heavy evening light

It was getting dark gradually, but the movement of Xi Nan kneeling in front of the tombstone did not change a bit.

The cemetery was lit at night, and Xi Nan continued to stare at the photos on the tombstone by the street lights, without being frightened at all by the fact that it was getting late and there was no one else in the cemetery.

Xi Nan caught a glimpse of a figure beside him from the corner of his eye, guessing that Jiang Yueyue might be coming, but Xi Nan not only didn't speak, he didn't even lift his head, just looked at the group photo on the tombstone, and laughed out loud.

Throat is hoarse and hurts.

"It's getting late, should we go?" Jiang Yueyue asked, looking down at Xi Nan, smelling of cigarettes all over her body.

The heavy smell of cigarettes made Xi Nan frown, and he moved a little to the side indiscriminately, only to realize that his legs were numb, and he felt as uncomfortable as needle pricks when he moved.

Xi Nan's silence didn't make Jiang Yueyue back off. She paused and said, "This area is near the suburban area, and there are all kinds of people. It's not too safe at night."

Looking at the smiling Xiang Wanguang in the photo, several hours had passed, but Xi Nan still couldn't believe it was true.

A drop of tears fell unexpectedly, and hit Xiang Wanguang in the photo, blurring Xiang Wanguang's face.

Xi Nan was startled, flustered and anxiously raised his hand to wipe the tear, not wanting it to cover his gaze towards Wan Guang.But Xi Nan maintained one movement for too long, and this one was too big, so Xi Nan's movement was unsteady, and he went straight to knock on the tombstone.

Jiang Yueliang was taken aback, and quickly reached out to help, fearing that Xi Nan would knock on the tombstone.

Fortunately, Xi Nan reacted quickly and supported the edge of the tombstone, so he didn't really hit it.The sharp corners hurt Xi Nan's hand, but it was precisely this pain that brought Xi Nan back from his trance.

But it was the increasingly stinging palms that made Xi Nan realize the cruelty of reality very clearly. Xiang Wanguang, whom he had been thinking about for many years, left him before he returned to China.

Xi Nan didn't go to look at Jiang Yueyue, but lowered his head and stared at the small photo, with an indelible tenderness in his eyes.He raised his hand to caress Xiang Wanguang in the photo, not caring that Jiang Yueyue was still beside him, letting his tears fall straight down.

Tears blurred Xi Nan's vision, making him look at Wan Guang unrealistically, but the beautiful past scenes were clearly displayed in his mind.

Xi Nan suddenly remembered that during those years abroad, he actually had a chance to return to China, but he was afraid that his itinerary would be known by Xi Yuancheng, which would cause unnecessary trouble, so he suppressed his heartbeat until he grew up to the point where he no longer needed to worry. Restricted by Xi Yuancheng, he did not hesitate to buy a ticket to return home.

But he forgot that some things have passed that point and they no longer want to share, and some people who miss that time can only regret it for the rest of their lives.

Xi Nan couldn't resist Xiang Wanguang's gentleness before, but now the lethality of this gentleness is only increasing to Xi Nan.

Xi Nan suddenly lowered his head and did something that surprised Jiang Yueyue, but he himself never thought he would do it.Xi Nan kissed the photo devoutly.

"You..." Jiang Yueyue's eyes were full of surprise, and she hesitated to speak.

But Xi Nan was completely immersed in his own world, and didn't notice Jiang Yueyue's abnormality, "Sister Yue Yue, let's go first, I will stay by myself later."

"Here at night..."

"Sister Moon, I've missed it for seven years, why don't you let me stay here for a few more minutes?" Xi Nan interrupted Jiang Yueyue and said, "Besides, where else can I go if I'm not here?"

Xi Nan smiled wryly, afraid that Jiang Yueyue would be worried, and added, "I'll go back after a while, don't worry." Xi Nan said, "I will remember to send you a message when I get to the hotel."

Whether it was a good friend in the past, Jiang Yueyue stared at Xi Nan who had become quite decadent after only half a day, still felt a little distressed, and hesitated to say something.

It's just that Xi Nan was so exhausted that he couldn't distract himself from talking to Jiang Yueyue. All he wanted was to quiet down his surroundings so that he could sink into his own world, so as to temporarily escape from reality and avoid the truth that he didn't want to face.

Seeing Xi Nan's wishes, Jiang Yueyue hesitated again and again but said nothing. After telling Xi Nan to be careful, she turned and left.

As soon as Jiang Yueyue left, Xi Nan relaxed all over. Instead of kneeling, he stood up holding the tombstone, but he didn't leave, he just changed his position and continued to stay here.

Xi Nan sat down beside the tombstone, curled up into a ball, as if this would give him a little more sense of security.However, the cemetery was already gloomy and cool, and now that it was dark, the cemetery was even more gloomy and chilly, a little scary.

However, Xi Nan seemed to have forgotten that he was afraid of the dark and ghosts, and stood next to the tombstone, as if he had great courage to resist everything that frightened him.

But when the surroundings really quiet down, looking at the photos beside him by the street lights, the yearning for Xiang Wanguang is infinitely magnified, and even makes Xi Nan have the illusion that Xiang Wanguang is by his side.

Xi Nan, who had been crying all afternoon, could no longer shed tears from his eyes, but the pain in his heart still made his eyes sore and swollen.

Xi Nan hugged his legs tightly, turned his head and rubbed his shoulders lightly, trying to make himself look less decadent, but his red and swollen eyes and messy clothes made Xi Nan not a little bit of his usual dignity.

Xi Nan rubbed the corners of his eyes, turned his head to look at the photo again, stared at the smiling Xiang Wanguang in the photo, and the past flooded into his mind, causing Xi Nan to have a splitting headache.

He thought of the afternoon when he first met Xiang Wanguang, the tall and handsome boy politely refused the girl who confessed to him, but out of curiosity, he went over to tease him, and since then walked into Xiang Wanguang's life forcefully.

He thought of the kiss on the eve of being together again, and the gentle evening breeze from the moat, which moved Xi Nan who was chasing excitement, and wanted to grab Xiang Wanguang's hand just then.

But Xi Nan thought more about Xiang Wanguang's tenderness.It is this tenderness that permeates every aspect of his life that makes Xi Nan, who was raised in a free range, find a sense of belonging at home, and is even more like a child.

At that time, Xi Nan always thought how lucky he must be to meet Xiang Wanguang.

Just like the beauty will be interrupted suddenly, there will always be another direction after the memory.Xi Nan thought of the last time he and Xiang Wanguang met.

At the airport where people are coming and going, Xi Nan's first reaction when he saw Xiang Wanguang was to rush over to hug him, but Xi Yuancheng's words rang in his ears at the right time, making Xi Nan take back the steps he had taken, and had to think of a way to start again. Hurt Xiang Wanguang once.

And that boy was exactly what Xi Nan asked for help.

The ghost knows how much patience it took Xi Nan to finish those hurtful words to Xiang Wanguang with a blank face, and even after speaking, he could still keep smiling and talk to Xiang Wanguang under Xiang Wanguang's gaze. The boys chatted intimately for a while.

Even the boys couldn't help but praise Xi Nan for his good acting skills.

But what he didn't know was that after the plane took off, Xi Nan looked at the clouds outside the window, but disregarded his face and cried like a child who lost his home.

Because when he turned around with the boy, Xi Nan felt uncomfortable when he thought of Xiang Wanguang's look.

Xi Nan looked at the photo on the tombstone, his shoulders trembled, and he sobbed in a low voice, "Xiang Wanguang, I lied to you."

"I think you stick to me. If you don't want to, I can stick to you instead." Xi Nan's throat seemed to be rubbed by sand, and his voice was hoarse, "I want to hear you call me Nan Nan again."

The mention of a familiar nickname made Xi Nan once again realize how beautiful the past was, and how cruel it is now.With his forehead resting on his knees, he didn't think about anything for a while, letting himself be controlled by his emotions, and wept softly.

A man doesn't flick his tears lightly, but they don't reach the point of sadness. For Xi Nan, Xiang Wanguang is the softest place in his heart, and it's also his white moonlight cinnabar mole.

Jiang Yueyue didn't leave, just changed the car and parked, then leaned against the car, stared at Xi Nan who was huddled in the distance, and interrupted Cui Roo who was chattering on the phone, "... Is it right for us to do this? "

Cui Rong paused for a while, and fell silent after hearing Jiang Yueyue's words, and didn't speak again for a long time.

Jiang Yueyue, who took the initiative to ask this question, smiled and said before Cui Rong could answer, "I've already done this, why should I ask this question?"

"Didn't you go to Xiang Wanguang tomorrow? Tell him about it then." After a long silence, Cui Rong said, "Although he didn't want to..."

Cui Rong didn't finish his sentence, so he changed his words, "And now that Xi Nan is back, we really should let him know."

Jiang Yueyue glanced at Xi Nan who didn't look like a young master, sighed, and said, "That's the only way to go."