stop, don't move

After Shen Kaixing came out of the ward, he went to see Qiao Le. It was the first time in a long time that the two of them could be so calm.

After the conversation, Shen Kaixing went straight to the bar and ordered the strongest drink.

He poured bottle after bottle of wine into his belly, trying to get himself drunk, but he only felt his head became clearer.

His eyes were scarlet, he squeezed the bottle of vodka in his hand, and laughed idiotically, his laughter was like a wild animal weeping, sad and terrifying.

Shen Kaixing raised his head and took another big gulp, then threw the bottle in his hand violently.

The bottle shattered on the ground, and the small movement attracted the attention of the people around. Someone in the crowd sneered, "Drunkard".

These two words caught his ears, and made him laugh out loud again, the salty tears slipped down his mouth, he couldn't see his mess, he only hoped that he could really get drunk, let it go when he died drunk.

Forget it, everyone gets drunk if wine is not drunk.

Shen Kaixing stumbled out of the bar and sat on a bench in the park. A homeless man was sleeping next to him. He smelled the heavy alcohol smell around him, and he took a newspaper and left the bench in disgust.

Shen Kaixing stared at the front with blurred eyes, remained silent for a long time, and finally couldn't help covering his eyes and sobbing softly.

Jole... Jole.

Chen Qi in the ward was very weak, her face was calm and almost lifeless, when she saw Shen Kaixing coming, there was still a smile in her eyes, like a habitual joy, but it soon dissipated.

Shen Kaixing had nothing to say to her, he didn't have much friendship with this woman.

Chen Qi didn't think Shen Kaixing would say anything nice, she just said something she knew but Shen Kaixing never knew.

It was also what Shen Kaixing desired most.

"The first thing Qiao Le liked was you, even earlier than you liked him. He was so bitter at that time, I'm afraid liking you is just a matter of suffering. He is like a sponge, squeezed crazily by all the painful things, but I still like you cautiously and earnestly... It's a pity that you are not there when he needs you, so he can only sell himself."

"What right do you have to yell at him now and force him to be with you? It's because you never cherished him, or liked him seriously, and flinched when you shouldn't. Who do you blame?"

Chen Qi sneered a few times, and looked at the astonished Shen Kaixing mockingly, she took out a cigarette from one side and lit it without haste.

"you are lying."

Shen Kaixing collected himself and denied it.

"Oh, in fact, you have already believed it, why don't you dare to refute it loudly?" Chen Qi breathed out skillfully, "Do you know why Qiao Le gave up on you?"

"Because I begged him, I said I like you. He is so pitiful, because he has no friends, he gave up you for me, but I don't want him anymore. He was in pain at that time... and you at that time It's ridiculous to still be immersed in the fantasy of not being able to love, hahahaha..."

"Your end now is your retribution."

Shen Kaixing's clenched fists trembled slightly, he was so shocked by this past fact that he couldn't recover.

"Aren't you the same retribution now?"

Chen Qi put out the cigarette in her hand, got into the bed and turned her back to Shen Kaixing, "Believe it or not, it's clear if you go to Qiao Le to confront him, but he definitely doesn't want to see you."

Shen Kaixing still called Qiao Le. As Chen Qi said, Qiao Le didn't want to see him at all, so he could only block Qiao Le and force him into the car.

"Don't call Wen Shiyan, I just want to confirm a few things with you."

Shen Kaixing pressed Qiao Le's hand, his voice hoarse.

Qiao Le looked at him, silent.

"Chen Qi said, three years ago, you had feelings for me, didn't you?"

Shen Kaixing paused every word, this question was very difficult, as if all his energy was wasted.

Qiao Le's beautiful brows were slightly frowned, but she didn't answer.

"Answer me... I said answer me!"

Shen Kaixing pinched Qiao Le's thin shoulders with both hands, as if he was going to crush the shoulders of the person in front of him with great strength, Qiao Le watched him go crazy coldly, and waited for him to calm down.

"If you insist on asking, it's like this. When I was in the bookstore, I did have an admiration for you."

Qiao Le's cold tone and what he said made Shen Kaixing feel powerless for a moment. He let go of Qiao Le and sat back in the driver's seat.

"……why did not you tell me?"

"There are too many reasons. It's been a long time, I can't remember."

"Why didn't you tell me that you should belong to me."

He always thought that he was wishful thinking, so he complained, why Qiao Le refused to give him a look of charity, but now told him that he himself lost the past, how could he accept it!

Qiao Le was not touched by his grief, and was indifferent from the beginning to the end, "There is no saying who I should belong to. Even if we are together, we will not be happy. You have changed by then."

"Are you happy with him?"

"At least for now, yes, happily."

"Does he really love you? Obviously he has done so many things that are sorry to you."

Qiao Le remained silent, thinking of Wen Shiyan, he showed a rare smile.

"One last question, do you hate me?"

"You were just a friend of mine three years ago."

Shen Kaixing watched Qiao Le get off the car, but did not keep him.

Yes, he was just an unimportant friend who didn't even have the right to be hated.

The evening wind was blowing desolately, and the man sat on the bench to vent his pain.

Losing is a pain, letting go is also a pain.

I don't remember how long it took, but when he looked up, there was a homeless man standing in front of him with a clean napkin in his hand.

Shen Kaixing took the tissue to thank him, wiped away his tears and left in a hurry.

Not long after, another Happy Bookstore appeared in City C. The store manager was a sick man who liked to wear a mask, but the store manager liked to talk to the air, and people who came to buy books felt eerie.

"Lele, move the books away, I need to bring in some more dictionaries tomorrow."

"Lele, do a good job and continue to raise your salary next month."

"Lele..."

Shen Kaixing doesn't think he is crazy, he just misses it, he is still the president of Bangxing after taking off his mask.

He missed every minute and every second when he opened the bookstore. It was him who was free and easy, and he who accompanied Qiao Le.

One month later, a homeless man came to the bookstore. He sat at the door, silently looking at the books lent to him by the boss, day after day, until the homeless man washed himself and became a clerk.

Some people live in silence, some recall dreams, how can they transform into a new self without taking off the painful skin, but this process is too difficult, Shen Kaixing wants to force himself to cut away his love for Qiao Le bit by bit , To force myself to forget the unforgettable man in my mind.

He is an ordinary person, and he shouldn't turn himself into a human being or a ghost for the sake of love. He only hopes that when he puts on the mask, there are still people who can laugh and shout "Brother Kai Xing".

Shen Kaixing was in a trance, and was suddenly awakened by a cry.

——"Boss Shen, come out to unload the goods!"