you? I won't like him just because of this drama..."

"Just like how you liked me back then."

Qu Ruping's addition has a kind of peace that belongs to death.

Lu Yanting's eyes were red, and he said eagerly: "Do you think so? You..."

He quickly realized that this wasn't an argument.

Qu Ruping is too calm, no one will be so calm when they quarrel.He seems to have already seen the direction of the future, and he controls all of Lu Yanting's emotions.

Lu Yanting was aggrieved to the point of despair, he suddenly realized that he might never have understood Qu Ruping.

"you do not believe me."

These words were extremely naive, illogical, and without counterattack, Lu Yanting huddled up in pain on the seat.

But this time Qu Ruping didn't feel sorry for him anymore, what he said was like a dense night fog, and the moonlight passed through it, giving people a gentle and lingering pain: "Speaking of these words, do you believe it yourself?"

"What about you?" Lu Yanting quickly asked him as if losing his mind, "Why did you suddenly say you wanted to pick me up? Aren't you busy a few days ago? Why do you have time again, just these two days?"

This is not a fair confrontation, Qu Ruping remained sober all the time: "What do you want to say?"

At that time, Lu Yanting still had a sliver of reason, and he ordered himself to pause for a while before speaking.

"He's coughing up blood."

Lu Yanting said with a slight chill, "The shift was closed long ago because he coughed up blood, so he just left, maybe he went to the hospital."

Punching heavily on the cotton, Qu Ruping responded flatly and refused to reply.

Everything he does today seems to be on purpose

.

Lu Yanting couldn't take it anymore, he found that he didn't know Qu Ruping anymore, this feeling was too similar to the powerlessness brought to him by acting recently, he was hysterical in the cage of love, and Qu Ruping was quietly outside Watch him, don't hurt him, don't hug him.

"You are very sad, right? You love him very much." Lu Yanting said almost paranoidly, he seemed crazy, incoherent and aggressive, "You miss him, care about him, you still care about him, come to pick me up It's not because of me, it's because he joined the group these days, you came here just to see him, isn't that right?"

He didn't think he was insane, he was aware of the lack of tolerance and faith in what he said, but he didn't care about it anymore.

He knew that Qu Ruping was not happy, he was not happy, he was always unhappy.

He couldn't breathe well, coughed violently, forced himself to hold his throat and asked him: "Do you know what kind of disease he is? Maybe he didn't tell you the truth at all. Seeing how serious he looks, have you ever thought about it?" Why on earth did he break up with you? He..."

Lu Yanting fell forward.

The car stopped without warning, Qu Ruping leaned back on the seat, thought for a while, and then drove the car to the side of the road.

Lu Yanting looked at him blankly, this pause made him forget what to say for a moment.

"I know more about his illness than he himself."

Qu Ruping's voice was cold, and he seldom spoke to Lu Yanting in this tone: "You guys have completely missed the point. If he and I won't be separated, we won't be separated no matter what, no matter..."

"It's impossible." As soon as these words came out, the gate broke completely, and Lu Yanting's voice was tinged with a strong nasal tone, "You have experienced everything for so many years, and you love him so much, why? I did it all. Now you really don't care about him at all? It's just that you are separated, so how can the person you loved have no feeling at all?"

"We..." Lu Yanting twitched the corner of her mouth, and asked him with a choked voice, "When we were together, did you think of him for a moment?"

He didn't understand why he became so harsh and serious, seeing Qu Ruping frowned slightly and wanted to say something, Lu Yanting turned his head away again, he wiped his face and said indiscriminately: "Forget it, you don't have to answer I."

When the words fall, it is quiet.

It turned out that the environment they were in was so quiet.

All the sounds that Lu Yanting heard, such as the drumming heartbeat and struggling to breathe, were so subtle that they could not be separated from the body.

His soul was weightless and heavy. He was looking at himself who was making trouble out of no reason and speaking indiscriminately. What Qu Ruping said, but he couldn't hear him. He covered his ears, curled up on the car seat, and clung to the The cold car window begged him with a crashing voice: "Let's go, let's not talk anymore..."

When Qu Ruping touched him, he broke free violently. At the back, he was crying, shaking his head and saying incoherently: "I want to go back, let's go back, you can just pretend that this never happened, okay?"

He regretted it.

He shouldn't have taken that movie, how did he end up like this?Haven't they already talked about it?Or, he is such a narrow-minded and suspicious person, destined to be so paranoid that he cannot have any beauty.

Qu Ruping quietly wiped his tears.

He said, "We'll talk again when you calm down."

So he ignored him, put down the handbrake with a sullen face, and lifted the clutch.

The car started up again, and Lu Yanting numbly pressed against the window, biting his fingers nervously.

His breath was lodged in the window and froze.Now that night was falling, darkness hung over them, and the sky was clouded. "It's not going to get better," he thought.

Lu Yanting trembled unconsciously.

Never again.

When they got home, Lu Yanting followed Qu Ruping into the door in a daze. He was a little shaky when he walked, and he slumped on the sofa in a daze.

The screen-like shadow was projected on the floor, looking distant and cold.

Lu Yanting tremblingly asked

Crying voice: "Teacher Qu, it seems that I can't do it."

Qu Ruping asked him: "Why not?"

"I can't seem to be with you anymore."

Lu Yanting pulled her hair with both hands, her back bent with a hollow gaze.

"I can not make it."

"You don't seem to be doing anything right..." Lu Yanting retched as he spoke, he was so painful that he was about to suffocate, he struggled to breathe and said, "Those are all in the past and can't be changed, but I still Mind, I really mind. Every day, every minute, every second, I mind. He has made you better, but what I want is not to sit back and enjoy the benefits. Why is it not me who affects you? I am not I'm a child, I can't always be whimsical, those are impossible, I'm too greedy, I want everything, I just want everything..."

"I know we have made it clear. I dare not ask any more. I am afraid that you will be impatient and think that I am not suitable for you. Maybe I will feel today that as long as the person next to you is me, then what? It's all good, I am the most satisfied, I didn't care about it before... But tomorrow I will think again, you have been together for so many years, how did you forget? I don't understand how you forgot?"

He still couldn't restrain himself and cried loudly.

Lu Yanting blushed from crying. He rubbed his eyes and said in a hoarse voice: "How much you loved him back then, you were sad to be separated from him. It's not that you don't love him anymore, but you know it's not suitable for him. , you just hide these loves, he is too important, you have to protect him in your heart..."

"It's been so long, I've told myself that you might..." Lu Yanting gradually squatted down on the ground, shrinking into a small ball, he was crying so sadly, his fingers were tightly pinched in the palm of his hand, and he spoke urgently Fierce, "You may only like me a little bit, you say, how can you be so calm when you like someone? Anyone can tell that you liked him before. When have I seen you like that? I really Jealousy, I'm dying of jealousy, I can't help it..."

This is not a crying method that needs to be coaxed, as if he just wanted to cry like this, but he cried so wronged and desperately, crying and crying, he raised his face and tried to open his eyes to look at Qu Ruping:

"Look, I don't even have any advantages that suit you now."

"I don't understand you at all, and I understand you."

"You don't want me anymore."

……

Lu Yanting staggered into the guest room and fell on the bed.

He didn't cry anymore after that, he opened his eyes in the dark night, watching the time go by little by little.

He still fell asleep, and at some point, with endless pessimism and loneliness, he fell heavily into the future without music like a screen.

Open your eyes, the sky is bright.

New day, it couldn't be more cute.

Lu Yanting couldn't believe what he did yesterday, it was over, his mind was full of these two cold words, it was over, there would be nothing more.

He closed his eyes with ashen face, hopeless to the extreme.

The finger moved a bit, something strange.

At that time, he lowered his head in despair and found a ring on his middle finger.